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Vigilance Fatigue (A Fancy Way of Saying ... Tired of Being so Good!)

Thursday, July 29, 2010

If that blog title is a mouthful, then you should have seen the original title of this blog: Food Consciousness Vigilance Fatigue, but that vaguely reminded me of Master Shake's (of Aqua Teen Hunger Force) coined phrase for birthdays: Spirit Journey Formation Anniversary.

How appropriate that I'm drawing inspiration from a talking bag of fries, a milkshake and a meatball.



So yeah, basically it means that this week I've been super tired about being so good about my food choices. And it shows. My calorie range right now is 1450-1750 and I've been eating around 1600-1750 for the last few days, squeezing stuff in. It's not good, especially since a hectic work schedule (I'm leaving for a long weekend this afternoon and don't have to come back til Tuesday! YAY!) has messed with my exercise schedule as well. I'm going to need to do tons of walking and running this weekend to hit my 4000 calorie burn for the week.

For the first time in a long while, I've had the urge to "just eat" without thinking. No, not binge or go crazy at mealtimes. But not have to think so hard every time we go to a restaurant or over to a family member's house. I feel like I'm always going "OK, I've got 500 calories left for the day!" when I know I should just relax and enjoy my meal.

Those urges coupled with the onslaught of "You should stop losing weight" comments? Really dangerous.

And I'm recognizing it right now.

This has been the longest (almost 14 months!) that I've ever made a sustained attempt to lose weight. My hard work has paid off, as I've lost almost 100 lbs in that time. But I'll admit it. I'm getting food consciousness vigilance fatigue. I'm not getting tired of healthy food. I'm not sick of exercise. Thank goodness. But I admit that I'd love to go and order a nice meal once in awhile (not necessarily the healthiest on the menu) and just enjoy it without worrying about calories. That said, I don't want my habits to veer toward maintenance, not weight loss. I've been working out really hard in July and the end result will probably be a 2-3 lb loss for the month.

I need to recognize that I'm not obese anymore and the 8-10 lb losses per month that I had at this time last year just aren't going to happen but that I can hopefully keep losing at least 1 lb per week on average. I need to remember that I've got about 28 lbs until I hit a "healthy weight" of 154 and with hard work I can probably make it to "healthy" (or close) by January 1, 2011.

I also need to remember that I was hardly perfect last year when I was losing a lot of weight and while it is harder now, I do want to enjoy the summer as well.

So in short, I gotta keep the momentum going for another 5 months. I think it will become easier when I officially start half marathon training and my fall race schedule. Races keep me focused on track. I have a 4.2 mile race next month. I want to do the Race for the Cure in September, which was my first 5K, and I'd love to do it as close to 30 minutes as possible. I have a duathlon in October. And the half marathon in November.

Aaaand, I'm peeking at marathons for April/May. This is a scary thing to me, but I know I want to do one and I know that next spring will be the best time to do it because I'm like 80% sure that I want to start trying for my first baby next summer.

I know, big stuff, right?

So I'm out headed for a long weekend at the beach/mountains this afternoon and will be back on Tuesday, absolutely ready to kick butt and get into the 170s in August with some new goals. I'll probably track most days this weekend on my iPhone, but we'll see. I might just need a break. As it's supposed to be the coolest weekend so far this summer, I do want to tune up the bikes and go for a lot of rides and get my 8-mile run in! So there will be plenty of activity, but I may not be so food consciousness vigilant.

#1 in the hood, G.

  
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JULIA13AT27 9/21/2010 3:35PM

    I feel like that every few weeks of calorie-counting, and then I usually give it up. This time I'm trying to just take a day or two off and get back to it. Sometimes counting every single calorie makes me really anxious - and sometimes it's fun. I think it's okay to take a break from counting every now and then if you watch your portions and eat healthy stuff. Sometimes when I go back and do a quick mental count at the end of the day, I find I haven't gone over my calories after all.

Also, try not to let people's comments about you losing too much weight get to you. People said this to me when I first lost weight (weight I've gained back, oops).. although I went from an overweight BMI to the upside of healthy - I overheard two of my uncles saying I was now "anorexic" (so not true!). Then, I'd feel like, wow, guess I'm done losing weight now - and I never got a healthy balance.

Just focus on YOU. And your balance and what is normal to YOU.

Thanks for the inspiration :)

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CHAOSDAD71 9/9/2010 10:02AM

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PERSONALTRNR 9/8/2010 9:18PM

    I've had those moments, but when I'm tempted to stray I think "why would I want to put that food into my glorious body", sure it might taste good for the first bite or two but I can guarantee if you have been eating well then it might not sit so well with your stomach to go off course. Do what you need to do but sometimes staying the course feels better anyways.

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GIRLOBILL 9/7/2010 10:10PM

    I can totally relate. You've come a long way - congrats. I'm realizing that I need to get back to being vigilant again. :(

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ANNROBERTS54 9/6/2010 12:53PM

    I have the same problem all the danged time. Good luck with solving it.

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CNIANE 9/6/2010 12:09PM

    I imagine that what you're feeling is very normal. You are doing great, cut yourself some slack and do what you know and feel is right. Hope you're having a great weekend.

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CNIANE 9/6/2010 12:09PM

    I imagine that what you're feeling is very normal. You are doing great, cut yourself some slack and do what you know and feel is right. Hope you're having a great weekend.

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PPCM_SURVIVOR 8/5/2010 12:00PM

    You are doing great! How exciting that a baby may be in your future next year :) They are little miracles! Hope you had a great mini vacation!!!

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PSSN4FITNESS 8/4/2010 11:08AM

    YES YES YES!! This basically reads like my July! Except I was even worse than you, I stopped tracking. While I managed to lose some weight by miracle and by Jillian Michaels, I know that I can't slip into a maintenance framework quite yet. I have enjoyed being more relaxed, but I do think that tracking is very important. I am going to try to not be so hard on myself, but still keep up with my tracking.

Thanks for giving me inspiration to do the things that I know I need to do!

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CINNAMONGURL06 8/3/2010 1:59PM

    By George you hit the nail right on the head! This is what I have been feeling (only a mere 10 weeks in- no comparison to your 14 months) but I just didn't know what to call it!

I, like you really, really want to get to my goal weight and maintain a healthy lifestyle from here on out but the counting, measuring, tracking (and for me- even the exercise) have become a bit overwhelming, frustrating, cumbersome (at times) to maintain- I just want to be able to accomplish my goals without feeling like I am always stuck on a short leash!

I know there is balance in all this somewhere and that is what I am struggling to find right now. I started with adjusting my mini goals for the remainder of the year to be what I consider more realistic and attainable- so we will have to see how that goes by the end of August- additional tweaking may be necessary?

Anyway, thanks so much for giving my problem a name and also for sharing because now I don't feel like such a dork that I have this issue- apparently others suffer from it too! It is helpful to not feel alone, as all of us Sparkers have come to realize.

Thanks for another awesome post!

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RUMBARACH 8/2/2010 1:33PM

  Thanks for writing this!
I can relate so much to what you are saying. I got to the same point, but unlike you, I couldn't recognize it for what it was. I was listening to the 'haters' that kept telling me to stop losing weight. I gave in to myself when I was so tired of tracking, tracking, tracking.
I'll tell you what it got me: back in the same place that I began. Now, I have to get back on track and start over. I really hope I can find the balance this time. I love reading your blogs :)

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NACHOSMAMA 7/31/2010 9:58AM

    It's great that you recognize what's going on before you get to the point of giving up. Perhaps you need to shift your focus from being calorie conscious to being more fuel conscious (especially if you'll be increasing your activity with training)?

Whatever you do, don't let yourself get discouraged, just shift your focus. You can do this!


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DJS-DEBBIE 7/31/2010 7:07AM

    Have a great weekend! Good that you recognized the dangerous thoughts before you did any damage (wish I did).

I am definitely setting some new goals for August. Time to start putting me first again.

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CHARLIESANGEL10 7/30/2010 10:13PM

    Love this blog! Have a great time. I say you give yourself permission to have a cheat meal ever so often, so you won't feel deprived...maybe while you're training & burning all those extra calories.

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ALLISON145 7/30/2010 10:08PM

    I think it's amazing that you're just hitting this phase now, dear - you're doing awesome! Why not try giving yourself one day a week where you don't necessarily blow your calorie budget, but where you have small, very healthy breakfasts and lunches so you can eat dinner without worrying about the calories? Just a thought. I know what you mean about not wanting to get too complacent and go all maintenance-y yet. You can do this!!

