Monday, June 02, 2008
well, I woke up to find that the monitor and keyboard were covered in juice and neither one worked so I had to replace them both. Funny after that big ordeal with dh about computers and the such. I got both monitor and keyboard for less than 10 bucks and I like the monitor better the the last one!
On top of that I had gone shopping at walmart with the kids and one of their friends. Lord, 3 girls at once...total fun. I forgot to get a new scale but the old one read 208 which is where I was last time so I guess it's working even though it won't shut off and is eating my batteries. I'll give it a few more days to dry out and then will see. I did get some plants some dishes...a measuring cup and the sort. I was going to get this bike deal...it's just pedals and you put them under your desk or at the sofa and bike away while on the comp. or watching t.v. I didn't get it though but wish I had.
I went food shopping and walked away with nothing but fruits, veggies, chicken and turkey and fat free milk and cream cheese...wait, and fresh peanut butter so I'm good to go for the month...or week or so. LOL
Dh contacted me to talk about the computer again. Now he's not going to get it at all and will just fix the two that we already have...yes two and the laptop cus he needs to have a dozen or so to prove something to someone we don't care about. So he got pissy about my 10 buck spend and how I buy cheap crap. It works, I don't know what to buy, it's 10 bucks and will get me along until he can come buy and drain our savings on a 4k monitor and keyboard for him and hand me the one he took to the desert and is flickering out. I didn't think my 10 buck spend was all to much and so I told him to grow the F*** up cus he's nearly 30 and needs to act it.
Well needless to say he got off the computer cus "he didn't want to argue with me while being out there" and I felt pretty good for standing up for myself and for not over eating...
Yep, once again I was in my range for everything! Yay me!
Well, I've joined a few challenges on some teams and I'm ready for June, bring it on!
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Omg...he's been gone for so long that I've forgotten how much he stresses me out!
My dh is the type of person who will do just about anything to get a rise out of you and tonight I let it happen.
As many of you know, I have many medical conditions that the military has not handled and claims that they can't handle cus they don't have the specialist. Due to the war, they don't have the funding to send me to one and keep bouncing me around. I've done all the research that I could and have known for the past 3 years that going to a chiro can help. but, I haven't cus we can't afford it. So he saved his taxes "so we could go to disney land when I get back and go visit family and friends back home" and I haven't touched it even though I'm in pain. Well he didn't know about the other check for the government...so now what does he want to do???
He wants to put that check towards disneyland and take out so much for the rest of the months until he gets back to pay for the trip and he wants to take the income tax check and spend it all on a computer...a computer that starts at 3k without the monitor, speakers, key board and such...so we are looking at a computer for about 4K.
So of curse I'm pissed and after being in tears and all he's like "Oh well I guess your right, don't understand why your so upset..."
I know that every relationship has their issues and I've heard of worst issues than this but really, who likes making the "person they love" upset like that?
I know he's at war and his life is at stake but still why would he make matters worst...as if things aren't already bad for the both of us. I'm just really hurt that he thinks my pain is a huge joke...or even worst, he thinks it's nothing big and he just doesn't give a rip.
What a really crappy ending to a near perfect day....
I was in range for everything even though my veggie and fruit intake was low. It was honestly one of my best food days ever, no hunger, no binge eating just kept it simple...
I didn't go shopping today so i have no fruits and veggies at all so I got to do that tomorrow
I changed my sparks page up, talked to so many friends about challenges, me and Mary went from site to site looking for challenges, new ways to lose weight and just ways to stay motivated.
I even went off and did new virtual models in swimsuits and with summer backgrounds just to start off my 3 month plan....
and i show him all i've done and he does his best to piss me off???
He want's to talk next friday...I'm not sure if I'll be around...
Saturday, May 31, 2008
I stayed in range again!....and I've written this blog...again!
Yes, something happened and the server wouldn't connect when I went to post this blog so I'm writing it again.
here i go...
I stayed in my calorie range but the intake was crappy. A corn dog for breakfast, chips for lunch and a decent dinner...well kinda.
Only good thing is that I sat limits for it all so I didn't eat a box of cookies, just 2. I'm starting to feel normal again, I just need to get this food in order and hopefully I'll start to see a change.
I actually thought I be over eating. The baby should have stressed me out and caused me to eat but it didn't happen. He's tossed my scale into the tub, dumped over the garbage twice, took out all the dishes, and has just been tons of fun. You think I be eating from stress but no.
Hopefully things will continue to improve.
PS: it didn't connect again! but, this time I copied it before sending it and only had to paste it up! I wonder what's going on....
Friday, May 30, 2008
wow, many who have been sitting in the passenger seat during this ride to a better lifestyle know that I struggle to stay in my food range. Not the normal struggle mind you, Normally I can't get to 1200 cals. Yes, my range sits between 900 and 1100 and always has except for those days that I ate that cake or what not.
Well, since getting on my meds I've been craving food like crazy! I'm working out all the time, nonstop, at least 30 mins a day and most of the time 5-7 days a week! I can't lose 3lbs!
I'm totally upset about it cus I've been working out like crazy trying to lose these three pounds.
At the same time though, I know that my food is not that great. Not way over but not like the norm. I'm staying around 2000 cals but at the same time I'm burning at least 400 a day according to the gym and sparks. Some days I've burned up to 1k cals a day and still the scale doesn't budge. I guess that I thought it would equal itself out but more on the terms of a loss, not a maitane.
Well, for the first time today I was in range! 1246 cals total and in range for everything else!. I'm totally loving it. I was hungry for a bit due to having to go to a school event and waiting to eat. I had pizza, 2 slices and still stayed in range!
I'm happy with that and I hope that I can get back into it. I think some of the problem is that I'm exercising way more than I did before. Before I was doing 30 mins a day and up to 45. Now I do 51-55 mins on the elliptical alone and then jump onto the bike, treadmill and add in some hiking, ball or swimming. On top of that I now get up everyday at 530 and began working around the house by 6. House work includes lifting boxes and bins, going up and down stairs, washing the floor by hand (I hate mops) doing laundry by hand, mowing the yards and ect. I do this until about 9 and then have breakfast and then go back to more work until 10 and then either go shopping or go to the gym, come home an eat lunch, then do writing or go to the gym and then do something with the girls when they come home or do a school activity. Dinner is at 5:30, we leave for the gym at 6:30 and I work out until 8 and then we go swimming till 9 and get home around 9:30-10 then I spark and by 10:30-11 I'm back in bed. Sometimes I'm not in bed until later but I try all the time for 1030.
Add in talent show, track meets, doctor appt and all that and I got one busy life, one that should keep me thin!
But I know I don't make the best food choices but still, I'm so busy and hunger just hits and you would think that with burning 1k cals a day, it would equal when I eat that 500 cals. I mean most people only burn 500 a day and I'm doing double!
I'm just flustered cus I really want to be 205 by the 1st and I'm really reaching for that goal.
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