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Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I read an interesting article on the way to the hospital today about an obese blogger who comments on fashion and being plus-sized. I was excited, because I thought it would be a push for better plus-sized fashion:

Unfortunately the article was less about fat fashion and more about the fat acceptance movement, which apparently is what the article's subject, 32-year old, 300-pound Lesley Kinzel, writes about on her website, found here: www.fatshionista.com/ .

My thoughts? I love the idea of loving who you are RIGHT NOW, no matter what size you are. And I do think you can be a happy obese person. I was happy at 286 pounds. I had a husband who loved me at that weight and great friends and family, and so I didn't have that "Nobody will ever love me because I'm fat," complex that a lot of overweight single women have. But could I have been happier? Of course. I'm a lot happier now that I have more energy. And I feel stronger inside and out.

I also know you can be relatively healthy, active, and obese. At my highest weight I didn't have major health problems and I still played the occasional game of basketball, but I knew that remaining at that weight would likely lead to health problems (like my father's hypertension and heart disease).

I believe in treating fat people like human beings. I believe in compassion. I believe in magazine covers with curvy women.

But Kinzel has given up on losing weight and calls it "beyond the realm of my own possibilities," despite eating healthy foods and going to the gym. The article may be distorting her story a bit, but she speaks about how she embarked upon a restrictive 6-month diet and only lost 3 pounds. It struck me as sad that she perhaps believes that the only way to lose weight is to diet and diet HARD.

Denial is a powerful thing. I convinced myself that I "couldn't lose weight" because I ate the same crap as my friends and had the same non-gym lifestyle as theirs. I like vegetables and sports too! But God decided I wouldn't have the lightning quick metabolism as theirs, and now I realize that I need to workout hardcore in order to lose weight. I need running and strength training and my workout DVDs and I need to track everything that goes into my mouth to keep myself accountable.

So yes, while I would love it if obese people were treated with dignity instead of disdain and yes, even disgust, I'm not sure I can buy completely into the whole fat acceptance movement. I'm not going to be one of those "former fatties" who judges overweight people once I hit my goal weight, but I do know that being morbidly obese is not a fun thing, even if you are sexy and confident at that weight. I could barely fit into an airplane seat, I couldn't ride some amusement park rides, and I huffed and puffed on stairs. Those things along with others put a HUGE damper on my lofty dreams for what life should be like.

What do you think?

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JMSHIMP 1/31/2010 11:12PM

  I agree wholeheartedly. I have a lot of trouble with fat acceptance, since I feel like at the end of the day, it's endorsing something unhealthy.

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JUSTFOXXY 1/24/2010 11:06AM

    Great blog!

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GEODAWG 1/18/2010 8:34PM

    My sister was morbidlly obese and to outsiders, she was confident, witty, and lovely. When she lost over 150 pounds, she really became herself. She no longer used her magnigicent wit to be self-depreciating. She loves wearing "normal" size clothes. She loves shopping now! While she seemed to accept her weight, she is healthier, more beautiful in spirit and body than she was before she dropped the weight. Plus, she is keeping it off. It has been three years since she made the decision to get in shape and she is still in shape. If she can do it, anyone can.

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TEENY_BIKINI 1/18/2010 7:03PM

    Fantastic Blog! Just fantastic.

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PHD140 1/18/2010 6:32PM

    Wow, I also totally agree

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JUST-AMY 1/17/2010 11:07AM

    Spot on!

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LOTUSBLOSSOM126 1/17/2010 3:09AM

    I think that that we should love and accept people as they are. And I also think that if can hinder obese people wanting to do something to change their lives when they feel they are judged so harshly. I think it should go into the awareness movement. About not giving up, and that loving yourself is more than a number on a scale, and if you also love yourself, you will want to take care of your body and to enjoy your life in every capacity you can. And if you are overweight and feel more accepted as a person, you'll just feel better emotionally, which can help with the other goals for health. How often do you want to exercise and make healthier choices when you feel down and depressed (especially about yourself)?

I also believe that if you do make the choice to not change, that you will have to also accept everything that goes along with it as well as accepting yourself. Such as, paying more for a seat on a plane cause you can't fit into one is one example, higher costs of health insurance, and the inevitable health problems and lower income (that can result from being sick more often, not due to discrimination).

My heart really does go out to the 'fashionista' if she really did give up on weight loss due to a diet failure. That can be detrimental to a person's goals, especially since it can be so hard to understand why it doesn't work. :(

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FITMAMA1984 1/14/2010 1:15PM

    I think it is so unfortunate to see people "resign" themselves to being morbidly obese. Call "giving up," call it "lack of motivation," but I call is plain laziness. Yes, I can call it that because I, too, was morbidly obese and I have changed that. I do not believe anyone.. not ANYONE.. can be completely happy with seeing a 300 or whatever on the scale. Confident as they may seem, I think it's just a coverup for the insecurities inside. If the fat revolution is about celebrating obesity and not offering sound advice for healthy weight loss, then I don't support it.

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ANEPANALIPTI 1/14/2010 10:44AM

    Totally completly agree!!

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LILMYSTERY 1/13/2010 8:26PM

    I absolutely love it! I agree whole-heartedly. I think the most important thing is for each of us to be the best that we as an individual can be. The best us. I know I'm not at my best, but I sure won't be giving up on that dream!

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BETT2U 1/13/2010 4:02PM

    I totally agree. I had to accept myself before I could improve me. However, I feel a whole lot more attractive, stronger and healthier at this weight than I did then. I am more in touch with my body and my self-esteem is way up. Yes, we need more plus size fashion and yes, the entire world could use more compassion. I don't think she should give up on weight loss. It is doable if we only believe in ourselves and quit the negative self-talk and judging.

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    I think it is a very honest way of looking at the problem. My best friend is big, and smokes. The reasons I wish she would quit smoking are the same reasons I wish she would lose weight. Not for appearances, but for health and longevity. I would love if she would change her life in those areas so that she can be healthy and happy, enjoying her kids and grandkids way down the line. I want her to be accepted by society for who she is, but more importantly I want her to live a long healthy life and she knows that overeating and smoking are getting in the way of those goals. We can be happy with ourselves, and accept our flaws, but that doesn't mean we have to give up trying to better ourselves. Maybe the fatshionista is a bit too concerned about how she looks, and not some of the more pressing issues.

