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New Bullmastiff Puppy, New Year, New Beginnings

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Hello! Here is Mr. Wendle and his new baby brother King Klaus (rhymes with blouse). I've been potty training, and we started puppy class. He's super adorable, crazy hyper! He does give Wendle a run for his money.

We have started eating healthier again and I am going to try and come back here regularly and really try to change this lifestyle for good again. I haven't gained all my weight back - almost half though, and I don't like it.

here are a few more pics of my kids

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SIMPLIFYLIFE 1/25/2012 11:02AM

    How absolutely adorable!!!

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EFFIEANNIE 1/22/2012 9:02AM

    Oh, what beauties. I am another of those mastiff lovers! Welcome back to being on track. Good luck with your journey!

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PSKIPPY7811 1/22/2012 8:22AM

    Too cute!

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LINMHEATH 1/19/2012 2:06PM

    Such cuties!!!! Congrats on getting back on track! getting back in the game is more important than previous short-falls!!! Stay strong!!!

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SUGARSMOM2 1/19/2012 12:09PM

  both are beautuful . nice babies . spoil them rotten . now is the time to start with the new one and walk to better health . train him and start your new life . you can do this . just do it .

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ABAKER34 1/19/2012 11:06AM

    Welcome Back! Your kids are adorable!

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I'm getting a NEW PUPPY!

Monday, November 07, 2011

To help me get outta this funk, my husband thought he'd buy me a new puppy for my birthday. He brought me around to meet a few breeders, and I got very discouraged with the horrible money-hungry jerks out there. then out of no where there is this lady, with a pregnant bullmastiff, and the parents are awesome pedigrees, and then we drive out there five days after the babies are born, and she's even more wonderful in person. So now I have to choose what puppy do we want? There are 11 puppies total. Chris is partial to the dark brindle. I love the dark brindle too, but they are harder to show - and I want to get into handling/showing with my daughter. Either way, this will be a very loved pet, and showing is more for us to learn with the dog and see if it's something we can do more of in the future.

So now I need some names.. We have Chester, Klaus (pronounded like cloud with an s instead of d). We both agree we would prefer a male, but never know!

hmm.. so hard to choose just one! we go back in 4-5 weeks to see them again..


Here's our big boy who can't wait to be a big brother

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BECKYB73 1/2/2012 4:07PM

    I am so excited for you!!! But I would be really careful about adding another male, in fact, the breeder should have advised you of that.

I'm sorry to be a downer and please don't be insulted, but we get so many dogs into rescue (both bullmastiff and bulldogs) because of same sex aggression.

Oh, I should also add, that several years ago I did quite a bit of showing and winning with my own Bullmastiff boy.

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    Soooo adorable!! Which one did you go with? Wow; 11 is a big litter. They are all cute as a bug's ear.

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DOGMOMMA2THREE 11/8/2011 4:01PM

    Thank you for not buying from a puppy mill - too many people breeding their poor dogs for a quick buck with no regards to the dog's health or to the health of the future puppies.

I love the big dogs (don't tell my Pomeranian that!)as they are often the gentle giants. If it was me, I wouldn't worry about what would show better...I'd go with what my heart tells me to do. I think the next time you visit the puppies will be old enough to glimpse some personality differences and go for the one that steals your heart.

Wish I was nearer....nothing in this world is better than puppy breath!!!

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PSKIPPY7811 11/8/2011 4:01PM

    Too cute!

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PJC19671 11/8/2011 3:13PM

    There adorable.

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MSPRIS3 11/7/2011 2:34PM

    Awe!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was lucky, both of my pups were the ones no one else wanted! Still can't figure out why, the others would have to be even cuter than mine. LOL

Mastiff, such nice gentle dogs. I like all to be honest, to me, a puppy is a puppy.

My Mia (we got her at 7 months)is 5 generation pedigree, from champion hunting and show stock, she has barely any teeth, and was really sick when we got her.
Bailey (we got him at 8 weeks)was an add in the paper, and other than the normal worms, was super healthy.

Enjoy him (Mia is my first female dog, ever) I'm sure he will bring much joy to your home as well as exercise!

Your other Mastiff, beautiful, er... Handsome!

