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Raw Challenge Update and Cara Cara Oranges!

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

OK before I get into my update on the raw challenge, I want to share my discovery with you! Cara Cara oranges!

Oh my goodness, was this yummy! And I bought it by mistake! I didn't like the looks of the regular navel oranges and then I found this orange in a different bin, not realizing it was a different variety. Very low in acid, seedless, a pinkish orange flesh... I thought it might be a grapefruit hybrid, but it wasn't. It didn't taste of grapefruit at all! More like a slight berry taste to it. Anyhow, it was absolutely delicious and a perfect way to start the day!


So onto the RAW challenge...

Total bust on Day 1. I had a breakfast of mango, blueberries, and a blood orange (yes, I meant to get the blood orange!) and was doing fine. I actually wasn't too bad without my morning cup of coffee. But I was absolutely freezing! I was really missing my morning oatmeal.

I had a cup of herbal tea, which I think qualified as raw, because it said it was dehydrated at 110F. Well, that failed to warm me up. Finally, I ate a few natural almonds, which are technically not raw, but I thought maybe I needed a bit of protein. My hands were still like icicles. For lunch, I cut up some peppers, avocado, carrots, and celery with a little natural peanut butter dip on the side (also not raw, and I used it sparingly). Still hungry and still cold. I ate some of my dried figs and dates.

By 2pm, I had eaten over 800 calories, which is high for before even my afternoon snack. I was still cold and started to get dizzy and panicky. Finally, I went downstairs to the cafe and got a couple of hard boiled eggs. I instantly warmed up and felt a lot better.

At home, I had some Kashi crackers and cheese before my workout and managed to get up to two miles before I felt spent. After a few strength moves, I went home and cooked some chicken and veggies and called it an early night. I was in bed at 9:30!

So yeah, I immediately felt the effects of switching to raw, even though it was only for 12 hours! This might be more of an experiment for summertime because my body temperature dropped significantly and I couldn't get warm at all despite eating plenty of calories. I felt a little bad for bailing, but I could barely function before I got some cooked food in me!

So I switched to clean eating yesterday, minimizing packaged foods, sugar and flour, and still eating nuts, fruits, and veggies as much as possible. Did an early morning run that was one of my best yet and felt focused and happy, inching closer and closer to maintaining a 12 minute mile. I ended up eating 60g of fiber for the day (twice the recommended allowance) and I felt great. No caffeine withdrawals though I did have a nagging urge for a Diet Coke when I got home from work. And a huge chocolate craving as well. I ate some canteloupe instead and it worked pretty well, though there really is no substitute for chocolate, now is there?

This morning? Caffeine headache. Big time. It might be due to only getting 6 hours of sleep last night because I was working until midnight though. A few ibuprofens seem to have helped, but I'm hoping it subsides by afternoon.

I definitely feel better eating all the fresh produce, even if I do have to cook it!



Yeah, the raw challenge was more to see if I could do it for three days and to spur on my friend (who went raw for a week in the summer) to try a running program. I challenged her to do three days of running in exchange for me to try raw for three days. I never expected to become a raw foodie or anything like that. It was more of a way to force myself to eat the produce that I usually balk at. And on that level, it totally worked.

As you know from my other blogs, I'm a big fan of non-restrictive meal plans. I fit pizza, fries, chicken wings, and wine into my meal plans on occasion. I still believe that. This was more to see... COULD I give up caffeine? COULD I survive without the high sodium foods that plague me? And COULD I survive on veggies and nuts all day?

The answer so far is YES, YES, and NO. I don't know how people can walk around all day on a raw food diet, nevermind have the energy to work out. Also, a friend and I went through the raw foodie team's pages and found PRECIOUS FEW with public food trackers. So I really didn't have much of a clue what kept them going or whether they were cheating. I found one raw foodie with a great meal plan, but it was only about 55% raw and included things like raviolis. Which, yum.

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RJBUCKEYE 2/17/2010 1:23PM

    I just tried Cara Cara oranges this week for the first time... they are my new fav! YUM!
I'm with you on the restrictive diets thing... I'm always open to trying something new but for me moderation is key.
Thanks for the inspiration, I like your blogs.

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FLORIDASUN 2/13/2010 10:49PM

    Hey sweets..so happy you tried it and you DID notice that you felt better. I wasn't working out on my 7 day RAW challenge and I mostly do CLEAN eating as a lifestyle now. I do stay RAW mostly in the a.m. with a gigantic fruit/green smoothie in the a.m. and a gigantic salad for lunch on which I usually have some sort of CLEAN meat, grilled chicken, salmon, or sometimes even steak. I know how hard it is not to eat hot food in cold weather so I have lots of CLEAN soups. I think more than anything it is important to cut the processed chemical laden time bombs out of your life as best you can.

I'm still wogging thanks to you and you were my inspiration to do that so I thank you sincerely for that! Some day I might even become a bonifide runner..wouldn't that be awesome!

Thanks for taking me up on the challenge...you ROCK sista..and know that I hope to keep inspiring you as my ticker goes down, down, down! emoticon

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ITSHOWYOULIVE 2/3/2010 11:10PM

    I'm glad you tried it and shared your experience. I don't think I would have made it as far as you did!!

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MLE102286 2/3/2010 10:51PM

    Raw sounds interesting, but like you, i feel cold and weak when I dont have the other stuff too!! good way to incorporate more fiber in your diet though! maybe 60%-75% is the way to go?

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CBILODEAU6 2/3/2010 8:36PM

    You try... maybe it's not for you, or you will have to take it slow in the raw challenge... try to eat more raw products each day maybe... but begin slowly!

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TIME4AFITME 2/3/2010 7:11PM

    Great job on trying. Clean eating is a good way to go too!

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SUNNY332 2/3/2010 6:55PM

    Never heard of these oranges but will look for them They sound GREAT.

I can not do 100% raw but I have incorporated raw into my diet. Up to 50% of my daily intake is raw and think this is helping me get my veggies/fruits in and also helping me loose the weight.

Take care and keep up the good work.

Hugs, Sunny

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ZIRCADIA 2/3/2010 5:46PM

    Yeah, I'm not a fan of the raw food idea. Well -- I take that back -- I love the idea of incorporating a lot of raw food in your diet, along with whole foods that are cooked and preparede -- basically. I LOVE CLEAN EATING!!!!!! I don't do it 100% obviously, because like you said -- restrictive diets suck. But as a philosophy the clean eating thing really does it for me. And for me that frequently includes raw fruits and veggies. But trying to create meals by not heating things TOO MUCH because then it's COOKED and not RAW?? And making pastes and dehydrating them and all that nonsense... yeah. I don't believe the benefit is worth the work and sacrifice there (if there IS any significant benefit to raw vs. good clean healthy eating!)

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4EVERADONEGIRL 2/3/2010 5:30PM

    I'm proud of you for even trying! You are braver than I have EVER been because I don't even think I would brave getting started on it! :-) LOL

Way to go!!! And here I want to complain about how hard it has been at times to give up my second cup of coffee! LOL

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CHICAT63 2/3/2010 4:07PM

    Kudos to you for attempting this., The raw does sound a bit restrictive as for the clean eating is more doable that's my opinion. Myself I do not eat anything processed or pre-packaged. I'm sure you'll find the clean eating easier. Take care,Josée

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PINKCOCONUT 2/3/2010 2:29PM

    Good for you for trying! I've never tried and although I find it interesting, I don't think I'm that hardcore!

However, if you're interested, check out http://fitnessista.com/ She's not only a raw foodie but she's also a personal trainer so you can see how an active individual fits it into their lifestyle.


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DESERT_BIRD 2/3/2010 2:25PM

    Kristina, as I understand it, Bobbi was not working out, at least when she first started the raw diet. That probably made a huge difference. You didn't say how many grams of protein you ate...I believe that you need more protein because you work out. I think your idea of trying it in the summertime is a good one. But eating more fruits and vegetables is always a good idea and you're doing great in that regard!

