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It's been a while

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

So I was thinking this morning that it's been quite a while since I've blogged my thoughts... and I guess I need to because I've really faltered on my weight loss.

Things have been a bit stressful lately, and I'm PMS'ing which means I'm eating more than I should and my weight loss has stalled yet again.

Part of it is that I'm working so many more hours at this new job. I work 10 to 11 hours a day and by the time I get off work I'm tired, I want to spend time with the baby, and veg.

I love the job, I really do (I support 5 or so people and it's very rewarding albeit demanding), and think I could do this for a long time, but it's draining on the other aspects of my life. I haven't exercised nearly as much as I was because sometimes I feel like I NEED to be in the office at lunch rather than exercising.

I feel guilty for not spending more time with the baby. She seems content with the time we spend together, but I feel horribly guilty for not being with her more. When I get out of work at 6 or 6:30, I have to stop by the store and pick up food (I used to weekly shop but quit doing that when more and more food had to be thrown away) and by the time I get home it can be as late as 7:15. Then I have to make dinner and eat while juggling time with my girls. Heather is very demanding when I first get home so sometimes dinner is not until 9:00 because it's impossible to cook while holding a baby. So too many dinners lately have been junk or fast food or eating out. And by the time Heather is ready for sleep, I'm exhausted and am falling asleep with her.

Last week and this past weekend were so busy that I didn't have time to log in to my class work until Sunday morning. I immediately found out that I had a paper due Sunday night on top of all of my other class work! So I requested an extension and was granted a small extention - it's due tonight. It's only 3 to 4 pages but it requires a lot of focused attention and I was supposed to work hard on it last night but I worked until after 6 and then had to run to the store. My husband was supposed to watch the baby at a volunteer meeting he had to attend so I could focus on my paper but he called me because he couldn't concentrate with her there (then he couldn't understand why I was so upset). So I cut the shopping trip short and went to the library to pick her up (dinner ended up being Wendy's -- half spicy chicken salad, baked potato and small chili) - Jennifer and I took her to the kids section to work off some energy - took her home and had to focus all of my attention on her.

Oh, and did I mention that I haven't even touched laundry in almost 2 weeks? So I had to run a load of that last night too.


Sometimes I just feel like I have to do everything and it is exhausting. I do not like asking my oldest daughter to help out because she has her own things going on too but I may need to rely on her more. When it's just me and her and the baby at the house I don't mind asking and she's super willing to help. But I feel like when my husband is there, he should be picking up the extra slack and he doesn't which has caused some tension between us.

Several people have said they admire everything I have taken on to accomplish and think I am a strong person but this can't go on forever. PMS nearly takes me over the edge and definitely causes me to eat too much.

So my plan for today is:

Exercise at lunch
Leave work at 5:00 so I can finish that paper
Do another load of laundry

Hubby will HAVE to do his share tonight.

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JESTERJIGGER 2/4/2011 10:42AM

    (((hugs))) I know how hard it is to do everything on your own. Please make time to workout during work...you need it and deserve that time to yourself. I love working out, I read while I do it so it's relaxing and makes me feel better about myself.

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BRAVAH 2/3/2011 6:01AM

    Hi Kathy!

Great to see you blogging... sorry that you are stressed out! I hear you. And you should know that most husbands forget to help out. Not that it makes it easier, but at least you know you aren't alone. I do hope that you and he can come to an understanding of how to help each other!

I'm sending love, and some calm energy your way. I hope that you can get your paper done and maybe enjoy a little time with the baby. I know this may sound stupid, as I don't have children, but there are exercises you can do while holding a baby... which would give her some attention that she needs, while giving you some much needed endorphins. I wish you luck!


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ETTEZEUS 2/2/2011 11:57PM

    I'm so sorry you aren't getting the support that a husband should be giving.
Tell Jen she's being awesome for stepping up to help!

Hope you get that paper done!

