Monday, July 27, 2009
I had possibly my best week ever, nutrition-wise, on SP. Stayed at the bottom end of my calorie range, ate a lot of healthy "whole" foods, and didn't "cheat" at all, even on the weekend. I exercised 5 times this week, burned over 2000 calories. And I've eaten within 1400-1600 calories consistently for the last two weeks!
But perhaps I was spoiled in my first weeks on SP, because every time I used to step on the scale, I'd show at least some weight loss. So I was excited to do it more than once a week because it brought positive results.
This morning, I figure I've been so good, I was sure to show a loss...
It couldn't be right. And again...
This was the point when I was supposed to the shrug off the less than one pound gain and chalk it up to water retention, fluctuations etc. But then I realized that I had lost so much weight last week, my time of month, and NOW I'm gaining?
So I tried one more time.
Immediately, those horrible thoughts creeped into my mind...
"None of what I'm doing is making a difference."
"I might as well hit the Chinese buffet tonight, since the healthy diet means nothing."
"I've been studying so hard, I deserve to eat what I want today."
"I overate during July 4th weekend, and still lost a little bit, so I might as well go overboard today too."
I don't want to think like this. I know that I FEEL a lot healthier, no matter what the scale says. I can run over a 1/2 mile now for goodness sakes! The scale has been my good friend for the last 7 weeks, and now he's starting to show his sour side, that's all.
So I'm going to do my best to dispel those horrible saboteur voices in my head and stick to the program, but I have a feeling today is going to be the toughest yet...
Saturday, July 25, 2009
I've had a series of mishaps this weekend. I thought it'd be nice to cook my husband his favorite meal last night: steak and potatoes. So I got some great steaks, which I seared and put in the oven to broil in olive oil, peppercorn, and rosemary. Fantastic, except I set off my extremely sensitive smoke detector when I opened the oven door, forgot that I had taken my oven mitt off and when the fuss was over, grabbed the handle of the 500 degree hot pan.
So I ate my steak holding an ice cold beer in my left hand... not drinking it... just holding it!
Ouch can't begin to describe it. My husband was great, and nursed me back to health, with aspirins, ice water, and general love and attentiveness but it wasn't until 2:30am that the pain stopped enough to let me sleep.
So I didn't wake up until 10:30 this morning (I'm usually an early riser) and missed my morning workout. My hand felt a lot better though; I thought it was going to be another day of pain! But I wish I could say that giving up my weekends to the books hasn't been taking its toll on me, but it has. The weather was gorgeous and I wanted to go for a long hike today, but obviously I couldn't because the exam is in 4 days and I have so much to review. I did have to go grocery shopping though, and I decided to make myself a little treat.
Lobster roll, yum! Being from New England, lobster is quite cheap and the grocery store steams them right at the counter for you. I got my lobby and all the other things we needed, and came home to fix my treat, which I had been craving for weeks.
I took two bites and couldn't eat anymore. It was delicious and I was hungry just minutes before. Weird. I don't know what happened. The lobster was live and kicking an hour ago, so it was definitely fresh, and I had only eaten a small breakfast... Huh.
And I'm still not hungry. So it looks like I may be going waaaaaaay under calories for today. Maybe it's a good thing I didn't get to the gym after all!
And of course, I'm procrastinating on Spark, so I better get back to studying. I hope everyone's having an awesome weekend. My weekend officially begins next Thursday night when this exam is over! I'm going to see Harry Potter in IMAX and then spend as much time outside as possible.
Peace and good eats,
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
I woke up today not feeling the best. My tummy was a little upset (perhaps from the two glasses of wine the night before? I budgeted calories for my little indulgence, but in the last two months, I definitely can't handle my liquor like I used to!) and I felt very dehydrated. And of course, Aunt Flo came to town. But I was determined to run W4D2 of C25K this morning, so I could have the rest of the day to study and be basically sedentary. So I made a balanced breakfast, drank 3 glasses of water, and figured I'd be good to go...
Wrong I was.
I just found every stride so much more difficult than on Monday! I barely made it through my first 5-minute run, and only ran 2 minutes of my last 3-minute run and 3 minutes of my last 5-minute run. But I wanted to quit, but still pushed through and finished with a very brisk walk and finished off on the stationary bike.