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LALAFLOWERS 1/13/2010 1:46PM

    Wow.. another blog that makes me stop and think.. Great job!!

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PINKCOCONUT 1/13/2010 1:23PM

    I totally agree. I wish I was as self-accepting when I was more overweight than I am now but even at my heaviest I never bought it. I never thought I should just settle on where I was when I KNEW I could be better. You may get a clean bill of health temporarily while being overweight but chances are, down the line, you will not be. Your joints will ache, your breath short, your chances for disease double.

For me, fat has ALWAYS meant unhealthy and that is just plain unacceptable.

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TRAINER_T 1/13/2010 12:36PM

    This is a great blog and I enjoy your opionion on this subject. I can see that your body has changed but your compassion has not which is wonderful.

I know that you have to be happy with who you are, and own up to it. Now if your not telling the truth and your living the life such as this but saying your fine with it then your in denial.

You get one shot....one life, NO retakes...this is the only one life you get to do with it what you can for the short time you have here.
GREAT blog!

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SPIRITRUN 1/13/2010 12:27PM

    No one should endure any degree of discrimination for anything. We need to respect ourselves, our bodies, our health and each other. I have never been obese, but I have been overweight, moreover, I have battled body image issues since I was a young girl participating in sports and social activities. I know what it feels like to walk through life constantly dissatisfied with one aspect of myself or another. It isn't fun. When I worked at one fitness club, we did fitness and body composition testing on Miss Teen Canada pageant contestants. These girls were waifish -- skinny skinny skinny. At the time I was muscular, slightly "padded" and fit. I weighed about 145lbs and had a body fat % of around 22%. These girls were about 112lbs, tops, and yet, NO MUSCLE, no tone, and low and behold, their body fat % was up around 30% placing them in the obese category. It floored them. Not me, I was doing the pinching, yet it was still an eye-opener for me, and I was very proud of my body that day, despite my constant criticism of it. So what the eye could see was a skinny waif, the body composition analysis told a different story. Their health and fitness was way below par. We live in a sick society. A society filled with fake food, unhealthy expectations and images and sedentary behaviours. To me it is the big picture (no pun intended) that should not be acceptable. Watching the Biggest Loser last night, I was surprised that the young girl (in the 400's) was shocked to hear she was diabetic. I said to her through the tv, "What did you think?" Being obese in a society that is plagued with the issue might make people feel complacent and accepting of being overweight -- feeling average or part of the "norm". Just as the upsizing of our portrion sizes has become mainstream, so has the upsizing of our bodies. We can't live with our head's in the sand. Obesity is the #1 killer according to recent stats. We need to continue to spread our Spark. We also need to encourage people not to base their feelings of self-worth on what size they wear or what the scale reads, but on what they can "DO"!

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GRACEISENUF 1/13/2010 12:21PM

    I couldn't have said it better myself! I agree wholeheartedly with the whole "fat acceptance" movement not being a healthy choice in the longrun, having said that, I also NEVER want to judge someone who is struggling as I have. Great blog, thanks.

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THREADBENDER 1/13/2010 12:02PM

    The major thing that worries me about a "fat acceptance" movement is that it lets the manufactured food industry off the hook. I sincerely believe that a big part of the obesity problem in the U.S. is processed food which pushes the trifecta of fat, salt, and sugar over consumption to the extreme.

A parallel that people might understand better would be for us to accept that chronic lung disease and lung cancer are a natural part of life along with smoking. It took years for us to hold the tobacco companies to account.

Smoking is a "choice" (at the beginning...before addiction). Food is not a choice.

How long will it take us to wake up and hold those who manufacture foods to account? For heaven's sake, I just restocked up on canned beans. Fortunately I stopped to look at the labels, even though I had (note the past tense) a favorite brand of kidney beans. Sometime between the last time I stocked and this week, they found in necessary to add sugar to canned kidney beans. Come on......who needs sweet chili? GRRR!

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EMILYBCRUZ 1/13/2010 11:00AM

    Honestly? I am 100% against any fat acceptance movements. My mother suggested I read that Fatshionista blog and quite frankly, it irritated the crap out of me. Like you said, it is great to feel confident and love your body no matter what stage you are in, but being morbidly obese is no walk in the park. It bothers me to no end to hear someone say that they just CAN'T lose weight. I feel like it's kind of unfair because by saying that, people aren't holding themselves accountable. So I feel like, "Wait a minute, so I'm fat and it's my fault, but she's fat because of her bad genes?!" The reality is that we are overweight because we eat too much and don't move enough. Sure genes and thyroid issues may come into play, but that's when we have to eat less and move more to compensate. Not just sit back and say eff it, I'm sexy like this, who cares about heart disease and cancer and diabetes and rollercoasters and plane seats and running in the park with our kids. Come on people!

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TEAM-SARAH 1/13/2010 10:29AM

    It's not about how you look it's about health. There are many people who are not overweight who have just as disgusting eating and lifestyle habits as obese people do. It's still something that needs to be changed. People who are fat shouldn't be discriminated against, but I don't think it's right to just give up on yourself and your health! You've got the right attitude, and hopefully you will set a positive example for many!

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NRLB75 1/13/2010 9:05AM

    I'm fat. Hell my whole family is fat, so how could I ever hate a fat person? There are just too many health risks associated w/ obesity to just accept it. Not too mention all the stuff you miss out on. I'm not buying it. I'm still pretty hefty and 50 lbs ago my life was still really good. Great husband, great family, nice house, car, job etc. I laughed & loved every single day. I think you said it right. It wasn't so much that I was/am unhappy, but more that if I could be this happy at 287, and I know I'm being held back, imagine how happy I could be if I could get rid of the extra me?!?!?!?!

You just can't settle. We only get one life. I REFUSE to squander it, to not give it my all!