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MICTAMALI 2/2/2011 3:35PM

    Kathy, I'm so sorry that it's been rough going for you. Is it possible for you to do some baby-wearing while you get things done? Also, have you thought of preparing meals ahead, like on the weekends? Or throwing some stuff into the crockpot so it's ready when you get home? I hope it gets easier, friend.

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SUSANDREW1 2/2/2011 1:24PM

    I've been there too Kathy, but this to shall pass! God will give you the strength to get through it all. I learned that over time you have to remember that you can't do it all, but you can do the best you have to give. I never really got my husband to help with the cooking and cleaning, but near the end he learned how just vacuuming the floor could make a world of difference for me.

Don't feel guilty when you have to use fast food or easy meals. You can make good choices that are healthy for now. The baby will get less demanding and for goodness sake no matter, what exercise at lunch. It will relieve your stress. I agree with Shinako, New job? Yay!!! You are doing wonderful. Lower your expectations and ask your daughter to help when she can.

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ONE*BUSY*MOM 2/2/2011 12:33PM

    Oh, Kathy, I'm so sorry thing have been so stressful with this new job. It does sound like you and your hubby need to re-think your division of labour. This is a huge source of conflict in a lot of households, mine included. We actually tried this exercise:


It went a long way to relieving tension in the household and now our division of labour is much more balanced. I rarely feel the anger & frustration I used to feel. Admittedly, I am only working part-time right now so who knows how things will change if/when I ever go back to work full-time. We might need to revisit this exercise at that point in time.

Still, I think one of the key points in the article is sometimes couples do things for each other simply because they love each other. If your hubby loves you and is committed to creating a happy household, he will find a way to make this work for both of you. Good luck -- you'll be in my thoughts.


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SHINAKO 2/2/2011 12:17PM

    I'm so sorry to hear that there's a lot of stress going on in your life right now.

Let me turn some of that around: Yay! New job! Do tell more! I'm so glad you're finding you like it.

I've been working 9 hour days, with a 30 minute commute (and sometimes extra depending on traffic, extra stops, etc. too.) so I can definitely relate to being tired and just wanting to veg when you get home. Especially with Heather needing you so much. In time things will fall into a place where it'll be easier. Just need to slog through the brambles to find it.

You can do it!

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I am so flippin' proud of myself

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Since I have had Heather, my eating habits have not been terribly under control...until the last few days. And today has been especially wrought with goodies at work.

If you haven't heard, my work opened a fitness center on site which makes exercising SO much easier and convenient. I have been using it for a while now...since about May 15th. But even with exercising, I have been strugging with my eating habits and the scale had not been cooperating much.

It occured to me the other day that I'm putting in all of this work on the treadmill for nothing because I'm ruining all my work with the excess calories I've been eating. So gradually I've been buckling down at home and at work and the last 3-5 days I've really gotten things under control and have stayed within my calorie range.

But today has been extra special because free food has been flowing like lava around work. I have turned down Panera Bread bagels, danishes (the cream cheese is especially good), yogurt with strawberries and granola (which isn't necessarily bad but I couldn't find nutrition information on it), and just now I turned down cake. The only thing I "caved" to was a glass of orange juice and I only did that because I knew it was healthy. So I am super proud of myself for this new mindset.

The funny thing is that it was so easy to turn all of this food away because of my lunchtime workouts. I simply don't want to ruin the work I've put into it. Before, if I had eaten something that was calorie dense I would just tell myself that I could work it off later but later never came. This fitness center at my work is becoming quite a blessing for me.

Best of luck to everyone and their goals. I finally feel like I'm going to be able to re-achieve mine since having the baby.

My Girls:

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    Awesome Kathy! You are revamping your thought process and it's taken you to a new level - you're gonna get to your goal in no time! BTW - your girls are GAWGEOUS! lol.

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BRAVAH 6/24/2010 5:03AM

    Awesome! That is really a great change in thinking! And what beautiful daughters you have!!!