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HEYBUTT 11/7/2011 2:05PM

    How can you pick just ONE.

If you're interested in showing dogs, I recommend you check out your local 4-H clubs. I was in a 4-H dog club as a kid with my Dalmatian. 4-H is a great way for kids to get really involved with their animals (and starting with a fresh new puppy would make it that much more exciting).

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JSPIN74 11/7/2011 2:01PM

    awwwwwwwwww - love bullmastiffs

enjoy your new baby!

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REMEMBER2BME 11/7/2011 1:40PM

    I just love that big boy!

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-POLEDANCEGIRL- 11/7/2011 1:34PM

    What a cutie!!! Puppies are fun, a lot of work but the joy totally outweighs the work :o)

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HEALTHYASHLEY 11/7/2011 1:33PM

    I love Mastiffs. Congrats!!

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DDOORN 11/7/2011 1:11PM

    Have a blast with your puppy! :-)


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STARFISH619 11/7/2011 1:10PM

    Adorable! My friend with the male English Mastiff, just bought a baby girl brindle - she is so adorable. I think it's awesome you are getting a puppy and getting so excited.
Puppy love could get anyone out of a funk. Enjoy your new furbaby.
Wish I could bring on another buddy for Brawley, but for now, he's an only child. ;)
Best wishes to you and the family with your new addition.

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Bad habits are hard to break

Monday, November 07, 2011

I remember I was 13 and my mom took a picture of me to "prove" to me how "horrible" I looked. I was in a size 9/10 and I was confident in my body. I didn't have a care in the world. All I heard from 13 onward was how heavy I was, how horrible I dressed, etc, so I started binging & purging, but mostly binging. I yo-yo'd from size 16 - 24 throughout highschool. I was able to get back to a 9/10 for graduation, then back up to a 20. I was stuck in the 20-24 sizes forever, and when I lost weight and got down to a 14/16 in '98 I thought I was sexy! I got to 16/18 for summer and felt better about myself, but still wasn't feeling as confident or as sexy as I wanted to. The pictures still showed this big blob me. So I started feeling self pity, and overwhelmed and frustrated. I started hearing those negative voices in my head. Then it went from those horrible voices to, ok, just today I'm going to eat this and tomorrow I'm going to make better choices. One more day of this wont hurt, I'm not really gaining, I know what to do, I'll start again tomorrow. Well, I'm back to a size 18/20 again, and restarting my life style changes since I fell back into bad habits. Today has been a good day so far. The time change has me a bit confused, but I made sure to eat properly so far today. I have to remind myself I want to be sexier MORE than I want to feel full (overfull) and that I'll be happier once I'm eating and exercising properly. This goal setting is really getting to me though. What are my goals, and what rewards will I give myself? I also need to stick my ground with my family. If they don't like it too bad, that's their problem. I'm not going to reward them with fast food because they didn't do dishes or clean the kitchen. Nope, i'll go home, complain about the lack of help while cleaning them myself, and then cooking dinner. By doing this, they will help out because they feel bad that they didn't help out. Hopefully they will help out more without it getting to that point (or the bribery point). I have to remind myself every day, I am accountable for myself, what I choose to do today. If I want to have a sweet treat, I need to earn it and it needs to be a special thing. I also need to curb my spending, so I think I am going to create a money account. Every day I am good, I will put money in that account - rather than spending it on food. I will save it up so I can buy myself something and feel proud that not only did I earn the reward by eating healthy, but I also have that extra money that I saved and can spend on what ever I want. I put $5 in it today - for not buying a cookie, danish, chips, or candy. This will be done. I need to maintain my health and get healthier.

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DOGMOMMA2THREE 11/8/2011 3:56PM

    You have to find what works for you! I am proud of you for not giving in and for not giving up! I have felt like quitting many times but I have this picture of myself where I not only look huge but I look miserable.

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DDOORN 11/7/2011 1:10PM

    Keep at it...you will find what works for you!

I like the idea of re-building your relationships with your family. Listen to their messages with a critical ear: reject the bad and let them know when they are not being helpful! But accept the good and praise them for times when the ARE being helpful!


