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Dh is gone

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Yes, Dh is gone again! This time for 30 days. I think they may let him home at some point of time during that but I'm not too sure. So it's just me and the kids until around mid December.

On other news, I finished my first novel! Whoo Hoo! I know who the killer is...but I'm not telling.
My first novel is 82k + words long and I still have editing to do which will be done hopefully in Jan. 82k words by the way is over 250 pages.

So, I am starting up novel 2...or should I say, starting, finishing, adding...I've already done part of it but I'm not sure if that's the middle, start or end. LOL. I'm 30k words into Nano which means that I need 20k more to finish. I'm not sure if that will get me to the end of my second novel but I'm hoping it will or that 60k will (which I planned 60k-100k, not knowing what will be added).

I've not written in days due to a tooth ache. Today I went into the dentist and had a filling re-done...two of them. My mouth is in so much pain. Once again they couldn't get me numb so it was needle after needle after needle. I can barley open my mouth and I'm having an ear ache because of it all. Not happy.

I'm trying to stay focused and positive though!


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    Here is a wish that you will be feeling all better soon! emoticon

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JIBBIE49 11/15/2008 2:27AM

    Hope you get feeling better. emoticon

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DKHENN 11/15/2008 1:04AM

    Hi Kat-Sorry to hear DH is off again. My husband has done 2 stints in Iraq & may be going back sometime next year. He's not even active duty anymore-he's with the National Guard. Will your hubby be back in time for Christmas? I hope so. That time of the year is hardest on everyone involved with the military. I am going to read your excerpt. I have always wanted to write but for now I just settle on blogging on here when I can.

I hope your mouth & ear feel better soon !!!

Debbie emoticon is this how you feel right now??

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Poem #2 My Sweet Little Ellie

Thursday, November 13, 2008

My sweet little Ellie

I bellowed out a great big shout
A hand upon my womb.
For I did know, without a doubt
That she had gone too soon.

I settled down upon the ground
Doubled over and cried.
For in my heart I was for sure
My little one had died.

The doctor came to me that night
Confusion in his eyes.
For no one ever knew I held
This child of mine inside.

Child, for I am not forsaken
Pregnant? Bare your belly.
Twas the first Ive ever shown
My sweet little Ellie.

For shame had filled me day and night
Over what I had done.
A simple pleasure of delight
Fathered, a child of one.

Dishonor to my family's name
Disgrace upon my face.
For months anger had filled my heart
Now sorrow takes its place.

I held onto nothing but guilt
And none of happiness.
I never looked beyond the shame
And saw that Id been blessed.

So now the preacher comes to me
In the middle of the night.
To let me know my sweet Ellie
Sits on the lap of Christ.

Her eyes they will not blink at me
Her smile I will not see.
I know that my sweet little one
Will never cry for me.

I did not make the best of it
I could not set aside.
The anger, guilt and shame I felt
My selfishness and pride.

Between this mother and her child
Time has come to an end.
With no chances to start over
For time I can not bend.

So now I send my sweet Ellie
Up to the Lord above.
And sit down here upon this earth
Feeling a mother's love.

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JIBBIE49 11/13/2008 11:36AM

    How sad.
My dd, Maggie has been on BirthControl Pills since she was 13, because I didn't want her to be a rape victim and then deal with a pregnancy, as I was a Date-Rape Victim twice during my teen years, so I KNOW how fast it can happen. I'm sorry for all your pain.

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IOWAGAL1957 11/13/2008 9:03AM

    i am speechless, in tears.

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Poem #1 Look Up to the Sky Little One

Monday, November 10, 2008

Look up to the sky little one
Can you see the sun glowing
as it starts to rise?
Can you see the birds
as they fly by?
Can you see the clouds
as they turn into trains?
Can you see in the distance
those that carry rain?

Look up to the sky little one
Can you see the rainbow
and the color it brings?
Can you see the butterfly
and its beautiful wings?
Can you see the kites flying
in the summers breeze?
Can you see the swirl
of the autumn leaves?