-Allison

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MPALMER15 7/30/2010 12:52PM

    Lol, love the cartoon pic, especially the meatball! Have a terrific weekend!

Melissa

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DETERMINED_SOUL 7/30/2010 11:56AM

    Enjoy!

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FITGRL124 7/30/2010 7:33AM

    Enjoy your mini vacation! I have confidence that you will reach each and every goal! Besides....if it doesn't happen by 1/1/2011 it's not the end of the world so just keep plugging away and you'll get there. I'm sure of it!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KATIEGLEN012 7/30/2010 5:18AM

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TEAWONDERFUL 7/29/2010 11:06PM

    I'm so impressed with your blog. Thanks for sharing so much with us. I can understand getting burnt out on having to think about food all the time. It can get exhausting. I feel like I've been worrying and thinking about food all of my adult life. Someday I hope that won't be the case, but I am a long way from that place. I hope you have an awesome weekend.

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IMSMILEY88 7/29/2010 10:31PM

    I've skipped tracking a few days this week, and it is kind of "freeing". Actually, I'm sure I haven't went out of range any of those days, but I usually am careful that my protein, fat, calcium, fiber, etc are in range. I don't know if they are right now, but I just needed this 'break' right now. (And, I've only been at this 8 weeks!)

You are doing incredible and I think you do need to relax a little sometimes. Not go crazy, but just not be perfect, either.

I hope you have a wonderful weekend!

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TRAVELNISTA 7/29/2010 9:17PM

    You are such and inspiration and role model. Enjoy your mini vaca.

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RIVERCITYTOM 7/29/2010 8:57PM

    Have a great weekend..you deserve it! emoticon

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THREADBENDER 7/29/2010 8:26PM

    We've all been there. But remember: the best thing about this time of year is all of the fresh fruit and vegetables that are grown locally. Just had the best watermelon in a long time that was grown 15 miles from here. And the cantaloupe this year...so good and sweet.

Just trying to give you some other things to think about.

Hope you have a great weekend get away. emoticon

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XHOOSIERLOSER 7/29/2010 6:55PM

    You deserve a break, even if it is just your mind taking a day off. Bet you will be surprised that you still want to choose good foods.

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SUNNYWBL 7/29/2010 5:47PM

    A lot of my friends insist that 1 splurge day a week keeps the body guessing; it also lets the body know there is no danger of starvation!

I think you should give that idea a try, unless you know it would trigger uncontrolled eating! emoticon

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NANCYCA555 7/29/2010 4:39PM

    I know what you mean about avoiding the temptation to mentally shifting gears from weight loss to maintenance. "Food consciousness fatigue" is a real phenomenon. Way to put it into words so we can be aware of it. Good luck to you in your journey. Hopefully, in another couple of years, we'll be seeing pictures of your new, bonnie, bouncing baby.

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LIBBYFITZ 7/29/2010 4:37PM

    emoticonHave a wonderful weekend and eat what you feel like and just do portion control.
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LISAW/3 7/29/2010 4:24PM

    I hear you! I don't know if it is because I've started my HM training (and thus increased my fitness minutes) or something else, but I've been starving and just wanting to eat more. Last night, I wanted seconds at dinner, but I forced myself to stay at the table and finish my water before I went back into the kitchen. By then, the kids had adequately distracted me and I forgot that I wanted more to eat!

But I do have days when I don't track my food. I don't go crazy and eat all the fried or sweet stuff I can find. I just try to use my best judgment and not worry about it. But that is hard to do!

You've kept so many of us motivated, I hope you can get what you need to keep up your own motivation, too!
Good luck with your training!

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WHGRN60 7/29/2010 3:41PM

    I know exactly what you mean. Why can't we be like "normal" people, who just eat and dont' think about it and are at a healthy weight? It's not faaaaiiiiirrrr!

But the results make it all worthwhile...don't they?

Have a great weekend!

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CARLA-216 7/29/2010 3:15PM

    Haha! I love both the title you used as well as the "Food Consciousness Vigilance Fatigue" one. I like playing with words that way. :)

I think it's normal to feel the way you're feeling, and I guess the trick is to be aware of it and to know when to stop the indulgences. A bigger meal on occasion (as often as you deem is okay for *you*) that is not with your normal parameters may actually be a good thing for shaking up any boredom you may be feeling, as well as igniting the metabolism fire.

I hope you have a wonderful long weekend!

~Carla~


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WEEZBUG82 7/29/2010 2:10PM

  So, my take on the whole thing is - if your mind is telling you need a slight break (and the guys from Aqua Teen Force are too!), then a small break from nutritional viligence is what you should have! My guess is, if you enjoy yourself this weekend without a care as to what the exact nutritional count of your food is, you'll come back on Tuesday more refreshed to continue on your journey. Enjoy! :)

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ONLY1TAN 7/29/2010 1:59PM

    So I have just skimmed for right now due to time so I just wanted to say something really quick. I totally know how you feel definitely when others in your life aren't doing the same thing. On Monday, Nick wanted to go to Uno's (I had never been or had deep dish before) and since I normally have to pick where we eat based on what I can eat, I let him have his Uno's. I regretted that after I ate. 1550 calories in 2 SMALL pieces of pizza...was it worth it? OH HELL NO!! I just have to remember why I am doing this and get myself through the patches of "hey let's not track today," "oh that isn't too bad for me," ect...

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TEAM-SARAH 7/29/2010 1:40PM

    I know how easy it is to get complacent when you're closer to your goal. You're not obese anymore... yay! time to eat like a normal person! oh... not quite haha. Sounds like being just simply on the high end of your ranges is nothing to worry about though. You're doing great and staying within your limits. I don't think there's anything wrong with an indulgent meal sometimes. Sometimes you should just go and order what actually sounds the tastiest on a menu. Just not every day. You are amazing and super smart so I know you'll find a good balance that works for you.
Congrats on entertaining the idea of a marathon. Suuuper exciting. Do you think it will be good for the Spring? I had considered doing another in the spring and then thought about the long running I'd have to do in the winter. It's freezing and snowy and I probably don't wanna be running much more than 45 minutes to an hour outside in that kind of weather. On the flip side... that might motivate you to keep running all winter when you'd normally let it slide a bit.
I'm sure your motivation will be back in no time!

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KYMMC3 7/29/2010 1:27PM

    Have a great long relaxing weekend my friend!

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SASXONTHEMOVE 7/29/2010 1:24PM

    Sometimes its good to let down the guard. Don't take that as go diving into whipped cream deep fried in butter and drizzled in ice cream with 3 pounds of red meat on top!!! But you have to enjoy your life. You also have to be able to enjoy food, just for being food. Sometimes that's hard. Especially when we are so conscious of what we put in our bodies. So I say, enjoy a meal or two. It will not set you back (unless your meal or two turns into a meal or hundred) and you've gotten a treat, enjoyed it and know that you can have it again, some other time.

Good luck!!

Almost 100 pounds gone!! Amazing!

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THEQUEENBEE333 7/29/2010 1:13PM

    Hang in there, I think we all hit that point sometimes - depending on lots of things going on in our lives... have a few not so good days to relieve the pressure - and then go back to it... Congrats on 100 lbs! That is awesome. I have 55 lbs to get to a healthy weight. Ugh. Feels impossible, but you inspire me! Keep it up!

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ATTACKFATCAT 7/29/2010 12:51PM

    I agree with the others that you deserve a weekend break, but I'm sure it's a scary thought when you've been so vigilant with your foods for so long. But it sounds like you are really thinking it through, and it sounds like you're ready for this. Not only have you worked so hard to lose the weight, but you've worked hard to be able to enjoy life more. And sometimes we have to stop & smell the roses along our journey. While the destination should always be in your mind (your goal), you want to learn how to enjoy off-plan foods every now and then so maintenance & not tracking as much will be that much easier.

As long as you are vigilant about getting back on plan after the break, and you don't binge or go crazy (which you noted you have no desire to), I think a break might be just what you need emoticon

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JRIMM4 7/29/2010 12:40PM

    Have a SUPER weekend! And for goodness sake don't stress it! You've done a great job and have truly turned your goals into healthy habits. Those are not going to be undone by choosing not to track food, or not choosing the healthiest menu items - On occasion. Just like you've done over the last 14 months - the key here is to pick back up and keep on going - not to never slack, or never make a not as healthy choice. One think I've been most supprised by in the 3 months I've spent developing my healthy habits, is that even when I slack, those habits stick, even when I decide im not tracking my meal - I sill make decent choices. These are lifelong habits we are creating and at some point *I* think/hope they will be mostly natural. Which means a little bit of 'slacking' will still be healthy and ok.