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Eat, eat eat, eat eat eat eat.. ugh

Monday, October 31, 2011

I could eat from morning to night. Something is up, and I don't know what. I've even considered buying hypnotic tapes to listen to at night. I just can't seem to eat enough food to be satisfied. It's not the hunger, I know that, but I can't pinpoint what it is, and every time I'm having a good day, where I'm doing excellent, something happens (usually at home with the hubby). He says that we will start back up at the end of November - after my bday and thanksgiving. I have been trying to curb things now anyway. It's just so dam hard, and now that it's cold, I want to eat and hibernate. My whole body is aching and screaming in various pains, mostly from this cold weather - and it's not even winter here yet. My legs stiffen up, mostly my ankles and feet wont bend when they are cold. My knees don't bother me much, mostly my ankles, hands, elbows, and neck. I'm rearranging my computer room again so I can open up my treadmill in there. I've been colder than previous years though, it's so weird. And cold makes me want to sleep. So I'm going to really try and get some exercise in to help me warm up and stay limber, it just seems so difficult. I'm taking extra vit-d now that I'm not out in the warm sun, melatonin so I fall to sleep perfectly, magnesium to help with the migraines. My doc gave me provigil for the chronic fatigue stuff/sleep apnea stuff - but I don't like the way I feel on that. I'd rather take a half a five hour energy. The provigil is very weird and makes me very add/adhd, ranging from hyper focus to shifting can't focus on one thing. I even lost my wallet, forgot my work badge, etc. on the stuff. No thank you. I slept almost the whole weekend and still feel tired today. And it's not from thyroid or anything they can pinpoint as the cause. Just tellin me I have MS, Central & Obstructive Apnea, and that is causing chronic fatigue syndrome. Gee thanks. So Eat & Sleep is all I wanna do. Well, I'm forcing myself to not give in. And I have three miniature tangerines at my desk for when I want to eat. I've portioned out everything for work, it's just so hard.

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PSKIPPY7811 11/5/2011 7:06AM

    So glad you're here. I missed you!


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DDOORN 10/31/2011 10:00PM

    Do not pass go and get thee to a Sleep Study like YESTERDAY and get a CPAP or BiPAP to correct that Apnea and you will be like a NEW WOMAN!

I know DH means well, but you can't let yourself go for a whole MONTH and THEN get down to business. Keep at it, but realize that you are just SWIMMING SO HARD UPSTREAM until you correct your apnea!

With proper blood oxygenation you will feel so REVITALIZED! I am speaking from experience! Yes using either a CPAP or BIPAP is tough stuff. My pulmonologist said "What's the problem? It's only like trying to fall asleep with your head hanging out of a car window at 60+ mph...!" :-)

Seriously though...you get used to it and the benefits will have you SOLD on putting up with the hassles of using it.

Keep us posted and keep taking those food choices seriously. Don't let it go!


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ELLEYKAT 10/31/2011 12:31PM

    I find that when I do yoga, I'm more in touch with my body's needs and I don't eat past the point of "not-hungry" as much, nor do I eat as much garbage. When I'm doing yoga (even just 1-2 times a week) I crave water and fresh veggies more. Maybe try that? =)

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CHEETARA79 10/31/2011 11:20AM


I'm sorry to hear you're having such a tough time right now. If you feel like Provigil is not the right medication for you, definitely go talk to your doctor about it! The side effects sound like they're doing a number on you.

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 10/31/2011 11:16AM

    I know what you mean. Food is comforting. It started when we are young if we cried they fed us. Everything about food is comforting including the feeling of being full. The only thing we can do is use our minds. I like thought replacement. Each time you think of eating (outside of planned portioned meals) you do a few push ups or jumping jacks. You can mix that up with other activities. Include those around you if you think it would be more fun.

Another thought replacement would be each time you think of eating (beyond what you should) replace that thought with the thought of fitting into a snug outfit you would like to get into for the holidays or a special occasion.