Thanks for the update and I commend you for trying!

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MANDAO97 2/3/2010 2:20PM

    Thanks for sharing your experience. If you are incorporating more freggies into your day than it was a success! I have to really plan to get enough in- I shoot to have at least one fruit/veggie each meal/snack but I could do better!

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STORMTMB 2/3/2010 2:15PM

    You did way better than I would have. Kudos for making the attempt! It's so interesting that your body responded by being so cold. Wow. Never would have thought of that.

I'm working toward eating mostly clean and trying to incorporate even more fruits and veggies in my diet. I'll always enjoy steak and potatoes and an occasional slice of cheesecake, but if my diet is healthy and I'm making great choices most of the time, then I'll be fine to splurge occasionally too. I think from what I've read, you're in that same vein.

Have a good one.

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ANNIE_1015 2/3/2010 1:52PM

  I could never do raw. I like things hot!!! Clean eating offers much more versatility, plus you can drink coffee. The best idea is to start with a best effort and not try to do it 100%. If you are eating clean 80% of the time, that's great. Once you get used to not having certain things in your diet, you can go even more clean.

Just stay away from the really bad stuff like partially hydrogenated anything, high sugar add-ins etc and your almost there. If it looks like how it grew (being meat or vegetables), it's pretty clean.

I started moving to clean eating and now whenever I eat something not so clean I feel like crap so I'm encouraged to continue.

You can do this!


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CHARLIE215 2/3/2010 1:49PM

    I did a raw day last week as one of my team challenges & it was hard. It was a really cold day in NYC & all I wanted was hot food - I think it's much easier to do in the summer :)

Getting the food wasn't difficult, I went to a raw food shop and bought lots of juices & salads, but it did cost and arm and a leg!!

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  I think that there are different levels to the Raw diet. Maybe I'm wrong, but I think you can do 75% Raw and still have it "count" - that's what I've been told anyway.

It's kind of like the word "organic" according to the USDA (and wikipedia): "In the US, federal organic legislation defines three levels of organics. Products made entirely with certified organic ingredients and methods can be labeled "100% organic". Products with at least 95% organic ingredients can use the word "organic". Both of these categories may also display the USDA organic seal. A third category, containing a minimum of 70% organic ingredients, can be labeled "made with organic ingredients"."

Personally, clean would be a better choice for me.

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KARVY09 2/3/2010 1:25PM

    Yeah, the raw challenge was more to see if I could do it for three days and to spur on my friend (who went raw for a week in the summer) to try a running program. I challenged her to do three days of running in exchange for me to try raw for three days. I never expected to become a raw foodie or anything like that. It was more of a way to force myself to eat the produce that I usually balk at. And on that level, it totally worked.

As you know from my other blogs, I'm a big fan of non-restrictive meal plans. I fit pizza, fries, chicken wings, and wine into my meal plans on occasion. I still believe that. This was more to see... COULD I give up caffeine? COULD I survive without the high sodium foods that plague me? And COULD I survive on veggies and nuts all day?

The answer so far is YES, YES, and NO. I don't know how people can walk around all day on a raw food diet, nevermind have the energy to work out. Also, a friend and I went through the raw foodie team's pages and found PRECIOUS FEW with public food trackers. So I really didn't have much of a clue what kept them going or whether they were cheating. I found one raw foodie with a great meal plan, but it was only about 55% raw and included things like raviolis. Which, yum.

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COURTNASTY82 2/3/2010 12:54PM

    i love cara cara oranges! i just wish they peeled easier...like clementines! i like the feeling of a nice peeled orange. i know, i'm weird.

anyway, glad you bailed on the raw foods thing...ridiculous i think when you're trying to do a bunch of working out! clean eating sounds like a better plan. good luck, and i can't wait to hear how it all goes!

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TEAM-SARAH 2/3/2010 12:48PM

    Raw sounds way way too tough! I think starting with clean eating is the way to go, then you can decide how much you want to move toward raw. I am definitely already feeling the effects of the extra fiber this week. I usually strugged to get enough. I'm not tracking so I'm not sure how much but based on the amount of fruit and veggies and spinach ive been eating... it's a lot. I just feel hungry too much, I need to get a better grip on this for sure.

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HUGMONKEYMOM 2/3/2010 11:18AM

    I commend you for even trying it. I looked into it a day or two ago to see (when you said you were gonna try it) and I admit, I said, "no way." I feel pretty strongly about not cutting anything out of a diet - and raw is pretty extreme.

But, for those that can do it, more power to them, since I agree with the principle of an earth friendly diet, and my dissertation research is certainly leading me to believe that raw is healthier in most cases.

anyway...I ramble...bravo for your attempt. And more than that, bravo on deciding on clean eating as a substitute rather than just throwing in the towel completely.

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TNDIXON76 2/3/2010 11:11AM

    Way to go on eating raw. I started a raw cleanse on Feb. 1st and I'm always freezing but I feel great so I'm gonna stick to it. At least you go to eat - the first 10 - 14 days of this raw cleanse is green juice. I'm dying to chew! LOL Going raw should definately be easier once it gets warmer outside. This summer I know that you'll be rawking!

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STINA6584 2/3/2010 11:04AM

    First of all, I some how missed the blog in which you said you were going to be doing a raw eating challenge.

Second, you should not feel bad about bailing at all. You listened to your body and did what was best for you. I don't know a whole lot about raw eating, but it doesn't seem like something I would even be up to taking on so you deserve kudos for at least trying it out.

Third, I second Tori's advice about drinking more water. I tend to get headache when I'm not drinking enough water. Also, most herbal tea are decaf so it's a good warm beverage. It's basically hot water.

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PAPER_WINGS18 2/3/2010 10:49AM

    Hey mad props for even attempting eating raw for half a day!! That's AWESOME! & I agree, maybe give it another shot in the summertime... :)

Way to go on this clean eating! Are you just experimenting w/ it for a few weeks, and then hoping to incorporate more in your daily diet? Just wondering! I'm a book of questions over here, lol.

ALSO that orange sounds delicious! I've never even heard of it! I will be on the look-out. Typically oranges/clementines give my skin a flair-up (psoriasis) b/c of the citrus, but if these other oranges aren't as citrusy, I wonder if I'd be able to eat 'em...? hmmm.

I had a really bad headache last night(didn't drink a whole lot of water through the day) and this girl in my class is like "you could be dehydrated. Keep drinking water!" (She works at GNC, and is a bit of a health nut)- sure enough, I chugged a lot of water, and felt better. Maybe you need more water w/ that headache?

Okay, I'm done now! Way to go on being so fabulous as always!!


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MICKIC3 2/3/2010 10:47AM

    Good job on trying it raw! I totally commend you for it :) I dunno how good my resolve would be doing that. emoticon

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KAT_MANDU 2/3/2010 10:33AM

    Cara Cara oranges ROCK! We just last week "discovered" them, too! I am in LOVE!

Sounds like you're doing great...you inspire me...thanks for adding me as a friend!

We can do this!


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DRAGONFLY1974 2/3/2010 10:32AM

    I can't find a blood orange....I'm still looking...are they good???

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ONMYWAYTOGOAL 2/3/2010 10:28AM

    It's good to try different things. You never know what will "click" for you. Obviously raw didn't work now, but as you said, maybe summertime is a better time to try it. Clean eating seems to be more manageable and still healthy as well. Giving up the soda/coffee is a tough one. The headache is misearable for a few days, but it will pass. You can do it!! try to get some more sleep too. It'll help with the cravings. emoticon

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SARANGEREL 2/3/2010 10:27AM

    I commend you on trying raw! I've looked into it but have chickened out. It is really interesting how eating raw effected your body temperature. Oatmeal is awesome for breakfast and I'd miss it too. I have a recipie for soaked oatmeal, while the oats aren't raw it is close to being raw. You soak oats in milk with nuts and maybe some dried fruit and cinnamon overnight in the fridge. It is pretty good. I've been doing Greek yogurt, a small banana sliced, walnuts drizzled with honey for breakfast...I guess that isn't raw either because of the yogurt but it is awesome. Good luck with your challenge, I know that you'll give it all you've got!

