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Monday, April 08, 2013

Well, I had lost about 5 lbs before the middle of last week. I was very happy with my progress and was actually feeling better. I had some slip-ups and things spiraled out of control. I'm working on getting back on track now and hope I can do it again. emoticon
I've joined the Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge b/c that is a big problem for me. If I have one, I have it all....
I want to cut back on my sugar to control my cravings, to lose weight, and to just make some room for healthier foods since sugary foods don't last very long and I'm hungry soon after.
Well, that about sums it up. I'm pretty frustrated with myself emoticon but hope to soon get back on track.

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SNIC23 4/8/2013 11:16AM

    Try not to beat yourself up too much -- we all beat ourselves up and indulge a little more than we should from time to time. That 5 pounds you lost was great progress. You know you can do it because you've already have. Just get back up and keep on moving, that's a good way to get back on track. You'll feel great when you do!

Happy Monday!


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AMETHYSTSTAR 4/8/2013 9:13AM

    Two steps forward and one step back is still making progress! You can accomplish anything you set your mind to do and I know you can kick this sugar addiction. (I'm working on it too!)

Hang in there, sweets!

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WALLINMW 4/8/2013 8:47AM

  I found if I didn't bring it into my home, I wouldn't eat it. Stay motivated!

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AKATHLEEN54 4/8/2013 8:45AM

    Its great that you joined a team that will help you tame what you have targeted as a problem...... one goal at a time. work on that and then you can set your sites on more goals!! emoticon

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WANABHOT2 4/8/2013 8:44AM

  You can do it!

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Marching on ahead....

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

I intended to work on getting my mojo back last week, but I woke up sick on Monday. It kicked my butt, but I'm better now. We signed our 9 mo old up for swim class and I had to get in a swimsuit this past Saturday. Could that experience be where this different feeling is coming from? I actually feel more motivated and driven to get this right this time. I think putting that swimsuit on was almost traumatizing..lol YIKES!

I took some time this weekend and came up with a little plan that I feel is not setting me up for failure like some other plans I've made. I'm doing the bigger/longer workouts on the weekends when I have more time, which will be a big help. I also have this little chalkboard that I painted the frame of it a pretty color and it's sitting on a plate holder on my desk out there for anyone to see. It lists my weekly goal (this week is to lose 2.5 lbs) and a daily goal (yesterday's was to workout--DONE!; today's is the same). I really like this little tool, so I think that will help keep me accountable. DH thought it was cute too, so hopefully, he keeps an eye on my daily goals and helps me.

Well, things are quite busy here at work, so off I go....Have a great day everyone!! emoticon


Not sure my shoulders can hold much more.....

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

I just don't know what to do anymore....I've been trying to practice some self-discipline and make healthier choices and workout more so I can lose several pounds before my son's 1st birthday. I keep getting these huge speed bumps thrown in my way and it's just wearing me down.
First, we've begun having family drama with my husband and his 2 sisters. His mom has been diagnosed with early stage dementia and is starting to decline. They can't seem to agree and things are not going well. It's very stressful.

Second, I have a full-time job and then I have a part-time job I do at home on the computer. That has been picking up quite a bit (which is good and bad). It's left me very little time to breathe much less exercise. But the money is necessary. Yesterday, though, I got told I might have to start sharing my duties b/c I can't do anything during the day while I'm at my FT job, so now my hours will be cut, hopefully not too much, though. That way, I might have time to breate and exercise, but we won't be making the $.

Third, my husband hasn't been having full weeks lately at work. It's really hurting us.

I'm just exhausted emoticon emoticon.....

I just don't know how to get out of this. I know this stuff with his sisters is going to last quite a while, most likely. It's just so frustrating and depressing. All I want right now is to get myself on a schedule that I'm able to stick to that doesn't kill me at the same time. I'm a very structured person and I crave routine. If I'm trying to do something, ie: make a workout schedule, if I can't stick to it, I get frustrated and start to give up. I haven't had time to figure out what healthy snacks to bring to work. I know that one is probably an excuse, but the structure goes along with this as well in that I want to sit down and plan what I want, where to get it, how to make it/package it, and if I don't get a chance to do that, I just don't do it. The only thing I've really stuck to is no soda. I haven't had a soda since Jan.1....Lately, though, I'm losing so much oomph, I'm ready to just pour a 2 liter down my mouth emoticon