JR

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PAPER_WINGS18 7/29/2010 12:17PM

    Girl I don't need to tell you this,because you know it- but you, my friend, are awesome! 14 months is a LONG time being consistently awesome at tracking, etc. Every couple of weeks I've tried to go out to a restaurant that I love, and order something that may or may not be the best choice. I don't freak out about it, I just eat until I'm full, and leave the rest there, and then feel satisfied that I ate what I wanted to not knowing the exact cals, and moved on. And I still lose those weeks! For example, my b/f and I went out to this greek diner/family restaurant we like, and I really had a taste for a salad on there. I couldn't decide between 2 salads- 1 with apples, grilled chicken, pecans, etc. lots of healthy stuff basically...The other salad? buffalo chicken salad- breaded chicken tenders with hot sauce, cheese, i dont even know what else, but def. the more fattening pick. All I did was switched out reg. ranch for FF ranch, and I didn't finish all the chicken, and I felt satisfied at the end. I had this dialogue back and forth with myself, "choose the grilled chicken salad bc it's healthier." "oh but you haven't had chicken tenders in a while!" back and forth, back and forth. I'm glad I went with the "devil" salad because now I haven't been craving breaded chicken! hehe.

I say you allow yourself at least a meal every couple weeks to just not worry about it- yes, still be aware and don't go crazy, but just go for it! If we're constantly worrying about the darn numbers(scale, inches, calories, fats, protein, fiber, exercise minutes........) we're gonna go nutso! If this really is a lifestyle change, we're not going to be perfect every meal of the day. We still want to enjoy social gatherings and sometimes we just need to "let loose" so that we don't feel constantly angelic or constantly perfect....because that's not realistic, and that's asking for a big ole' bingefest.

You have done AMAZING on this journey, and you're such a beautiful person inside and out; I feel lucky to have "met" you! You will hit that "healthy" range in no time, and will rock out maintaining!!!

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MOCOHOLO 7/29/2010 12:07PM

    Kristina - I'm a little late on the commenting train, but still want to add my support. I'm so proud of you for recognizing your fatigue and admitting that it's causing you some angst right now. I feel whiny like that from time-to-time too. Just trust yourself and know that this will pass and even if you do decide to indulge a little (whether you track it or not), it's not going to derail you because you are SO strong and committed to your goals. Enjoy yourself and your summer. We'll all be here to support you no matter what! Hugs, Michele

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SAMSPARK1 7/29/2010 12:06PM

    It does get tiring to be so mindful of food choices for sure!!! You have come so far in the past 14 months!!!!!!!!!!! You are committed to your journey and I think it's okay to give yourself a break from time to time in terms of a meal or two here or there, as long as it doesn't turn into a "full blown relapse".Your clothes/scale will show if you are loosening up too much.

You are so close to being at your goal and have done awesome!! I believe that you will get there!!!!!!!

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GRACEISENUF 7/29/2010 11:44AM

    Been where your describing..in fact I'm there. Thanks for encouraging me to continue to "track" my food. It's the pits at times to have to track every morsel and be at the "500 left for the day" scenario, but you and I know it works and we WILL reach our goals.

Hope you have an amazing trip to the mountains/beach and that your time spent there is filled with LOTS of fun and laughter!

hugs,
J

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THESHRINKINLADY 7/29/2010 11:37AM

    I know EXACTLY what you're going through. It seems you and I are about neck-and-neck with our weight loss journeys. We have seemed to go through some of the same ups and downs with our food and exercise (at least, from what I've gathered and connected with from your blogs and your updates). I, too, have been going through this "But I don't wanna!" phase. I know I need to and I still do try very hard to make conscious healthy decisions but I'm just tired of doing it.

I just want to not think about numbers, calories, stress about making my ranges, etc. I'm getting burned out on it and it is scaring me because I'm definitely not ready for maintenance mode yet. I also am terrified because I don't want to go back to old habits that got me in the 340's to begin with.

So, the only thing I've found is that if I have a bad week or two (as I had recently), I simply just don't stress about it as stress will only make it worse and harder to lose any weight at all. It still wasn't out of my system so one Sunday I had a bad day. No thoughts about food or what I was eating. I had not had that privilege in ages and it felt great. I bought a blizzard from Dairy Queen (yum!), had some bread with honey and butter (yum!), and just had an epic food day. I only went over my calories by about a 1000 but at the moment, in the moment, I wasn't thinking of that. My body needed it and to be honest, my mind needed the break even more.

*hugs* You will pass this feeling. I promise. It has passed with me (thank goodness) and I'm back to being all excited and stoked about eating healthfully and thinking healthfully.

I hope you enjoy your time away and can get your biking and running in. Perhaps this will be the little break that you need.

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RUNNER4LIFE08 7/29/2010 11:35AM

    Put that trust in yourself. You have worked very hard and now know what your body can do and your limitations. So start putting that trust in yourself and leave the worry behind. You are a changed person (meaning healthy living) and I know for a fact that this new lifestyle is sticking for good. So do live and enjoy your summer! You deserve it!!!

And I know I have told you this before but you are very inspiring to me! Thank you for being such a huge role model for my journey!

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CAITSTERN 7/29/2010 11:32AM

    The fact that you're agonizing not over going OVER your daily calorie range but instead being at the top of the range is silly! Sparkpeople and losing weight and taking control of our bodies/lives/food/activity is totally about CONTROL - but just as our bodies are living changing organisms, there is room for flux. Enjoy a nice healthy meal and build you day(s) around it - I find that on days (like yesterday when I ate nachos at a mexican restaurant) when you splurge, it doesn't necessarily have to mean you've fallen off the wagon. Put it in your tracker!

Let yourself live! It sounds like you've got this in the bag, as another commenter said - but we can't be 100% a hundred percent of the time!!

Enjoy your weekend :)

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BURKEBRIZ 7/29/2010 11:31AM

    Thank you for saying all this because I am there, too! It's been since last April that I started this, but since last June that I was actually focused on eating right regularly. There is a feeling of entitlement almost because i have been so good and I have to get out of that. So, I appreciate your blog now more than ever! Have a wonderful vacay weekend. The beach and mountains--a perfect pairing! Enjoy!!

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4EVERADONEGIRL 7/29/2010 11:27AM

    Oh girl - you know I understand exactly what you are saying. Been there, done that! LOL

You know what - it's OKAY that you are having Food Consciousness Vigilance Fatigue (FCVT! I like it!)...but even more so, it is really good that you are recognizing it as a factor right now.

You've got this thing...and you STILL got it even if you just let go and enjoy a meal once in awhile. You know, and we ALL know, that it doesn't mean you are slacking or blowing off a healthy lifestyle. It is living in the moment, enjoying the payoff of all your hard work, and just having fun not worrying for a little bit.

You are like a SparkPeople Wonder Woman Goddess Galore! And you are STILL all that even if (i.e. WHEN) you enjoy a meal without worrying about how many calories you have left to spend in a day.

Thank you for being human and thank you for sharing with us because it is so motivating to know that we aren't going through these things alone!

You ROCK girl - now get out there and have an awesome long weekend!!

(Side note - MARATHON!!!!! How exciting that you are going there...and perhaps you will inspire me to go there with you!!! But at the very least, you can count on me to be your biggest cheerleader when you do it!)

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KITHKINCAID 7/29/2010 11:09AM

    "But I admit that I'd love to go and order a nice meal once in awhile (not necessarily the healthiest on the menu) and just enjoy it without worrying about calories." - Kristina - you can. Just do it. It will make you feel better and then you CAN get back on schedule for running races and losing a pound a week and all that stuff. YOU - of all people, have this IN THE BAG. You know your stuff, you're disciplined and diligent, and you're not going to let one nice meal ruin what you've got going for you. Eating one nice meal and not worrying about calories is not going to put you in maintenance mode right now, because you're not ready for maintenance mode. But since you've made a lifestyle change, you're not always going to be counting calories for the rest of your life either. The hope is that we can all get to the point where we're not tied to Spark Tracking for the rest of our existence, but that we can pop back on here once in a while, download a day and check that we're still where we think we are. Try not to get so caught up in setting dates and making plans and having to be a certain weight by a certain time. You're doing everything right and it WILL come off - nice dinner or not. I sincerely hope you enjoy your long weekend - be vigilant in your enjoyment and in living in the moment and the good habits you've already built for yourself will follow suit.