I also commend you on cutting out the coffee, something that I have not been able to do...yet. emoticon

take care

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VALERIE_ 2/3/2010 10:25AM

    I saw the Cara Cara oranges and just had to stop by! I read your previous blog post 1st and I'm so sorry for your loss of your fur baby emoticon.

Good for you for trying the Raw Diet. I've never tried it but I do have the green veggie saver bags. My sister in law gave us a few and WOW! What a difference! My salad and my cucumbers and celery and everything lasts weeks!!

I fell in love with Cara Cara oranges by mistake when we were in California. Now, I can't eat any other kind. I searched my local grocery store for them and this past week they were on sale for a whole bag emoticon

Good luck to you!!

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SHELLEY202 2/3/2010 10:04AM

    Good for you! When I gave up drinking soda, I found that herbal tea helped fill the void. And the caffeine headache goes away after a day or two, so hang in there!

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January Recap & February Goals

Sunday, January 31, 2010

January had its ups and downs. I started out strong with the exercise and went to a brand new gym and faced a lot of my fitness fears head on: namely, spinning and group exercise classes. But by the end of the month, stress got to me and I had a couple of days when I did not want to exercise at all. There were myriad reasons for that (see recent blogs) and I think I have confronted them. While it looks like I exercise a LOT, and I do, some of my exercise days are merely brisk walks for 20-30 minutes and not full workouts.

This month I'm going to try to get back to basics. I'm starting with a raw food challenge this week that will hopefully jolt me into getting more freggies in my life. I'm going to start a 10K training program. I'm going to drink my water and cut my sodium. There will be a kink in that I'm going on vacation for a week and will have no internet access. I, however, am going to stay on track as best as possible.


-6 pounds
29 days of cardio exercise
4 days above calorie range
Tracked 31 days
1,845 fitness minutes
14,926 calories burned
Continued strength training (circuit training and EA Sports Active) 4x week
Ran 4.75 miles on the treadmill without stopping


-Continue to track every single day
Done. Tracking seems to be fairly ingrained into my consciousness now. Daresay that I enjoy it a little? It's nice to know where you stand in the nutrition department, especially with fiber, sodium, and calcium.

-Lose 7+ pounds in January
I lost 6 pounds, my lowest loss for a month yet. But I'm not going to beat myself up about it. Technically, I could weigh in tomorrow and be another pound down and make this goal, but I find that doubtful at this point given sodium intake, TOM, and calories burned for the week. Not too bad, but I would still like to lose 7 pounds each month. To make it to my goal of 199 by April 1, I need to lose 15 pounds by then or 7.5 pounds per month. It's doable, but it may be difficult given that I'm going on vacation.

-1,700+ fitness minutes
I finished with 1,845 so I met this goal!

-Finish 30 Day Shred Level 3
I did this! It was tough, but it was a lot more strength than cardio, which seemed to be less difficult for me than a lot of Level 2. I started doing EA Sports Active and gym workouts more than 30DS this month, which is OK. It is still a great go-to workout if you are in a time crunch.

-Take multivitamin and drink 8 glasses of water every day
I did a lot better with this than I did in December, but I still wasn't there. I probably took my multivitamin 80% of the time and drank my water maybe 60% of the time.

-Finish EA Sports Active 30 Day Challenge
Boo, I didn't do this. I finished most of the workouts, but I didn't complete the challenge. I'll finish it next week.

-Run 40 miles this month
I ran 39.5 miles, so I'm going to consider this goal mostly met. I did most of my running at the beginning of the month. I only ran one day last week and I hated it! I probably could have run 50 miles this month if I had been consistent this last week.

-Find a new gym and do two personal training sessions
I did find a new gym, but it was a one-month membership. I really liked it there and the trainer I found was awesome, but I'm probably not going to join that one. So the search continues... I think I know the one I will join eventually, but we will see.

-Find 10K training program
I've decided I'm going to do the "Spark Your Way to a 10K" training program. It seems to be a good program at about my pace (12 weeks) and a lot like C25K, so I'll give it a go: www.sparkpeople.com/resource/fitness



-Keep on trackin' (except for vacation)
-Lose 7+ pounds in February
-Complete raw food challenge and incorporate more fresh fruit/veg in meals
-Eat sensibly on vacation and continue to do something active every day
-1,700+ fitness minutes
-Meet sodium levels at least 5 out of 7 days per week
-Start 10K training program
-Complete 30 day challenges and continue strength training
-Run 40 miles this month
-Actually use my water bottle and use it to measure 8 glasses per day!


-8 pounds
22 days of cardio exercise
5 days above calorie range
Tracked 27 days
1225 fitness minutes
11,190 calories burned
Ran 3/4 mile at a time

-10 pounds
28 days of cardio exercise
5 days above calorie range
Tracked 31 days
1570 fitness minutes
11,587 calories burned
Began strength training
Ran 1.5 miles at a time

-8 pounds
20 days of cardio exercise
6 days above calorie range
Tracked 30 days
1215 fitness minutes
10,831 calories burned
Continued strength training
Ran 2 miles at a time

-8 pounds
25 days of cardio exercise
1 day above calorie range
Tracked 31 days
1765 fitness minutes
10,163 calories burned
Continued strength training 2x per week
Ran 3.1 miles at a time

-7 pounds
26 days of cardio exercise
1 day above calorie range (not counting Thanksgiving)
Tracked 29 days
1635 fitness minutes
13,006 calories burned
Continued strength training 3x per week
Ran 5K outside without stopping!

-7 pounds
30 days of cardio exercise
3 days above calorie range (not counting Christmas)
Tracked 29 days
1925 fitness minutes
14,819 calories burned
Continued strength training 3x per week
Ran 4.5 miles on the treadmill without stopping

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RJBUCKEYE 2/17/2010 1:26PM

    Your blogs have inspired me. I'm going to put together some goals for the next few weeks. Thanks! emoticon

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DREAMRUNR 2/4/2010 9:47AM

    Great planning Karvy!
I wish you a fantastic February.
And remember Spring is right around the corner

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FINZFANATIC 2/3/2010 10:11AM

    You are truly an inspiration. Your committment and dedication to improve yourself on so many levels truly motivates me. Keep it up girlfriend!

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JUST-AMY 2/2/2010 9:24PM

    I just love my Sparkin' Karvy! You're going to get there, girl...You are going to have to move that Spark Tracker on DOWN...



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HAPPYPATTY1 2/2/2010 1:38PM

    Nie job!

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MANDAO97 2/1/2010 5:12PM

    Wow reviewing your results over the pervious month I see how consistent you are! You're doing an amazing job - and I'm sure February will be another awesome month! :)

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SANDY5882 2/1/2010 4:41PM

    Great work on achieving your goals. And 6 pounds down is a win! 4 days over caloric level is 27 days at or below - a positive as well! Congratulations

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ZIRCADIA 2/1/2010 2:29PM

    Sounds like a great plan! :D

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MICKIC3 2/1/2010 2:11PM

    I really love how you set your goals. You seem so good at it. I'm always dragging my feet on that one. Well, except for the *big one*, to lose 100lbs! I should make myself read your goal/results blog every day and maybe it'll shake this mental block of mine loose!

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    Have I told you lately that you're awesome??? New month! Go for it, Monkey!



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BREW99 2/1/2010 10:34AM

    What's your 10K plan you are doing? Good Luck and have fun!!! emoticon

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ONMYWAYTOGOAL 2/1/2010 10:00AM

    You are awesome! You set your goals and follow through. 6# is 6#. Gotta be happy that it wasn't a gain and move on to the next month. emoticon emoticon emoticon I hope February is another strong month for you. I know it will be, I just do! emoticon

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WISLNDR 2/1/2010 6:48AM

    Considering that January bit the big one for most of us, I'd say your numbers look great! And as someone else suggested, vacation just might not be a problem for you. (Unless it's an all-food tour?) emoticon


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DRAGONFLY1974 2/1/2010 5:14AM

    Can you come coach me!! I am working towards being consistent...that's my biggest issue!