(Tangent: Also, wondering how many calories I'm actually burning, because though I definitely did less running this time, the treadmill only showed a 20 calorie difference. How can that be?)
But yeah, moral of the story, I should have listened to my body and taken the day off, maybe just kept it to a brisk walk or cycling. I also planned to do Zumba in the evening, but postponed it. I just felt so triumphant about my scale and fitness victories that I wanted to keep that high going, but I gotta remind myself I'm no good if I'm overtired and ill. I felt better as the day went on though, so thank goodness for that.
But it's OK. Every day isn't going to be the best day. But every day brings a new lesson and something to take with me in my journey!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Tomorrow will be 7 weeks since beginning my Spark Journey, and I've lost nearly 20 pounds. I'm so proud of myself, and for once, I feel like I can do this, one day at a time. I've read the stories of so many inspirational people who've fought this fight, who have found so many creative ways to drop the weight. I salute all of you for your strength, determination, willpower, and downright awesomeness!
And I feel so good. So amazingly good. I don't feel deprived at all. (I just had a delicious dinner of chicken, rice and wine!) I've heard of a "runners' high" before, but I never thought it would be me that would have it! I want to keep it up... I need to keep going... I'm going to make myself proud.
I joined the Lose 50 Pounds By New Year team for a bit of accountability. I've shown I CAN do 10 pounds in a month, so let's do it!
Monday, July 20, 2009
My Sparkbuddy WISLNDR mentioned a good idea recently: to think about how much certain items weigh and then realize you're no longer carrying them on your body anymore. I recently learned that a gallon of water weighs 8.35 lbs. So at a 17 pound loss so far, I've lost about two of those gallon jugs of spring water from the grocery store. If you've ever had to lug one of those up the stairs to your apartment, you'll know that it's a challenge to carry that much weight.
I was carrying that weight, and now I'm not. Pretty cool, huh?
I noticed a lot of people have rewards for reaching goal weights, and while yes, my goal is to lose a lot of weight, I resisted to doing rewards because the main purposeis to change my lifestyle and get generally healthier. But the more I thought about it, the more those juicy incentives along the way appealed to me, so I just added my goals and rewards to my profile:
Magic Numbers, Significance, Rewards, and Date Acheived:
259 - 20 lbs, 25% of 199 goal, MANI-PEDI
249 - 30 lbs, Closer to 200 than 300, YOGA DVDs/COOKWARE
247 - 32 lbs, Not "morbidly obese," DONATE TO CHARITY
239 - 40 lbs, Halfway to 199 goal, MASSAGE/FACIAL
229 - 50 lbs, Halfway to -100 goal, HOT NIGHT OUT
219 - 60 lbs, 75% to 199 goal, DIVING LESSONS
207 - 72 lbs, 90% to 199 & Lighter than husband!, NEW CAMERA
199 - 80 lbs, 199 Goal!, TRIP TO GREECE
185 - 94 lbs, Not "obese," NEW CLOTHES, DONATE TO CHARITY
179 - 100 lbs, -100 Goal!, TRIP TO VEGAS FOR 30TH
155 - 124 lbs - Not "overweight," BRAND NEW WARDROBE
Pretty cool, huh?
Other than that, things are pretty much the same. I ran almost a half mile today in W4D1 of C25K, a full five minute interval. It was tough, but like every other week of C25K, it seems to magically get easier! I'm doing well with nutrition tracking too, keeping within my range or below (some days I'm just not hungry!) I'm continually amazed at how much I can eat and still lose weight. Today I ate English muffin pizzas and a ham and cheese sandwich and a dinner of meatballs and mashed potatoes, and a ton of snacks to boot, even a couple of cookies!
I can feel "less fat" on certain areas of my body, especially the area below my boobs and above my waist, which is awesome. My husband is noticing changes as well. I've already lost 1 lb since last Thursday, which is great, but I'm not expecting a fabulous weigh in this week because it's that TOM, but we'll see.
Still studying... exam in 8 days... sigh...
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