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SUGIRL06 7/29/2010 10:48AM

    I know what you mean! I am pretty liberal with my "always eat healthy". When I go out to eat (which isn't often), I order something that is reasonably healthy but I also order what I want. I'm not going to get a salad if I don't want it! Some days I get pouty and do whatever I want! Its not going to hurt my entire lifestyle but sometimes you just get tired of being good all the time. It happens! Relax this weekend. Have a good time and then come back ready to go again!
~Ang

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Having a Day

Tuesday, July 27, 2010



Snapped this photo waiting for the bus this morning. Yeah, that about sums it up. I look like one bad mofo. Nobody on that bus gonna mess with me.

Didn't feel all that this morning. Snoozed the alarm with impunity this morning and didn't get the scheduled exercise in. Blah.

Got into work. It's 95 degrees outside and it can't be more than 50 in this office. I'm so cold!

Found out my grandfather fell en route to the bathroom at 5am and basically ordered my tiny 120 lb grandma to lift him rather than call for help. I wish he wasn't so stubborn! He's got Life Alert and a telephone, but he didn't want to wake us or wake the neighbors with an ambulance. Sigh. Wish I wasn't glued to this chair so I could help them out today.

Had totally planned healthy eats today and find myself having a hungry day... craving bad foods. Thought about ditching the salad and getting myself a nice hot sub with lots of gooey cheese and eating it in the warm sun to up the body temperature a little bit.

So what stopped me?

I caught a glimpse of myself in the elevator mirror and I swear, for a split second, I didn't recognize myself. "Who is that skinny b****?" I was looking pretty hot, if I do say so myself.

Cheese-covered footlongs do not a skinny b***** make.

Thank you, elevator!

Ever have something snap you out of your cravings or unhealthy triggers?

  
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PANFRIEDTROUT 8/1/2010 6:19PM

    just came across your blog today ~ hope Granpa is OK.

how cool is it that when faced with the possibility of being self*destructive, you choose to be healthy .... even if it was because you saw your reflection & realized how good you look. sometimes i'm not so sure that the reason behind why something happens (or not) is as important as the thing itself.

sadly, at this point (only been doing this a monthy) if I have a craving, the odds are pretty overwhelming stacked to giving in.

gratz on your journey thus far & ty that you chose to share your day!

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FITGRL124 7/30/2010 7:31AM

    emoticon Sometimes mirrors can be tricky things! Glad it helped your day! emoticon

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CARLA-216 7/29/2010 3:16PM

    Love the pic...fits my mood for today!

I hope your grandparents are doing better.

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JBOWDOIN02 7/28/2010 2:31PM

    I hope your grandparent's are doing better. My grandfather had back surgery last year and refused to let us help. My poor grandma was stuck on her own for a bit until we finally stepped in. He wasn't too happy about it, but he got over it. I think it is a guy thing that only get worse with age.

A few weeks ago I had a craving for a McDonalds hot fudge sundae. I used to do Weight Watchers, so I know they aren't too bad, but anyway. I told myself that I am going to go to my softball game, play, then drive home. When I get to the turn for McDonalds, if I still want the sundae, I can get it. After the 30 minute drive to and from the park and the 60 minute game, I didn't really want the sundae anymore. I realized that I can have the "bad" things, but if I get a serious craving, I should take some time to see if it will pass. If it doesn't, I eat it, track it, then move on. Many of these cravings pass, and I don't really stress if they don't.

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TREKKSTER 7/28/2010 12:43PM

  We all have those days. As for the question- I usually make the healthy version of what I am craving so I can have what I want without all the calories. I don't eat perfect all the time but I try to make sure that I stay within my calories on those occassions. That's why I love tapas! A little bit of indulgence. Lately I just haven't been craving bad stuff... it's more about berries and finding the perfect salad dressing.

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REDRUNNER82 7/28/2010 12:11PM

    That was so my face on Monday. Love that you secretly checked yourself out! My legs look super skinny today (thanks to platform wedges) and I keep giving myself the up and down when I see my reflection.

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HEALTHYELEPHANT 7/28/2010 11:09AM

    Sorry you had such a crummy day yesterday - but 3 cheers for the elevator reflection!! :)

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250STRONG 7/28/2010 10:42AM

    Sorry about your gpa - but glad you are a skinny b---- and a bad mofo! :)

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BAMBOO70 7/28/2010 10:04AM

    I love the blog :). I'm sorry about your Grandpa...I know how stubborn they can be! I hope you have a great day today...

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FLGIRL1234 7/28/2010 9:51AM

    Yeah I can relate. Way to go on NOT going for the gooey cheese sub!

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THEQUEENBEE333 7/28/2010 9:43AM

    Thanks for sharing! I used to think that - but at my current size when I catch a reflection or see a pix I feel like a whale.. but I am working on it. Reading all the stories out there like yours keeps me inspired! Have a great rest of the week!

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KNITTINGFROG 7/28/2010 4:02AM

    Oh, hope your Grandad is ok today...

But you lady, looking every inch the young executive :) (in a slightly mafia-ish kind of way, lol).

I am sure you'll get used to the skinny b**** starring back at you in the mirror...since it looks like she's here to stay :)

Have a good day, and hope you don't get a cold from the air-con...

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YINYANGSJM 7/27/2010 11:59PM

    You do look bada$$ and stylish at the same time :). Great job on passing up the sub, that takes a lot of willpower! I hope your grandpa is OK. I have an uncle like that, he's too stubborn to admit that he needs help and everybody sees it but him. I'm already stubborn so I should really be a pain to deal with by the time I get to be that old :).

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OTRADIOGIRL 7/27/2010 11:59PM

    Aren't you glad when you look that difference is there? Wow you look incredible!! emoticon

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HOPEFULHIPPO 7/27/2010 11:52PM

    Glad you put the anti back into your blah girl! Love it :o)



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RIVERCITYTOM 7/27/2010 10:57PM

    You probably used to avoid them, now your checking yourself out in the elevator door. That is truly progress. Congratulations, That is awesome...Picture is smoking too!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 7/27/2010 10:02PM

    What a cool moment you had! I'm sorry to hear about your grandpa though. Hugs from afar!

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SPUNKYDUCKY 7/27/2010 9:26PM

    Bad Mofo and a skinny B all wrapped up into one fit body! Pretty awesome.

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 7/27/2010 8:45PM

    Hurray skinny bi@tch! The mirror does it for me a lot too, or pre-logging my food in Spark. I put the bad food and see the numbers and I move onto something healthy.

Hope you have more fantastic days ahead!

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SASXONTHEMOVE 7/27/2010 8:01PM

    I love those moments when you pass by a reflective surface and check out that skinny chick...then realize its YOU!!!! LOVE THEM!!



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HOSTALADY 7/27/2010 7:49PM

    I get a skinny moment every laundry day when my crop pants or jeans really fit on the hangers with room to spare now, plus don't weigh so much caring them back up to the closet 3 flights up. Thank goodness for size 12. lol

Do hope your grandpa is ok. Hopefully next time he will call for help so your grandma doesn't get hurt trying to help too!
We do get so stubborn the older we get!

I really like that photo of you today! Although your smile is charming we see most o the time!

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WHGRN60 7/27/2010 7:00PM

    The first time I didn't recognize myself, it really freaked me out. I had a hard time getting used to seeing a stranger in the mirror.

So glad it was a positive experience for you!! Good choice!

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IMSMILEY88 7/27/2010 6:52PM

    Great job passing up the sub! Sometimes I have thoughts, but nothing as dramatic as what you had. Anyway, I hope your grandfather is doing weel. And your grandmother!

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GRACEISENUF 7/27/2010 6:19PM

    I wouldn't have messed with ya on da bus that's for sure! LOL

The last time I "snapped" out of a bad lunch craving was when I had just tried clothes on at a department store and it wasn't cuz I looked skinny! :)

Hope your Grandpa is doing okay. My FIL fell last week and cracked two ribs. My son witnessed it and they called 911. He's okay but sore.

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4EVERADONEGIRL 7/27/2010 5:15PM

    Bwaahahahaha - You Skinny Bi**h!! Who would've ever thought it would feel that good to call yourself a skinny beotch?? :-) Love it!!

For me, every time I pick up a size 12 pants, I look at them and they look impossibly small. I constantly think I have shrunk them. But then I slide them right on. That definitely helps keep the cravings at bay!

You are lookin' HAWT you skinny B**ch!!!