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FLORIDASUN 1/13/2010 8:42AM

    Hi sweet friend! Good, good blog and very thought provoking. I think when you really get down to the heart of the whole matter every one wants to be validated. I have been very thin, semi thin, thin, not so thin, a little fluffy, very fluffy, and downright obese. I have to tell you I felt better about my self when I was a good weight for my height and frame size which is about 125-135 pounds. That is what I'm aiming for. Why...because I felt the best at that weight. But if I'm brutally truthful it was also because I was better received, validated, and happier within my own skin. It's wrong that society treats heavier people with disdain, it's wrong that the big foodies sabotage our weight loss efforts with their fake foods, it's wrong that obesity is one of the all time triggers for health problems thereby creating a cash flow for doctors and hospitals...but it is what it is. Until we take control of our own choices and put only REAL food into our bodies that our bodies can RECOGNIZE and process..we are going to have obesity. I hate it but it is the way the world operates.

However I see hope at the end of the tunnel..being the ever optimist that I am...I think the new SEXY will be the new HEALTHY and a movement will start that we say "Enough!"....stop trying to feed us SLOP and feed us nutrients...big sigh..at least that is my fondest and biggest dream come true..and I'm walking the walk..and I'm losing weight doing it and gaining ENERGY to boot! emoticon Thanks for putting this blog out there...good one! emoticon

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ETHEL_MERMAID 1/13/2010 8:17AM

    I think self-love and acceptance is key. It implies that a person will take good care of him/herself. The way I view it, self-care means lowering one's risk of disease, and for me, that means getting to a healthy weight.

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LADYSNOWFALL 1/12/2010 7:53PM

    Go Kristina! You tell them Sista! Life is what YOU make of it.

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ZIRCADIA 1/12/2010 7:33PM

    I hate the whole fat acceptance nonsense. It's fine to accept and love yourself as you are RIGHT NOW, but to decide that because you do there's no need to work to improve your health and happiness is ridiculous. That's like if I don't have a job and I don't get a couple that I applied for going, well obviously I'm not meant to have a job and I'm destined to live on unemployment or whatever. NO -- you keep looking!!! You try to expand your skill set and education to make yourself a better applicant!!!! lame.

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SPEEDWACER 1/12/2010 7:02PM

    I know exactly where Lesley's coming from. For so long, I wanted to lose weight, but I was afraid of losing myself. I've been fat for so long that it hasn't just shaped my body, but it's shaped my personality, and it's part of who I am. I always wondered if I would become a completely different person on the inside as well as on the outside. I loved who I was and I wouldn't have changed for anything.

And then I saw how sexy I looked after I lost 50 pounds, and I was so mad at myself (and everyone else) for letting me get so heavy.

I guess what I'm saying is that Lesley just is who she is, and whoever doesn't like it can piss off.

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ISSY1554 1/12/2010 6:53PM

    TELL IT SISTA! emoticon

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ONEABTHIN 1/12/2010 6:33PM

    i agree completely!!Im fat and married to a wonderful husband and have beautiful kids and i know know matter how much i weigh or lose they are gonna be there by myside supporting me. but if i cant get healthy and lose this weight and feel better which i am starting to feel already then i may not be around to stand my there side and support them when they need me...
Fat people are just as beautiful as thin and sometimes even more so...but healthy is awesome for anyone....im not so sure i believe the 3 pounds in 6months thing either.
as for pcos i understand this completely i found out i had this when my oldest was born, and i foundout i have to wrok a little harder to lose weight but while im working hard and losing i feel a lot better, i dont know bout anyone else, but i used to have horrible cramping not just that the time of the month thing but all the time stomach aches due to pcos, and now that im working out daily i feel 100% better.....

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WISLNDR 1/12/2010 6:26PM

    That's a hard one. I've always tried to be accepting of myself regardless of what weight I was at but as I get older, I realize that the weight is taking its toll. It really is about being your healthiest and doing whatever it takes to achieve it. That weight loss occurs too is just one more benefit!

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FURBALLDTH 1/12/2010 6:21PM

    6 months and 50 pounds but people still see a fat person. Do I care? No. Never did never will. I'm in this for my health. emoticon

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SPARKENISTA 1/12/2010 6:07PM

    I'm 100% with you. Everyone should be treated with respect. However, "accepting" being morbidly obese and trying to convince others to do the same is doing everyone a dire disservice as well as extremely irresponsible. I have a hard time dropping the pounds, as well. Yet, I don't see "giving up" as a viable alternative.

It is hard to believe that she followed her program closely and only lost three pounds. If this is the case, she should have had her thyroid, her hormones, and other factors involved in weight reduction checked What she published is not the whole truth.

Good luck to you in your journey. I know you are on the right track.


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STORMTMB 1/12/2010 6:03PM

    It seems there are a lot of women who are impacted by polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) and neither they nor their doctors know it. I knew it but received no guidance about what I could do. Once I educated myself (because my previous MD sure didn't help) I learned that I had to exercise and eat right for the weight to come off - and it is.

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    I agree with you. I also admire some principles of the fat acceptance movement. One is getting off the "diet" bandwagon. (I'm working on a blog about diet, anyway). And I think that there is wayyyyy too much judgment of large people in America. It's as if it's okay to poke fun at the fat even as it's not okay to single out other groups. But I also think it's the marrying of exercise with diet (as in the only reason to exercise is to lose weight) that keeps larger people from being healthier **even within their larger bodies.**

Interesting that you used airplane seats. That's actually written down as one of my motivators! And I'll get to test it out this Thursday!

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Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Having one of those weeks that is just "happening." I'm busy, and running around, but I feel like I'm in some sort of daze. Last weekend went by so quickly. I was in the hospital with my mother and then my grandfather was admitted, and they are running tests on him to figure out what is wrong.

I need a looooooooooong workout, like 90 minutes or more. Planned on a run yesterday, but got caught in construction traffic and had to skip it. So today is another day, and I'm looking forward to running out my stress.

In the past, I definitely would have eaten my stress, but my pattern of thinking has changed and I keep thinking, "What is that going to acheive?" The answer is nothing, and if I continue to not deprive myself, I should be OK.