Look up to the sky little one
Can you see the sun
as it sets for the night?
Can you see the moon
as it shines so bright?
Can you see the stars
sparkle and glow?
Can you see the softness
of the falling snow?

Look up to the sky little one
Can you see the dipper
take a little dip?
Can you see the comet
that grants you a wish?
Can you see the heavens
way up above?
Can you see me watching you,
looking down with love?


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Getting into a groove

Sunday, November 09, 2008

Yes, I'm some what getting into a groove. At least I'm finding a way to balance it all, school sparks, writing, kids, house....life.

I'm more aware of my sparking though I'm not tracking much of anything. I am though taking part on the site! That's always a plus because being around you all is just so inspiring and motivational.

I just, just passed 20,000 words! So I took a break to tell you all because I know I promised to blog more, but I'm writing at night and totally forget and then the time goes over to the next date and I tell myself "Might as well head to bed and to it tomorrow at the end of the day."

As you can tell, that's not at all working so I'm going to do it whenever I have the time to.

I was totally out of groove for the story, my characters were off but at the same time, I've added in a lot more than I thought. I think I might end up finishing almost the whole story within 50k words....making it about 300 pages long...if not more!

This could mean that book two might not be worked on. I'm wondering if I can get 30k words done in 7 days...I know I can get 21k done....

I've been pushing out 5,000 words a day on somedays due to life getting in the way. Only one day did I not write even though I wrote a motivational letter to those who are working on the same challenge. And you know me, it was about 1,000 words long.

Yes I love to write.

Tomorrow expect to see a poem on here that I have been dying to get to you all. It's a piece that I plan on sending out to see if I can get published and I would love to have your feed back on it!

Hugs and kissses!-Kat

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SQUIRRELYGIRL73 11/11/2008 8:45AM

    Hooray for you! You must be keeping busy, haven't heard from you in a couple of days so...you must be writing! Yesterday I pumped out 6000 words. Scrapped one concept to the maybe later file and started another. Character dev is tough...Keep on going, you will get there! emoticon

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AROCHFORD 11/10/2008 8:09PM

    Hi Kat great to hear the words are flowing!!!!!!!!!!

Keep SParking (and writing)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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D9MOM4 11/10/2008 4:03PM

    Amazing! My son loves to write and I love to read so I guess that makes us a good combination. Your blog intrigued me. I must read more to see what you write! Are you published? I suppose I should wait on my questions until I visit your sparkpage! Congrats on the progress! and finding your Groove!!

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JIBBIE49 11/9/2008 8:50PM

    Sounds great. A WRITER must RIGHT. emoticon

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Tuesday, November 04, 2008


I'm noticing that while doing my yoga I'm just not all that ...flexable. I'm not talking on the terms of I can't do things,...well I can't. But it seems that I'm not nearly as good as I was just a year ago. I'm wondering if my accident has caused this or if it's just me being out of practice. It has me just a tad bit bummed out though.


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REVSERENA 11/7/2008 1:00PM

    The thing about flexibility is that an achievement orientation works against achieving it! The more you "try" the more you tense. Be easy with yourself. The other thing is that flexibility is so variable. The more you stretch, the more you can stretch, yet our moods, our preoccupation with other things, even our body temperature can make a big difference.

Try doing a good warm up to get your core temperature up. Hold your poses longer without pushing to stretch as far. Breathe into each pose, feeling the expansion into the tightness with each breath, and feeling a greater release with each exhale. Gradually you will move into a deeper stretch.

The more regularly you do your practice, the more flexible you will become.

By the way, sighing is great!

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GROOVYKARMA1 11/7/2008 10:09AM

  Make sure you are totally relaxed and in tune with your body. Any distractions? A lot on your mind? Be patient with yourself and give yourself more time to relax. Do more meditation.
Maybe the accident is still fresh on your mind and your are worrying. Accept and relax.
Take yourself away from all the issues...................

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JIBBIE49 11/4/2008 12:59AM

    Keep working at it. Our bodies are tough and will respond. emoticon

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