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Proud!!! and ashamed at the same time.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Exercise, I am doing good, nearly every other day I walk or run. PROUD!!

Food choices, dear Lord in Heaven........I am doing awful! Every cookie and starch and horrible thing just JUMPS into my mouth! I haven't tracked in days because I can't even remember all of the horrible things I have eaten. I have to do better. I have to do better!

Here's my theory: I am SO picky about what I eat. The qualities that food must have to be part of my diet are this: is it delicious, fattening and horrible for you?? I have eaten it in the past 2 weeks!! YIKES. I blame no one but myself and my choices. ASHAMED.

HELP.

KG

  
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IMSOOZEEQ 7/20/2012 4:56AM

    I have to say that the 3 food groups you listed have always been a staple in my house. lol That is just down home cookin' in my book. But...I am having to read a different book these days. LOL I do have some of those things around because my son and daughter buy their own groceries and they buy those foods. Oh yeah and my husband will buy some things now and again. It is funny what he will buy me in an attempt to bring me something healthy! lol

Don't beat yourself up!!!! Times like this happen. Try to get yourself to at least write things down before you eat it. Take one day at a time. Think about how far you have come. Think about how this food will affect your journey. Commit to moving forward!

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CSTERLING 7/19/2012 7:43PM

    Great job on the excercise...

Don't beat yourself up over the cookies, just make sure you are as honest as you can be and track it. The simple act of taking accountability and tracking it goes a long way to keeping it under control.

Keep thinking positive and you'll move in the direction you want to move.

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KING_SLAYER 7/19/2012 3:02PM

    Ahhh, cookies. fresh chocolate chip cookies are my kryptonite! I avoid them at all costs (except on Saturday which is my free day). Everyone says moderation is the key and that is almost always true. However, there are sometimes when a certain food can't be moderated, we just lack the will power to stop ourselves and we binge on them. In those cases I suggest a complete restriction for at least a couple of weeks. Then get a small package and try to moderate yourself. If you can't, restrict again for longer. It is difficult, but sometimes we must suffer great pain (physical or psychological) to get to where we want to be. Best of luck to you.

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BMW9295 7/19/2012 12:51PM

    Small changes! If you want cookies.... make it a COOKIE.... I so understand where you are coming from. Just do a little at a time. Do the best you can one meal at a time.
You are right that you need to track. It has helped me so very much. I track at the end of each meal and if I can and know for certain what I am having I track before my meal. I find it makes me accountable each meal instead of trying to remember what I have eaten all day.
Good luck! Again try small changes and don't overwhelm yourself.....

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DOTTIEJANE1 7/19/2012 11:25AM

    One choice at a time , do not punish yourself we are human and learning a NEW LIFESTYLE take mistakes. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BUSYGRANNY5 7/19/2012 8:12AM

    You've received some great advice from others, just wanted to say... keep on keeping on..you're on track with the exercise....

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COURTNEY055 7/19/2012 7:25AM

    I believe in moderation. Like the other lady had said, nothing is off limits. It's to be eaten in moderation. Don't over do it. If u do give into something sweet of high cal food, use your tracker and see what you have left for the day and use those cals for whatever meal u have left to eat. However, if those cals left are next to 0 then it's time to get out and work that snack off!! You are doing so great with your exercise I'm sure you could burn it off in no time. You just have to be careful and really try to track. You'd be surprised how many cals are in the yummy stuff we like. I agree too that once you get into the healthy lifestyle you won't even want the sweet (or whatever your preference is) you'll probably opt for fruit or some kind of protein. you'd be surprised how much u better u feel physically. BUt, either way, you're on your way!! You've got the exercise down now we just have to focus on the other part!! Remember that you are fabulous and you deserve to be happy and healthy!! Best of luck to you!! Courtney

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OLIVIANIGHT 7/19/2012 6:45AM

    For me it took a while to sort out my eating. The thing that helped most was the food tracker. I'm a bit of a number freak so I actually enjoyed working out what I could eat to balance all the numbers - get my protein up without overloading my carbs etc. If you can find a way to engage your interest like that it would help tons.
Also WOO HOO on the exercise!

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STEPH-KNEE 7/19/2012 6:04AM

    OMG, delicious, fattening and horrible are my 3 food groups... is that bad? ;) LOL. I am constantly compromising with myself on what I can and can't have. Now, I have nothing that is off limits, but it simply turns into "well if you eat that, it is this many calories, so now your dinner has to be x amount less, is it worth that?" Can you find a way to balance it out? Like okay I'm going to have a cookie, and track it, and adjust dinner or breakfast or whatever accordingly? I know just because that works for me doesn't mean it works for everyone else... and in fact it probably sounds silly to a lot of people. I have even said to myself "you are all out of calories for the day, but tomorrow you can have (insert thing I'm craving)". The amazing thing is, having to wait actually makes it yummier the next day, and sometimes I even forget all about it ha ha.

