Saturday, January 24, 2009
Sorry If I've neglected my spark friends - but I've been spending some time learning how to use a different set of tools, I mentioned it in my previous blog.
Overall - I think WOW is the word! Before I joined Pete Cohens programme I was in an entirely different state of mind to where I am now. I couldn't believe the amount of weight I was piling on Before Christmas!! I'd been running throughout the year, and my last 10k was at the end ov November when I got a new PB so I wasn't exactly inactive. Then I got a cold - the weather got worse and I got a LOT fatter.
Last year I'd made a decision that I wasn't going to worry about what I ate or track calories - I was going to concentrate on exercising as I only had so much room in my brain/life and that was well basically a hell of a lot more satisfying than counting calories and all that. Besides as someone who cooks her own food I'd have to start weighing and measuring everything and I don't cook like that unless I'm making cakes or something. In essence I didn't want to do it because I knew it would make me miserable, food obsessed and start pushing me into that "I've been good/ I've been bad" mentality. So when I was blowing up like a balloon last month I felt so cornered. I didn't want to do that but it looked like that was what I was going to have to do. I can't tell you how miserable I felt about that. So even after I joined PCTV some of that dread was still there, for some reason I felt it was all a bit now or never. Possibly because I feared I might have to go outside with a towel or sheet pinned around me if it didn't work. Unusually for me I took my time before jumping in, I knew it all made sense and I started to feel a lot more positive as I headed towards activating the programme.
I've found the most relevatory thing to be how fast I was eating in the past , I haven't cracked it entirely but I'm determined to make the eating slowly a permanent part of my life as I've got so much out of it. Why make decent food and not take the time to taste it?! I've also let my underlying activity level slip and I'm tryng to do things to maximise my opportunities to get out of a chair and get out there. There's all kinds of stuff going on outside the office and I'm looking forward to scrumping fruit at lunchtime again ( there's a stack of cherry trees near the railway station - they are great!!).
I have no idea how many inches I've lost because to be quite frank I wasn't going to measure myself before I started. I can tell you that the wool trousers I wore to the theatre on the 21st December wre tight then and I'm having to pull them up so much now that I'm contemplating altering them. My blouses don't gap at the front and my bra wires are sitting on my chest where they should be instead of creating a new suspension bridge.
I do know how much weight I've lost because I just weighed myself. I'm not entirely sure I believe this number because it seems waaay too large. Too be quite frank I think it someone told me that they'd lost this much weight in 25 days I would assume that they had been on a crash diet and that it was all going to go back on and more. But that's not the case. I can't say I haven't been hungry but thats because I was either emotionally eating or sticking to meal times which I think is a hazard for us parents and I didn't always recognise what hunger was. I've got a bit better at it now. So whats the number - well it's 11lb. I'm back into the 13 something bracket and I'm on the borderline of not being obese anymore. I think that's pretty incredible. But it's not what it's about right now. I need to keep moving and learning so I make this tools habits and I'm not there yet.
I'm planning on sticking around here a bit more and continuing to track my exercise as I've found it a really useful thing to do. But my days of tracking are over for good - I think I've proved I don't need to if I use the other tools I've got in my box!