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Day 23 - non-scale victories

Saturday, June 29, 2013

My clothes are more comfortable.

I am in a better mood most of the time than I was before I started this plan.

I feel more present in the moment.

I have more patience with my husband and daughters.

Food tastes better.

Water tastes better.

I've been having insomnia, but when I DO sleep, I sleep more deeply.

I could keep up with my older daughter at her horseback riding lesson today.

I could keep up with my younger daughter at the playground today.

It's becoming easier to stop eating even when there is still food left on my plate.

I am really proud of myself.

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LORI2562 7/5/2013 12:19PM

    Hey congrats to you! This blog made me smile. Hold on to that positive vibe!

The number on the scale is not near as important as all these positives! The number on the scale can only truly be appreciated by you alone. Your family will also gets to benefit from all you NSV's, and that's BIG!

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NOGOINGBACK5 6/30/2013 9:07PM

    And you SHOULD be!! That is wonderful! How exciting! You are clearly working very hard to have so many great examples of the changes you are noticing! I'm happy dancin' with you. Celebrate your success. YOU did this! emoticon emoticon

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It's been two weeks, why am I still fat?!

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Well, the newness has officially worn off of this plan. That doesn't mean that I'm not still enjoying it from time to time (not to mention I have more energy!), but the bloom is definitely off the rose. I'm at that point where I'm seriously trying to sabotage myself. This is BORING! It's not WORKING! Why am I STILL FAT!?

At least, that's how it feels. Of course, I know that the weight I slowly accumulated over almost 11 years isn't just going to fall off me just because I'm finally making good choices. I know this is a new way of living, not a quick fix. I know this is a journey, and I really do embrace that. But that small, evil voice inside me still keeps chanting, "boring-boring-boring-you-deserve-that-bro
-you-loser-c'mon-WHAT'S-NEXT?" I once named that voice Sue. I need to tell her to shut up.

But the miraculous thing is that I'm still here. I've never been this far along in a plan, so I don't really know what happens next. I'm surprised I'm still here. I think the hardest part right now is living with my mistakes and moving on. I was PERFECT for the first week and it was effortless. Now I've slipped up and not tracked or not had enough water and my SparkStreaks are all back to zero days and part of me feels like I'm not really on the plan anymore at all and Sue keeps whispering to me that I may as well give up because I obviously can't do it.

But I'm still here. And I'm going to stay here. And, whatever else has happened this week, I'm still down 10 pounds.

This is not about perfection; it's about change. I am changing. I am making different choices. Not always perfect choices and old habits can die hard, but it's been two weeks and I'm still here.

I'm not going anywhere.

And tomorrow over my lunch break I'm going to go out and buy myself those new shoes I promised myself once I was on the plan for two weeks. emoticon

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SLEEPERELLA 6/27/2013 6:16AM

    Push Sue down and tell her to shut up! emoticon

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Note to self:

Friday, June 21, 2013

When you get home from work after 6 o'clock and immediately inhale 2/3 of a generic-brand frozen pizza because you're starving since you haven't eaten anything all afternoon, you're going to feel like total crap three hours later.

Duty noted, self.

The good news is, I didn't go over calories today. The bad news is, I apparently need to do much better when it comes to planning my meals in advance.

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LORI2562 7/5/2013 12:12PM

    Getting home from work and feeling like I am starving was always trouble for me.

Packing a lunch has always been hard as well, but... I started to make little veggie bags up on Sunday evenings. One for each day of the week. Cucumbers and bell peppers are my favorite. When they are prepared ahead of time and quick to grab out of the fridge in the morning it makes it so much easier. These I eat as I drive home along with a bottle of water.

It helps me from walking in the door and chowing down on the quickest thing I can find, and lets me prepare a proper dinner.

Just an idea! It works for me.

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PJ2222 6/21/2013 10:48PM

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KATEHANSON 6/21/2013 10:44PM

    SOFT_VAL67: yeah, it's totally those hours between 4p-6p where I go off the rails if I'm going to. We just have to move on and not let the falter send us into a downward spiral, know what I mean? Better luck for the rest of this evening! emoticon

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SOFT_VAL67 6/21/2013 10:26PM

    it didnt do me any good, my day went amazingly well calorie wise, until about an hour before i planned to eat dinner, then i wolfed down cereal, peanut butter, a rice krispie treat, and crackers.
and THEN i ate dinner.
i have no idea why, hormonal? boredom? who knows
better luck to us both next time.

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Reflecting on week one

Monday, June 17, 2013

Well, I've been using SparkPeople for just over a week. I'm down 10 pounds! Kind of. It feels a little like cheating since my first official weigh-in was at night, and SP rounded up. But I can definitely say that I legitimately lost 3.8 pounds since last Monday morning, and that feels great! My husband lost 14 pounds! So we're feeling pretty good.

The problem is that the newness of the program is starting to wear off, and of course we're not going to keep losing weight at this rate. So how do we keep motivated after the honeymoon period? I'm not sure, but I appreciate that SP gives us so many different tools for tracking our goals. If one thing is starting to feel stale, I can explore some other aspect of the program. So I just have to keep going.

And I think setting mini-goals will really be a big help, too. My first mini-goal is two full weeks on the program, which I will hit next weekend. My reward is a new pair of shoes! So I have that to look forward to at the very least.

I really hope we stick with it this time. It's hard to be too confident when I have tried and failed and tried and failed over and over and over again for the last 15 years! I've felt this excited about an exercise and nutrition plan before, but it's never lasted more than a couple weeks. This time feels different, but I've said that before, too. So be it. The only other alternative is to give up entirely, and I refuse to do that. So I'll just keep taking this one day at a time, one hour at a time if need be, and I'll keep hoping that this is the time I really turn my life around.

Today's going to be great.

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WVWISHIEFAY 6/20/2013 4:14PM

    I know for me, there were days when I felt like I was one weigh-in from stuffing my face with all the things I shouldn't be eating. I felt like I wasn't seeing enough progress for all the hard work and sacrifice (what, no chocolate!?!) that I was putting in. My husband reminded me that giving in would just make it that much harder to my goal, and take back a little of what I'd already achieved. I had to push through it--keep doing it when the newness wore off. You can do that too! And if you have days--or weeks--that you stumble a bit, use those as stepping stones instead. Learn from them.

Also, the closer I get to my goals (long and short term) the more excited I get...I use that to keep pushing ahead!

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HONEYCART07 6/17/2013 12:42PM

    Congrats on the weight loss it has taken me about 12 weeks to loose 13 lbs. The most important thing you have to keep in mind is that we are all here for you. That is I think the most valuable thing about sp that has helped me keep going all these people her working towards the same goal. We have like minds in what we want to acheive so you have lots to help encourage. Use sp to it's fullest. I use it for receipes ALOT, for tracking everything from weight to food, support we are here for you, and education. The best way to set yourself up for success is to remember this isn't a diet this is a new way of life. You not going to stop once you hit your goal weight or you will be right back here. You have to see that your changing not only your weight, but the rest of your life. That is what has helped me. My success have been very small about 2 lbs a week and some weeks none. OMG have I wanted to quit, but my SP won't let me. I blog when I am feel good and when I am feeling bad both help encourage. When your down people are there to help pick you up and say keep going. When you celebrate we are here to say awesome job and give you a high five. Just remember you are not alone! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MBEHNKEN 6/17/2013 11:09AM

    Spark People is awesome if you use. Good luck.

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