Dad

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

So apparently my dad was hospitalized with a blood pressure of 170 over 110 and they couldn't get it under control... he is out now and his blood pressure medicine is DOUBLED and he could care less.. he now doesn't drink pepsi after 2pm and he isn't allowed to drink red bull.. you know what he SHOULD do!? not eat fast food 5 times a day in portion sizes with enough to feed a football team!!! I wish I could smack the poo out of him and MAKE him change but I can't so until then I am literally watching my father eat himself into a heart attack...

it just gives me that much more a drive to WANT to change! I wish he would take the same initiative..

  

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BGBEAR624 8/17/2011 1:22PM

Oh Kassie, I'm so sorry! Praying for your dad that he comes to his senses and starts taking steps to better his health. Report Inappropriate Comment

MILESOFSMILES11 8/17/2011 12:29PM

I wish your father well. Report Inappropriate Comment

ALICIA214 8/17/2011 10:52AM

It is sad but true no-one can be helped unless they want to be all we can do is be there for them and hope they do see the light. Prayer helps a lot too.I will keep you in mine. Report Inappropriate Comment

Public Enemy Number 1!

Thursday, August 11, 2011

I am so sick of being the worst person in the world because I can't accept a compliment.. I'm sorry if at my weight right now I don't feel or think i am attractive and don't want Jeff hanging all over me poking me and harrassing me.. I had a really bad moment today where I saw a picture of me and it just brought me to a place where I hit rock bottom and I don't WANT to look like this.. which makes me a bad person because "well I don't think you look bad" and "nothing I say is ever good enough or believable"... YES you love me YES looks aren't the most important part of our relationship and YES i love that you are wise enough to look past it but i'm not stupid and i know at 300 pounds i'm NOT attractive.. you are attracted to your wife because of the package i come in.. not the box used for mailing..

  

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KASTASTROPHY 8/17/2011 10:38AM

Brenda you couldn't have said it better!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

BGBEAR624 8/12/2011 12:39AM

OMG Kassie I know people say this all the time but I literally know EXACTLY what you mean. Maybe it's a Greer thing? I KNOW Dan loves me no matter how much I weigh, and I KNOW he thinks I'm beautiful...and I appreciate that more than words can say. But sometimes it feels as though they just don't get it. I BELIEVE Dan when he says that HE thinks I'm beautiful...but I know that society as a whole doesn't agree with him. And more important, I don't agree with him. I can't be blamed because I don't think 215 lbs looks great on me. They don't understand that not EVERYONE knows us the way they do, that so many people don't see the same person they do, because the fat is in the way!! When Dan argues with me about stuff like this it makes me feel as though he doesn't EXPECT anything out of me, like he thinks this is as good as I'll ever be, even though I know deep down that's not what he's saying. Anyhoo...sorry to add my rant to yours but it just hit a nerve LOL...tell Jeff that him and his brother are more alike than they realize. I think we just have to try to understand it from their perspective...if some random person came up and started raggin' on you, Jeff wouldn't take that for one minute. So maybe he feels the same way when you start insulting yourself...? I know that's how Dan feels sometimes (we've had loooong discussions about this very thing). In any case, try to be nicer to yourself honey. I know its not easy, but you need to focus on making yourself healthier every day, and it will pay off in the end, I promise!!! Love you! Comment edited on: 8/12/2011 12:43:04 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

CALUMLOVE 8/11/2011 9:07PM

P.s... Think about Jeff's feelings and how your outbursts are affecting him in the long run. Report Inappropriate Comment

CALUMLOVE 8/11/2011 9:05PM

Feel better now having got it out? Report Inappropriate Comment

It's been a while!

Tuesday, August 09, 2011

I haven't been off the weight lost train i just switched websites to test it out.. not sure which format i like better but regardless I'm not giving up on me!!!! I fully intend to be a healthier and happier person this coming year! 23 is going to be the year of change in my life!!!!

I started a new "program" for weight loss where i printed out some papers to write out my weekly goal, my short term goal, mid term goal, and long term goal! I feel writing it on actual paper makes it more real for me! I also plan to update it on here as well! I fully plan to take back my life one step at a time =)

  

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BGBEAR624 8/11/2011 5:16PM

So glad you're checking in here again! We can totally do this! (I know, I'm just a bundle of positive energy lately huh...so unlike me! LOL) Luv ya Kassie! Report Inappropriate Comment

December 1st

Wednesday, December 01, 2010

Well I FINALLY weighed myself for the first time since before Jeff came home on leave, my vacation to California to visit his mom and thanksgiving.. and i gained 4 pounds even.. I thought it was gonna be WAY worse.. back to making my own meals instead of letting some place make them for me! when i get home from my grandparents in January i WILL be under! no and's, ifs or buts about it!

  

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THENEWSHANNON 12/2/2010 9:35AM

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November =)

Monday, November 01, 2010

So "if" Jeff comes home in the beginning of July that gives me 7 months to really work at losing weight.. and I EXPECT to lose atleast 10 pounds a month!!!! I weighed myself today and i'm still a little up from when Jeff left but thats okay because I'm getting my spark back =) daily counting my food and getting my workouts in!!! Should be smooth sailing from here! (ya because ANYTHING weight loss is smooth sailing... lol!!!) I only plan to weigh myself on the 1st and 15th of every month from now on because i was going crazy weighing myself every day with the slight up/down game

So here is my toast to November 15th and to be down atleast 5 pounds =)

  

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-POOKIE- 11/2/2010 7:11AM

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