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SHELLEY81 7/27/2010 5:08PM

    I tend to be ok with cravings until I'm actually looking at something, like tortilla chips at on the border on RT 1, still warm and salty, and oh, sorry. Lost my train of thought. emoticon

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ATTACKFATCAT 7/27/2010 4:52PM

    Awesome job not giving in to the cravings!

I haven't had a major "snap out of it" moment yet...so far, I've managed to talk to myself when I get those cravings. I whine about it, write about it, explain to myself why I can't have it (it will make you feel worse, you will have no energy). Most of the time, realizing that the craving is not going to help my bad mood is usually enough motivation for me.

I think I need to carry around a "skinny" picture of me in high school so I can pull it out anytime I want to ignore my little voice saying don't do it.

I really like those sunglasses. Very glamorous.

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CARILOUIE 7/27/2010 4:35PM

    Today it was paging through the new J. Crew catalog that got me away from eating junk. I will never fit into a pair of skinny cords if I eat a giant PB&J sandwich!

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CHICAT63 7/27/2010 4:21PM

    You look hot & smoking, love the black & white combo ! Ah, cheesy gooey stuff, comfort foods at it's best....but floor to ceiling miroirs will uncover you *lol* and they don't lie either. Sorry to hear about your Grand papa, hoping it turns out ok.

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BURKEBRIZ 7/27/2010 4:00PM

    OMG! I could so use a slap in the face this week. I am having a hungry week and I am not fighting it!
Sorry to hear about your grandpa! Hope he's ok!

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CALLIKIA 7/27/2010 3:59PM

    Do NOT mess with you today! Sorry to hear about your g'pa! It's so hard to get them to ask for help! :(

I love that you found your Skinny B**ch for the day, tho! WTG!

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LADYSNOWFALL 7/27/2010 3:46PM

    Aww! I'd hug you, but you'd probably bite my arms off! lol I've had those days. Heck, I've had those weeks. And don't bother me before coffee!

What stops me from eating things that aren't good for me? Depends on the day. Sometimes it's making progress that surprises me, sometimes it's feeling positive about myself and sometimes it's because I can be a rational human being and talk myself out of it. Note I said "sometimes".

Yay for not eating the gooey sub!

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_MSAPRIL17_ 7/27/2010 3:38PM

    You are one BAMF, that's for sure!!!

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STORMTMB 7/27/2010 3:37PM

    Remember, those skinny b****'s smile too and exude confidence. That's what makes you so hot.

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MANDA_MICHELLE 7/27/2010 3:33PM

  you're so hardcore :) love the glasses!

um, nothing usually 'snaps' me outta cravings, but i try to not be impulsive. i just make myself wait and wait, then usually find i don't want that 'bad' thing so much and am satisfied with healthy foods.

sorry about your gpa! hope he is ok. gparents can be very stubborn!!

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MARYANNGI 7/27/2010 3:25PM

    You look tres chic and look like you have a don;t get in my face attitude. You go girl!

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SASSYDREAMER 7/27/2010 3:15PM

    I totally understand those days and rock on to not caving in! Even if it was an out of the blue thing!

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    emoticonYes remebering all the pain after a long work out! emoticon

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PAPER_WINGS18 7/27/2010 3:05PM

    oww owww! You look very posche !(no idea how to spell that one, haha)

Sorry to hear about your gramps :( Blah...

I hope your day improves. if it makes you feel any better, I'm ready to absolutely strangle a woman I work with. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!! So, we've both had pretty blah days. mmmm cheesy sub.....thanks for giving me that craving now!!!!! :(

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CREATINGAMANDA 7/27/2010 2:56PM

    We got my g-pa one of those Life Alert things as well (not sure if it's the same brand up here, but same idea - I've seen those commercials!) and he wouldn't wear it either - stubborn!

Good on ya for stopping yourself before getting the cheesy sub. Although that does sound really good. Unfortunately I haven't found what snaps me out of my cravings. These days I'm more of an "eat it and beat myself up later" kind of girl. Your way is MUCH smarter!

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PINKCOCONUT 7/27/2010 2:48PM

    Grandparents are SO stubborn!!! Arg! I've been there! Hope he's doing okay!

You know what stops me? And it probably sounds sort of judgmental but it works? I take a look at the people who are buying said food I want to eat and ask myself if I want to be like that. The answer is ALWAYS no.

Hope your day is getting better, Skinny B***h!

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KARVY09 7/27/2010 2:45PM

    I looked at the photo and I resemble meanass Angelina Jolie meeting the papparazzi, methinks.

Not that I'm nearly as pretty as Angelina. Ahh, you get what I mean.

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NANASAMM 7/27/2010 2:42PM

    Knowing that sometimes I can't seem to get back on the wagon again. Or I'll ask myself "is it really worth it?"

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CAROLYN1213 7/27/2010 2:39PM

    I love those moments of realization, that you are the skinny girl you want to be!

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MBSHAZZER 7/27/2010 2:38PM

    I hope your grandfather is OK... It must be stressful to be trapped in the fridge, I mean the office, and not be able to assist.

I totally hear you about the cold box! It's always arctic in the office. I wear gloves and a Snuggie at work, even though it's usually 90 degrees outside.

I am so happy to hear you stopped that craving in its tracks because you do indeed look like one SKINNY bad mofo!

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ALLTHNGSPOSSBLE 7/27/2010 2:34PM

    Sorry to hear about your grandpa and your day. Our office is the same way and I am freezing too. I sit here with a jacket on a lot of days because I am so cold. I just don't understand.

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 7/27/2010 2:29PM

    Good for you!!! Sorry to hear about grandpa. Tell him that's what the money toward Life Alert is for! Goob!

Honestly (and it ain't gonna be the popular answer), my high cal day. I can kick any craving's butt knowing I have permission to have it Saturday. (By then it rarely sounds good anyway)

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NEWYORKORCHIDS 7/27/2010 2:26PM

  Yes - a picture of me chowing down. Sometimes, I'll snap a picture with my cell.

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Running While Chunky: Don't Bum About Bad Runs

Monday, July 26, 2010

"Running While Chunky" (or "RWC") is a series of blogs I've been writing and crafting into a memoir that will hopefully be sold to the masses, who will simultaneously adore it and make it a New York Times bestseller. You can check my blogs if you want to read past installments. The following is an excerpt from a chapter in progress.

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A couple of days after I ran my first 5-miler wherein I felt like I was on top of the world, I tried to do an "easy" 5K run only to run out of steam after a QUARTER OF A MILE. My legs felt like lead. I was breathing heavy. My throat was dry.

It was a pretty bad run. OK, one of the worst runs ever.

Ergo, it was easy to stamp my feet and take a psychological hissy fit: "Kristina, who are you kidding? You'll never be a runner! You can't even run down the street and back!"

What was a little harder was processing WHY it was such a bad run.

And no, it wasn't because I was RWC.

I trodded home feeling like the hare had beat me in the race despite his taking a nap under the shady tree. Fuming a bit, I turned on the computer, hoping to read a bit of current events to take my mind off it when I saw the little weather icon at the top of my news website: 85F, Sunny.

What might have been a small piece of data was an amazing revelation to me. I HAD NEVER RUN OUTSIDE WHEN IT WAS MORE THAN 75 DEGREES OUTSIDE. Of course it was hard!

My body rebelling against me like a petulant teenager. "I don't wanna!" It screamed. "Don't make me run!" Then it bargained with me: " I'll do 50 pushups as long as it's in the air conditioned living room!"

Aha!

Why was I so tough on myself when it was plain as day why I was struggling to make it through my run? It was the first hot weather run ever and I wasn't conditioned to run in the heat yet. Light dawned on marble head.

From then on out, after those tough runs I ask myself some questions...

emoticon What was the weather like?
emoticon How many hills did I encounter?
emoticon How much water did I drink before/during my run?
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emoticon Did I eat a lot of salty stuff today and/or yesterday?
emoticon How much did I sleep last night?
emoticon Did I do a particularly tough workout yesterday?
emoticon Is something sore for whatever reason?
emoticon How are the shoes holding up?

If one of those questions tweaks something in you, you've got your "duh" moment. Maybe your running shoes are over six months old or your legs are screaming from the squats from the night before. Perhaps you had a high sodium day without enough water. Or you were low on energy from a lack of sleep or dearth of carbohydrates.

Maybe it's pretty freaking obvious like my bad running revelation. It's a heat wave. It's not even summer yet. And you're running in it. Man, I felt stupid.