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PAPER_WINGS18 2/1/2010 12:39AM

    You have done absolutely fabulous, lady! So you didn't hit 7 lbs. gone this month, big whoop- you'll get it it next month!! You are a strong little lady and will hit your goal by April!


I look forward to hearing how your raw challenge will go... Sounds interesting! Definitely a great way to get more freggies in, that's fo' sho!

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NEWFLABULESS 1/31/2010 11:40PM

    I admire how you have specific goals set and reflect on each one with a brief paragraph. Congrats on your accomplishments and I'm sure you will meet your goals by your creative planning.

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HUGMONKEYMOM 1/31/2010 11:39PM

    Once again, a stellar job. You stay on top of things so well.
Here's to a successful February to us both!

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FLORIDASUN 1/31/2010 10:33PM

    Fantastico..results...I'm just SO doggone proud of how far you've come. I know our challenge will strengthen both of us on our resolve to reach our lofty goals...woot woot for us dear friend! emoticon emoticonmake that WE can do it! Okay okay tomorrow is DAY 1 emoticon

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EMM1116 1/31/2010 9:52PM

    WOW... I LOVE your commitment to your goals and how you track them... I'm so copying you. Such an inspiration! emoticon

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KALYN_C 1/31/2010 8:34PM

    It looks like you came very close to meeting all of your goals. You should be very proud of yourself! Hope the new month treats you well!

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    You may find yourself approaching eating differently on vacation than you expect to. Cravings might even be lower. Would be great to see how it plays out! Even if you're feeling so-so about 6 pounds in a month, I'm going to celebrate it for you, because I think that's an amazing loss!

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Feeling up for a Challenge!

Sunday, January 31, 2010

I've been feeling very negative the last couple of days which I'm going to blame on my grief over the loss of my cat and my TOM and not having the opportunity to exercise on Thursday and Friday. I got a little oversensitive and upset with people both here and in my everyday life. Yesterday's run really helped me feel better (and yes, it was on treadmill as it was -15F with windchill yesterday!) and realized how important exercise is to my life and my mood swings. But I was a bit burned out, and I did need some rest, even if it means I don't have a great weigh in this week.

Last night we went to a benefit at my cousins' high school and basically it was a lot of raffles and betting on video horse races for prizes. It was a whole lot of fun and just what I needed. Especially since we won two of the raffle prizes! My husband was so excited to get the Superbowl Basket: basically a huge ice bucket with almost 200 bottles and cans of beer (some good stuff too! Heineken, Sam Adams, Shipyard Ale) and about six bags of pretzels, chips, and tortilla chips. Oh my God, it was so funny hauling that thing out of there!

Superbowl party at my place!
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Real nice and healthy huh? LOL. Well, there was a counter-balance: I won six free hour-long personal training sessions! So crazy. It was valued at $480, so that is pretty amazing!

Even with last night's festivities, I realize I need a jolt. Almost 8 months here at SparkPeople and I found that I can stay in calorie range 90% of the time and I actually enjoy tracking my food at the end of the day. I've slowly amped up my exercise to a level that I am comfortable with. Where I've been slacking is in the quality of my food and drinking my water. I can stay in my ranges, sure, but it's not really good if it includes a ton of Diet Coke, sodium laden foods, and not many vegetables. For example, yesterday, I don't think I ate ANY vegetables. I had a hot dog and a half a slice of pizza at the benefit, which wasn't too bad, but I just felt crappy. Too much sodium for one day!

Also, I found that drinking my water was a whole lot easier in the summer and fall. I just find myself turning to coffee and tea instead of water these days and I know that I end some of my days feeling dehydrated and nasty.

In the beginning it was more about making small changes and learning how I can eat enough to satisfy myself but still restrict my caloric intake to lose weight. Now, I think I'm ready to eat BETTER. That doesn't mean I'm not going to eat my favorites, but I really want to make non-processed food a bigger part of my diet.

So, starting tomorrow I am doing a RAW challenge!
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My friend FLORIDASUN is going to try running and I'm going to try RAW eating this week, basically switching our passions for one week! I'm going to commit to 3 days in and might do more if I'm feeling up to it.

I just got back from the grocery store (where I left my cart for like 2 minutes and the thing was confiscated by the store staff and half my items put away, but that's another story) to stock up on a lot of fresh produce. Usually when I shop for fruit and veg, I get a lot of Steamfresh veggies and some salad supplies because I have a bad history with my produce spoiling in the fridge. But I'm not going to let that happen this time!

So there are red and green peppers, broccoli, zucchini, tomatoes, cucumbers, carrots, celery, avocados, lemons, blueberries, blood oranges, pink grapefruit, watermelon, canteloupe, Braeburn apples, tangerines, tofu, sunflower seeds, almonds, walnuts, dates, figs, prunes, and frozen fruit for smoothies!

I'm excited. Like I said, the month started with a bang and ended with a whimper, so I'm ready to get back on track, even if I am going to be offline for a week in February. I hope doing something drastic like this will get me in the right mindframe for eating halfway decently while on vacation.

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MANDAO97 2/1/2010 5:08PM

    Those are some pretty sweet raffle prizes! Enjoy your personal training sessions!

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THREADBENDER 2/1/2010 12:24PM

    So funny how the raffle wins balanced out for you as a couple!! And so sorry about your kitty....they do make a big dent in our hearts and we miss them terribly when they're gone.

RE: leaving the groc. cart....Once while ordering lunch meat at the deli, someone take over my cart thinking it was theirs. It had mostly fresh produce in it that I spent a lot of time picking just what I wanted....so the store manager and I scoured the aisles until we found the lady. It was innocent and my purse and coupons were on me, not in the cart.

Feb. will be a great month for you. Fresh everything is so-o-o-o-o good! Cutting back on the sodium makes a huge difference. I've been making lots of soups with Kitchen Basics no added salt stocks. Last week it was lentil soup that I had for lunch most days last week when the temps were single digit. Last night we had white chili w/ the stock, so that will also be lunch for a couple days.

Happy February!

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FITMAMA1984 2/1/2010 9:32AM

    So excited for you! I need to incorporate more veggies in my diet as well.. the fruit is the easy part, I guess because I eat them for snacks. I can't wait to see how you like this challenge!!

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BRINI24 1/31/2010 9:29PM

    YAY for you:))) If you have and delicious recipes for all that produce plz pass along!!!

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TIME4AFITME 1/31/2010 7:16PM

    Those are great prizes! How great it is that you won those sessions. Good luck this week I am sure you will do great

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TRAVELNISTA 1/31/2010 5:59PM

    I actually did the Raw Food Diet for between 6 to 8 months. It was over 2 years ago. I never felt healthier. I had no aches or pains. I went off when I went on a cruise with some girlfriends and have not been able to go back 100%. It is hard to eat 100% Raw. Just so you know the tofu and the almonds are not raw and the walnuts may also not be Raw. The US passed a law last year that the US can not grow almonds and sell them raw. They have to now be pasteurised like most other nuts. If they were imported and say raw, then they are.

Even if you eat the tofu and the almonds you will still be doing a great detox and that should give you toms of energy.

I have a lot of raw smoothie recipes. You can not add yogurt or milk to them unless you have a source where you can buy raw milk here in the US. If you really get into the Raw Food Diet I have toms of recipes for you. emoticon emoticon

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ANEPANALIPTI 1/31/2010 5:06PM

    You literally RADIATE amazingness. SO proud of you! WOOT on the personal training sessions too!

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LISTLOADRUN 1/31/2010 5:04PM

    Wooohooo for winning - especially when a pick-me-up was in order :)

Cant wait to hear how you enjoy the raw eatting - it's not something that strictly interested me, but as something to incorporate more of into my day to day life, yes (if that makes any sense?)

