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8/9

Thursday, August 09, 2012


clarifying because i was confused!

  
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SPARKLIFE86 8/11/2012 6:05AM

    You are too funny! I don't care what they say...sometimes spite can be the motivator of great things. Next time you can choose between two options, think about her face when she gets a notification at 2am and up pops a picture of you looking AWESOMR! Muah ha ha (that was my evil laugh).

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SANDERSON83 8/10/2012 3:08PM

    Someone said that you blame others for food issues?! WOW! People are jerks! lol. I'm 29 and I COOK! I love to cook! My mom and my grandma both cooked and I LOVE THEM FOR IT!! We all need to take responsibility for our actions and I think you are doing that! You are doing good for your child (who can't make her own choices) and so that's priority numero 1! It's all about baby steps! Don't lose weight for other people...do it for you girl! But I have to admit I've thought things similar to that...I wanna be skinny to show so-in-so! LOL

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STEPH-KNEE 8/10/2012 2:49AM

    I know you are talking to a specific person, but I never thought you were blaming your food problems on other people. I also think that your husband wanted to eat out after he's been away from home for so long is totally normal, and I wouldn't been one to hold him back either because you "shouldn't have it" or anything like that. I totally know what you mean about the cooking and stuff too. My mom never cooked, and I can picture you down the road wanting Adalynn to come home for Thanksgiving and go "I can't wait to tastes mom's amazing ____"... so I totally get it. :)

I also remember you saying you wanted to cook as good as the places out so your hubby would want to eat that stuff too. I totally get it. You are trying to change their minds about eating at home and I think that is a great start. :)

Preach it sister, I totally think there is a huge difference between having a treat, and rewarding ourselves with food. To me rewarding yourself with food is like "Okay, if I lose 5 lbs, I'm going out to the Chinese Food Buffet", things like that. To say I want some chocolate, I am going to have some Oreos, to me that is everyday life. I got myself a small frozen cheesecake, it has 4 servings and it's 300 and something calories per serving. I got that with the idea of once a week, that is going to be my treat. It isn't like "if you do good all week you can have a slice of cheesecake", it's simply a fun treat for me to look forward to once a week, that will be tracked and I will be in my calorie range. It is also helping me maintain a sense of self control. I have certain trigger foods I simply can not have in the house, and I keep those out of the house, but the more I've been in control, the more I've been able to eat certain things in moderation. We have to learn how to do this while living life and ENJOYING life, and I think that is what we are doing and that is why we are in it for the long haul. :) I had the crappiest of all days on Tuesday, but I followed it up with two outstanding days. It's all about balance.



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HAPINANA 8/9/2012 11:40PM

    OMG... You are a horrible person...but, if it motivates you to lose weight I'm all for it..LOL LOL LOL!! emoticon

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8/8

Wednesday, August 08, 2012

today's vlog!!!! food rant

  
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SANDERSON83 8/11/2012 11:11PM

    How did I miss this vlog? LOL. OMG I love the part where you and Gabe both look and you get a mad look on your face and Gabe starts smiling....so funny!! There are awesome choices at chilis! I love their margarita chicken and shrimp! Yeah "my mom makes the best totinos pizza rolls" just doesn't have the same ring to it LOL. So you have an electric stove? I'm trying to get the family back at the dining room (or in our case breakfast room) table! OUT OF THE LIVING ROOM...into the kitchen and living room people! Or backyard grilling!

Breakfast Frittata

Red Potatoes
6 eggs
Feta cheese
spinach (if you like it)
onions

Really you can add almost any veggie and even meat if you wanted to add some sausage or whatever.

mix it all together and pour in an oven safe sauce pan. Heat on stove until bottom half is cooked (do not stir). Finish by putting it in the oven on Broil. The top will brown. It should be dense to the touch...not runny.

Good luck!

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SDCMOMMA 8/10/2012 1:25PM

    From my kitchen to yours - One of my favorite side dishes ever...but you have to like mushrooms. If you don't like mushrooms, you're certainly not going to like this. Ok, so...for those who like mushrooms:

1 can mushrooms stems & pieces
1 small onion or 1/2 large onion, sliced
1/2 large green pepper sliced
1/2 cup of your favorite barbeque sauce
1 tsp margarine

Heat skillet, melt margarine, add onion and green pepper slices, saute until softened (about 5 min) Add the can of mushrooms and the bbq sauce. Simmer 10 - 15 minutes.

