Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Tomorrow is my last day working for Borders....
I never thought when I started with Borders in 1998 that it would ever change my life. I remember being real excited to be working at the headquarters. It just seemed real cool and it was for most of the 13 years. I got to meet actors and authors, and singers.....and Richard Simmons. That was a little creepy, but still fun!!!
My college degree was in English and I loved reading books. I loved how a book could open a world of possibilites and adventure, and growth. My whole life I've wanted to be a part of something bigger than myself and I was blessed to be a part of history!!!
I have made some amazing friends who have become family to me. I can't imagine going through this without their love and support. We've shared laughter, tears, life changes, hopes and dreams through the years. We'll also share our futures together, I am sure of this!!
I honestly don't know what the future holds for me, but I do know Who holds my future....Jer 29:11.
I've cried many tears since the news came out that Borders was going to close. It's an emotional time for many of us. Knowing that it will soon only be a memory makes my heart sad. As with life....all things come to an end. I'll move on. I won't dwell too long in the past. I know letting go will be hard, but I'm taking with me more than just job experience. I've grown as a person and I have a life long family that I cherish. We'll support and encourage eachother, remember great times and it will all be ok!!
Out of these ashes we will rise!!!
He who is in me
is greater than I will ever be
and I will rise!!!
Me and Jamie Lee Curtis....2006/7 ???
Monday, July 11, 2011
Wow!!! I wanted to share this.... It came from my daily devotional from Going Beyond ministries and am feeling some serious conviction, but it's good to be convicted like this!!! I've got some hard questions to ask myself. Am I willing to be nothing if it means glorifying Him?
Have you ever found yourself begging and pleading with God for Him to show you what to do? You SO want to please Him and serve Him...but how? What does He want from you? What does He require? Sometimes it seems like all your questions go unanswered, and you wonder where to start to find His will.
Well, here is a perfect place to start: Micah 6:8.
I won't spend much time on the background history here, but God used Micah to prophesy to His people, who had fallen away from Him (750-687 BC). There was corruption, idolatry, poor civil government, violence and the belief that personal sacrifice satisfies divine justice.
Much like today, in fact.
But even in the midst of impending judgment for their wickedness, God was reaching for the hearts of His people.
It's His redemptive thread. It's what He's always done.
For those of you who read my posts regularly, you know that my devotional posts both here and on my other blog, come straight from my own life's journey and are usually fresh (sometimes raw) takes from what God is speaking to my heart along the way. And this scripture is no different. God is working this one on me and it kinda hurts. A lot.
See, I've been asking God to show me His Big Plan: the great unfolding of ministry or purposes that seem hidden from me. "Pleeheeheeeze, God!" And not surprisingly, God hasn't given me a clear vision of the future, just a clear vision of what He wants me to do today. Right now.
And I'm convinced that getting this verse right will lead me to the next step in His plan for me.
I think of Micah 6:8 as a "bottom line" statement that is repeated throughout scripture in different ways. It holds straight answers for those who really want to know how to please God. God is saying here, "look, you don't need a new word from me, I've already told you what I require." Let's take the three requirements and see how they might apply to our own situations.
1. Act justly: In other words, live according to justice and do what's right. Now before we happily skip on to the next part because we've got this one covered, let's ask a few questions.
Do I owe anything to anyone?
Have I cheated on my finances, taxes or legal obligations?
Do I tell the truth?
Have I "done right" by people? Treated others as they should be treated.
Are there sins that need to be confessed and turned from?
Am I living by God's moral law?
I have to be honest and tell you that I was jolted out of bed at 5 am the other morning to make of list of things I needed to make right. I couldn't sleep. I owe someone a forgotten sales commission from 2004 and I need to pay it. I've said I would do something for someone and have not fulfilled my promise. I got a pretty good little list going. I know God can't bless me further until I obey His conviction to live justly today.
2. Love mercy: Some translations say, "love kindness."
Am I merciful to others when I have it in my power to help someone?
Do I live in such a way that others are first, and I am last?