Thanks to everyone for all of your great messages, thinking of me and my family. You all are so great.

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    Good luck on running the stress out and sorry its just been one of those weeks for you, I pray it starts to get better!

I continue to keep your family and you in our daily prayers.

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SPIRITRUN 1/13/2010 11:55AM

    You are going through a rough patch and handling it with the admirable strength, clarity and grace. See what a clear head, focus and prioritizing yourself into the big picture can do for you? You are going to be able to look back at this period and be very, very proud of the way you managed yourself.
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FLORIDASUN 1/13/2010 8:28AM

    Hi sweetie pie..you are GROWING and transforming so beautifully. I'm so impressed that you are reasoning out things that give you relief and they don't involve food! How awesome is that? My heart is with you right now during this stressful time...just think of me as your 'virtual mom' I've stepped into that role for all of my dear Josh's young adult friends and they seem to think I'm a pretty good stand in...so far...so when you need 'real world advise' even if it's delivered in 'virtual world'...I'm here for you dear one! Hugs and smoochies! emoticon emoticon

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TIME4AFITME 1/12/2010 8:14PM

    Hope your mom and grandpa are both ok. Thinking of you and am so proud of you for not turning to food. emoticon

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HOSTALADY 1/12/2010 7:27PM

    I am sorry about your Mom and Grandfather. You will get through this and like many said before me you need to find the time to run or walk or what ever to release the stress and clear your head. You should be so very proud of your self for not turning to the food. You are doing AWESOME under these circumstances.
Thinking of you and your family!

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LOTUSBLOSSOM126 1/12/2010 4:14PM

    I am very happy for your small successes (about the stress eating), and hope you can get a good workout in. I also hope that the week gets better as it goes. Thank you for update. we are all here for you.


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ANEPANALIPTI 1/12/2010 2:40PM

    *HUGS* Always here for you and I am SO proud you're not eating through it! Just get that workout in, all will be ok! "Everything will be ok in the end, if its not ok its not the end!"

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JAHAYDA 1/12/2010 1:55PM

    Oh I hope things settle down for you soon and that your family members are okay. I also hope that you get a chance to fit a nice long relaxing run in to release some of the stress. I wish you luck I know you can do it!

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DESERT_BIRD 1/12/2010 1:36PM

    That's wonderful that you have changed how you react to stress. Instead of eating, you run....that's awesome!

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PAPER_WINGS18 1/12/2010 1:01PM

    Glad to see you're hangin' in there OK... You're a strong woman, you'll get through this--I know it! I hope your family members are all doing better at least... :( Definitely not a fun thing to be going through for anyone involved, I'm sure....

Way to go on not eating away your stress, b/c you're right, what does that accomplish?? I was having difficulties last night-- I wanted to just eat everything in sight-- and I just kept chugging my water and doing some readings for school to keep me busy... It kinda worked. I still gave in to 6 peanut m&ms, but I tracked 'em on today's day, since I was out of calories yesterday.. Oh well...

Here's to hoping today is better for us :)
Go get that exercise in, girl! Show it who is bossss!! emoticon

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SARANGEREL 1/12/2010 12:19PM

    It is awesome that you are craving exercise to deal with your stress! I hope that things settle down for you soon. Keep on running! Take care.

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WISLNDR 1/12/2010 11:57AM

    I was concerned for you; you just didn't seem to be online much. I hope things settle down soon (like next year, perhaps??) but I know you'll find time for a run (like today, perhaps??)


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HUGMONKEYMOM 1/12/2010 11:55AM

    Hang in there, this is just a rough spot. I am sure as soon as you DO get the two hours available for a good workout you will feel SOOO much better, so keep looking for it.

In the meantime, deep breaths, good (for you) food, and lots of hugs. (Both from all of us here and from real honest people.)


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NEWYORKORCHIDS 1/12/2010 11:11AM

  You really are motivating. I can only hope that I can get to your train of thinking where I value exercise over food.

Good on you!

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LADYSNOWFALL 1/12/2010 10:49AM


I'm sorry it's starting out to be a rough week. And I do bet you'll feel better with a good run. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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HEYSKINNY 1/12/2010 10:45AM

    You are awesome! I'm thinking of you.

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EMM1116 1/12/2010 10:30AM

    I 100% understand where you are coming from. Running out my stress is something that I often do, and I agree that it has replaced when I used to use food for the same purpose. I find that sometimes when I am really stressed and need the therapy of a good run, I often feel like I can't get into my stride because I am so focused on feeling better. Make sure you take it out slow, and concentrate on your breathing. You are going to feel better in no time. emoticon

I'll definitely keep your mom and grandfather in my thoughts and prayers! emoticon

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TADTURC 1/12/2010 10:18AM

    Keep RUNNING! Your the reason I that I made the final decision to take up the challenge of running a 5k in May.

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PINKCOCONUT 1/12/2010 10:05AM

    Keep your chin up, woman!Great job on turning to exercise for stress relief rather than food. It's a pretty empowering realization, isn't it? Keep us posted and hope everything turns out well!

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4EVERADONEGIRL 1/12/2010 10:00AM

    We all know the feeling of being in a daze just being swept along by life rather than purposefully making it happen! Hang in there! But it sounds like you are making good choices by not eating your emotions and focusing on trying to find the time to get a workout in!

Big HUGS!!!!!

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Fire and Ice

Thursday, January 07, 2010

Last night, I got home from ice skating and I felt like dancing, even though my legs were sore. I couldn't believe how well I did. In the past when I went ice skating, my legs would give out on me or I was so scared of falling that the fear crippled me until I DID fall.

Not anymore. I don't know if it is because I'm lighter on my feet now, or that the running and strength training has helped, but after one test run around the ice, I was gliding with ease. It surprised the HECK out of me! I only fell once, and it wasn't anything big, and I was right back up on my feet again!

This newfound confidence has lit a fire under me, and all those "can'ts" and "won'ts" that were so omnipresent in my life before I started running and losing weight.

If I can run a mile at over 250 pounds, then why can't I ski and skate and do all those things that caused me such trepidation in the past? The answer is that I can. This was a huge realization for me this year.