I'm so unhappy with myself and my body right now. I'm not one of those moms who are proud of the changes in their body since having a baby. I think I might be too vain for that....ha....But I really want to have my son's 1st bday party in May and look great or just better than I do now. I think the image I have for myself is unattainable, which is my other problem. I just don't think I'm in a good place right now and it's really upsetting....Honestly, I just want to go back to high school or college where things were so much easier. I just want a do-over to some extent...Oh well....
Thanks for reading emoticon

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ASHLEYLQ 2/20/2013 1:28PM

    What you said here really resonates with me. I feel so stuck lately, like no matter what I do, I'm destined to be big the rest of my life. I was at the doctor today, and of course they weighed me, and my jaw dropped when I saw that I had gained ten pounds since the last time I weighed myself a month or so ago. Weight is so easy to gain, but crazy difficult to lose. I think we need to start small and celebrate any victory, whether it's staying away from soda for a day or eating a healthy breakfast or working out for ten minutes. I tell my students (I teach composition) to take revision one step at a time. It cannot happen all at once, or revision becomes overwhelming. So even if it's just eating right for an entire week (forget exercise for now) or avoiding soda or junk for just a day, we have to take it one step at a time. You can do this. I don't even know you, and I know you can do this.

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KBRADFORD88 2/20/2013 1:20PM

    It sounds like you have a lot on your plate..last week when I was stressing over some things, a friend said what would tell a friend in your situation...you'd say slow down..be kind...take it easy...get a grasp on what is true and what matters... I do not know which baby this is for you...but you are probably dealing with a lot more than just baby body...My children have been great but they are here and my life is never going back to what it was before...I have responsibilities now that are full and feel heavy...find a way to relieve stress and let things go. Be nice to you...you have a lot to deal with and the weight will come off..slowly...May is still four months away. Do things you can live with and love on you...cuddle with that kid and hubby...You can do this. emoticon

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CHOCOHIPPO 2/20/2013 1:17PM

    Hi. Boy do I understand where you're coming from. I went through a similar patch last year with my husband having work and health drama, we had to close a business drama, we were unemployed and broke drama, issues with the kids, etc. And then I had a thought. I can't control any of the drama, but I can control certain things (I'm a control and order freak). I can control what I eat, how and when I exercise, how much I eat, make lists of things to do around the house and for my then job search....you get the idea. Well, a lot of that has changed since then thankfully, and I'm now employed, my husband has a new job. We got the business drama handled and I'm down 32 lbs. I slipped along the way, but take charge where you can and let the rest settle itself. That's all you can do. And don't give up your victories....like being soda free.

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Goals for this week

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Here are my goals for this week:

Fitness: work out @ least 6 days a week (I managed 4 last week)

Nutrition: *have salads with salmon for lunches M-F--I have the salmon marinating right now, so I'm working towards that
*No beer Sun-Thurs
*No McDonald's for breakfast (this has started to become an addiction--yikes!)

Motivation: *make a vision board (either virtual or real) sometime this week
*decide on rewards for meeting certain larger goals
emoticon : My goal by my son's 1st birthday in May

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JEN-MN 2/10/2013 11:17AM

    Great goals! Sounds like you're upping your chances of sticking with lunch plans since you're prepping for it now.

I only did 3 workout days last week. I'm trying for 8 out of every 10 days. It doesn't fit on a neat 7day week, but it's what I'm going for.. hoping that makes it more attainable for me.

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Learning from my mistakes

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Well, I did somewhat better this week than I have been. I worked out more, tried to eat better, and cut the beer to a minimum. I'm really trying to get in a workout groove, but I work a full-time job, have a 9 mo old son, and have an at-home part time job that can sometimes take a couple hours once I get home from my FT job. Needless to say I'm busy and sometimes, the workout doesn't fit. But I'm really trying to MAKE it fit.
I had hoped to lose at least a pound this week and actually felt like I did and was anxious to step on the scale.....I was wrong. I gained .5 lbs and am upset with myself. I know what I need to do, I just need to have the determination to do it. I am so miserable with myself right now that I don't understand why I don't have the determination, but it doesn't seem to be there as much as I want. Ugh...this is frustrating.

Well, I have to get to work on my new goals for this week and make it happen! emoticon

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GURLNEXDOOR 2/10/2013 7:40AM

    Good days bad days at least your giving it a go!!! Just keep on keeping on sooner then later you will make it!! Stay focused on what really matters YOU!!

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