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ONE*BUSY*MOM 6/24/2010 2:43AM

    GREAT! And your girls are so beautiful!

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CARRAND 6/23/2010 8:57PM

    Good job! Keep it up.
Your girls are darling. You are setting a good example for them.

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HICKOK-HALEY 6/23/2010 1:23AM

    Good for you!

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ETTEZEUS 6/22/2010 9:14PM

    Woo Hoo!! Great job Kathy!
I need to get my eating under control.
I'm not gaining but I'm not losing that last couple of pounds either!

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SOPHIEMAE2007 6/22/2010 6:54PM

    Don't you just hate it when there is free food that is good! Good for you for turning it down!

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BRIDGET5K 6/22/2010 5:17PM

    That had to have been tough! I hate having to say no to temptation, but it so worth it in the end!

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MOMJMGR 6/22/2010 5:02PM

    Way to go!! I was not near as strong as you yesterday at my job and the food that was brought in for a b-day celebration. When it is TOM I just have no will power. Being able to workout at work before going home is SO much easier than having to find a way to do it once you get home. So glad you have that too. Great job and good luck on reaching your GOALS!!

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SUNSET09 6/22/2010 5:00PM

  We all need something or even someone to motivate us. Good for you and keep up the good work. emoticon

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SHINAKO 6/22/2010 5:00PM

    Way to go, Kathy!

If only I could maintain that sort of control, even in my exercise environment(home)!

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Amazing Recipe featured on NBC's Losing it with Jillian

Saturday, June 05, 2010

The recipe is near the middle of the page. Jason and I tried it tonight and it is GOOD.


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TEDYBEAR2838 6/6/2010 8:59AM

    Thanks Kathy, sounds like sometime I could do if I switch it up a little.

How's that little baby doing? HOw old is she now?

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SHINAKO 6/5/2010 11:00PM

    My mouth was watering just from reading the comments. Thank you for sharing it!

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Things I've Learned...

Sunday, May 09, 2010

...since being on Maternity leave.

1) Being a mom again is the best thing in the world

2) I had no idea what exhaustion really was before having a newborn in the house

3) It's amazing how you forget the lessons learned from child #1

4) Food Network is my favorite channel in the middle of the night - it gives my mind something to focus on when I'm completely exhausted but trying to get my child to sleep

5) Bobby Flay has become one of my favorite Food Network Chef's

6) I LOVE my skinny ankles and feet!

7) I had forgotten what normal feels like, it's GREAT!

8) TBS has the best sitcoms during the day

9) I had no idea how hard it would be to try to keep up with homework during leave

10) Going back to work is going to be one of the hardest things I've ever done

11) Being a mother is the greatest thing in the world.

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    I'd say a lot of this is true for me too... but I don't have to go back to work... and I have gotten addicted to Lifetime movies and Hallmark movies. lol. Cheesy, I know. I just have to say that I LOVE my DVR cuz I can watch all my regular shows in the middle of the night. lol. But I have only had 7 years between and it's all new to me again too... and I never thought I'd fall in love AGAIN... and I certainly have.

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GMEAN2055 5/9/2010 8:22PM

    Happy Mother's Day...Wow, she is growing up so fast. Good luck with going back to work..

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TEDYBEAR2838 5/9/2010 8:12PM

    Happy MOther's day little momma. YOur baby and daughter are beautiful!~

We have so much to be thankful for!~

May your family be blessed!

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ETTEZEUS 5/9/2010 10:12AM

    Oh yeah....

Happy Mother's Day!!

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ETTEZEUS 5/9/2010 10:11AM

    Wow! Heather has grown a lot already!
Where did the baby deer come from?

CRAP! I just thought of something!! You go back to work tomorrow and we didn't get together this week! emoticon

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MODESTLYBOLD 5/9/2010 12:48AM

  I agree! I've had three and each birth was a new experience for me! Enjoy motherhood mom!

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