I fell once on the ice and this one teenager burst out laughing. The old me would have felt so embarrassed and it might have ruined my whole evening. I just looked at him and smiled and said, "Falling is just perfect comedy, isn't it?" and he agreed, and that was it. I brushed myself off and kept on skating.


My enthusiasm was cut short by a call from the Intensive Care Unit of a local hospital. My mother, who has battled with alcohol addiction programs, apparently had an incident with a cigarette and a bottle of hairspray and suffered burns to her face, ears, and head.

She has been so low lately, but she refuses to get help for her addiction, and so there is not much I, or other members of our family can do to help her unless she agrees to treatment. Today has been filled with calls to the hospital and social workers and tears and prayers for her.

I tried to get to sleep last night but my mind was spinning after hearing the news of her accident. While I was gliding on ice, my mom was immersed in fire. I can't imagine how painful it must have been.

How many times have I wished that she could have a different sort of fire lit under her, much like the one lit under me, the one who could brush aside all the demons of the past -- mostly failed relationships -- and take control over her addiction? Too many to count.

While I am soaring, I feel my mom slowly sinking, and while she has hurt me in the past, all I want is for her to get well; to realize her own self-worth; and to gain the ability to rise above the past.

Please pray for my mom today.

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FLORIDASUN 1/13/2010 8:22AM

    Hi there my sweet friend! That is SO DARN sad about your mom! I so feel for you and the pain that you have to experience in seeing her self-destruct! I've learned with all of my readings about trying to understand why we lost our beautiful son at the tender age of only 22 that we all come into this world to pursue our own paths. There was no child on earth that was MORE loved and adored than our Josher..and he still couldn't recognize that love as enough in his world. The most horrifying thing is that he chose to self-destruct by falling into bad company that led him into drugs...within 6 months he was gone. I blamed myself, his dad blamed himself..but in the end it was Josh and only Josh that chose his path. My daughter from my first marriage is now 40 years old..can you even believe that..I'm 57..she is a drug addict and probably will go to her grave as one. We have tried EVERYTHING to get her help and to give her fresh starts and to give her support..but in the end..WE and only WE chose our own paths...you have no responsibility in your dear mother's karma...she should be thanking her heavens to have such a beautiful, capable, brilliant daughter..but she can't see that in her self-induced hell..I'm sorry for this...and I'm sorry that you have to live with the sadness it induces..but know that we are all praying that some miracle can occur..and that SOME day she will see the light and realize that if she doesn't get it right in this life time...she'll be back for harder lessons in the next one..or at least that's the motivation that I have to be kind, and gentle and loving..from my own life lessons! Hugs to you dear one! emoticon emoticon

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    The ice skating sounded like alot of fun, sorry it was cute short but can't wait to hear about your other ice adventures. Your mother and your family is in my prayers. My husbands brother is an alcoholic and it was been a rough road for him and the family so we feel for you.

Sending you a big hug!

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THE_NEW_MELISSA 1/11/2010 10:23AM

    Oh no!!!! My prayers are with you and your mom. My mom also suffers from alcohol addiction, we seem to have so much in common. I am here for you anytime you need to talk, sincerely. My mom refuses to get any help, and I pray everyday that she will realize her life could be so much better....*hugs*...big big *hugs*.....

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4EVERADONEGIRL 1/11/2010 9:57AM

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Your Mom is in my prayers...it's always hard when the people we love most won't do what they need to help themselves! And it's especially harder when we know that anything is possible because we are living it right at this moment!

Hang in there girl and just know that you have all of SparkLand praying for your Mom!

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BETT2U 1/11/2010 9:03AM

    I will pray for you during this stressful time. My dad's in the hospital, too recovering from lung surgery. I think it is awesome about you ice skating. That takes a ton of muscle control. I got laughed at by a young punk while I was walking on my stoppers and my feet slid out from under me. Just go lightly and don't let it stop you. Here's a blog you might like that talks about giving it your all while at 2XX lbs -- http://phit-n-phat.typepad.com

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GRETCHEN_D_GR8 1/10/2010 8:59PM

    Wow... it is so hard to help our loved ones who do not want to help themselves... and they don't realize how much it hurts us to see them hurting. Or if they do, they don't care. I wish your mommy the best as well. I feel the same way about my mom. She has hurt me in the past.. and continues to be hurtful, but I want so badly for her to experience the happiness and positive energy that I am feeling... if she will just give it a try.

My prayers are with you and your mom... long distance hugs, too.


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GRACEISENUF 1/9/2010 9:27PM

    I will be praying for your Mom. I am so sad to hear what she is going through because of her addiction. You are a wonderful daughter to be showing her unconditional love and I so admire your strength right now. You will BOTH be in my prayers.

I am also very inspired by your skating and determination to be all that God has created you to be in every new endeavor you pursue.

Love and hugs

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AUGUSTAGLOOP 1/9/2010 6:51PM

    Thinking of you. Proud of your confidence and ice-skating prowess, and sorry to hear about your mother's struggles and injury. Wishing you all the best. emoticon

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SPIRITRUN 1/8/2010 9:36PM

    Oh hun, I am so sorry to read this. It is awful what happened to your mom and I hope she is ok and will find her way. I have father issues. He drinks. Tonight, I invited him to dinner, for which he showed up late and drunk. He refused a meal. We had another of our blow-ups where he storms out on me. I try to talk to him, adult-to-adult, but how can his daughter possibly know anything or have an opinion of her own and how can I get through to him through his bottle of scotch. It is exasperating. We just have to stay our course, girl, and not get sucked into the depths of their issues. We will always be here for them. That is what family is. But until they hold out a hand, what more can we do?

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CHICAT63 1/8/2010 7:46PM


I am very sorry to hear about your Mom and her addiction. I know it is difficult not to do everything for her, you need to detach yourself from her & her addiction. Needless to say, her injury will require healing, the road ahead might be difficult. You did the right in making the phone calls, unfortunately as we all know until she hits bottom or realizes she needs help to fight her disease there is nothing you can really do.

