Thursday, July 19, 2012
Exercise, I am doing good, nearly every other day I walk or run. PROUD!!
Food choices, dear Lord in Heaven........I am doing awful! Every cookie and starch and horrible thing just JUMPS into my mouth! I haven't tracked in days because I can't even remember all of the horrible things I have eaten. I have to do better. I have to do better!
Here's my theory: I am SO picky about what I eat. The qualities that food must have to be part of my diet are this: is it delicious, fattening and horrible for you?? I have eaten it in the past 2 weeks!! YIKES. I blame no one but myself and my choices. ASHAMED.
Monday, July 16, 2012
Dear beloved SP friends,
I have not blogged since July 9th. It has been 7 entire days. (I feel like I am at confession) I am having a hard time with personal issues. My DH is actually living full time out of town now, for his job. He has gone away for his job before but he has been working from home for the last 9 months and I had gotten used to him being home. On my days off this past week I went to visit him and see his new place. I have been depressed since he left and I have really neglected to think about or acknowledge that it is affecting my weight loss efforts. I haven't tracked my food for several days because I have eaten horribly, (everything in sight). I did manage to do a training run while at his place but that was on Thursday of last week and I haven't exercised since.
Here's where I tell myself "I can do what I want". I usually come to work (mids) and then sleep away my depression, only waking long enough to eat something horrible for me, watch an hour or so of TV and take care of my dogs. (my kids are grown). My excuse is that a)I can do what I want b) I'm lonely c)noone cares what I eat anyway......etc etc etc.
So now I am trying to get motivated to at least walk a couple of miles tomorrow, It's true, I CAN do what I want, I am an adult and if I don't feel like running I don't have to. I do have to get motivated to do SOMETHING though. Anything really to get off this "poor me" train and get with it.
I guess writing this blog is my way of telling myself that I am not doing the right thing, and I need to make an attitude adjustment. I usually am a "count my blessings" type person. I know it is just that I miss my husband and I am going to have to get used to only seeing him about once a month for a couple of days at a time. We do have the Hawaiian anniversary vacation planned for Sept. and I am really looking forward to that.
So, all of you amazing SP friends I have made, let's hear your psychological analysis of my poor brain and then your prescription for motivating this sad soul.
Thanks in advance,
PS. I really think just putting this in writing has helped.
Monday, July 09, 2012
I am happy to announce I finished my 2nd 5k. I didn't run the whole thing, but I did run more than the first 5k I did! It was a lot more fun than the Color Run, better organized, neater "prizes" (medal!)! I must keep training so eventually this "Fat Runner" can finish one and run the ENTIRE way! It's good to dream.
Love ya'll have a great week and keep on being my motivation.
Monday, July 02, 2012
Hello SP world,
I have struggled with the number of lbs I have not lost. I have been on SP and exercising regularly since April 24th. I finished my first 5k on Saturday and while I am happy and am doing another 5k this weekend (walk or run), I am unhappy with the fact that the lbs haven't been melting away. (you'd think in this heat they would!)
So I am trying a new tactic. Today (which for me and my work shift (midnights) is still July 1st) I took my measurements. Hips, Waist, Thigh and Upper arm. I am hoping that on August first, even though I might not have lost a million lbs. that I will be able to see in inches what has been going on. I should've done that when I started I know! I think I would have been much less upset about my weight loss. I WANT to lose lbs. but inches are good too and I need something to be happy about all the time!
I don't know if I have mentioned this before but I have a vacation trip for my 25th wedding anniversary planned to Hawaii in September. I want to be feeling better about how I look, move, feel, etc. by that time at the very least! I am seeing 3 different islands while I am there and I have NEVER been to Hawaii before! I love having something to look forward too. It's SO great!
Hope your day is Happy!
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