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The Little Pound that Could...

Thursday, August 06, 2009

I'm down to 258 finally. It was like the little pound that could. He refused to let go despite my running, biking, walking, dancing, prancing! But alas, he finally made his way out of my body. Hooray!

Yes, it's been two weeks since I hit 259. I don't really know what happened, but when I stopped worrying about it, (and actually ate a bit more!) that pound finally came off!

I am having issues with W5D3 of C25K. I can't run the 20 minutes at a time. I can't yet run that mile. By the time minute 10 of the interval rolls around, I'm dying even though I jog at a very slow pace. So instead of the 20 minute run, I split it into two 10 minute runs. I think this weekend I'm going to attempt it running OUTSIDE and not on the treadmill. I think I'm a bit transfixed by the numbers on the treadmill and if I actually get out and run it might help a bit. Who knows?
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And the "wellness coach" is really starting to piss me off. (I am in a pilot program at my doctor's office committing to a healthy lifestyle and checking in each week.) It's like she's just going through the motions with me. She asks me what my "goals are for the week," like they're really going to change much... I'm going to track my nutrition, work the C25K, and try to be as active as possible! Here's a snippet:

"I am interested in knowing what your strengths are....??? What are three things you value the most in your life? Also, what are three things you are grateful for?? Do you have any nutrition/eating/food goals for next week?"

Why does she need to know that? Why is it her business? What does it have to do with my health? I honestly feel more comfortable sharing with you guys than with everyone else. I feel like I'm more of a project for her. I tell her I'm running a 5K and she tells me she's running a marathon. Well, lah de dah, Miss Size Two!

OK, end rant. Sorry.

For the record, the most important things in my life are my health, my family, and my spirit/personality. I'm grateful for all three things too. But isn't that the truth for almost everyone?

In conclusion, I found out that John Hughes died today of a heart attack at age 59. I loved his movies and the loveable losers that managed to win the day. Even as a teenager in the 90s (not the 80s) I related with all of the teens in his 80s films. He didn't look like he was in poor health. It just goes to show that you never know what the day might bring. Live every day to its fullest!


And I rocked it today with the exercise. Water aerobics in the morning and my run and biking in the evening! I got my pretty pedicure and manicure (my reward for losing 20 pounds) and my toes look so pretty!

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THE_NEW_MELISSA 8/7/2009 9:14AM

    Awesome! Looks like you are doing great, so active! I love it! A pound is a pound is a pound. I'm worried too about w5D3, and I have a full week to worry about it. Maybe if I can't make it, i will try to split it up too, and keep working on it :)

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CARISSASOPHIA 8/6/2009 10:57PM

    Try the C25K outside. Especially if the weather is nice you'll like it a lot more, IMHO... although I've never done it on a treadmill myself don't get discouraged if the run feels harder to complete outside. I hear that if you're used to one way, the other way tends to feel unexpectedly challenging, but then if you go back to the treadmill it'll feel easier again?

Also, are you using a stopwatch or a music program to tell you when to start and stop running? Congrats on getting so far into C25K. Last fall I got side tracked and gave up at the point you are at now and I wish so bad I would have finished. I will start it again soon. Good luck!

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PAPER_WINGS18 8/6/2009 8:34PM

    Oh! Congrats congrats congrats on the 1 lb. loss!! You worked hard and you deserve that pound! :) Awesome awesome awesome!

Also, I totally agree about John Hughes. I loved his films, even as an adolescent in the 90s :)

keep up the awesome work! You deserve it.


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WISLNDR 8/6/2009 8:31PM

    Congrats on your pound lost!! Here's to many more!!

Your wellness coach sounds like she's probably reading from a script. I would have a hard time even showing up; it sounds like you could do this over the phone!! (And use the time you saved to do more running!)

Have a great Friday!

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Two Month Sparkversary!

Monday, August 03, 2009

Yay, two months on SP!

I'm having a happy Monday, because my weight is back down to 259 (even after a weekend of wine, go figure!) and I feel so much more relaxed and less stressed after the exam is over and I had some quality trashy reads and beach time.

In July, I've lost 8 pounds and worked out 22 days and 1225 fitness minutes, burning 11,190 calories. That's pretty great despite all the stress and struggle. Sure it's not as good as the 12 pounds lost in June, but I feel fitter, healthier, and more in control. I can run for 10 minutes at a time, about 3/4 of a mile!

