Monday, May 04, 2009
By the end of this bootcamp, I want to feel stronger and look more toned. I want to get down to 170 lbs.
Friday, September 19, 2008
Okay so the last two weeks I was kind of getting discouraged. I was at 189.8 3 weeks ago, but then the next week I weighed 190.8, then, even after exercising 5 days that week and being extra vigilant, I only went down to 190.2 last week. I weighed myself this morning, however, and I weighed 185.4! WOW! I think I see a pattern there; with the weeks surrounding my "period" (I don't get much of one with the pill I'm on.), I seem to lose less weight for 2 weeks then lose more the following week.
Anyway, I am so excited, this means I am more than halfway to my goal, and when I tried to refresh my goal to make sure my calorie requirements were right, I saw that my BMI is no longer at the "obese" level! I am just on the "over" level - 29.9. I am DOING this! WOOHOOOO. And, for the last week, I have not been tracking my food on spark people. I have been busy in preparation for school. Part of that business has been having my last bit of fun before school starts, and part of it is getting stuff done that I won't be able to later, and the other part is just regular life stuff. I have been writing down what I eat though, and I feel like I have a feel for how much I should be eating now, since I have been tracking online since I started here at sparkpeople in May(I think?). Because I will be starting a busy schedule with school, I will no longer be tracking online. My goal though is to continue to write down what I eat, to keep myself accountable and to see what I've eaten, instead of having to try to remember it with all the other stuff I'm trying to remember, so that I can gauge how much more I can eat that day and what types of food I should eat as well to balance out my nutrients for the day. Sparkpeople was my training wheels, now I can partly let go! I am going to continue to track my fitness though, if it doesn't become too hard, and definately track my weight loss progress. I am going to continue to work out while in school. I will MAKE it work. I am just so excited about finally HAVING my goal to be a NORMAL, healthy weight. I know I have it this time. It's only a matter of time, thanks to sparkpeople.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
And goodbye forever! I weighed myself this morning - 189.8. I weighed myself twice just to make sure and it said that both times. Yay! And I even went to two bbqs this weekend and ate terribly, and then had a nurse potluck last night and had a hard time keeping track of what I ate. Tthere was SO much food- I actually didn't gorge myself cause there was so much going on, but I don't know what the different foods were that I ate or how much so I can't really track it, but I think I did okay. Even with those 3 iffy days, I still lost almost 2 pounds! It must have been the extra exercise days I did this week.
I CAN do this, and I WILL! 150 doesn't seem that far off. Maybe I will go even further :)
Monday, August 25, 2008
I want to lose weight, because I have been overweight all of my life. I want to know what it feels like to be skinny, in all the different dimensions; I want to know how it feels physically, mentally, emotionally, and socially. I really believe that people, whether they mean to or not, treat you differently when you are overweight. I am not "skinny" yet but I already see a difference in how people treat me. It might also be in my head at least some; I feel withdrawn when I am huge. I just feel like I don't belong. I don't feel human!
More than wanting to feel skinny, I want to have energy, I want to feel GREAT about myself, I want to feel like I am FIT. I want to be able to do things that I never could do or would dare to do because of my size, things that I don't even realize I might be interested in doing. I have a feeling that I have an adventurous side just waiting to get out! I want to be more active, especially outdoors. I am starting to do that now, and I feel that as I get skinnier I will be doing it more and more, at least in the warmer months.
The hard work and effort to accomplish my goal is worth it because I will feel so much better about myself, not only because I will be better looking and I will feel better physically and emotionally, but also because I will have accomplished a long time goal. It's worth it because I have always wanted it. I think I am beautiful and would be gorgeous when thin and fit.
What do I want my life to look like in 10 years: I will be 36. I want to be working as a nurse near Redmond, WA, while my husband works at Microsoft. I want to own a house, and have a second child. I want to have healthy eating HABITS and naturally fit exercise and activity into my lifestyle. I want to be healthy and happy. I want to be able to take on life's challenges being self-confident and healthy. In addition to all that, I want to be thin, but toned.
In 10 years, in this vision of my life, I would look forward to getting up in the morning to my beautiul family and cozy home. I'd spend time with my children and husband. I'd go for walks with my kids, go to the park, play outside in the yard. I'd go for evening walks with my husband and kids (because if we lived near his work he'd be home for dinner!), after dinner. I would own a garden, and we would all work together on it. Most of the gardening and playing in the yard would need to happen on the weekends when I'm not working.
Something I'd like to do NOW, is I'd like to smile more, find the positive in things and not be so negative. I want to be JOYFUL in the things the Lord has given me. I want to love life and love people. I want to be joyful and let it show. I am striving to be a positive light for others. I am slowly learning to be more HAPPY. I have to remind myself to SMILE, TELL people HI, introduce myself, instead of having that awkward conversation with never knowing each others names, especially at parties. I want to be more confident too, especially socially. I want to uplift others too.
I need to spend more time with God. I need to stop putting everything else as priority over that.
I want to see what the real me should look like, what God created me to be.
This is my vision.
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