This makes 4 1/2 cup servings with nutritional information as follows:

Calories: 70.1
Total Fat: 2.8 g
Cholesterol: 0.0 mg
Sodium: 452.7 mg
Total Carbs: 9.6 g
Dietary Fiber: 2.2 g
Protein: 2.8 g

The sodium is a bit high so if you're watching that be careful.

Enjoy!

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STEPH-KNEE 8/9/2012 3:24AM

    I totallyknow what you mean, you want your daughter to be able to say my mom cooks the best _____. I am so lazy with cooking because I live alone, but I am in love with a sour cream enchilada recipe from spark. People were amazed that I didn't burn the house down haha!!

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HEATHERFREE 8/8/2012 11:27PM

    I love home cooked food....I just wish someone would make it for me, because it tastes SO much better when you don't have to cook it yourself.

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LESSNESS1 8/8/2012 4:33PM

    put trust in god first, hold on to your faith and if food is your problem find a suport group to help you when time are hard ,but you must stop blaming others for you giving in to food . believe me i love food and i m 240 emoticon

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I hate coming up with titles to my vlogs

Tuesday, August 07, 2012

Seriously I have the worst luck ever with vlog titles!!!

  
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ZELDABEE 8/9/2012 10:37AM

    You are too cute - I love the slutty clothes thing and I totally get it, I want my future children to be like...hey my mom was a babe! LOL I have this slutty witch costume (omg I cant believe I'm saying this) that I got last year, I've only wore it once because i felt so uncomfortable - not because of how short it was, but how fat I felt. I wanna be able to wear it and feel sexy. btw - love you too!!!

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HEATHERFREE 8/8/2012 11:07PM

    YES to slutty clothes! At least once in my lifetime I want to get all dolled up! Hey girls lets do that one day have a huge slutty dress up party! lol Just for fun and yes I get the "just get up" "just do SOMETHING" it literally is all in our minds...whether we are going to succeed or not....we have to mentally make the decision everyday to do what we are supposed to...I havent actually exercised in weeks....it sucks. But 2mrw its gonna happen!

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HEATHERFREE 8/8/2012 10:58PM

    I love you!!! I really want us all to get together next year!!!! I wouldnt still be on spark if it wasnt for my little group here

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ANGELSANDYBABY 8/8/2012 4:26PM

    Hi! I enjoy watching your videos and i wanted to come out of hiding, so to speak, lol. You inspire me because you never give up..so thank you!
I want to add you as a friend, and feel free to add me, too.
~Sandy


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SPARKLIFE86 8/8/2012 4:24AM

    ha ha that is so funny! Photos of slutty clothes. Seriously funny.I can picture someone finding pictures of their mom like that. I love it!

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HAPINANA 8/7/2012 10:22PM

    emoticon You are so funny, so cute, so loveable, so special as far as I'm concerned. I'm not sure how old you are, but if I had a daughter, I wish she could be just like you!
You have so much on your plate right now (and Jeff), sometimes you just have to throw up your hands and prioritize. I'm not sure how long Jeff will be at home until he goes (God Bless Him) but I think you kind of have to make him a priority. I can't believe I'm saying this, but this would be a time when you will be put on the back burner just for a little while I'm sure.
Of course your sweet little baby girl is another priority..... I'm not sure what she has going on but Mama needs to be there for her.

You can still do little things here and there for yourself (5-10 min. of chair dancing) and just try to make healthy meals and only have that kind of food in your home to eat. That's a big battle for me ... having "healthy" food in my home only.

emoticon Kassie because I know you have a huge heart and have so much love to give to your husband and daughter. Right now just focus on them as being #1 every day.

emoticon It kind of goes against how I normally feel, but in this case, "maybe" I'm right???