Here's to a Fabulous February!!

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LADYSNOWFALL 1/31/2010 4:07PM

    Try those "green bag" things you see advertised on tv. They really, really work! We decided to try them because they weren't too expensive. Then, we picked up a tub of strawberries from Costco. Well, with the bags, they managed to last 8 days and I managed to eat them all! No sugaring needed to keep them!

Keep us posted as to how eating raw goes. I'm not sure if I'm ready to try it or not, but I'd be happy to gather another opinion or two.

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REMCMFA 1/31/2010 3:28PM

    Sorry about your kitty. I tried the raw eating somewhat by accident. I wasn't very strict, but it made me feel so much better-it's hard to explain! And I can so relate to your grocery card escapade!!

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CHICAT63 1/31/2010 3:21PM

    emoticon that both you and your husband won prizes and yours a personal trainers session emoticon. You can do this challenge no problem, I am confident. As for your water intake, ever thinking of buying a 4 cup water bottle for work? If you drink 2 you've had your 8 cups a day. emoticon

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BETT2U 1/31/2010 3:16PM

    Yay! I love winning raffles they make me feel so lucky. It's freakin' cold here and I have been in a melancholic stupor for most of Jan. You are doing a great job.

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DRAGONFLY1974 1/31/2010 3:13PM

    I wish I could try eating raw, I have a friend who does it, but with picky eaters in my house, I just try and cook healthy!

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CAROLYN1213 1/31/2010 2:58PM

    Christine, always good to read a blog from you. You are so honest about were you are in your journey. It helps me, it makes me laugh, it gives me perspective and I can always relate to something in your blog. By the way, I've been following the Eat Clean Diet for over a month, the inches just keep dropping, I feel satisfied, strong and healthy. My complexion is so much better than it has ever been, my hair is shiny and health. I feel AMAZING and get told several times a day how awesome I look. All that is worth so much more to me than anything junk foods or fast foods could offer. However, I am not a saint. Every 10 - 14 days I have a 'cheat' meal where I order the one thing that still makes me weak in the knees . . . pizza!!! mmmmmm

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SPRINGBELLE 1/31/2010 1:29PM

    I love your blogs! I can relate to the challenges and you make me laugh - which is one of my favorite things!

I just started out last week, got the book this Friday, and on Monday, February 1, I am going to jump in for the 28-day challenge... Goodness me.

I haven't even done the grocery shopping! I work all night on Friday and Saturday nights (shows you how exciting my weekends are) and this weekend I am filling in for a co-worker and working all night Sunday night. I am going to have a tough "1st day" come tomorrow.

Thanks for making me laugh and sharing. I look forward to hearing how "raw" goes for you. I am definitely not there yet...

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LYDIASPURPLE 1/31/2010 12:55PM

    I l your candor & moxe!

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HOSTALADY 1/31/2010 12:50PM

    Congrats on both of you winning wonderful prizes. Sounds like a work out just getting it out of there.
Best to you this week eating really healthy ~ is there any protein like beans or...that you will also be eating? Or is this a flush your system kinda thing. Just curious!
I prep my veggies in 2 cup containers in the frig on Saturday or Sunday and that usually gets me through the weekdays. Makes putting a meal together a lot faster.
Have a great week I look forward to your success in trying something different.

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MICKIC3 1/31/2010 12:42PM

    emoticon CONGRATS on your raffle wins :)))

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GRACEISENUF 1/31/2010 12:34PM

    Floridasun has shared her results with many via her spark page and her diet is amazing. Have fun treating your body to all that yummy food. I too have made the decision to go back to the basics and just received a spark mail this morning from a buddy who encouraged me to re-stock my foods to only healthy ones and to be mindful of measuring and tracking everything. I know that's where successful sparking takes place for me is when I take the time to prepare fresh, healthy food.

Have a delicious, healthy week!
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WE are going to feel amasing!

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RASTUS55 1/31/2010 12:29PM

    Mmmm!! emoticon I LOVEEEEEEEEEE raw veggies! I bring a bag to work with every day and feast on them throughout the day! The crunching keeps me alert and awake if things are dragging and they are so good for you!! Good luck on your challenge and keep up the great work!!

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MAMADELIGHT 1/31/2010 12:22PM

    Good luck on the challenge. Congrats on the raffle winnings. Both are wicked! I'd love personal training sessions. Great for motivation!

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EKKING 1/31/2010 12:16PM

    Reading your list of fresh foods makes me crave it! Great selections and what a great idea switching passions with your friend. Ingenious! I have a water drinking buddy. We have a little game. She tells me to drink somewhere between 1-10 sips. I do and reply with another number between 1-10. It really makes drinking water during the week go by much better and easier and actually makes it fun. Unfortunately (but not really), we aren't sitting at our computers all day on the weekend, so the game drops off. But I take those great drinking habits from the week and it seems to carry over to the weekend. If you are online for work during the day - join us! If not, make a game with someone near you and you'll both have your 8 cups in in no time at all. And make it room temperature. Maybe you aren't liking the water because it's too cold. I know in the winter, I can't stomach ice water. TOOOOO cold!

Good luck!

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MOCOHOLO 1/31/2010 12:13PM

    Congrats on the raffle wins! What a lucky couple you and your hubby are! And good luck with the raw eating. I know I could never do it, I'm a committed carnivore, if nothing else. Have a great week!

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REINVENT_ME 1/31/2010 12:12PM

    I really need to work on the quality of food I eat, too! So I am feeling you with a lot of your concerns.


BTW, your prizes are emoticon! Can I come to the party?!!!!!! emoticon

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NAKLING 1/31/2010 12:10PM

  Good luck with eating RAW!! I am also very bad at letting fruits and veggies spoil. I have gotten better with the fruits...I try to eat two a day, but veggies are a big problem for me. I like veggies okay if they are cooked (bell peppers etc...), but I don't like to cook! That causes a problem! I figure I'll continue to work on eating the right amount of fruits first, then when I'm ready...move onto the veggies! Lots of luck...I'm sure you'll be fine!

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DESERT_BIRD 1/31/2010 12:07PM

    You are going to feel so great!! I always feel better when I eat lots of veggies. I'm cheering you on!

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Weekend Thoughts

Saturday, January 30, 2010

I need to amp up the exercise starting today. I aim to burn 3000 calories a week and so far I've only burned 1200. I haven't gone for a run this week either, but I'm going to go for one this afternoon. I desperately need it.

It was a tough week with the loss of a beloved pet and dealing with that after work. My husband and I always joke that Seri was the cat version of me. Fiercely independent but still in need of love, but on her terms. She had a ton of personality. I still expect her to walk into the room as I'm typing this.

I wish people would think about what they write on blogs, SparkPages, etc. I used to be the queen of speaking before I gave it a good thinkover until I did it one too many times and reaped the consequences. I'm glad that people enjoyed my last blog here on SparkPeople, and I think people liked that because it was basically an uncensored stream of consciousness about my thoughts about the weight loss process and how we tend to compartmentalize people into categories. SP kind of perpetuates this by breaking people up into age groups and weight loss numbers as soon as they join. Being "THAT fat" versus "not THAT fat" is one of those things people don't like to speak openly about a lot of the time.

The last blog struck a chord with a lot of people and caused some of them to project a lot of their experiences and or that of others onto my own issues. I think that sharing honest thoughts and experiences is so important here at SP, but to automatically assume that they are applicable to my own life is pretty presumptuous. So share, yes, but seriously? Many of the comments telling me not to give up, get complacent, etc. are from people who have never read my blogs before, visited my SparkPage and certainly haven't spoken with me.

We're all going to have bad weeks. That doesn't speak to our commitment. I'm certainly not giving up just because I express a few qualms about what will eventually be my goal weight.

It's a new month next week. Let's make it count. I'm going to run it out.

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ITSHOWYOULIVE 2/1/2010 10:48PM

    First, so sorry about your cat. Losing a pet is hard, hope that your dedication to life helps you recover.