I hope you can find something that works for you, because I totally want hubby to have to pick up his jaw off the floor when he sees you! :D Plus I know how badly you want this, plus I think you rock. Congrats on the exercise though, that is outstanding!! :D

P.S. the fiber one 90 calories new chocolate chip cookies are to die for. 10 seconds in the microwave they are pure heaven. :)

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RG_DFW 7/19/2012 6:02AM

    I think the more you get into the whole fitness lifestyle, the easier it will be to resist. Just remember that for now, every cookie you eat is another 10 minutes of cardio to offset it!

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is it life getting in the way or just me?

Monday, July 16, 2012

Dear beloved SP friends,

I have not blogged since July 9th. It has been 7 entire days. (I feel like I am at confession) I am having a hard time with personal issues. My DH is actually living full time out of town now, for his job. He has gone away for his job before but he has been working from home for the last 9 months and I had gotten used to him being home. On my days off this past week I went to visit him and see his new place. I have been depressed since he left and I have really neglected to think about or acknowledge that it is affecting my weight loss efforts. I haven't tracked my food for several days because I have eaten horribly, (everything in sight). I did manage to do a training run while at his place but that was on Thursday of last week and I haven't exercised since.
Here's where I tell myself "I can do what I want". I usually come to work (mids) and then sleep away my depression, only waking long enough to eat something horrible for me, watch an hour or so of TV and take care of my dogs. (my kids are grown). My excuse is that a)I can do what I want b) I'm lonely c)noone cares what I eat anyway......etc etc etc.
So now I am trying to get motivated to at least walk a couple of miles tomorrow, It's true, I CAN do what I want, I am an adult and if I don't feel like running I don't have to. I do have to get motivated to do SOMETHING though. Anything really to get off this "poor me" train and get with it.
I guess writing this blog is my way of telling myself that I am not doing the right thing, and I need to make an attitude adjustment. I usually am a "count my blessings" type person. I know it is just that I miss my husband and I am going to have to get used to only seeing him about once a month for a couple of days at a time. We do have the Hawaiian anniversary vacation planned for Sept. and I am really looking forward to that.
So, all of you amazing SP friends I have made, let's hear your psychological analysis of my poor brain and then your prescription for motivating this sad soul.
Thanks in advance,
KG
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BE-THE-CHANGE 7/16/2012 8:43PM

    I spent 5 years with my husband gone during the week every week. It really does stink.

But I do like the idea of taking advantage of this time and really working hard to surprise him for your trip!

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STEPH-KNEE 7/16/2012 3:14AM

    LMAO that works too, I can relate to that one lol. ;)

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KATHYGOULDSMITH 7/16/2012 3:06AM

    TDaene and ISTILLLOVEJB, those are great ideas!! I just need to stop eating so much!!! LOL

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STEPH-KNEE 7/16/2012 2:51AM

    You are such a doll, seriously! The fact that you are putting this in writing and even just acknowledging it is a huge accomplishment. If I was feeling the way you are right now, that would be the beginning of the end for me and I bet I wouldn't even be on here blogging about it, so that shows me you still definitely want to do this and move forward, for that alone you rock! :D Going from having your hubby home to having him away has to suck so much. I like TDAENE's suggestions, your trip is going to be fabulous no matter what, but you might feel even more fabulous to have a few more pounds gone. Plus I think when we live with people, they don't notice our weight loss and changes in our body right away, but you are kind of at an advantage, imagine showing up to see him in a month and just knocking his socks off with some pounds lost, and even more so come September. That would be so awesome to make his jaw just drop to the floor. :D

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TDAENE 7/16/2012 2:18AM

    Sounds like you need something to focus on. Like, maybe, a hot new bod to surprise your husband with?! New swimsuit as your reward and a new outlook at your anniversary trip. This is the best time to begin and see what you can do again!

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MLB All-Star Game 5k

Monday, July 09, 2012

Hi all,

I am happy to announce I finished my 2nd 5k. I didn't run the whole thing, but I did run more than the first 5k I did! It was a lot more fun than the Color Run, better organized, neater "prizes" (medal!)! I must keep training so eventually this "Fat Runner" can finish one and run the ENTIRE way! It's good to dream. emoticon

Love ya'll have a great week and keep on being my motivation.
KG

  
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BE-THE-CHANGE 7/15/2012 7:09AM

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MAMALOVEBUG 7/10/2012 7:54AM

    Congratulations on both of your 5Ks!! I was thinking about you last Friday night and wanted to send you a message before your first 5K, but that was when the power went out for days. I've been out of town and have not gotten a chance to really blog or send messages since then. I can't believe you did two 5k's two weekends in a row; that is really awesome! Keep up the fantastic work, you are a powerhouse!

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DOROTHYTOTOOZ 7/10/2012 3:40AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon Way to go!

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GEEKYGRANDMOMMY 7/9/2012 10:17AM

    Way to go!

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RCOGLE 7/9/2012 8:34AM

    Congrats! You're seeing progress all the time.

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DMF2012 7/9/2012 7:53AM

    That's great! Keep trying and you will finish

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DALMOM2007 7/9/2012 7:17AM

    emoticon That is fantastic.

