Thursday, July 31, 2008
Totally freaking out here...I'm supposed to be there in 15 mins or so but I'm so not wanting to go and I'm wasting time...it's gonna take at least 20 to get there.
Sigh...I'm actually shaking and I can't find my pills...I'm wondering if I threw them out with the rest...got to get shoes on...kids hair isn't done, baby has only pjs on...my hair isn't done...yes I'm still writing cus I so don't want to go...
breath in, breath out...bye....
okay now bye....
*sigh*....Hugs-Bye-Kat-I am rocky balboa-*sigh*...totally stalling...Bye again....will write back later...this is so going to be a disaster I can tell you that now!
Okay for real, bye
Thursday, July 31, 2008
so I thought that today I would be at the doc's office...nope it's on Thursday! It's already bad enough that I've been a day behind all week long! I'm totally stressed out, over eating and not working out. My stomach has been messing with me, I cut the bottom of my foot and I got a sick baby. Let's not talk about the rest of it...
I've got a million things on my mind and I'm feeling that feeling...the one that says "You got it all to do but you know you can't focus on more than one thing hon!"
It's so true, Dh and I were just talking about it. My writing is coming back into focus and it's taking up a lot of my time. Not only did the death of my writing friend bring me back to the site, but I realized that just like on here, there are a lot of people who look up to me (why is beyond me...) and soon as I got there I had people emailing me and all, asking if I would read this, review that, sending their outlines, character charts and yada. HOLD UP!!!
With being away from the comp, I'm at the t.v. Yes, I had to plug it in, it's been undone for months now and it was kinda fun to put my legs up and watch some t.v. But, with that comes me watching my fav. shows, Law and Order and that brings me back to my novel!!! GRRRRR It's a novel that is influenced by the show.
This leads to constant day dreaming and mentally setting up plots, dialogue and the sort. This of course means that nothing else is getting done...see the issue now???
I'm reading blogs, not responding, getting messages and responding but not as fast as I would like. I'm staying focused on my new team but nothing else and that would include tracking my food, exercise and blah, blah, blah...
I'm done...totally tired...
Monday, July 28, 2008
Yes, I got my feet up. Have been sitting with them up just about the entire day. I can't believe it. I was actually sitting there reading, watching t.v. and folding clothes and thinking to myself, "You have got to get moving, how do people sit for so long???"
But, I know that my knees need it. I totally felt it yesterday during the workout. The difference between yesterday's workout and last week's workout...wow. I mean I could tell that they were...healing I guess you can say.
I have to heal, that is plain and simple. On Wednesday I go to the doctors. I have to prep for that because I know I'm going to freak out. Got to get my meds together for my anxiety and all.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Yes, I am...
Okay it's nearly midnight, I'm working on just hours of sleep for the past few days and to top that off, I'm in pain during it so let me "try" to keep this short. No, really I'm gonna do it.
Did laundry at the mat. 2 tall baskets, 3 short baskets and 2 tubs worth...a total of like 18 loads due to not going in last week. All taken to the car, from the car to the mat and then due to the pain of it all, all taken WET, put into baskets, carried back to car and loaded. They are still in the car (got dryer at house) and are slowly going down the stairs and into the dry and back up the stairs...You get the point.
100+ of a million different exercises done.
Attempted abs routine but once on the floor for the reverse crunch I heard a pop and 3 different areas, left hip, pelvic and right knee. I then attempted to get off the floor and after several mins gave up.
So I thought: did a 10 min standing core workout, 5 min sitting core work out and a 25 mins all body circuit...
Constance kill me now...Yikes...Lunges, side lunges...squats...all with weights...jumping jacks, skipping rope...I'll stop cus I can already hear you all yelling "What is wrong with you woman!!!"
But, I was okay at first, my knee's have improved some, but I soon realized that I couldn't go down low. So I went as low as I could go without pain, I watched my form and I KEPT MOVING NO MATTER WHAT and I'm now sweaty like a man, shaking and jumping into bed without a shower cus I can barely stand.
I can honestly say I'm flustered 100% I'm sick of the popping, crunching, snapping and pain.
Ack, I said I was keeping this short, no midnight rambling!!
Friday, July 25, 2008
Okay, so during week 2 of the Rocky challenge I slipped, twisted and fell on my knee. It's been killing me since. Let's not talk about the fact that the week before the challenge started, I had just taken my other knee out of an ace bandage due to issues with it.
I tried week 3, it didn't work. I'm looking over week 4, I would have to replace just about every thing in there. *sigh*.
So, I am...
I'm not doing the full circuits but I am replacing things, doing them at slower speeds, with less weight and making sure that I'm not up and down from the floor.
Today I did a whole arm routine for 20 mins. Then did 20 mins worth of arms, abs and legs and followed that with a mile walk at home. I intend to add more to this but I've been having a rough week.
I'm not kicking myself for the workouts though, it's the other things that are going to get me in trouble.
Okay, I'm at home with 3 kids and I end up having to do it all by myself. So my landlady is coming. She might have to get into the attic so I had to carry down two sofa chairs...down the stairs. One I had to carry down 3 times cus I couldn't get it through the entry way and had to take it back up and switch it around until it worked. I'm talking about...lazy boy type of chairs...up and down at least 20 steps. *sigh*. Lets not forget moving the entertainment center, 2 t.v.s, a few bins up and down the stairs and then mopping my kitchen, dinning room and living room floor by hand...yes, on my knees.
I know...Kill me now.
It's 12:37 and I was mopping until 11:20, moved the baskets of laundry into the living room and sorted all 3 until 12 and then my walking.
I hurt...and tomorrow I'll be moving more furniture, hand washing more floors and cleaning all of upstairs where I "store" things so that she can get to the attic.
But I can say this much, after the Rocky challenge, everything I'm doing on these videos and such is child's play!
That and I'm sick of bleach blonds who are white yet darker than I am. And how the heck is it that you can wear a 2 piece swimsuit, and have the girls sit up that high and workout and not have an issue??? If my girlies were that big I have to ace bandage them to my chest and move sloooowly.
This is what I get for working out to "Envy Girls" and how the heck was I supposed to know that "the girls next door" were playboy models???
Really, never again. All I could think of was how much surgery I'm going to need to have my belly button hooked back to my belly and my boobs put back onto my chest.
Hey, at least I found a work out video that my dh won't complain about. Well as long as I workout to it behind him...wouldn't want to get in the way of the have nakid beach blonds...
Don't fat people make workout videos? I mean at least when you can't touch your toes due to your belly being in the way you don't feel so bad after watching your trainer strain to reach their knees. At the very least you don't want to strangle barbie and you won't become unfocused by the fact that her double D breast refuse to bounce while in that triangle strapped top.
*sigh* going to bed now!
Get An Email Alert Each Time KATRINIA17 Posts