Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Reading the titles of my blog entries one would probably think I'm bipolar. Hopefully people just realize I am pregnant and going through some emotional twists and turns.
I looked in the mirror and ugh. Being pregnant on top of being overweight. I look so gross. I have no idea how my husband can look at me and actually likes what he sees. I just want to cry when I do. The only solace I have is that I am not in the beginning stage of my trying to do better. I've been on this site for a week and I know I have been doing well. I know I've made good choices. After looking at my body I got on my Wii Fit and did 15 extra minutes. I know that sounds like a little, but it's better than nothing. Its better than feeling sorry for myself and drowning myself in cookies. Or pounds of chips, salsa, sour cream and chedder cheese like I usually do.
I worry wondering if I will be able to keep this up. I've tried lots of things that seem promising in the beginning. I get so hyped and motivated but then for some reason I give up. I find an excuse to not do something, or to pig out and then I'm done. I'm afraid I will do this to myself again.
Rambling. I need to stop.
This doesn't have anything to do with this post, but I was reading other blogs and I commonly see an abbreviation "dh" when people refer to someone. What does "dh" mean. If anyone knows please tell me!