I know very well, how helpless you might feel but you cannot change her and that's ok. Sincerely, Josée emoticon

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1972ROSES 1/8/2010 5:00PM

    I'm so happy to hear about you and so sorry to hear about your mom. Maybe some day, your accomplishment will help her find the fire she needs. I wish the best for both of you.

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TIME4AFITME 1/8/2010 12:18PM

    Praying for your mom. Glad you had a nice time skating. Great reply to the kid emoticon

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LOTUSBLOSSOM126 1/8/2010 1:12AM

    Glad you had such a great time ice skating! And you took the tumble with such grace. :)

My prayers are with your mom, and you too.

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ANEPANALIPTI 1/7/2010 9:02PM

    Oh darling....I am keeping you and your mom in my thoughts! Kouragio glykia mou....

You are so strong...

I loved your response to the kid...

(thinking of you)

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WANDAC2013 1/7/2010 8:58PM

    Beautiful blog. Keep up the good work! And, best wishes for your mom....I know where you're coming from. emoticon

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KARVY09 1/7/2010 8:32PM

    Thanks everyone for all your wonderful comments and thoughts and prayers. I hope this is a catalyst too, though I have low expectations given the past.

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    Don't get me started on the subject of teenagers... but good for you for taking it in stride.

I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. She is lucky to have you in her life.

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KEEPGOING87 1/7/2010 7:05PM

    I can relate to your mom sytuation... my father is an alcoholic and my husbands mom is an alcoholic, she recently actully had her 3 DUI and will be facing jail time because she refused to get help. I will pray for your mother

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REINVENT_ME 1/7/2010 6:59PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. I will definitely pray for her!

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STINA6584 1/7/2010 6:46PM

    I'm also very sorry to hear about your mother. I'll be sending good vibes her (and your) way. I hope she recovers quickly and that maybe this will be her catalyst for change.

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DESERT_BIRD 1/7/2010 6:37PM

    Kristina, I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. {{HUGS}}

It sounds like you are ready for Zumba!!

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BIKERSHARI 1/7/2010 4:52PM

    Praying for you mom to have strength to battle her demons... and praying for you for strength and peace regardless.

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BETHSHEALTH 1/7/2010 4:52PM

    You got it my friend! emoticon

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WISLNDR 1/7/2010 4:43PM

    Oh, Christina, I'm so sorry about what happened to your mom. Prayers to you and your family.

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EMILYBCRUZ 1/7/2010 4:22PM

    I am so sorry to hear about your mom. I will keep her in my prayers.

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LADYSNOWFALL 1/7/2010 3:57PM


Look at you! How wonderful! I, too, am afraid of falling, even while walking. I haven't rode my horse because of this fear. I sometimes send my son to the chicken coop when it's muddy and slick out (must walk down a steep grade). I walk slower on the vineyard hills when it's been really rainy. All so I don't fall. I know I don't bounce like I used to and I know this fear of falling is mostly irrational. After all, my horse isn't likely to do anything to hurt me, ever. If I fall off, it will be because I lost my balance. And, well, I will just have to get back up and back in the saddle again! If I fall in the vineyard or going to see the hens, well, I'll just get muddy! But yet the fear persists and then I slide...

You inspire me and give me such hope for myself!


PS I will keep your mom in my thoughts and prayers today. Keep your chin up!

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LJRW170 1/7/2010 3:44PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. It's sometimes so frustrating when you can see someone spiraling downward and there is literally, nothing you can do. I'll be praying for you both.

And congrats on the skating. I can't imagine doing that yet. My ankles were always too weak and wobbled alot. Maybe I'll make that a future goal. :)

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ZIRCADIA 1/7/2010 3:35PM

    WOW. *HUGS* I am soooooo sorry to hear about your mom. Burns are seriously the worst, but hearing about the situation she's in regardless is also tough. I will definitely send out a prayer for you and your mom! In other news -- I really want to try skating. I was in roller skates ONCE as a child -- like 5 years old. I rolled backwards and then fell and then said, that's it. The end. I tried ice skating once. I held on to the edge nearly the entire time and moved so slow it was ridiculous. I feel less afraid now -- of trying, of falling... I'm ready to try those things again. But again *HUGS* to you!

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POOR2TEACHER 1/7/2010 3:26PM

  So sorry to hear about your mother; definately will keep her in prayers.
I really enjoyed reading your blog today; I was completely motivated by the ice skating story. I have always wanted to try and have always been too nervous because of my lack of balance. But now after hearing that it is as fun as I imagine, I can't wait to try it next month. Wish me luck! I'm sure I won't do nearly as well as you did. Best wishes for a speedy recovery for your mom and an intervention to help her.

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OFORTUNA 1/7/2010 3:11PM

    I'm terribly sorry to hear about your mom. It's sad that those suffering with addictions often don't realize that they hurt the ones they love just as badly (if not worse) than they hurt themselves. I hope all goes well for her and she recovers soon.

I'm so happy for you regarding the ice skating, though! Skating is such great exercise. I used to figure skate, and I miss it so badly. I'm just too heavy right now to skate - I couldn't lace my boots properly. We went to Millennium Park in Chicago and I wanted so badly to get back on the ice and do toe loops. :)

But if you enjoyed it, perhaps you could see if there is local ice rink where you could either take lessons or free skate once in a while even during the summer? It's a great way to change up your exercise program, and wonderful for your thighs and core.


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    On one hand, I'm really excited for you and for everything you're discovering about yourself on this amazing journey. On the other hand, your poor mother! I'm really sorry to hear about that, and I'm sending her all my good thoughts of peace and healing.

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TADTURC 1/7/2010 1:39PM

    Congrats on the skating! Im glad to see that you can move toward positive healing for your lifestyle.

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AZIUGA 1/7/2010 1:36PM

    I'm so sorry about your Mom, I am sure that is so difficult for you! HUGS!

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MANDAO97 1/7/2010 1:34PM

    I will absolutely pray for your mom - that she can find peace and happiness with herself and her life. I am sorry that you are dealing with that. My mom was raised by two parents who battled alcohol addiction and one of my brother's had a battle with drug addiction (though he's been sober for a few years thank God). I know how painful it can be and how helpless you must feel. I hope that she recovers and finds the strength in herself that you have found in yours.