But the point of this chapter is not to make you feel stupid. So what is the point? Well, I suppose it's to teach you to be kinder to yourself. Not all runs are going to make you feel like Michael Johnson. Or OK, let's scale that grandiose vision back a little; not all runs will make you feel like an extremely athletic version of yourself. Just as there are bad days, there are bad running days. And that's all there is to it.

It has nothing to do with not having the requisite skill or physique to meet your running goals. You can make your goals with a reasonable amount of time and a lot of hard work. You just might not have the juice to tick them off on that particular day.

Asking yourself those simple questions will not only allow you to feel better about your botched run, but it will also help you to prepare for future runs. Next time you head out on a hot day, you might wear shorter shorts and a visor and make sure you have an adequate supply of water on a shadier course (which is exactly what I did the day after the very bad running day). Or you could schedule your run for earlier in the morning or later in the evening to combat the heat. If the weather has nothing to do with it, you might make sure you've eaten enough carbs and had enough rest before taking to the pavement.

So in sum, lashing out at yourself over a less than stellar jog is more likely to derail you than amp you up. Take a look at yourself, your environment, and your gear and make sure you're in top shape for your runs.

And once you have no more excuses, just get out there and nail that next run.

  
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CALLISTOANGEL 8/6/2010 5:15PM

    I am a horrible runner but I keep at it to. Great post. Thanks.

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CHELSBETTERLATE 8/4/2010 10:17PM

    Loved it...funny and true! I will remember these on one of those days!

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ALICIAYOUNG1127 8/3/2010 5:16PM

    Thanks!

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MOMMYROCKS2 8/3/2010 12:24PM

    I'm a new jogger (can't really use runner yet) so reading this was REALLY eye opening. Thank you!! emoticon

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MRS243 8/3/2010 10:03AM

    Fantastic. Thanks.

Today is a running day for me and i needed to read this.

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ASHARON 8/3/2010 8:52AM

    Love it! Thanks

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LIZETH87 8/3/2010 3:24AM

    excellent! i will definately remember to ask myself questions when i run!! im trying to be a runner.. lol . wish me luck!

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GAILDIPESA 8/1/2010 11:08PM

    Thanks!

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GAILDIPESA 8/1/2010 11:08PM

    Thanks!

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JENSEARS42 8/1/2010 2:13PM

    Thank you for the information. I am currently training for a 5K and it is taking a little longer than the program states but I keep telling myself as I am running a full 8 minutes twice with 5 min walk in between, remember you were not here 5 weeks ago you could barley run 90 sec without stopping. I hope to be doing my first 5K sometime in September.

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JENSEARS42 8/1/2010 2:12PM

    Thank you for the information. I am currently training for a 5K and it is taking a little longer than the program states but I keep telling myself as I am running a full 8 minutes twice with 5 min walk in between, remember you were not here 5 weeks ago you could barley run 90 sec without stopping. I hope to be doing my first 5K sometime in September.

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JANEMAR2 7/31/2010 9:34PM

    Great advice. Thank you.

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NACHOSMAMA 7/31/2010 9:15PM

    This is just what I needed today! I have had a couple of tough runs lately and a big part of me reverted back to the old negative self-talk, "See stupid, you were never meant to be a runner. I told you so!"

But today I found a running partner in my dog Molly and read this encouraging blog, so I'm ready to get out there again. So thanks!
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HYAZELL 7/31/2010 5:55PM

  Love your post! Could have really used it when I has training for a half marathon. Had several days that made me doubt trying to do a half marathon. I had a very positive brother who helped me with the training and who did the marathon with me at my pace to keep me going.

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TURQUOIS26 7/31/2010 1:39PM

  Excellent blog

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LOSING107 7/31/2010 1:04PM

    Running While Chunky-too funny! I'll keep your experience in mind, so that I don't let my own self get discouraged.

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BRINAGU3 7/31/2010 11:09AM

    wise advice.

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NAVYNURSE 7/31/2010 12:19AM

    WOW thanks so much. I had a horrible run on Monday and haven't run since. I was thinking "who do you think you are big girl...you aren't a runner" I was thinking about quitting...Thanks so much:)

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OBURRELL 7/30/2010 2:43PM

    Great post! I needed to read this today as I had a horrible run this morning and it did make me feel bad. I didn't want to run from the day before but I forced myself to this morning anyway and I could barely keep at my normal pace. Good to know this is normal-just motivated me to pick it back up this weekend!

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CARLA-216 7/29/2010 3:21PM

    Great information to heed! I had one of those days just a few days after I first successfully ran a mile without stopping. I was like, "what in the world???"
Even with optimal running conditions, the very seasoned runner who works at our local Fleet Feet said that he really only has like 1 in 5 runs that he categorizes as AWESOME. Newbie runners, of which I am one, need to know and be comforted by this information that you blogged about so as not to get unnecessarily discouraged.

Thank you!

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TEAM-SARAH 7/29/2010 2:28PM

    100% agree :) So many conditions can impact the run! I try to really pay attention to what I did when I had a GREAT run so i can repeat that

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ELLENT124 7/29/2010 11:33AM

    Glad to hear otheres have fatigue as well. It IS hard--and we go out on the weekends frequently--to restaurants that aren't chains so it is hard to guess what the calorie counts might be. I think it adds to the fatigue. Good luck--I have no doubt you'll be back to your routine as you start your training.

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JBMT08 7/29/2010 11:30AM

    emoticon I love to read these!!!!!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 7/29/2010 12:36AM

    Great Blog, KARVY09!

Thanks for the entertainment and insight! I just love the "RWC" bit too. that is too cute!

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CALLIKIA 7/27/2010 4:01PM

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MARYANNGI 7/27/2010 1:25PM

    Really enjoyed the blog today. Your book will definitely be on my must read list . The blogs are well written and give insight into things we might overlook. emoticon

MaryAnn

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FREES1 7/27/2010 11:54AM

    Great post and it can apply to all sorts of activities in additon to running! Good luck with the book - with the way you write combined with your story it should be a best seller!
Faye

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ANGELLACOLE 7/27/2010 11:32AM

    So glad you are turning this series of blogs into a book!
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HOSTALADY 7/27/2010 11:26AM

    I enjoy your writings and will buy the book when it's in print!
You have already touched so many lives and many more in the future I am sure of it!
No two days are the same no matter how hard we might try!

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CRIS76 7/27/2010 10:55AM

    Well, if you ever need quotes from a gal who runs obese, look me up LOL I think its a great book idea :) Keep at it!

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ALLTHNGSPOSSBLE 7/27/2010 10:52AM

    I absolutely agree with you. Not every run is a good run, sometimes they are just down right hard. But then again, every once in a while a run feels so easy you wish you could do it all the time. I hate crappy run days when you are breathing so hard you think you are dying and every step is a struggle. We just have to remember it will be better next time. I know a few times lately the heat and humidity have almost gotten the best of me and it is no fun. Here's to a better run next time.

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JENN26POINT2 7/27/2010 10:47AM

    I'd buy the book too as long as it said the author was KARVY09... otherwise I might not recognize it! haha I'd place it on the shelf right next to The Spark and my Runner's World mags!

Thanks for the blog and reminder! I hate bum runs!

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MESEATURTLE 7/27/2010 10:42AM

    Another fab blog!!!

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SUZEQ09 7/27/2010 10:41AM

    Thanks for the wonderful post KARVY! I stopped running/exercising for the past month and put on my Ipod this am after my daughter got on the bus to school, laced up my sneaks and put in Week 3 of Couch to 5k. Granted I walked the first mile, but then jogged the rest of the way. Was it easy? By no means NO. Will I feel it later today or tonight/tomorrow? I'm positive, but I'm not going to give up. It's a learning curve for each person.

Keep motivating!!!

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ANNE7X7 7/27/2010 10:32AM

    Love it! It's so true that one run can bring your motivation to a halt, but like you said, we have to remember that it's just one run! I live for those amazing, exhilarating ones, even if they happen only once in a while!!

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CREATINGAMANDA 7/27/2010 10:29AM

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KENNYWHEELS 7/27/2010 10:11AM

    i am running on sneakers that are about 8 months old and they have over a thousand miles on them.
and i know that is the reason my legs are killing me. i have had to almost stop running and i am not a happy camper about it. hopefully i will get some work soon and am able to et a new pair. :^)

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THESHRINKINLADY 7/27/2010 9:57AM

    So very nice that you posted this as I was thinking of you and how you may handle your less-than-stellar running days. I had a crap day on Sunday with my run. I was beating myself up over it but not as badly as I used to. I was like, "Man why can't I consistently run awesome runs? What is wrong with me?"