Do I see my material blessings as a means to bless others?
Do I give of myself only when it is convenient?
I'm so aware that I don't LOVE mercy! I sorta like it when it's convenient, but I can't say that my actions reflect the heart of God in all circumstances. Being merciful and loving kindness should be my way of life, no matter where I am or what I'm doing. That's His will for me.
3. Walk humbly with your God: Live in complete dependence upon a holy, righteous and awesome God. He alone deserves glory.
Do I make decisions based on how they will benefit me, or God's kingdom?
Do I feel the need to take credit for the wonderful things I've done?
Do I feel I "deserve" a particular job/ministry/position/recognition?
Do I rely on my good deeds to count, when my heart is far from Him?
Walking humbly doesn't fit too well in our culture. We now must tweet our every stellar action, and post photos of our accomplishments on our own websites. We're so aware of personal marketing that even parenting has become fodder for the "look at me" society. I fight the urge to look really spiritual and all put together for the people who frequent my blog. Do you struggle with this, too? I think all of this lops over into our spiritual life. I want to be willing to be nothing, if it means glorifying Him.
Finding God's will for your life is really pretty simple. It starts, and ends, with your heart. When you begin applying the paradigm found in Micah 6:8, you'll be amazed at how clear things become. As for me, I feel like I'm waking up in the middle of heart surgery...and although I'd like to jump off the operating table, I know my heart needs fixing. I want to embrace all that God has for me, and that means obeying what He's already shown me.
Act justly, love mercy, walk humbly.
Would you take some time to ask yourself some hard questions? Work through the things that God has "already showed you." Let this be a foundation for Him to build on, and I have a hunch that all the rest of His will for you will fall right into place.
How does this scripture speak to where you are at?
Monday, June 27, 2011
As the caption states at the top of this picture…..
In honor and memory of those we love….We fight this battle!!!
I can’t explain this moment. We are all standing in silence in complete darkness, watching name after name scroll down this wall. The overwhelming emotion is really beyond words. Only if you’ve ever attended a luminary ceremony can you understand how it feels.
And then….when you see that special someone’s name appear on that wall. The moment literally takes your breath away….at least it did for me. It been 3 ½ years since Mom’s been gone and I miss her and think about her every day. I break out laughing when a memory pops into my head remembering so many special times….. but at that moment when I see her name…..the ache is overwhelming. I usually just take off walking. I walk by myself. I don’t want to talk. I just want to remember.
She fought hard. Everyday was a battle and she faced it courageously as they all do. She never gave up and kept fighting until her tired little body just couldn’t take any more. I fought with her. I was right there by here side trying my best to make her forget about the pain if only for a minute. During those days….seeing her smile was worth more than any amount of money!!
I not only relay in honor of my Mom’s memory, but in memory of some very special people in my life who have also lost their battles with cancer. I also relay to celebrate those special people who have won their battles….and lastly, I relay to encourage and give hope to those who have had a recent diagnosis.
This year’s theme was Super Heroes. I wasn’t very excited about the theme. I am not a fan of batman or superman or wonder woman. I did a lot of complaining to my best friend about it and she gave me an idea which led to our Super Hero Wall of Fame?!!!
We decided we would honor the super heroes in our lives. Our mothers, fathers, uncles, aunts and friends…. Real people with no super powers, but lived their lives in such ways that made them both super and heroic in our eyes.
By the way…I was able to walk 15 miles, mostly during the hours of 12am and 5am. I’m sore and my body is tired from all the preparation and participation of this event, but it’s worth it.
I’ll keep doing this as long as the good Lord lets me. I’ve had such wonderful help, support and love from some amazing people. What a humbling experience.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Whether here and now....or in the clouds....
Heard this on the radio yesterday. It spoke directly to my heart. Makes me think of my mom when she was battling cancer. Her healing came....in the clouds.
Now I work to help find a cure. I'm only one person, but when you put all of us together....we pack a punch!!
This is dedicated to all those who need healing of every sort. I know I do.
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