Great job conquering the ice skating rink :) Think of all there is left for you to conquer in 2010. It's going to be a great year for you!

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HUGMONKEYMOM 1/7/2010 1:33PM

    My thoughts are with your mother today.

All we can do, in times like these, is to love those people unconditionally and be there for them when they decide to change. By being strong and overcoming your own obstacles and demons you are putting yourself in the best possible position to help your mother when she needs it. (You know the cliche - always put your own oxygen mask on first...)

Your realization on the ice really moved me. I wish you nothing but ice from here on out.

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PAPER_WINGS18 1/7/2010 1:16PM

    Oh Kristina! First, I am so incredibly proud of you for beating your own demons & standing up to your fears. Now just with ice skating, but running, trying new exercises, and losing such a significant amount of weight. You have definitely changed your life for the better, and I am so proud of you! It takes a lot of work and positive self-talk to get to where you have gotten thus far, and you are doing it! I also really loved how you handled the falling on ice situation w/ that obnoxious teenager. If it were me, I know I would have given him a dirty look, and possible the death stare for the rest of the night :P So yay!

Now, as for your mother... I am so sorry that she had this accident :( It sounds so incredibly painful-ahhhh! I can't even imagine how much pain she must be in. Most of all, I'm sorry that she has to suffer such a horrific addiction, and that you and your family have been there to witness it over the months & years. Watching a family member suffer w/o accepting help is a very difficult thing to live through ( I know, b/c my mom has a history of mental illnesses... Any time you want a story, just let me know. yikes.) I pray that your mom will heal quickly, and that she will find the strength to overcome this addiction. Perhaps with a little more time, she will be able to see that you have been able to overcome a food addiction, and that will give her the courage to try to seek help for alcoholism.

Let me know if you need anything dear! xoxox

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FITMAMA1984 1/7/2010 1:12PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. Addictions leave you feeling so powerless, but there's really nothing you can do. I hope she able to one day overcome her demons and hope she makes a speedy recovery from her burns. Will keep her, you, and your family in my thoughts.


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Eat Your Breakfast!

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

"I can't tell you what I had for breakfast, but I can sing every single word of rock and roll."
--Patty Duke

If there's one meal of the day that I completely rock at, it's breakfast, and with all respect to Ms. Duke, I sing a mean karaoke, but enough said on that matter.

I firmly believe that you need a good mix of carbs and protein to boost your day from the start. Although sometimes I struggle with creative new dinner ideas, I can honestly say I'm a breakfast superstar and have the appropriate authority to wax poetic about the importance of breakfast.

Looking through some of the New Year's blogs, I noticed that a lot of people have a hard time either eating breakfast or waking up in time to have breakfast before heading off to school or work. I saw this at my office all the time. There were the people who bought a bacon, egg and cheese on a bagel from the local coffee place every single day and the others who didn't eat anything at all for breakfast and by 10-11 a.m. they were either munching on whatever they could find OR tucking into a huge lunch at noon. Or if you were like me, my pre-SparkPeople weight loss efforts consisted of trying to stay full on 3/4 cup of Special K for breakfast and a small sandwich for lunch and I was notoriously ravenous and crabby by 3 p.m.

So here I plan to share some of my favorite breakfasts with you and show that there is a viable substitute for some of the higher carb, higher calorie breakfast items that often tempt us. In the same vein, if you are interested in some of my snack ideas, you can check out my DailySpark guest blog here: www.dailyspark.com/blog.asp?post=i_g

All of these breakfasts are less than 300 calories, and I tried to make them as high in protein as possible:


This is something you can eat quickly before running off to work or completely transportable to the office. If you need to grab something quick to take to work, my favorite yogurts are Chobani Greek-style (Greek yogurt has more protein and is thicker than its competitors) and Yoplait Thick and Creamy Light in individual containers. Otherwise, you can save a lot of money by grabbing a big container and measuring out a half cup yourself. (Did you know that the Trader Joe's brand yogurt is actually Stonyfield Farms? I have an insider source there who let me in on that little secret!)

I like to add some chopped walnuts or pistachios and cut up a little banana or apple to eat alongside the yogurt. You can get completely creative here!

Chobani Vanilla Yogurt, 16 Chopped Pistachios and 1 Small Banana
A GOOD SUBSTITUTE FOR: Yogurt with high sugar content or sugar-free yogurt that doesn't keep you full for long enough!
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Why not have a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for breakfast? I have a good high protein bread that I use for my PBJs: Joseph's Flax, Oat Bran & Whole Wheat Pita. It is soft and tasty and is only 60 calories for a huge pita with 6 grams of protein and 4 grams of fiber. I usually add a tablespoon of a local brand of natural peanut butter which is delicious, Teddie Peanut Butter, which even has a version with flaxseed! Again, I can either use a teaspoon of jam or honey, half a sliced banana, some chopped apples, even raisins!

1 Joseph's Pita, 1 Tbsp Natural Peanut Butter, and 1 Tsp Jam
A GOOD SUBSTITUTE FOR: Toast with butter and jam, jelly doughnuts, pecan rolls
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Take the Joseph's Pita from the PBJ above and add a tablespoon of Nutella or chocolate spread. It's not as high protein, but it is completely decadent for a small amount of calories and if you're the type of person who needs a chocolate croissant or muffin to start your day, this can completely take the edge off. This is even low enough calorie that you can add a side snack with higher protein to help keep you fuller (string cheese, peanut butter, etc.)

1 Joseph's Pita & 1 Tbsp Nutella
A GOOD SUBSTITUTE FOR: Chocolate croissants, muffins, and doughnuts
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Again, not a high protein option, but sometimes only a carb fix will do, although you can add some protein powder to the oatmeal to give it a boost. This one is also easy prep: instant oats plus a sprinkling of your favorite chocolate chip. Also makes you feel like you are cheating, but you're still getting the whole oats of the oatmeal.