Your concerned SparkyBuddy..Carol emoticon

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STEPH-KNEE 8/7/2012 7:08PM

    LOL @ slutty clothes! I totally understand what you were trying to say with that whole thing. I want to be slutty Cinderella for Halloween just once. The kicker is I don't even want to go OUT in the world looking like that... I even bought a costume on clearance in the biggest size they have (14/16) in hopes that one day I could wear it. But I at least want to have a picture of me in it and to be able to say I was that for Halloween. Just cause I didn't go out on the town in it doesn't mean I didn't wear it lol. ;) So I totally getcha on that one! I could take the pic in the middle of summer and no one would even know. So that is one of my goals hahahaa!!

I totally understand it's hard to make weight loss the #1 priority when you have so many other more important things to focus on, and I think you are doing the best you can juggling all the things you have to do and worry about. :) Moving more would be awesome, and I know you can do it!

You are such a doll! xoxo :D

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follow up video

Monday, August 06, 2012

the embarrassing video after....

  
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HEATHERFREE 8/8/2012 10:51PM

    We all get it.....we have bad days, we are sad some days and we all have had "clueless" men in our lives haha. But as for the people that were telling you that you need to get away from your husband....they just think they are helping you out. lol so yeah, you are doing amazing and I'm so glad you are still vlogging! I need to get on it!

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RUNNINGOLLIE 8/6/2012 10:05PM

    Seems like today is a better day and I'm glad that it is for you! I remember being so anti-social not by real choice because it was so hard to get around and so intimidating to go outside.

It still can be but as you continue to take care of yourself -it gets so much better! And what a cutie you have!!!! it really shows how much you love and care for her and my sister has a 2 year and constantly seems to be following him to tame the mess!

Have a great day!

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STEPH-KNEE 8/6/2012 9:59PM

    First off, you are such a doll, and there is never anything embarrassing about you sharing so much of yourself and your life with us. We all have ups and downs and struggles, and you let us in on a very emotional day. I also know you don't have to defend your husband to us, those that truly know you know he just made a stupid comment at a bad time, and we all do that sometimes lol. I definitely don't think poorly of your husband, men just don't think sometimes LOL. ;) I totally what you mean about your husband not understanding, and it is so true, until someone has lived it, they just don't get it.

The nasty msgs make me want to take names and kick some a$$. What blows my mind is the people who sent you MESSAGES as opposed to comments in my honest opinion are cowards. They did that because they knew the people that truly KNOW you and have been following your journey for some time would have come to your defense, and they didn't want us to chime in. That is how I feel at least. Everyone has an opinion, and that is one thing, but to tell someone they NEED to do something when they don't know the circumstances really rubs me the wrong way.

But I'm glad you are calling out the few haters, and you have so many more supporters then the handful of people who think they "know best" when they have no idea what is going on. I totally understand why you have so many supporters, because you are just an amazing woman. You are someone I wish I could hang out with in everyday life and you are someone I am so blessed to know even if it's "just" on the internet. I am so proud of you in so many ways, not just with the weight loss, but just the person you are. An amazing mother, a great wife, and someone who is going to school to better herself all while trying to get healthier. Seriously, that makes me exhausted just thinking about it, and you are balancing all of that and I am so proud of you!

July did flippin suck, you aren't the only one lol. I know we are all going to have a much better August. :)

I am glad you are finding even little things to do that can make a regular day more fun and more enjoyable for everyone. Isn't that what life is all about, just enjoying our family and everything? So I think that is great. I look forward to seeing your poster boards. :D


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SANDERSON83 8/6/2012 3:47PM

    Don't ask me why it would only let me do that in like 5 different posts...sorry LOL. AMEN if you are gonna be a hater...be proud LOL. August will be better! OMG I have 2 kids and my house is ALWAYS a disaster! Way to be positive! Don't be embarrassed! You are real and that's a beautiful thing!

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SANDERSON83 8/6/2012 3:36PM

    REALLY? I've found that when I say "yep no mail, but WOW our house looks good"....he gets the picture! Love being sent your way girl!

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SANDERSON83 8/6/2012 3:36PM

    It's kinda like when my husband doesn't notice I cleaned the whole house, but does notice that I forgot to get the mail..

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SANDERSON83 8/6/2012 3:35PM

    Just remember to remind him that you appreciate him and you would love if he appreciated your efforts too. He probably doesn't even realize how much of an impact that statement made...dude move.

