Tuesday, March 29, 2011
After joining WW last Novemeber I am back on my Spark Page. Guess what? I didn't lose ANY weight doing Weight Watchers this time and I think I actually gained. I still think it is a great program but it just felt like too much work for me. Plus, I have figured out that I am not one of those people who can have one cookie, I want the whole darn box. So WW is great at teaching serving sizes and a healthy lifestyle but for us folks who are struggling with an all or nothing attitude, it just helps us stay in denial that we can keep eating the foods that really act like drugs in our bodies.
But Spring is here and so is the panic that I am only able to wear about 1/10 of what is in my closet. I am of course focusing on the diet and exercise components of weight loss but now I find myself also focusing on the mental and emotional aspects.
Questions and ideas I have found myself addressing in my journaling are:
1. How has this extra weight served you? and How has food served you?
2. Love where you are now because if you don't you will continue to get further away from where you want to be.
3. If you were your own best friend, would you berate that best friend the way you berate yourself? So why?
4. Punishing myself and having self loathing hasn't worked so far. Lets try something new!!! How about being gentle with yourself and celebrating even the smallest accomplishments.
That last idea has really made a difference the past couple of days. I find myself congratulating me for eating a healthy dinner and "closing the kitchen" after the dishes are done. It is okay to feel a little hungry and for that I celebrate. I also celebrated pushing past the point I wanted to stop in my workout last night. I am not up to the level I want to be but the only way I am going to get there is by moving forward one step at a time.
Cheers to All!!! More to follow later......