Tuesday, December 09, 2014
Maybe it wasn't good that my doctor seemed so okay with my weight. I seem to have given myself permission not to lose any more. Or at least I've stopped pushing at it. I'm still very much paying attention to what foods I'm eating, sticking to my low blood sugar plan. I'm still exercising a minimum three days weekly. What I haven't been doing is tracking for almost a month now, and my weight has stayed the same. So apparently, I have maintenance down cold... just not really at the weight I think I should be at. I have a good sense at this point of how often to eat and how much.
One thing I've noticed staying home, I'm hungriest in the late morning or early afternoon and that's when I eat most of my food for the day. I'm usually happy with a very light supper and an evening snack. When I'm tracking, this makes me anxious, as I see those calories adding up and I'm thinking OMG I only have 360 calories left for the day, I'll never make it, I'm blowing it again! When in fact I may not be blowing it at all. Maybe this is why I'm temporarily burnt out on tracking. I think I'll probably go back to it, and of course if my weight starts to go up then it's experiment over!
Also have been in a slump on the part-time job front. My substitute teaching credentials got held up, finally learned I had failed to pass an FBI background check, then had to wait a month for the FBI to send a report telling why. Turned out it was my arrest for trespassing in a college student sit-in in 1968. I hadn't even thought to mention that, since I had a government Confidential Clearance in the 1980's. Anyway, the state of Ohio decided it was still safe to expose schoolchildren to me and now I only have to wait several more weeks for the next county board meeting where they okay substitutes, and then it will be Christmas break in the schools. so probably January before I get back to work.
Maybe the worst thing about not tracking is it means I don't get on this site much.
Sunday, November 30, 2014
As most of you who I correspond with regularly know, I am Jewish. I grew up in a middle-class bedroom suburb of Washington D.C., where people were pretty sophisticated and cosmopolitan. For the past 15 years I've been married to Dave, a lapsed Catholic, and we live on one of the houses on his family farm, surrounded by his cousins, in one of Ohio's most white, Republican, Catholic counties. Everybody here is from the same background, and many of them have never lived outside this area or known any other kind of people. It's been strange for me, but I've tried to fit in as best I could.
Most years for Thanksgiving I trek out to the East Coast so I can spend the holiday with people who really feel like family, but this year we didn't go, we decided to attend Thanksgiving on the farm. I decided to really make an effort. I went, I drank some wine to loosen up even though it's completely off my blood sugar diet, and I chatted everyone up. I thought I had done really well.
After we walked home, my daughter told me that over in a corner where I didn't hear it, my husband's cousin's daughter's 8 year old son had told a joke that involved a whole series of racist slurs against blacks, Mexicans, etc and ended with the punch line of SuperMario gobbling up money like a Jew. And my daughter said his whole family had laughed uproariously at it.
I don't even know where to begin.
After thinking it over for two days, I composed an email letter to the family, which I wrote and rewrote so it wouldn't be too hostile, explaining why stereotypes are so hurtful to those of us who don't have the luck to be white Catholics. Have not heard a word back, and don't expect to. But I needed them to know that I knew, and to maybe embarass them a little bit.
The mother of the joke-teller is the leader of my aerobics class at the Y (yes, this is a small town) and I'm wondering now if she's going to try to have me removed. I just keep going over and over this in my mind. I need to move on.
Saturday, November 29, 2014
This weekend is my annual post-Thanksgiving turkey cooking marathon. Yesterday we got three fresh 26-pound free-range turkeys marked down to half price. I roast them, make soup from the bones, and dice up the meat to store in freezer bags and use in all my poultry dishes for months to come. It's labor intensive but well worth it. My cats are going nuts.
Of course it helps that I didn't cook Thanksgiving dinner for my family, that would be a bit too much! I did make a nice raw cranberry relish with oranges, apples, thyme, a pinch of onion powder and chipotle, and a dash of Jim Beam. Sounds weird but it was really good - sweet and savory.
I hope you all had good Thanksgivings. Ours was quiet this year, my daughter came in and we just went next door to my husband's relatives.
Wednesday, November 05, 2014
I had my six-month visit today, and my doctor is happier with my weight and stats than I am, bless her tiny little 100-pounds-soaking-wet self. She says - get this - that the fact I'm having a hard time losing more weight is a sign that I'm healthy, and that my body seems to be happy at the weight it's at (25 pounds over on the charts) and that I should just keep doing what I'm doing.
My blood sugar is still prediabetic, up one point to 6.1, but still good compared to the 6.8 I had a year and a half ago. I really wanted to get it down a few points this time, but again, she seems happier with it than I do. I think I may be the only patient she has who's ever brought it down from diabetic, and she's just happy that I'm pretty much holding steady, but I do have to get another A1C in three months.
Also, she said "your good cholesterol is up considerably, have you been exercising more?" and I was happy to say yes, I'm going to my aerobics class three days a week. Was surprised that she immediately attributed it to exercise and not diet.
On the job front, I'm waiting for my substitute teaching credentials to be finalized. I also have an interview for a part-time library clerk, but not sure that will pay enough. And, I've started doing some telecommuting editing and proofreading work for an online company, which I really enjoy, but it doesn't pay that much and I don't know it they'll be sending enough work my way to make any kind of noticeable difference in my income. But I'm going to keep my hand in doing that on the side, just in case I find a way to make it pay off later.
Saturday, September 27, 2014
...barely! On the way home the motors in two windows died and our brakes started burning up in the mountains, plus we got miserably lost! But the rest of the vacation was fine. Saw my siblings and started three good oil paintings of them that I'm going to finish from photos, and did a lot of walking on the beach.
I didn't remember to weigh myself this morning before eating so I'll do it tomorrow. I feel like I've lost weight, hope it's true. I find it so much easier to eat less when I'm not at home.
More soon, still putting the house back in order.
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