Sunday, August 17, 2008
And I thought the military wanted dh dead...I guess I thought wrong...it's me they are after!
So, dh wasn't supposed to be coming home until some time in September right. He was taking the last trip back home and was arriving later then the rest of the unit staying an extra 2-3 weeks.
Well I get all these calls last week saying that he's coming home within a week right. I'm totally like "Oh crap, I got nothing done!"
But he gets a hold of me and tells me that he's not on the list, they screwed up and blah, blah. So I'm a bit upset cus the girls had over heard me on the phone when they gave me the info and I had informed family and friends and everyone is expecting him right...Now he's not coming and I got to tell this to the kids and everyone else.
So I'm thinking I can go back to the way things were and stick with my reg. plan and start doing things about 2 weeks before he is set to come.
He contacts me to tell me "Oh they put me on the list, sent out my papers and didn't tell me and didn't put it on the other list so I'll be there in a few days or so, got to pack talk to you later blah, blah, blah"
I'm sooo pissed...
I started taking apart the bedroom and the little space for his comp upstairs cus I was looking for a desk and chair and was moving furniture and yada and yada. Now I got a "few days or so" to put crap back plus do other stuff and get things ready and rewash his clothes that have been sitting for 15 months and dust off his stuff in storage and blah, blah blah!
I planned about 2 weeks for this!
Now I got what 2 days??? 3 days??? maybe, they don't know!!! No one knows crap!
So, Like I said, maybe it's not him...maybe it's me...me they are after...
Monday, August 11, 2008
Yes, I've been hit and I've been hit pretty damn hard too.
The writing bug has taken a chunk out of my brain and honest, I'm like not all here.
I'm going to sleep between 2 and 4 and still while in bed I'm thinking of story lines. I wake up around 7-9 and still I'm thinking of plots. I can't watch t.v., listen to music, work out, eat or doing anything else without thinking about characters, POV, settings, or if I should kill off one of my MC's.
I'm totally loving it but at the same time it is driving me crazy. The lack of sleep is going to drive me up the wall. I have all kids here so writing is almost impossible! I have to get into character...I HAVE TO GET INTO CHARACTER! Children running around and yelling and talking to me every 5 mins does not help me at all.
Another thing, I've got too much going on in my life right now. My team, my weight loss, getting kids into schools and ready for schools, fixing up the house, dh coming home, dr. appts, health issues...see the list?
Yes writing is something I do everyday BUT I NEED TO GET INTO CHARACTER! And when I'm writing for 30 mins or an hour a day that's just random stuff, that's me just keeping up with my writing, not writing my novel or my poetry. I need hours upon hours for that stuff. My novel, I'm talking about putting kids to bed at 8 and writing non-stop until 3, going to bed and waking up at 7 to send them to school at 9 and writing from 9 till 3 again! THAT IS WHAT I NEED!
I once did a full 10 hours straight of writing (dh was home, took them to school and picked them up and dealt with them) and only pausd to put them in bed before going another 4 hours for a total of 14 hours! Why? BECAUSE I NEED TO GET INTO CHARACTER! That's just how I do it.
You know like when you read and the story no longer is letters that are words that become sentences and paragraphs but instead it's images that move across your mind and somehow you aren't reading any more, you are watching and at times living what is happening...that's what I need to do for my writing and it is killing me because as we speak, right now at 1 am I have a child next to me saying "Hey mom" and she thinks I'm going to reply to her but I'm not cus her rear end is supposed to be in bed right now not talking to me...
You see the issue right?
Monday, August 04, 2008
I know that there are many teams out there but I just wanted to do something different. For me I need the challenge, that's how I get my "support" by being on a team and working together towards one goal. So I thought, "Maybe there are others out there that need that same support." and I started up a new team called "The Challenge".
More info can be found on my sparks page and at the team!
THE FIRST TEAM CHALLENGE STARTS ON WEDNESDAY, AUGUST 6TH!!!
Monday, August 04, 2008
ONE BIG ACK!
I was supposed to take the kids to the starving artist gallery BUT while in the shower the baby pushed the chair up to the stove and stood on it so that he could reach the top of the fridge.
That's where I keep the knives!!!
So I was pulled out of the shower to find the top of his hand gashed open and bleeding...GAH!
I HATE THE ER. I have anxiety attacks there and having to deal with 3 children in a place where everyone is sick and complaining is no fun. Lets not forget the "I'm hungry, I'm thirsty, I'm bored, I'm tired..." . Since Dh is off trying to stay alive over in Iraq I'm forced to either never shower EVER, or make random trips to this hell hole.
I did all I could, I wrapped it with gauze. He got out of it. I wrapped it with gauze and taped it like a mad man. He got out of it. I made my own butterfly bandages...then bought some...he just wouldn't stop! I was just gonna leave it, chicks dig scars right? But no!!!! He was rubbing it all over the place and causing it to start bleeding again. I just watched him rub it across his diaper and was screaming "FLESH EATING DISEASE!!"
So I took him in and sat with the child and his open wound and we waited and touched elbows with a bunch of sickly infected people. One guy I was talking to actually has some infection in his arm and they have to do surgery every other day in order to clean it out and he said that if it doesn't go a way in two days they are taking his arm off.
WHY DO I HAVE TO SIT THERE FOR 6 OR MORE HOURS WITH THESE PEOPLE?
In the end the cut was deep but not deep enough for stitches and they wanted to do the butterfly bandage. HELLO, READ THE CHART MR. I HAVE 8+ YEARS OF COLLEGE UNDER MY BELT! I did that, he doesn't keep it on because he's got a penis AND he's two! So I suggest super glue and he agrees.
So 6 hours later my son got his cut super glued.
I could have done that at home. I would have but I wasn't sure if it was too deep but apparently it wasn't.
By the way, you can use reg. super glue and I was so close to doing it! I should have just done it and saved money and my sanity!
Now I know better, the chocolate on top of the fridge is no longer safe.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Well I got on base...Sat in the car until I calmed down...got to the clinic...hid in the bathroom...got to the front desk...and they had canceled my appt.
So I went to the e.r....signed in....waited....and booked out soon as I saw a nurse come out to take vitals for someone....
not all is lost!
I actually went to the patient rep and they sent me to tricare and I'm now signed up to see all my doctors off of base!
This now means that I can see any specialist, any doctor, on call care, walk in appts and all. No more waiting a month to see a doctor! And, the office is less than a mile from me so no more 20-30 min drives either!
I've been trying to do this so that I could get the special care for my pelvic, hips and knees since Sept 2nd of 2005!!!
I've done it! I'm sure that there will be little to none anxiety attacks while going off base cus I've already been off base once and had no issue at all!
I'M TOTALLY THRILLED!
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