For August, I'm going to keep tracking, keep working out, run that mile! I hope to lose 8-10 pounds this month and keep chipping away at my goal!

Oh, and I've booked my reward manicure/pedicure for Wednesday. YAY!

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KNITTINGFROG 8/4/2009 3:57AM

    Woohoooooo, well done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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WISLNDR 8/3/2009 7:10PM

    Isn't it amazing? 8 weeks really isn't all that long a time and yet so many things have been accomplished!! It's exciting! emoticon emoticon

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THREADBENDER 8/3/2009 3:20PM

    Good for you! You are seeing great results...and all of that including your bar exams. You are one powerful woman! emoticon

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YAY: Exam Over! BOO: Weight Gain!

Friday, July 31, 2009

I can't believe I'm awake right now after the week I've had, but I am. I woke up with a dry mouth thanks to the big and salty meal I ate last night. Note to Kristina: You can't handle big meals like you used to. Seriously, two months ago I could have polished off the 1/2 pound burger and sweet potato fries with no problem. Last night, I couldn't finish it all, but damn, it was still a truckload of food!

But I'm elated. The exam is over. If anyone has ever taken a bar exam, it's one of the worst things possible: 2 days, 12 hours, 200 multiple choice questions, 10 essays. I'm already licensed, but I have some potential clients and work lined up in another state, and I wanted to be able to get the work. Hence the torture of two months of not reading a *real* book and trying to cram dozens of ancient legal concepts into my brain. So we'll see. I won't find out the results until November.

My post-exam reward was go to the Harry Potter movie in IMAX last night with my husband, aunt and cousin. I love IMAX movies, and I love Harry Potter. I wasn't in love with the sixth movie, but it was still good.

So I said I wouldn't weigh myself until today, and I did, reluctantly, knowing it wasn't going to be a good result. I've done really well at keeping to my calorie range every day, but due to the exam and stress, I haven't been drinking enough water, I hadn't run or exercised or walked my 10,000 steps (boo, there goes my record!) since Tuesday and of course there was that huge, salty, late night meal and about 6 Diet Pepsis...

Yeah, I gained about 2 pounds, and I'm back in the 260s. Which is saddening because I honestly can't say I've binged or gone too far off track. But it's okay. This is going to be a journey, and like I said in my last blog, I've been spoiled by how easy the first 20 pounds came off. I might need to learn some tips on how to "trick" my metabolism.

Because of the constant studying, I haven't seen friends and family for weeks, and when I saw my aunt, she was astonished and said "YOU'VE LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT!" So, despite the scale, that made me feel excellent. And that's what counts, right?

Tonight is my dad's famous oyster party... he just got back from Canada and he brings back tons of oysters, mussels and smoked salmon and the party is just a calvalcade of food and booze. I'm going to try to do my best to keep away from the hard stuff and make good choices. And this weekend looks like it's going to be a beach weekend! God, I've missed weekends!

Oh! And within the next week I'm going to attempt to run my first mile, and that is awesome!

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THREADBENDER 8/1/2009 7:23AM

    Congratulations on crossing the finish line of this week. 2 lbs. of water weight comes off a lot easier than 2 lb. of fat.....so just hydrate yourself and watch the salt (and booze).

Good luck with your first mile!

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MYCATIZZY 7/31/2009 9:17AM

    Good Luck with the first mile.

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WISLNDR 7/31/2009 8:20AM

    I've been thinking about you a lot over the past couple of days! I'm happy for you that you're now able to breathe!


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No More Torture

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Yeah, I went a little nuts yesterday over the scale, and thanks to all of you kind souls who came around to check in on me and bolster my confidence. I think I'm extremely nervous about the exam tomorrow and Thursday, and I figured the one thing I could count on was losing weight this week because of how "good" I was being.

I need to realize that it's a journey, and it's not going to happen overnight, and I've been spoiled by the 3-5 pound weight loss per week. 1-2 pounds is healthy, and totally acceptable. I've lost a little over 1 pound since last Tuesday, and I need to be okay with that.

I finished W5D1 of C25K with no problems yesterday, which made me feel a lot better. I slowed down the pace a bit. I need to realize that it doesn't matter how fast I run, but the fact that I can complete a training session! A 14 minute mile is okay, Kristina!