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STEPH-KNEE 7/9/2012 6:55AM

    That is so awesome congrats! I know you will get to the point where you can run the whole thing with one hand tied behind your back! ;) emoticon

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SP Class of Apr 22-28 Challenge/2nd 5k!!

Sunday, July 08, 2012

Hi all,

Happy Sunday. I am at work at 5:30 am and I have been here since 6:30pm yesterday. When I leave here at 6:30am this morning I am going to take part in my 2nd 5k race EVER!!

I live in the Kansas City area and we are hosting the Major League Baseball All-Star game and they do a 5k to benefit several cancer causes. It's still very hot here, (we're supposed to get a break (90's??) starting tomorrow. I know that I will not be able to run/jog the entire 5k but I am stoked about it because..............

I joined the July Challenge for my Class of April 22-28 which is 5 miles a week in July or 20 miles total for July!! I am going to do it too. I wish someone (not you!) would tell me they didn't think I could do it, because I could say "watch me"! I've always wanted to tell a negative nelly to watch me do it (whatever the impossible it might have been)!

I am learning (slowly but surely). : Impossible: is really just :I'm possible: all squished together like. I will blog again tonight on the outcome of the All-Star 5k in Downtown Kansas City Missouri.

Add 3.1 to my total miles already for this month and today July 8th, I will have a total of 9.23 miles so far! Yay!

KG
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SEASONS__CHANGE 7/9/2012 4:43AM

    Still going strong Kathy.... YES!

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DOTTIEJANE1 7/8/2012 12:51PM

    Stay hydrated and get your snacks in . emoticon emoticon

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DALMOM2007 7/8/2012 7:26AM

    Wow Kathy, you're doing fantastic! It's great to see that you're so stoked! emoticon emoticon

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BAREFEETWOMAN 7/8/2012 7:07AM

    well done, i try to increase my exercise everyday emoticon

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RG_DFW 7/8/2012 7:04AM

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STEPH-KNEE 7/8/2012 6:58AM

    You are rocking the mileage in July! I'm so proud of you and so proud of you for doing your second 5k! You are unstoppable! emoticon emoticon

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Measurements/Hawaii

Monday, July 02, 2012

Hello SP world,

I have struggled with the number of lbs I have not lost. I have been on SP and exercising regularly since April 24th. I finished my first 5k on Saturday and while I am happy and am doing another 5k this weekend (walk or run), I am unhappy with the fact that the lbs haven't been melting away. (you'd think in this heat they would!)

So I am trying a new tactic. Today (which for me and my work shift (midnights) is still July 1st) I took my measurements. Hips, Waist, Thigh and Upper arm. I am hoping that on August first, even though I might not have lost a million lbs. that I will be able to see in inches what has been going on. I should've done that when I started I know! I think I would have been much less upset about my weight loss. I WANT to lose lbs. but inches are good too and I need something to be happy about all the time!

I don't know if I have mentioned this before but I have a vacation trip for my 25th wedding anniversary planned to Hawaii in September. I want to be feeling better about how I look, move, feel, etc. by that time at the very least! I am seeing 3 different islands while I am there and I have NEVER been to Hawaii before! I love having something to look forward too. It's SO great!

Hope your day is Happy!

KG
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RCOGLE 7/9/2012 8:32AM

    With the amount of exercise you're doing, you're probably converting a lot of the fat lost to muscle, which is good! So taking the measurements will show you that. Have you noticed any difference in how your clothes fit?

Keep going! The scale WILL catch up. Just don't stop. :)

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STEPH-KNEE 7/8/2012 4:37AM

    I love that you are going to take measurements, and I promise with all that awesome exercise you are doing the scale will catch up eventually, but you can take pride in the inches you are losing in the mean time! That is so exciting about your trip to Hawaii, I've never been and hope to someday. Maybe you can share some pictures from your trip afterwards so I can live through you! ;) Congrats on your 5k btw, that is amazing! :D emoticon

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SEASONS__CHANGE 7/3/2012 10:05PM

    To be quite honest with you, I'm still extremely proud of your awesome achievement in completing the 5K. Think of it like this, what were you doing this time last year? Any changes?

This is how a I gauge my progress in more than just weight loss. When I'm feeling blue about areas in my life that I want to change, I think about how my life was a year ago.

You, my friend, are doing great!



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CINDYSDAY 7/2/2012 4:56PM

    You can do this!!! emoticon

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RG_DFW 7/2/2012 3:12PM

    The scale should not be the final judge of what's happening with your body. Measurements are objective as are certain fitness tests. There will be times when the scale won't move but your body is making changes, nonetheless.

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DOTTIEJANE1 7/2/2012 9:37AM

    Glad that you are taking measurements .Did you change your food tracker when you started the 5k's ? You may need to increase you intake, sounds counter productive but it is not , as you body will need more cal during training and race s. You will see the pounds drop in time just keep on keeping on . Have a great day .5k's emoticon

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