Second, you are an awesome person!! I have to say "thanks for being so supportive". I always love the comments you leave on my blogs, they are thoughtful and full of insight. I am always glad to see your pic on my comment page because I know that you will have understood what I was trying to say and have put some thought into the comment-THANKS for that it really means a lot! Hope you have a great February! (Super Bowl party should get it off to a good start) :P.

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BRINI24 1/31/2010 9:22PM

    I am so sorry for you loss, no words will make it better and I know that, just know that I am thinkin of you during this sad time:( As for you previous blogs, I have and will always feel inspired by your words so please keep motivating others!!! I see the progess you have made and it makes me want to keep on keepin on!!! So thank you for being you BIG *hugs*

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CHICAT63 1/31/2010 3:17PM

    Hi Christina, this is for you emoticon for the loss of your Seri. I count amogst one of my Sparkfriends, true to myself if my comments are out there let me know. I am open to criticism (unlike others *lol*). Have a good week, like myself you'll muddle through but the healing has begun. Take care, Josée

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BETT2U 1/31/2010 9:13AM

    Oh girl. I am sorry to hear about your loss. I have lost two pets in the last four years and it devastated my husband and me. Someone once told me that if you bring an animal into your house, they are now family. So, it only makes since that we would grieve on a similar level. I think you are incredible in what you have done with your life and know that you are going to be a success in whatever you choose to do.

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LYDIASPURPLE 1/30/2010 9:04PM

    I am very sorry for the loss of yor cat, Seri. Words never are enough when trying to deal...

I understand and hear you about comments as I've had people to have done the same on my blogs too.. When I am writng it does not necessarly say I am feeling badly about something or feelng inadequate (Unless I say so).

I just discovered your writngs,however, if I am ever presumptious, I will be more careful in the future.....

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GRACEISENUF 1/30/2010 6:40PM

    So sorry you miss Seri.

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BOOTS1221 1/30/2010 5:59PM

    Hey girl.. I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a pet can be just as tough as losing a loved one. I'm so glad you haven't turned to food for comfort (I saw your comment on Jamie's page), that really takes lots of willpower!! You are such an inspiration, and even though it's tough now with the loss of Seri, I know you will feel better soon.

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TIME4AFITME 1/30/2010 5:49PM

    Hope you had a great run. I know that you would never give up you are doing so awesome! I enjoyed your last blog and it really said alot of the things that I feel as well. As always you inspire me to do better and to reach my goals. Together we will do this!

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EKKING 1/30/2010 5:25PM

    I'm sorry to hear about your cat! And sorry to hear about the projections of others on your issues. I think most SP'ers generally just want to offer some glimmer of hope and good will to others. Like you have to leave a pep talk on everyone's blog. Hope I wasn't one of them! emoticon

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HUGMONKEYMOM 1/30/2010 3:37PM

    I admit, I give more weight to comments from those of you who have been around my blog a while than to random passers-by. But if we didn't get random passers-by, how would we find more *true* sparkfriends?

I'm sorry you had to say goodbye to Seri. Mourning is always hard, regardless of the number of legs the deceased may have had. I'm sure a hard run and a bit of time will help tremendously. Remembering her with joy is a good start.

...heck, you could even dedicate your next race to her. Just a thought.


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HOSTALADY 1/30/2010 2:00PM

    You are AWESOME!
You will run threw February and I will walk threw it with you!

Enjoy your SATURDAY!

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4EVERADONEGIRL 1/30/2010 12:31PM

    You are a freaking ROCK STAR and I'm so happy to have you as one of my friends! I'm hoping for a day that we actually get to run side-by-side...and then we'll see who's really the slowest! LOL (I'm betting it would be me by the way! hahaha)

I'm very sorry about Seri! Pets are like our kids - people that don't have pets will never understand that. But we give our hearts to them completely and it is like losing a member of the family when they are gone. I'm sure you already are, but be sure to give yourself as much time as YOU need to mourn your little kitty! And if cats could talk, I'm sure she would have told you that you were a GREAT momma-kitty (this is what we call my daughter in relation to her cat because he treats her just like she is his momma!) and that she's proud of you!!!!


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TRAVELNISTA 1/30/2010 11:58AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. I know our pets can be like our children. I was never able to get another pet after I had to put my cat to sleep for kidney failure. It is no wonder you had a bad week and you were sensitive.

I agree that most of the people reading your blog did not know you. Sweetie you had Most Popular Blog and received over 200 hits. That is emoticon I know when mine get Most Popular Blog I do not know half of them, it is to be expected. I think they were trying to be supportive and not knowing you they jumped to conclusions or just did not read the actual words and interjected their own into it. Try not to get upset over it. we who know you know that you would never quit till the job is done.

If you were not committed to your goal I would not be leading me to my next statement. Are you crazy? emoticon
It is sub degree wind chills out there and you are going out running. I went out yesterday to get the mail and the cold almost took my breath away.

If you are not running in an indoor track, please bundle up and stay hydrated. Please be careful in this dangerously cold weather. emoticon emoticon

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MICKIC3 1/30/2010 11:55AM

    Really sorry for your loss... emoticon

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RASTUS55 1/30/2010 10:24AM

    This must have been a bad week for a bunch of people...I had one too but not because of a pet loss! My heart aches for you on that...People can say it is JUST an animal but those sweet babies are sometimes kinder to us then other people!! Keep up the momentum...you are great inspiration to all!

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PRETTYBLKGYRL 1/30/2010 10:23AM

    *for some reason my comment won't post*

I agree w/ you completely about the randomness of some of the words of support, comments or advise that get left on blogs or sparkpages. But I thought it was just me giving those type of comments the side eye :o/

Don't get me wrong - I LOVE THE SUPPORT & encouragement from my fellow sparkers, but I sometimes wonder if they read the entire blog or just the title & the 1st few words. *lol*

btw: I'm so sorry for your loss - from one cat lover to another. My baby's name is Tiko - but his nickname is "stinky little boy cat, who thinks he's a dog" - & yes that's his entire nickname :o)

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ZIRCADIA 1/30/2010 9:54AM

    I sometimes get irked at people who make well meaning comments that don't apply to me at all cause they're just passers-through on my blog. It's so lame. I'm like really? Have you looked at my page at all? Do you realize I've been around this block more than once and I have a lot of knowledge and I'm blogging about my feelings? Don't give me this - try eating some veggies to get more fiber - nonsense. Yes it's good advise but it's like Sparking 101. ;) HAHAHAHAHA That's so MEAN kind of, but I can't help but have that initial reaction sometimes. I never respond to that stuff though... cause I know that they aren't saying anything WRONG and they mean well. :) hahahaha. so annoying though. Anyway -- I need to see where my burn is this week, I've been just kind of DOING and not looking at the results to see where I stand toward my goal so far this week...

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MANDAO97 1/30/2010 9:44AM

    I missed your updates about Seri :(

I am so sorry. Pets bring us so much love, comfort and laughter and losing one is so sad. I like what you said about her being a kitty version of you- they really can have distinct personalities.

I do remember reading comment on your last blog about not giving up and thinking what? Give up? Kristina is NOT giving up! Not even close. She inspires us all and is in this for the long haul.

Sorry again about your kitty friend. Hope you have a great run.

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"You're Not THAT Fat."

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

When I stepped on the scale yesterday, I reached 65 pounds lost on SparkPeople. That puts me at more than halfway through this weight loss journey.

I started trying (and mostly failing) at a healthy lifestyle before I found SP on January 26, 2009, a year before yesterday's weigh in. So I am 72 pounds lighter exactly one year later!

Being "halfway there" got me thinking about my ultimate goal and where I am now as opposed to where I started, so if this blog is a mix of mind vomit, I apologize, but I wanted to put it out there.