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SANDERSON83 8/6/2012 3:35PM

    She's a cutie pie...that little beauty beside you! My comment wasn't posted...here's what i tried to post:
Girl it's all about those first steps!! You are AMAZING! Walmart is overwhelming to most of us LOL. MUCHO HUGS! Remember that everyone (especially MEN) have bad days and what I call "dude moves."

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SDCMOMMA 8/6/2012 3:33PM

    Before I even watch this one I would like to say that no matter what this vlog says, I'm just happy to see you on here. Thank you for checking in. Now off to watch the vlog. emoticon

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PICKIE98 8/6/2012 1:50PM

    I do not know your whole story, BUT I can see that you love your family, have regrets regarding Grandma, know now how she must have felt.. but as far as leaving the hubster, heck no,, people have no business getting all up in your face about that fruit thing,,
IMHO, if it was me, I would wait until the house is quiet, the hubs is in place where you have his total attention, and sit down and tell him how you WANT this to be different NOW, but since that is not possible, you are working as hard as you can to get to your goals,, the more support and motivation you get from the close people, the faster you should be able to get where you want to be. HE wants, it, you want it, your doc wants it.. teamwork .. HE knows what that means,, if he is military,,
you get more results with honey than vinegar. Ask him to please be as patient and understanding as possible,, that you are so sensitive to what he(AND others!) says or how he says it, because you are not where you wan t to be, but are trying to make that journey as smooth as possible and you NEED HIS HELP sometimes.. You would do it for him

BTW, Barbasol shaving cream is very cheap at the dollar store!!

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proud moment followed by devastastion

Friday, August 03, 2012

i was so proud of myself yet i end the video in tears... so sick of this!

  
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HEATHERFREE 8/8/2012 10:31PM

    Ima punch him in his face
You are doing fantastic and of course your going to care what he thinks because he is your husband....your person...but things have changed in your lives and you just need to stay on track and take care of you and Adalynn and IGNORE his comments. Just stay with us on spark and as time goes he will change how he acts and he starts noticing the changes in you. Its too soon for HIM to notice anything cuz hes a weiner brained video game playing, meanie with a nut sack! So don't let him ruin your AWESOMENESS!!!!

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HAPINANA 8/6/2012 3:47PM

    Oh Kassie... that was a huge thing you did going to Walmart! Wow, I'm so so proud of you! Jeff just doesn't even think about it like you do! He doesn't really know how an overweight person feels day in and day out... the frustrations we go through! It is so hard, and when we accomplish a "big" thing to us, they don't see it other than what you "didn't" do! They just don't get it!
I hope you make it through this.... it is possible! Be strong and know that we love you and care about you out here in SparkLand!! emoticon emoticon

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ZELDABEE 8/5/2012 6:51PM

    oh Kassie I am so very very proud of you and this about broke my heart, I hate seeing you so sad. Your absolutely right, it shouldn't matter what he thinks but I understand that it does - I'm there with you - it's hard when the person you are sharing your life doesn't see the changes or acknowledge the progress your so obviously making. In your place I could have told him right where is could shove that fruit...remember that we love you and that every step you make towards being healthy is a step in the right direction.

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STOPPLAYING2011 8/5/2012 2:27PM

   


emoticon emoticon emoticon you are doing a great job don,t let no discourage you emoticon

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NAIRAHMAN 8/5/2012 9:25AM

    You are amazing. Never forget that. Let me tell you a story..

I came from an abusive household. My father was not only physically abusive but also verbally abusive... I will honestly admit that I would have taken beatings every single day to have him let go of the verbal stuff... because words hurt for much longer than physical abuse.... It took me 24 years to realize my dad will NEVER say good job to me... he will never acknowledge that I have done something worthwhile in my life, or beat the odds at things that I am sooooo proud of myself for accomplishing. I graduated high school, then graduated college with a degree in Electrical Engineering, got an amazing job right out of college, on the side as a hobby was doing Journalism (and published over 100 articles including an interview with the President of Bangladesh), wrote and published three books... but never in my life have I heard that man say anything to the effect of "I'm proud of you or good job." Normally, it is more like "You are a failure at life." Anyways, 24 years down the road, Irealized if I keep letting people like him ruin how proud I am of my accomplishments... I will NEVER get to be proud of the huge things I have achieved.