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Antibiotics, Depression & Tight Pants

Monday, October 10, 2011

So I didn't realize just how depressed I was until I had a moment to read my previous blogs - once my body gave into a horrible sinus infection, ear infection, and who knows what else. I'm on my second week of antibiotics combined with sinus rinses, and a few other medicines. I'm starting to feel a bit normal physically, and have been doing things like picking up sticks, walking in circles in the house, parking farther away, etc. just to get some extra movement in. My depression hit a low, and I of course, turned to food. I'm not really sure why I'm so depressed. Sure I've had a few setbacks with the car accident & stuff, but I'm still doing better (emotionally/financially/parenting) than ever in my life. And I FEEL LAZY. yeah, that's not good. Since I've only been doing little things here & there each day, it's helped a little, but not enough. So I NEED to follow my own instructions. I NEED to do a regular daily exercise routine. I know I can't do it early - because my hubby feels if I get up early, that means I have time to take care of the dog and whatever else needs to get done. He doesn't understand that the routine should stay the same because I only get up early for exercising. So I'm hoping I continue to get home earlier than him from work. I have to remember things like, my daughter has her own tv in her own room. She can do homework in there if she is distracted by my exercise routine in the living room. I have to put myself and my body first, or I'm no good to anyone else. I also need to log into the computer more to track my daily thoughts, ideas, food. I did download the app once more. I'm going to take over Dinners. Some might not be that good, but you know what, at least I know whats going into my body. And I learn quickly, so I will know what to do or not to do next time.

I made great decisions today with food so far, however I did do one thing wrong. I bought one of those raspberry cheese danishes (400 calories) because it was on sale and at the register when I was checking out. I DID NOT eat it. I want to throw it away, but the value is $1.25 and I feel stupid for buying it and tossing it when there are hungry people in this town/state/country/world. So do I toss it anyway to teach myself a lesson? Hold it for one of those more weak moments? Split it up into four sections, and only eat one? Pure sugar/fat/calories. Totally delicious. Maybe I'll ask a coworker if he wants it? if he doesn't, I will have to toss it. I can see my thought process right now..

I will control what goes in my mouth. I will control how often I exercise (daily), and I will get through this cold, through this depression, and onto better things. Today I am wearing tight pants. These pants remind me of where I was just a month ago (when they weren't as tight). They remind me to make better food choices. They remind me that I need to lose a lot more weight. They remind me it's my choice, and no one can do it for me. I would not have fit into these pants just six months ago, or a year ago. Actually almost 6 years... Well, I'm in them, and they are now tight, but I am in them. And I need to set new goals, new pants to fit into, new rewards to achieve.

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DDOORN 10/11/2011 10:07AM

    Sounds like you're picking up the reins and re-gaining control. One thing I find is that enthusiasm is the enemy of laziness. Is there something you could pursue that EXCITES and ENERGIZES you...? Try to pursue THAT! :-)


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MAMABUGAZ 10/10/2011 4:36PM

    I like the "divide it into four sections and eat only one" idea. I've read that it's perfectly OK, and, maybe even a good idea to just splurge on 10% of your calories per day. The math sounds about right to me, to eat 1/4 of a 400 calorie snack.

I'm also a big believer in two concepts, which both apply here.
1. No deprivation/nothing is totally off limits
2. Portion control

Go for it. You'll feel good that you're not wasting it. You'll feel good about the self-discipline involved in eating just an appropriate portion. And, you'll be teaching/reinforcing an important skill (portion control) while not depriving yourself of a treat that you desired enough to purchase.

Win-win solution, Kaz! :-)

~ Faith

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DOGMOMMA2THREE 10/10/2011 3:54PM

    Good to hear from you. Sounds like you are armed with a good plan but you are right, you need to carve some "me" time into your schedule.

I hope you are starting to feel some relief from your physical ailments and your mental ones.....I think the latter is to be expected somewhat with all you've gone through. Keep your chin up high and soldier on each day.

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PSKIPPY7811 10/10/2011 3:50PM

    Sorry about the tight pants. Sometimes that's what it takes to get me back on track. Exercise should help your mood too!


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HIKETOHEIGHTS 10/10/2011 2:34PM

    I am not going to kid you. It can be hard to resist temptation. I think that is why the experts tell us not to deprive ourselves. Our many temptations will always be there and bargain sweets are seductive. I remember years ago we used to buy the bargain sweets to stock up for snacks. I won't even look at them now. They are invisible to me. That works to keep me from getting them.

I can also tell you I am happier since I have stopped getting them. I feel better physically. I know you can do this, I feel it and you do too. I am with you!!!!

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