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Getting back on the wagon...

Monday, March 22, 2010

I've been very frustrated lately with the crowds at the gym and it has been very difficult to motivate myself in going. Instead of going 3-4 times a week, it's been a struggle to get there even twice a week. I know that sounds trivial, but I am very much a creature of habit and the slightest variation in my routine tends to throw things way off kilter. The mass amounts of people, crowded machines, waiting for a spot for my children in the kids' area, broken equipment, etc. have all drained the excitement out of me.

I'm ready to get back on that wagon. I'm ready to re-stake my claim in the gym. I'm ready to get back into the swing of things.


reached my goal...

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Now that i've reached my goal, what's next? My body still needs some "fine tuning", but I don't want to push it. Will I just know when enough is enough? Will my body automatically find it's ideal notch on the scale and stay? Although I'm excited to enter maintenance mode, I don't want to be comfortable again. Or find myself so comfortable that I lose the motivation I strive for daily. Things to ponder.....

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TEXASGIRL48 1/16/2010 11:23AM

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DENNISBISHOP 1/16/2010 10:33AM

    Be careful with the word "maintenance" mode - it is often perceived as "coasting", or "idling". This got me into deep trouble! I have found that one needs to be aggressively maintaining all the success that has been achieved during the "program" mode. Achieving a health goal is far different that achieving many other goals (graduation, a raise, etc.). Health goals are the start of an education to remain healthy. I congratulate you on your success - now comes the time to live your dream, with aggressive maintenance.

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1 pound to go...

Sunday, November 08, 2009

I woke up this morning and weighed myself as I usually do on Sundays to start my week. I realized that I am 1 pound away from hitting the 120's. I can't even remember the last time I weighed 120 + something. As best as I can remember I went straight from a Junior's size 5 to a women's 8/10 right after I got married a little over 11 years ago. This is a great place to be. I am trying to relish every second of it and deal also with my daily choices and the self esteem struggles I have each day. I don't ever want to go "back" to where I was. I want this to my my "new comfortable" weight.

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CHOOSINGLIFE 11/8/2009 8:47PM

    Congratulations to being so close to your goal... I have no doubt you can stay in that place with the new strategies you've learned along the way... emoticon

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new week, new struggles...

Sunday, September 20, 2009

So this week I've not only gained a sore throat & sinus infection, but 2 pounds along with the before mentioned. I have really been battling with my allergies, and haven't had much of an appetite. I have consuming lots of fluids, but haven't been to the gym but once this week and it's reflecting in my weight. I will not be discouraged, because I know that this, too, shall pass. I learned the hard way last fall and winter that working out when you're sick will only keep you sick longer and run down your immune system. My energy is too precious right now to have any set backs, so hopefully this week will prove to be better. I am headed to the gym in the morning if only to walk the treadmill slowly. At least it will be something.

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NICTWISTER 9/25/2009 9:19PM

    We had swine flu in our house. How about NEW week NEW shoes. Keep blogging. Reading about you helps me not think about food. :)

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Finally....my scale agrees with me!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

For as long as I can remember, I have had a distorted vision of myself. When I was younger, especially in those teenage years, I would look in the mirror and think to myself, "Gosh, I'm really overweight." or "I need to lose some weight." I fell victim to comparing myself and body type to others around me. It wasn't until many years later that I could look back at pictures of myself and see that I was perfectly fine. I may have even longed for those smaller sized jeans, but at that moment I couldn't "see" what others saw.

After many years of marriage, 2 children, and even more late nights enjoying a pint of Ben n' Jerry's Fudge Brownie, I could easily look at my reflection, turn to the side, suck in my gut and think, "See, it's not that bad..." or "I'm not near as big as so & so." I realize now that I was compensating for something else. And still falling victim to comparison. It wasn't until Summer 2006 that the light bulb went off. I changed my perspective, goals, and expectations. Once and for all I stop comparing myself, my eating habits, my height or weight to anyone else. I started to lose the weight for me....not anyone else.

Most recently, the last 8 weeks have been life altering for me. I have broken through those last few brick walls that have kept me from my goals. I have been able to overcome the voices of guilt when I don't make the choices I should. I have been able to finally see the person in the mirror for who she is and love her no matter what. These days, the scale reflects all the hard work, determination, and will power I have put into my goals. I can't complain and have been happier with my accomplishments than I have been in a long time. By no means do I feel that the battle is won, for I know it's a day to day fight. The war within myself is a life long one. It's one that I have to prepare for every morning and decide before hand the choices that I'm going to make in the day ahead. I have to decide that the scale is no longer my enemy, but a useful tool to help me measure my progress and setbacks each day. I welcome the time I get to spend with my scale now, instead of running from it or pretending it's not there ;)

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DANABLACKRN 9/10/2009 10:55PM

  Congratulations! Changing the mind-set is the first battle. I am still struggling with that myself, but I am getting there. Your success is inspiring. Keep it up. emoticon

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