Tomorrow is the Day!

Friday, October 31, 2008

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Today I picked the picture of two friends enjoying a roller coaster ride because I want to be able to ride on an amusement park ride without the fear of being embarrassed because the bar won't close over my gut. It hasn't happened to me before but I avoid them because I've gotten heavier and I'd be ashamed to deal with the laughs. I want to be able to enjoy myself again.
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Well tomorrow is the date that I will get induced!! I will be a mommy! My baby is coming! I don't know what to say! I am very excited. So I probably won't be posting for a few days.

  

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PUPPYWHISPERS 10/31/2008 10:23PM

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Good Morning!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

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I was thinking that maybe I'd start each blog entry with an inspirational picture. Something that makes me think of all the things I will be able to do or want to do when I lose weight. For example certain clothes I want to wear or certain activities I want to do. Places I want to go where before I was too embarrassed.

Today I picked a a woman who is a bit heavy but looks as if she feels good about herself and still wants to better herself. I mostly picked her because of her shorts. I haven't worn a pair of shorts in years because I'm ashamed of my legs. I hope by next summer to feel better about myself to wear shorts again.
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Today I am feeling better, I ate well in moderation yesterday. The pizza was delicious and I didn't go anywhere over my calorie content. This week has been pretty good so far and I want to keep up the motivation. Keep my head on straight. Doubt is already starting to creep in but I think the way I am exercising is helping. I do it first thing when I wake up. That way the thought of exercising isn't hovering over me all day. I don't like exercising... I am not sure I will ever like it but when I am done with it I feel wonderful. I feel like I have accomplished something and having that feeling all day just feels good.

  

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GINGER0526 10/30/2008 8:54AM

I love everything about your blog entry today! I love the picture you picked and WHY you picked it - I haven't had a pair of shorts on in public in 17 years - not since I was 12!! I love that she's a bit on the heavier side, but still looks healthy and maybe working towards her own goals! :) It sounds like you had a great day yesterday...don't be discouraged - this is an exciting journey and you're going to feel awesome when you reach your goals - just like you do when you get done with your exercise! Report Inappropriate Comment

Better than Before

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Did I feel a contraction today? I certainly felt some tightening and it last for about 30 seconds. It was just uncomfortable not very painful though. My cousins are convinced that the baby will come on Halloween. We will see I suppose.

Anyway I didn't eat too much yet because I plan to have pizza tonight. I mostly snacked on fruits and stuff and drank a lot of water. I do plan to eat in moderation.

I feel a little better than I did yesterday. I feel good about myself. It feels good to be doing something about my weight instead of feeling helpless.

  

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Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Reading the titles of my blog entries one would probably think I'm bipolar. Hopefully people just realize I am pregnant and going through some emotional twists and turns.

I looked in the mirror and ugh. Being pregnant on top of being overweight. I look so gross. I have no idea how my husband can look at me and actually likes what he sees. I just want to cry when I do. The only solace I have is that I am not in the beginning stage of my trying to do better. I've been on this site for a week and I know I have been doing well. I know I've made good choices. After looking at my body I got on my Wii Fit and did 15 extra minutes. I know that sounds like a little, but it's better than nothing. Its better than feeling sorry for myself and drowning myself in cookies. Or pounds of chips, salsa, sour cream and chedder cheese like I usually do.

I worry wondering if I will be able to keep this up. I've tried lots of things that seem promising in the beginning. I get so hyped and motivated but then for some reason I give up. I find an excuse to not do something, or to pig out and then I'm done. I'm afraid I will do this to myself again.


Rambling. I need to stop.


This doesn't have anything to do with this post, but I was reading other blogs and I commonly see an abbreviation "dh" when people refer to someone. What does "dh" mean. If anyone knows please tell me!

  

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VICTORSFRIEND 10/28/2008 10:04PM

Hi there, Thanks for your comment on my blog. I hope you keep your head up and keep going. And you're allowed to feel a little crazy while you are preggo! I really want a Wii Fit! Do you like it? Report Inappropriate Comment

VIOLETTE1 10/28/2008 11:08AM

Awww, feel better! It sounds like you are making good choices and taking care of yourself. Don't be hard on yourself too! I wish you success, VIOLETTE (DH is short for Dear Husband/Damn Husband depending on how good he's been!) Report Inappropriate Comment

I feel like poop.

Monday, October 27, 2008

I am so tired of being pregnant. I just cried and cried today. I'm over my due date and I am so completely uncomfortable. I am still working in fact I worked 13 hours yesterday and I still have to go in tonight. Yes I work the night shift so I have to sleep during the day which isn't restful at all. I would love to go on leave early, but my job doesn't pay for maternity leave. I have to wait until the 31 to even set an appointment to get induced, but every day I hope that I will just go into labor on my own. It is so disappointing waking up like this. I go to bed thinking maybe labor pains will wake me up and then I wake up and nothing has changed.

The only good news is despite my emotional slump I have still controlled my eating. There are lots of naughty choices waiting for me in the kitchen but I bypassed them all. I knew in my head that I'd feel even worse about my day later.

  

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KUNGFOOD 10/28/2008 8:12AM

Remember it's darkest before the dawn... soon all the discomfort will be forgotten and that loving little being will be part of your family. Good for you for maintaining your vigilance in the face of snacks. I'm sending positive energy your way! Report Inappropriate Comment

TALSHIAR 10/27/2008 9:44PM

Hang in there! Before long you'll be using these! Deb Report Inappropriate Comment

CAZ_NR_HEATHROW 10/27/2008 5:59PM

Hi there I think someone needs one of these............... Look after yourself, baby will be here soon enough Luv Caz xx Report Inappropriate Comment