That's when I wondered how you handled the days when you just couldn't do as well as the previous run(s). I also wondered with you being such a wonderful runner if you still have days where it is just so hot outside that you still do walk/runs?

thanks for reading my mind and posting this!

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SAMSPARK1 7/27/2010 9:52AM

    Great reminder!!!!!! It always amazes me how some runs are so much smoother than others...there are so many variables!

I'd buy your book! :)

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WYND10 7/27/2010 9:20AM

    Excellent.

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LADY_JOSIELOT 7/26/2010 11:51PM

    Thank you for the pertinant reminders. :)

- Josie

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YINYANGSJM 7/26/2010 11:13PM

    Sign me up for the book :). I enjoy your blogs so much I get excited just thinking about having a whole book of your writing! Thanks for the preview.

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STORMTMB 7/26/2010 10:49PM

    Great information. I'll have to remember that...

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KIMMAS82 7/26/2010 10:41PM

    Great chapter for beginning runners and for those of us that need reminders too!! I've done 6 miles straight in under an hour and tonight I could barly do 2 miles before I had to stop and walk. Eating dinner before my run, 81 degrees and 60% humidity will do that.

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THEQUEENBEE333 7/26/2010 10:40PM

    Love it! Thanks for sharing! Have a great rest of the week!

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PAPER_WINGS18 7/26/2010 10:36PM

    yep, I'll buy 100 of your books. in fact, I'll even give each of my students a book haha. I want an autographed copy when it's a best seller! Oh, and can you introduce me to a few authors when you make it big?:)

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CK2SUMMERS 7/26/2010 10:18PM

    Exactly why am runs and pm runs are on my list on days that are above 85 degrees +.

Although, I have to say my shoes are more than 6 months old.

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CHICAT63 7/26/2010 9:57PM

    So excited reading this Kristina, wow it will be such a good tool and interesting read ! You rock Sista, add-me on your autographed list with PinkCoconut. emoticon

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NANASAMM 7/26/2010 9:54PM

    I don't run but I thought it was awesome! I like your thinking. emoticon

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TRAVELNISTA 7/26/2010 9:20PM

    I think it is emoticon that you are going to write a book. You have a flair for writing and I always enjoy your blogs. emoticon emoticon

You always tell it like it is and always have great tips. I don't see why it will not become a best seller.

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Weekend Wonderland

Monday, July 26, 2010

Ahh, the weekend. I love 'em, as you well know. This weekend was more beachiness and I went to my cousin's high school graduation party.

Friday after work, I did my gym triathlon! I did a 5K run, a 8-mile bike ride and a 1/2 mile swim. I felt awesome! I went home and packed up for the weekend and made myself a 100-calorie quesadilla (Trader Joe's low-carb tortilla, Sargento lowfat cheese, and a dab of mango peach salsa) to hold me over til dinner. I figured we'd go somewhere up at the beach and get a bite to eat. Well, we got stuck in some major traffic due to the rain and stupid drivers who can't drive in the rain and every restaurant we wanted to go to was a one hour wait or more. By this point, it was after 8pm, and I started feeling super weak and I think I actually passed out for a couple seconds. My husband was worried and went to the closest place we could find and ended up getting this thin crust pizza takeout and I think I inhaled 3 slices without actually tasting them. But I felt much better. Yeah, not good. I need to remember to eat an early dinner or a more substantial snack after a long workout.

I was TIRED the next day, but I got a good 3-mile walk in and ate a little during the day in preparation for the grad party. Man, my aunt puts on a spread. There were about 80 people in the backyard and food for 300. I didn't track my food because I had nearly 1,500 calories in reserve and I am pretty confident I wouldn't go over that even though I had a bit of this and that and picked all over the place. No alcohol and no dessert, but lots of shrimp, dips, grilled eggplant parm, roast beef, lemon-scented couscous, OMG food orgasm. There was this great band playing oldies and modern stuff with an amazing violin player. We had a great time!

Sunday, I couldn't get up in time for a long run, but I did 4.5 miles. I felt good, but definitely not up for much more than that. Then I read a whole book on the beach (I think I've read everything by Nick Hornby now. I do love his writing style and how I seem to whizz right through his books!) and ate popcorn for lunch. Which wouldn't have been too bad if this wasn't this incredibly addictive kettle corn made by Popcorn Indiana (130 cal for 2 cups). 5 cups later, I had my fill and I really wish my family wouldn't buy it because I can bypass chips and crap like that no problem. But sugar-coated popcorn? Ughhh....

And that's basically it. I forgot my husband scheduled a long weekend for next week and I need to get some of Thursday, Friday and Monday off. Oops. So I'll probably be working long days to compensate and not piss my agency off and exercise might be a bit lackluster, but I will get SOMETHING in every day. I'm looking forward to next weekend though!

Can you believe it's the last week of July? I think this will be my worst month yet for weight loss, but I look at some of the fitness acheivements and honestly am not that upset about it. I feel stronger and leaner and that counts for more in my book!

Rock out this last week of July!

  
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CAROLYN1213 7/27/2010 10:30AM

    Now that sounds like a fun get together!!!! And a day on the beach!!!! Please! I'd love it right about now!!!

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KATHLOW 7/27/2010 7:35AM

    i love nick hornby's books too..have not yet read the latest, juliet naked, did you like it?

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4EVERADONEGIRL 7/26/2010 8:19PM

    You are absolutely right - stronger and leaner is AWESOME!! And yes - can't believe we are nearing the end of July! Where did it go??? LOL

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IMSMILEY88 7/26/2010 7:52PM

    Sounds like a great weekend! And, I bet you'll have an incredible week.

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HOSTALADY 7/26/2010 5:46PM

    Great weekend. It is really great to have a few outstanding ones and this one seems no exception. A few bumps in the road that seem non important. You have it going on that is fabulous!
Rock it out we will! emoticon

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ITSHOWYOULIVE 7/26/2010 3:24PM

    You gotta eat!! Sounds like you are having a great summer. 4.5 is nothing to sneeze at that's for sure. That is still a nice solid run. :P Nick Hornby? what's the genre? I am in a solid literature rut. I go to the library and scan book after book and still grab the ones I usually grab despite all the other interesting looking books. Maybe because the last several books I grabbed on a whim turned out to be duds. Nothing says summer like a good read on the beach ;).

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JENN26POINT2 7/26/2010 3:07PM

    You never cease to motivate me! :)

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THEWINNER33 7/26/2010 3:03PM

    Cingratulations. Sounds like a great weekend

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LIBBYFITZ 7/26/2010 3:02PM

    emoticon emoticonThat was one amazing weekend! emoticon

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APMAC_D 7/26/2010 2:14PM

    I cannot believe its the last week of July. Sounds like you had a great weekend though. I hate going to parties where the food comes at you from everydirection, I can never resist. Way to go on the workouts- thats inspirational :) emoticon

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WHGRN60 7/26/2010 1:49PM

    So in other words, life happened. And you did just fine. Was the pizza an ideal dinner? No, but you had to eat and your choices were limited. That happens sometimes.

One thing I do find is that keeping some type of snack in the car at all times can be helpful in a situation like this. Maybe an energy bar, some dried fruit, some granola, something along those lines.

Congrats on the tri!!

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MBSHAZZER 7/26/2010 12:13PM

    Nice job on the gym tri! :D

Sounds like a great weekend. You really have nailed it w/r/t keeping things in balance.

And I love that 4.5 miles is not a long run for you! LOVE IT!

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ELYMWX 7/26/2010 12:11PM

    I like your attitude; eventually we have to reach the point where weight loss becomes secondary, because it's time to live a healthy active life!

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_TRIXIE_ 7/26/2010 11:42AM

    Yay! I was thinking about you and the tri this weekend! I'm so glad you wrote about it AND that you felt so good afterwards (minus the blackout... yuck).

Sounds like you're determined for a good week ahead, even if you have to get creative with fitting it in! Good luck!

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NANASAMM 7/26/2010 11:33AM

    Sounds like an awesome weekend to me. Ohhhh and that Kettlecorn...yeah, it's waaay addicting but it satisfies my sweet tooth without too many calories. I love the cinnamon one. emoticon

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ELLENT124 7/26/2010 11:09AM

    "There were about 80 people in the backyard and food for 300" Are you Italian?? Made me LOL--sounds just like my family. Sounds like a great party, great weekend and you stuck with your exercise plan--awesome!