I've put 150 pounds as an arbitrary number for my goal, though I'm not sure that will necessarily be my endpoint. I may be happy at 170 or 160. I've been over 200 pounds for over 10 years, so I'm not sure what a normal weight will be for me, BMI Calculator be damned. When that time comes, it will all be about what feels right to me and not some magic number. According to the BMI chart, I could be 115 pounds and still not be considered underweight. I think I was 115 pounds in primary school, so that number seems crazy to me!

I restarted my healthy lifestyle last June and that random number of 150 seemed insurmountable. If I wanted to reach 150 pounds as an ultimate goal, I would have to lose 129 POUNDS, more than 46% of my body weight.

Crazy when you put it that way, right? So I set goals and rewards for every 10 pounds lost and set my ticker for 199 as a first major milestone. It would be 80 pounds lost until I joined that Onederland club that everyone is ecstatic to join. Sometimes I'd come across a "Onederland" blog and I'd click on it for some inspiration only to find that the member started at 215 pounds, and I won't lie, it was frustrating.

Don't get me wrong, I didn't begrudge this woman her accomplishment. Heck, every time the scale goes down, it's a huge deal, ESPECIALLY for those people who start at lower weights and the fat doesn't melt off quite so easily. I love my SparkFriends who are in the 100s and are looking to lose that last 10-20 pounds just as much as I love those with 200+ to lose.

But here's the ugly thought that pops into my mind sometimes...

"You're Not THAT fat."

You're not THAT fat, I thought to myself. I feel the same way about the partners on The Biggest Loser. There's one member who's like 400+ pounds on the team and the other one is like 215. And I'm like "C'mon, how can you possibly compete in the Biggest Loser?" I'm basically scorning them for not being in my special fatty club for people who are THAT fat.

How nuts is that?

Well, apparently, at 214 pounds, I'm not THAT fat now. My membership in the fatty club may be revoked. I made a joke about Running While Chunky (RWC) to one of my friends and she told me that "I wasn't that big anymore." Not THAT fat. So apparently I've passed that mystical, magical turnpoint where I cease to be a freak of nature and object of bizarre interest to normal-sized human beings. I'm teetering on the edge of fitting into a Size 14, the high end of the bell-curve of non-plus sizes. On the train every morning, it used to be a game to see if I could find a seat in between two thinner women. If it was next to a bigger guy or girl, I stayed standing. Today I sat between a 6'3" guy with a very "wide stance" and a bigger lady and didn't feel squished.

Being THAT fat has been a part of my identity for so long, it's hard to picture myself moving to a different bell-curve. It's great, don't get me wrong, but it's scary for someone who's never known a normal size.

It's difficult to be THAT fat. Walking, running and climbing were a whole lot harder. There was always a lingering question about whether I'd fit into a ride at an amusement park or someone's lawn chair at a party. I could write a whole blog (and others already have) about how much it sucks to be morbidly obese.

But in some ways, being THAT fat makes a lot of things easier.

It's easy to think that everyone is scornful of you because you're THAT fat rather than some other personality flaw. It's easy to discount certain activities (running, spinning, swimming) because you're THAT fat. It's easy to defy others low expectations of your abilities because you're THAT fat.

It won't be that easy to make excuses anymore.

15 pounds until Onederland. Less than 30 pounds until I bid "obesity" goodbye. It's a whole new chapter for me. And yes, it's a little scary. But I'm up for it.



This blog was initally about the crazy thoughts that go through your mind during the weight loss process. I love the comments because everybody took something different from this blog. Some people stopped in their weight loss because they weren't THAT fat anymore. Others have felt THAT fat at a weight where others feel downright skinny. What's most important is respect and respecting everyone no matter their weight, their losses, and their mindset.

To quote a cheesy Disney musical: "We're all in this together."

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KJENKS85 7/21/2010 12:20PM

    Thank you so much for sharing this blog with me! (And thank you for your comment on my blog!) I've put 150 pounds as an arbitrary number for my goal too! At 259 pounds, I thought I would never see 150. I've got it in my sights now! WE WILL get there!!!

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JOY2BSLIM 3/2/2010 10:52PM

    I refuse any negativity while in this process and dont want to hear it from others. I consider myself athletic or voluptuous until i am where i need to be. People can be cruel and we can be our own worst enemies. I avoid personal trainers as i cant stand their "cant do" attitude. I have lost 35 pounds more from a "can do" then a "cant do" as in i can have whatever food i want if i plan for it being on weight watchers and i can exercise and i will lose weight. Expect greatness and hopefully as we get thinner we will also shed our thin skins.

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IN102WIN 2/26/2010 6:08PM

    WOW what a post and it is so true.
I'm totally guilty of that. When I lose some weight and I start getting compliments and people telling me "Stop don't lose any more weight" and other such things, I get "dotish" (a Trinidadian term meaning stupid) and I stop and put back on all that I've lost. NEVER again. I am going to weigh 145 pounds and IT would not kill me to get and arrive at that point......Thanks again for that post!!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CARPENSM 2/25/2010 8:41PM

    This is a great blog! I'm very much in that spot too! In a comfortable 16 and 219 lbs (started at 290)...But I still identify myself as "That fat" where one of my friends keeps telling me "You're really not"

Glad to know I'm not the only one!

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JOOLIE3 2/3/2010 7:08PM

    You are my personal hero today. I am still "that fat" and feel like I have to fight for every pound. Seeing someone actually doing it ROCKS!

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JENELOPE 2/3/2010 1:19PM

    This is great! I'm so happy for you that you've crossed that invisible line between "fat" and "not that fat." I'm looking forward to that, myself. I had it once before. I was a mere 2 pounds from "Onederland" before I knew such a place existed. Then I got lazy, quit and ballooned back to where I was before. And I added ten pounds for bad measure. I think I'm going about it in a better way this time.

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MICHELLEFL1 2/2/2010 11:43PM

  Back in 2002 I worked very hard to lose 75 pounds, but I fell prey to the "I'm not that fat" thought process and fell short of my goal of losing another 25 pounds. I thought I had died and gone to heaven when I could finally shop in the Misses Department instead of the Womens/Plus sizes. I was working out regularly and felt and looked better than I had in years. Although I had made substantial progress, I settled for less. I kept the weight off for two years but have slowly regained all but 25 pounds. Back to the drawing board! This time I will not stop until I actually meet my goal.

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FIDGIEGIRL 2/2/2010 9:55PM

    So true! I feel like I need to lose weight and tone up, and my friends are like "why, you're already skinny" even though I don't feel that way . . . thanks for this entry. Keep it up and congrats on what you've done so far . . .

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STCFILLY 2/2/2010 7:48PM

    awesome! emoticon

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NICOLELOSE100 2/2/2010 2:52PM

  thats for the motivation and inspiration....your whitty humour! emoticon

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    I's sometimes get "You're not THAT fat" from people who were mystified as why I'd want to lose weight. Mainly from my fiance's mom, who thinks we're perfect the way we are. ;-) Never from my own family, who are all thin and find my sister and I to be freaks.

Why would I want to kill myself trying to workout and diet? My bloodwork always comes back normal; I don't have high blood sugar, blood pressure, or cholesterol. I'm 4'11" and started out at 200 lbs.; BMI-wise I was/am VERY obese. I feel fine most of the time, I'm not sick, I'm not THAT fat...so why bother?

Because there's a difference between "good enough" and "fit," "not sick yet" and "healthy," "walking" and "running." I want to run, I want to dance, and I want to wear cute clothes again. I may not be THAT fat, but I'm certainly not thin!

Great blog, I really enjoyed it. =)


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SWEETLEXIE520 2/2/2010 1:39PM

    Very inspiring - thank you!! I always used to let myself off the hook because I'd managed to keep from being as large as my mom. I'd stop exercising and think "Well, I'm not THAT fat." And DH (God bless him) has always told me, "You're not FAT, just not toned." But then he'd proceed to pinch and jiggle that "untoned-ness". emoticon

I don't know what my end weight will be either, but I'm going for healthy now. Fit. I love this feeling of being clean and energetic inside because of the wholesome food and exercise I'm getting. If it's lower than my current goal weight, so be it - and if it's higher, ok. As long as I'm not selling myself short and letting myself just not be THAT fat. ;) And as long as I'm not pushing myself to illness trying to get to a certain standard of skinny.