Can you tell I'm a kind of impatient person?
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Of course, my lovely husband decided last night would be a great night to get pizza. I hadn't had "real" pizza (i.e. not the extra thin crust frozen ones) since I started SP, so I was kind of nervous. I actually hadn't eaten that much by dinner, so the three small pieces still put me at the bottom of my calorie range. Though obviously the sodium isn't doing me any favors. (It's so difficult to keep below 2800 sometimes!)

And then of course, I had another piece for breakfast... I need to eat somewhat more "whole" for the rest of the day, I think.

So my cliches of the day:
1. Slow and steady wins the race. Or at least completes it?
2. Rome wasn't built in a day. And 100 pounds isn't going to magic itself away...

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KARVY09 7/31/2009 7:51AM

    Thanks all!

Yes, I measure myself once a month, and I'm due for another measure in about two weeks, so hopefully it'll be a good result!

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IRISBLOOMS 7/30/2009 4:27PM

    You are doing great!

Another thing to keep in mind, you are probably losing fat, but you are building your muscles with all the running! So even if the scale isn't moving, I bet its because you are gaining muscle. Have you tried measuring yourself instead of weighing?

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ALMMOM 7/28/2009 11:43AM

    Slow and steady is the key.

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THREADBENDER 7/28/2009 8:46AM

    Take a deep breath......you'll be fine. Slow and steady does win the race. However, "perfect is often the enemy of the good enough". Don't look for all the ways in which your behavior was not perfect. Give yourself credit for your successes......it's a tough week with those exams. Don't make it harder by expecting yourself to be perfect.

Look at it this way....one of the things your learning this week is how "normal" pizza is going to fit into your life from now on. You are making a lifestyle change, not on a diet. And in our culture, you'll be figuring out how pizza fits into that new lifestyle.

We had pizza Sunday night too....and I had left over pizza for Monday lunch. The trick I've learned is to never have pizza unless there's salad......and try to start with the salad to make myself feel full.
You'll do great on those exams....just breathe!!

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Preemptive Strike

Monday, July 27, 2009

As a preemptive strike, I am making a list to keep me motivated to keep going and to dispel those nagging voices telling me to cheat. Here's why I am doing this.

- To make myself proud when I look at photos of myself, and not cringe and put them away

-To keep those thighs from rubbing together when I walk, and to be able to look good in a decent pair of shorts. I gave up shorts so long ago!

-To keep my blood pressure down, to mitigate risks of heart disease and other illnesses brought on by obesity

-To start a family not as an obese woman, and to be an example to my future children

-To run that 5K in September - to accomplish that goal!

-To have more energy and balance

-To be able to walk in a hot pair of high heels for the first time ever

-To wear a swimsuit without feeling ashamed

-To not be the subject of derisive stares on the train, in the stores, in restaurants....

-To start my business and gain the respect of clients... why should they respect me if I don't respect myself?

-To live a longer life and be there for my husband when we're old and gray

I don't want to be this anymore.
I'm DONE being the fat girl.
I'm DONE with food addictions.
I'm DONE with people's disdain.
I'm DONE with killing myself.
I'm DONE feeling like a failure.
I'm DONE with hating the way I look.
I'm DONE with it.


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SARANGEREL 7/27/2009 7:05PM

    Thanks for keeping me motivated just by reading. Great attitude...keep it up!! You can do it.

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KARVY09 7/27/2009 3:51PM

    Thanks all, for all your support and awesome words. I feel a lot better now after completing Week 5, Day 1 of C25K and realizing how far I've come.

I wouldn't be able to do it without all the awesome people on SP!

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LADYSUNBEAM 7/27/2009 12:12PM

    Excellent! I am a believer in putting things in writing, seeing it in black and white, letting your feelings flow. You are so DONE with it that now you are DOING IT!!!

Go gettem!

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THREADBENDER 7/27/2009 11:16AM

    And that's the truth! You are so worth the effort you are putting into this! Remember, nothing tastes as good as healthy feels!

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CITYLOVE 7/27/2009 11:14AM

    These are the words of a strong & motivated woman! Great job! Keep your eyes on the prize (in this case, the MANY prizes you mention!)


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