Sunday, October 24, 2010
The first 10 - 20 lbs are always so easy for me to lose, it drives me insane. I switch my beverages back to water except the occasional milk or lemonade. I start tracking food so I'm a bit more conscious of what I put in my mouth. So the scale says I'm already down by 7 lbs total from when I began. Some will tell me that's not healthy or too quick, etc. But don't worry, I haven't been starving myself or not following the plan. It's just how my body reacts. Yesterday we went out to dinner. I stayed in my point range for the day, but I didn't get much veggies/fruit in. I'm going to pick up some frozen veggies for lunches and snacks. We have a bunch of boxed foods to eat up before I can switch over to more natural healthier pastas/carbs/starches. I'm just going to eat them in smaller portions, and when i go shopping next weekend I'll be able to buy whole wheat & healthier pastas, etc. I'm going to slowly win my family over too. he he he. We made a potato dish the other day that was very healthy, tastey and made easily from scratch, so there is hope! I just wish we loved the taste and textures of more vegetables and fruits. It's hard to eat them when you only like a few of them and only prepared certain ways.
Yesterday we spent the day volunteering. It brings a lot of satisfaction, but we have been just organizing donations for now. We hope that some time in the next month we can also join in clothing and feeding the homeless in Ann Arbor one night a week too. It's hard to fit everything in when I work full time too, but I want to do this. My back is back to being a little sore again. I spent three hours sweating up a storm, moving boxes, sorting clothes and random items, and moving more boxes. It was a great workout.
Well, I'm off to run Sunday Errands. Have a wonderful Sunday everyone!
Friday, October 22, 2010
My husband went grocery shopping yesterday and bought us some yummy meals. I went shopping this morning and bought some more yummy healthy food. I am going to do this! I have to do this! For me, for my daughter, for my family, for my life, for my future.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
I ate dinner less than 2 hours ago and my body is telling me I am hungry. WHY? What is going on with me? I just want to go get chips out of the cupboard, or buttery popcorn, something, anything. I want salt, sugar, something chewy, crunchy, i don't know why!!! I'm sitting here drinking water with a straw trying to quench my cravings. I feel like I am out of control. I am so confused at why i am feeling this way. I know I should exercise, or do something positive to take my mind off it, but instead I am here distracting myself as much as I can...
Thursday, October 21, 2010
I did great until around 8:30 pm. We were watching TV and I was starving! I ate almost half the pasta I would normally eat and supplemented it with a salad. I tried to quiet my cravings by eating cucumbers and that didn't work, I ended up eating a serving of cheez balls. I made myself drink two more bottles of water and that seemed to work. I asked my husband to go grocery shopping today so we would have healthy food to eat in the house, and I'm not sure he will go. He's been so depressed lately from being out of work so long. I don't know how to encourage him anymore. He says things like the only thing that makes him happy is me, or he's only happy when I am home. That's a lot of burden to put on one person! and then he wants me to stay up with him all night! When I get home the first hour is discussing what we are going to do for dinner ,then we cook & clean together, then we watch TV in the living room as a family until 10pm. Then we go to bed, and he wants me to watch tv until 11 and I just can't, I need my sleep. the last two nights he's kept me up talking until 10:30, which means I dont fall asleep until 11 and it's affecting me, I'm tired right now. I just wish there was something I could do to help, but I can't. He won't take a job making less than $12 an hour and no one paying $12 and higher will hire him. We have back up plans, but they involve him going to NY for months at a time so he can make money. We will figure it out and get through this, it's just one more stressor. And financially it's tough, we had to cancel our gym membership, and I'm on a budget.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
It's the morning of Day 2. I skipped cheesecake last night, but ended up eating chips and dip instead of a salad. I did limit myself though, so I'm giving myself kudos for not overeating my chips and dip! I woke up with a migraine this morning (dam dip!) and I'm trying to determine what I am going to eat today. it's so difficult trying to plan out a day of food. By the time I wake up, shower, get dressed, it's time to bring my daughter to school then go to work. I haven't set aside time for making breakfast and/or lunch. I get to work to sit at my desk all day, sometimes I just eat out of a can and skip lunch altogether. Other times I have been going to taco bell for one of their $2 meal deals. Once in a while I take a lunch and meet my husband and eat something healthier. I think it's really going to be hard for me this time around. We had to cancel the gym membership since hubby's still outta work. And he's also given up on weight loss. He also decided he'd rather die then have to not eat what he loves. And it's not about portion control either - because he wants to eat what he wants and as much as he can. His bloodwork came back that his cholesterol is high. He wants to have lap band surgery. He must be at least 400lbs by now, but refuses to look or ask. And he's in denial. I will try to keep encouraging him, but I know that I must make choices, I must take control, and I must fight for this. I want to be there to have grandchildren, I want to be healthy and not in a wheelchair. I want to enjoy life, laugh, love! And I'm tired of being tired all the time. This week my first goal was to go to bed at 10pm every night Sun - Thurs, and I have been sticking to it. Of course he's not happy, but I know I need this, and he will have to adapt. Now to figure out when I'm going to exercise. That's the next hardest thing. And since I pulled my back out two weeks ago, I have to be careful. Stupid Obstacles. I'm going to get my carrot sticks and celery and mini muffin and have breakfast.
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