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JENELOPE 7/26/2010 10:59AM

    Sounds like a great weekend. It also sounds like you need to stash some healthy, non-perishable snacks in your car just in case a short car trip turns into a long one. Maybe a can of almonds or a box of Kashi granola bars or a few Clif bars. This whole idea of passing out in the car worries me quite a bit.

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YOOVIE 7/26/2010 10:46AM

    I've heard that stuff is addictive! (the running and the popcorn) ;)

Glad you had a great one!!! Stronger and leaner is A+

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250STRONG 7/26/2010 10:43AM

    I want YOUR weekend!

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PINKCOCONUT 7/26/2010 10:31AM

    Wow! What a packed and fun weekend ('cept the passing out part, I've been there...)! You're totally in control woman, you're going to have a great week and a better (and well-deserved) long weekend!

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BURKEBRIZ 7/26/2010 10:30AM

    What a whirlwind! You amaze me that you can get so much in! Your focus is awesome!

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CARILOUIE 7/26/2010 10:30AM

    My high school graduation party was *nothing* like that one!

July has not been a wonderful month for me, either, but that's ok because we are awesome! Haha!

Have a super day!

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AASMITHHISLER 7/26/2010 10:26AM

    Sounds fun how you do the triathlon at the gym! I wish I had the courage to attempt such things, but maybe they will seem possible in due time. Do you do them just because they are enjoyable, or because you are training for a real triathlon? Sounds like a fun weekend!

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STORMTMB 7/26/2010 10:24AM

    Sounds like you had a fun weekend with lots of cool stuff to do. Maybe next time you leave for a weekend away, you'll take some snacks in the car for getting stuck in traffic or whatever stupid thing that happens to throw off the food plans. (I hate it when that happens!) Your triathalon sounds so cool and great variety. What a wonderful workout. Keep it up!

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WYND10 7/26/2010 10:24AM

    It sounds like you had a good time, except for that passing out part in there...eep. This month has been a absolute whirlwind, I can't believe it's only days away from being over. Wow.

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ROTUNDPANDA84 7/26/2010 10:22AM

    That's exactly right! Look at all the great physical activities you've done. If you're feeling leaner and stronger, then who cares about a couple of pounds. I'd rather feel like that than have the scale go down a pound or two. Good for you! Keep up the amazing work!

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KARBRUCE 7/26/2010 10:16AM

    Excellent blog post. It's always good to see the postives (your exercise). Well done!! I am inspired by the fact you don't call a 4.5 mile run a long run. I've got a ways to go! heh emoticon

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 7/26/2010 10:15AM

    Sounds like you had a busy weekend! Congrats on the triathlon. I know the pizza may seem like a bad choice but you got a thin crust which is likely a better choice than you may have made in the past? YAY The party sounds awesome! Lemon scented cous cous...mmm! If you want something healthy that tastes like kettle corn, I just used 1/2 cup of almond milk (20 cals) with my maple and brown sugar oatmeal and it tasted just like kettle corn! This month has FLOWN by! Hope you have a great day!

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Exursize

Thursday, July 22, 2010




Leeves me alone. Kint u see ahm exursizing?

  
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SUGIRL06 7/30/2010 2:07PM

    LMAO!!!! emoticon
Looks like my cat!
~Ang

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DANIELLE47138 7/29/2010 2:22PM

    CUTE!!!!

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LCOLBURN 7/26/2010 11:39AM

    Sooo cute! Is that the Wii Active band? Mine has a couple of small holes in it from my kitties thinking it's a toy!

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WYND10 7/26/2010 9:54AM

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TRAVELNISTA 7/25/2010 10:50PM

    emoticon Adorable!

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REDRIDER68 7/25/2010 7:58PM

  beautiful kitty emoticon

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CUPCAKE_PIRATE 7/24/2010 8:56AM

    Omg - adore! my furries help me "exurcize" all the time :)

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RASCALSMOMMA 7/24/2010 7:44AM

    He's running all right! and WHHY are you throwing your weights at him?!!! lol. May be you and I can start a new spark team fur pets! HUGS Laurie

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PPCM_SURVIVOR 7/24/2010 1:39AM

    So cute!

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TEAWONDERFUL 7/23/2010 11:41PM

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CALLIKIA 7/23/2010 10:56PM

    emoticon Too cute!

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ATTACKFATCAT 7/23/2010 1:06PM

    Now that's power-napping!

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JBOWDOIN02 7/23/2010 12:51PM

    I think it's a cat thing. Whenever I work out in the living room, like doing a dance video or anything that has me moving my feet, he goes in for the attack. It's funny and painful all at the same time. He can't control himself.

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PINKOWL 7/23/2010 11:58AM

    LOL that's cute !! My cat Shadow always comes around when I lift weights. Love it

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TALEENA 7/23/2010 11:04AM

    So cute! My kitty Stormy would be down with your kitty just hanging :)

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WHGRN60 7/23/2010 9:40AM

    :D

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KATHLOW 7/23/2010 2:35AM

    hihihi! My cat has that 'what are you looking at?' stare totally down too!

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HOSTALADY 7/22/2010 7:40PM

    Cute kitty!

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MOM2PACO 7/22/2010 7:32PM

    CUTE! LOL emoticon

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MIECHI7 7/22/2010 7:15PM

    I'm sure that when I get old, I'm going to be that crazy old cat lady that everyone talks about!! emoticon

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STARGAZER08 7/22/2010 6:55PM

    emoticon Wow, my little girl looks very similar!

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LISAW/3 7/22/2010 5:38PM

    Too cute!

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MARYANNGI 7/22/2010 5:21PM

    emoticon Tough workout??

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4EVERADONEGIRL 7/22/2010 4:43PM

    emoticon

Yeah what he said! LOL

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RUNNER4LIFE08 7/22/2010 4:17PM

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LIBBYFITZ 7/22/2010 3:55PM

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JENN26POINT2 7/22/2010 2:18PM

    Star In The Sky, I could not agree with you more. Cats are like tend to have their noses in the air more with the "I don't need you" air about them and dogs are like "OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG You're HOME!!!" Ok, at least my dogs are like that.

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MBSHAZZER 7/22/2010 2:15PM

    Kitteh yoga -fur coat = natural Bikram!

TOO CUTE!! I love the new kitty! Glad you guys are enjoying one another!

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MERAINA 7/22/2010 1:18PM

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STARINTHESKY 7/22/2010 1:13PM

    Hee hee! Very funny!! We have outside cats in my apartment complex and they just have this 'tude written all over their face when I pass by. Only cats can deliver this look. Dogs...not so much! This pic definitely captures that look!!

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NEWYORKORCHIDS 7/22/2010 12:40PM

  You and I are both going to hell - you pose your kitty, I put my dogs in dresses.

See you there!

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THREADBENDER 7/22/2010 12:23PM

    Why do cats love yoga mats? My kitty is positively overjoyed when that mat rolls out. Then we spend the first 5-7 minutes tussling so I can stake my claim and get down to yoga business. Kind of like Ohmmmmm..mmeow

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PAPPHEM 7/22/2010 12:22PM

    So cute!

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-JENSSPARK- 7/22/2010 12:06PM

    I luv the kitteh!

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LOVELYMRSB 7/22/2010 12:02PM

    Oh my word - when I'm trying to do ANY kind of floor workout - particularly yoga and downward dog pose...my cat feels the need to rise from wherever he was snoozing and come walk under the mom-bridge. Sometimes he lays down. I guess it's motivation to hold myself up and not squash the little guy, but I don't know what it is about cats!

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NOTHAVINIT 7/22/2010 11:58AM

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ABETTERCHERYL 7/22/2010 11:57AM

    Ha! Yeah, my cats think it's a prime time to be petted when I'm trying to stretch.

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MESEATURTLE 7/22/2010 11:39AM

    cute!!!!

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ANNE7X7 7/22/2010 11:37AM

    LOL!

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MSWEEZER 7/22/2010 11:35AM

    Very cute!

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CREATINGAMANDA 7/22/2010 11:34AM

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FREES1 7/22/2010 11:32AM

    its always good to have a work out buddy!!! Congrats on finding one who shares your interests! ;-)
Faye

and PS - shame you are a threat to your co-worker! (from your last blog)

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DOLL2THEWALL 7/22/2010 11:31AM

    how u liek mah kitten poze?

iz liek child poze but iz fuzzier

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SLEEPYDEAN 7/22/2010 11:30AM

    Yea, what is it with cats - the second the weights and equipment come out, they are all over it. My little one likes to use my hand weights as "pillows".

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STORMTMB 7/22/2010 11:27AM

    How precious!

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