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    I really liked you blog. I've never been over 200 lbs, but for a long time I felt like I had to before I could start losing weight. I felt like my weight wasn't a problem until I reached that point. I thought (as awful as this might sound) that if I gained more weight it would be easier to lose weight.

At 173 I finally drew the line in the sand and decided to take off the lbs. It amazed me that even though I wasn't THAT fat I still had 50 lbs to lose.

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MAPEIS 2/2/2010 1:02PM

  When I complained to my doctor about my inability to lose weight she rolled her eyes at me and said I'm not "Kansas Fat" and I shouldn't worry about it. "Continue to exercise and eat right and focus on being healthy" is what she told me. I was frustrated that she wouldn't even discuss it with me just because she didn't think I was "that fat".

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    Thanks for an inspiring blog! I totally feel that way too when looking at some of the contestants on Biggest Loser and some of the people on the message boards here. I think to myself why do they need this service? They "are not that fat" or fat at all in some cases. But we all need a little encouragement no matter how far our journeys may be and Spark People is the perfect place for it. You are certainly an inspiration to me!!

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MASE72 2/2/2010 12:07PM

    Great Blog! emoticon emoticon

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ACRAW2 2/2/2010 11:12AM

    I love this! Thank you!

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SQUAREBEAR 2/2/2010 10:56AM

    You are trully an inspiration, especially to someone like me who has had the "fun" of being obese. This is a great peice to motivate someon, especially at the beginning! thank you for sharing your thoughts, and may the next step of your journey be better then you can imagine.

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FITMARY 2/2/2010 9:36AM

    Great blog! I think it says what a lot of people feel. Congratulations on your progress too! That's great work!

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KATIEGLEN012 2/2/2010 8:26AM

    Thanks for taking the time to put your thoughts into written form. It has provided me with food for thought.

I tried to write more...but really I need to think about this...I'll visit your page after I've processed.

Congrats...you've done well.

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TONIABLAKE 2/1/2010 11:52PM

    "I'm not THAT fat." It was interesting to read your blog and to see I'm not the only one that has thought this way. I think that thought kept me from getting off my ass for a long time. I told myself a lot that I wasn't THAT fat. When my doctor said I might want to lose some weight, when the BMI calculation said I was obese, I realized YES, I really was THAT fat. 30lbs later everybody is telling me how skinny I look, but I don't want to think for one moment that I'm not THAT fat....because then I may feel excused from pushing ahead to my goal.

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FITNEWMOMMY 2/1/2010 9:32PM

  Great job! Keep up the good work, and you're right. You set the definition for yourself. No one else does!

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DRLJONES 2/1/2010 9:15PM

    Thanks for writing this! Interesting how our perceptions of ourselves change rather more slowly than others' perceptions of us. :-) Keep up the good work!

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  Awesome blog! :)

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KINGLADY123 2/1/2010 7:22PM

    Great Accomplishment! Congratulations

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KINGLADY123 2/1/2010 7:07PM

    Great Accomplishment! Congratulations

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AHANSON1020 2/1/2010 6:11PM

    Great blog! I started out weighing 280 when I was 15 and I am 208 now at 19. I still have a good ways to go though! emoticon

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LRKISNER 2/1/2010 3:54PM

    Great blog! I originally started at 247 and hit 209 last week and I am estatatic! I didn't think that I would ever see 215 and now Onderland is just around the corner! Keep it up! You have inspired many through your journey!

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BUDBABE10 2/1/2010 2:43PM

    Awesome blog. Had to read it twice for enjoyment. I luv the thoughts!! Thanx for sharing emoticon

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CAROLYNB491 2/1/2010 2:13PM

    Your honesty is wonderful, and I'm grateful for your blog. Right now I feel like I am "that fat" but now I can laugh a bit about it due to your sharing. Congratulations on your progress!!! emoticon

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BER7506 2/1/2010 2:11PM

    Love it, love it, love it!!! Keep up the great work!

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SEVENKITTY 2/1/2010 2:07PM

  Had to read it again! Great blog! Thanks emoticon

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KARENANN95 2/1/2010 1:49PM

    I loved this blog. Thanks for the insight. I'm fairly new to SP but I'm loving the inspiration and insight:) Could you let me know how to get a ticker or tracker on my Sparkpage/posts?

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MARTINT011 2/1/2010 1:44PM

  Sometimes I think this too and it keeps me from keeping healthy. I stay on the this same role and realize that this isn't healthy thinking. So thanks for the blog. BAck to Spark and the healthy ways to lose the weight. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LYNNET 2/1/2010 1:15PM

    Loved your blog! Keep up the good work!

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KJSCORTEZ 2/1/2010 1:05PM

you hit the nail on the head sister!

Keep up the great work!
and keep us laughing!

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MYREALANA 2/1/2010 12:52PM

    As one of those who started at 214 and celebrated the wonder of reaching the 100's only a week ago, I was at fist a bit taken aback by the "You're not THAT fat" attitude.

But, it only took me a second to recognize the same impulse in myself.

When I see someone who weighs 130 or 140 and they're complaining that they need to lose the extra fat, sometimes, I just want to scream at them that they have no IDEA what fat really is.

I don't do it of course. It takes me only a moment to remember that it's not important who has the hardest journey. This isn't some competition. Support means as much to the person who needs to take off 10 lbs as those who have hundreds to lose.

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CLKELLER1 2/1/2010 11:41AM

    This is awesome...your brain works a lot like mine....it's a little scary

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ZRAMOMMA 2/1/2010 10:36AM

    Loved reading your blog! Definately, some of the same thoughts have crossed my mind a time or two. Congrats. on your success!

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LISAQ84 2/1/2010 8:54AM

    Fab blog!! As a newbie to sparkpeople it's inspiring to read about others success. I've probably been considered not "THAT" fat for most of my adult years and I suppose it's what's prevented me from actually gettin up off my backside and doing what I need to loose that 20 lbs that crept on without me noticing!!Well done on your success so far and good luck on getting to your happy weight xx

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ART4TAB 2/1/2010 12:40AM

    Your 'mind vomit' relates to me ... Loved it!

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SBLUEYEZ 1/31/2010 11:52PM

    I enjoyed your blog. Congrats with your success. You should be very proud. I hope you find your happy weight soon and LOVE it.

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    This was great. I'm one of those where my high weight was "only" in the 230s... reminds me of a girl I knew who lost 100+ lbs and was working on the last 15 only to be criticized at a new weight watchers meeting essentially for not being fat enough to be with them, not knowing she had lost so much.

I may not be "that fat" - but I am unhealthy and not in physical shape. I don't go by the numbers - when I am in good physical shape and in a size 12 again, I'll be happy. (I'm in that same edge of a size 14 now).

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77PENNER 1/31/2010 10:56PM

  I hear you!!!

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JULE215 1/31/2010 8:34PM

    I can relate!!...Well done in expressing how I think many of us think.

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PAISHAR2 1/31/2010 7:59PM

    Great Blog!!!!!!!!!


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CATWMN 1/31/2010 7:46PM

    Way to go on your accomplishments!!

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_TABS_ 1/31/2010 7:41PM

    I've routinely been told I am not "THAT" fat. And it's true that for most of my life I have been able to "fit" into clothes available at the average store. But it's that mental turmoil that one feels behind the dressing room door that would always make me feel the heavy burden of the little extra "that" that made me have to grab the largest available size of a garment that was never meant to be worn by anyone larger than a twig. Being not "THAT" fat can still be a painful place. I think that ultimately as individuals we all know that we don't want to need a qualifier in our weight description.

There is a whole lot more mental stuff to be worked through once deemed a societal norm; welcome to the club and just know that you're not alone. Good luck to you, and thanks for sharing!!

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