You are doing sooooo amazing and just need to remember that what jerk boys say (sorry boys) is irrelevant - because in our hearts we know how big of a deal it was to accomplish what you accomplished. I cant even describe how proud of you I am - it takes so much courage and strength to push through our deepest fears and painful things to get what we need to get done done....

You are so strong and so incredible. I understand how bad it hurts to not have that support from the person you love... perhaps write him a letter and spell out how hurtful it was to you. Maybe he will take it to heart, maybe he wont... but if he doesnt then it's his loss.

Hugs. Keep strong.

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AUDREY272 8/5/2012 8:07AM

  You are such an inspiration to all of us. Be true to yourself. emoticon

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CHASING148 8/4/2012 2:01PM

    ♥♥♥♥♥


I hope you can know and feel the genuine love and support from out here in internet space....You have touched me deeply and I want to encourage you to keep doing what you are doing and being true to yourself....I believe in you.

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LIFEGENESIS 8/4/2012 12:22PM

    HUGS! You do your thang honey, and the rest will fall into place. :D Great job!

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SDCMOMMA 8/4/2012 10:29AM

    You did amazing, not only did you conquer a fear, you completed the task at hand. Seeing you that upset has brought tears to my eyes. I've been following your vlogs since I started back and you always put a smile on my face. You ARE worth all of the hard work you're doing, you ARE worth any and all compliments that come your way. Whether you realize it or not, you are an inspiration to quite a few people. Keep that in mind as you continue on your journey.

If your hubby gets you down every now and again, just pop on here and watch some vlogs or read some blogs, it will make you feel better realizing how many people out there are really pulling for you.

Keep up the amazing work...the farther you go on this journey the easier the steps will become.

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STEPH-KNEE 8/4/2012 7:51AM

    Oh my gosh, I am so teary and I just want to hug you!! That totally broke my little heart and I can understand where you are coming from. I really think that most people who haven't had a weight issue do not understand what it is like... being overweight (for me at least) is physically and emotionally draining. I always think people are looking at me funny, and a lot of the time they are. I totally understand everything and that was a HUGE thing for you to go and do on your own and I am proud of you. There is nothing wrong with you simply wanting a "good job" from your husband. Men are slow and maybe he'll just take longer to "see" all the amazing changes you are making. I hope when you see this comment you are already feeling better, cuz I just heart you! emoticon

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BVALLEJOS5 8/4/2012 1:30AM

  Thats awesome you kept going. Taking it one day emoticon at a time or even one task at a time. You should be proud of yourself emoticon, not only did you do what you did but you went way out of your way to help someone else have a good time (shaving cream.. lol). Awesome idea by the way. And I hate Wal-mart's long lines. I myself dread going there. That is a HUDGE building and I swear its like walking miles to go grocerie shopping. :-)

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CDRFLORES 8/4/2012 12:59AM

    I understand the physical pain and anxiety of "simple tasks" such as this. It really is a big deal. Some people just do not understand. You cannot change them nor their support level. Continue to be proud of yourself. Others who are worthy of you will catch up eventually. Just keep going. emoticon

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CUDDLEY51 8/4/2012 12:57AM

    You deserve to be patted on the back not put down! Hang in there emoticon and life will only get better and easier the more you emoticon

Lean on the support of your Sparkfriends! They can relate and are very proud of you, too!!

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SSHIRLCAL 8/3/2012 11:30PM

    You are awesome

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SWANATOPIA 8/3/2012 11:09PM

    You accomplished a fear and that in itself is one of the most amazing things ever. No one else will ever be able to relate to how you feel with that accomplishment, not even husbands. The fact that you did it and will do it again and again is just so awesome. It's so amazing how when we set our minds on something we conquer...isn't it? You're doing a fantastic job.....keep up the good work and.....

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SPEEDY143 8/3/2012 10:12PM

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emoticonsweetie.... I'm proud of YOU emoticon Next time it will be easier emoticon

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