1 Packet Quaker Instant Oatmeal & 1 Tbsp Chocolate Chips

+ 1 Scoop of Vanilla Whey or Soy Protein Powder
CALORIES: 260-300 (depending on product)
PROTEIN: 20-30 (depending on product)
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A visit to ONLY_AS_HIGH's adopted city of Austin, TX introduced me to the joy of breakfast tacos. These things are insanely good, but of course the fast food versions have eggs cooked in butter, high fat cheese, and full-fat sour cream. The good news is that you can make a high-protein, lower fat version of a breakfast taco or burrito with very little effort. My favorite is scrambled egg, fat-free cheese, and crispy bacon with a little salsa and lowfat sour cream. Vegetarians can substitute beans for the bacon and vegans can make tacos with just beans, veggies, and salsa.

HOW TO MAKE: Use some cooking spray and scramble an egg in the pan. Melt a slice of prepackaged fat-free American cheese on top of the eggs. I call this "raincoat cheese" because it's got that waterproof sheen to it. Now some of you are probably screaming "Processed cheese! Gross!" And I would agree, EXCEPT for melting purposes. This stuff melts great and gives it that yummy taco cheese taste. But if you're still against it, you can substitute a good half-fat cheddar cheese. Cabot makes a stellar 50% Reduced Fat Jalapeno Cheese.

You can fry up one slice of low-sodium bacon in the pan until crispy and drain all the grease (my fave) or use the precooked slices they sell in the supermarket.

Warm a tortilla in the microwave, pan, or oven. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Boston Whole Wheat Tortillas, but I'm not sure whether this is a local brand or not, especially since I thought Boston Market was a local chain when I was a stupid, gullible teenager. In any case, this tortilla has only 70 calories and a banging 6 grams of protein and 9 grams of fiber (much like its cousin, the Joseph's pita) which is the best I've seen at the supermarket, but if you can't find it, there are other brands of whole wheat tortilla out there.

Place cheesy egg and crumble bacon in the tortilla, top with your salsa and lowfat sour cream. Delicious!

1 Large Egg, 1 Slice Bacon, 1 Slice Fat-Free Cheese, 1 Boston Whole Wheat Tortilla, 1 Tbsp Salsa, and 1 Tbsp Lowfat Sour Cream
A GOOD SUBSTITUTE FOR: Those massive breakfast burritos
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If the idea of a breakfast taco doesn't appeal to you, you can also make a lower calorie breakfast sandwich with mostly the same ingredients. Subtract the tortilla and substitute a whole wheat mini bagel or English muffin. I really like Thomas' Whole Wheat Mini Bagels, which definitely do the job. Cook the egg and bacon the same way but don't add the salsa and sour cream and you basically have the same calories as the breakfast taco! You can also substitute sliced lowfat deli ham for the bacon or skip the bacon altogether.

1 Large Egg, 1 Slice Bacon, 1 Slice Fat-Free Cheese, 1 Thomas' Whole Wheat Mini Bagel
A GOOD SUBSTITUTE FOR: Your favorite 500+ calorie breakfast sandwich!
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My blender was one of the best investments I ever made, especially given my penchant for Frappucinos! I never believed a smoothie could fill me up, but it totally can if you add the right ingredients. My favorite fruit smoothie consists of 1 cup of frozen unsweetened strawberries, 3/4 cup of frozen unsweetened peaches, 1 cup of fresh or canned pineapple, and a 1/2-1 cup of yogurt or vanilla soymilk. Honestly, I feel like I'm drinking a milkshake, but it gives me an incredible boost of energy to keep me through the day. Again, because of all the fruit, this one is higher carb, but you can add that scoop of protein powder if you want, or you can substitute blueberries for some of the other fruits. Basically any fruit can be substituted for something!

1 Cup Frozen Strawberries, 3/4 Cup Frozen Peaches, 1/2 Cup Fresh Pineapple, 1 Cup Silk Vanilla Light Soymilk
PROTEIN: 8 (Protein powder will add an additional 90-150 calories and 15-30 grams of protein)
GOOD SUBSTITUTE FOR: Higher calorie fruit smoothies and shakes
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Yep, sounds tasty, don't it? This one is very simple: Just 1.25 tablespoons of natural peanut butter, 1 small frozen banana, 1 tablespoon instant coffee or espresso dissolved into one cup of water, and one cup of light vanilla soymilk. Again, tastes decadent and is super filling!

A GOOD SUBSTITUTE FOR: Frappucinos and other coffee smoothies
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Anyhow, I know this was long, but I hope you enjoyed my breakfast ideas! Have a wonderful day, Sparkers!

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DIANE2KNIT 2/26/2010 7:22AM

    Thank you for the great ideas!

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TEXASGIRL219 1/13/2010 1:24PM

    Love the breakfast ideas...I struggle to come up with different things and these are great! Thanks! emoticon

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TEXASGIRL219 1/13/2010 1:23PM

    Love the breakfast ideas...I struggle to come up with different things and these are great! Thanks! emoticon

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SEVENKITTY 1/13/2010 12:36PM

  Thanks for a great blog!

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GIDDYUPPJL 1/11/2010 4:47PM

    I agree. I will not miss BF again.

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PICTUREPAGE 1/11/2010 1:49PM

  One of my goals . . is to eat breakfast everyday. I normally have about 12 oz of coffee everyday and I mean everyday but I will make an effort to eat something everyday!!! Thanks for the post. emoticon

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VEGGIE-FITNESS 1/10/2010 5:43PM

    Oooh...i love a good breakfast....i'm keeping these for future yummy choices!!

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TIGGERIFFIC123 1/10/2010 9:17AM

    Thanks for the great ideas! I am one of those who is only just getting used to eating breakfast which I have not done for the past 20 years...sad but true.

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GRACEISENUF 1/9/2010 9:36PM

    Yummo! Thanks for the great ideas.

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LALAFLOWERS 1/9/2010 7:46AM

    I love breakfast... I just sometimes need some time to wake up enough to eat it. I love oatmeal and cream of wheat. But.. I make both with half a cup of milk, and half a cup of water (w/ 0.5 cup oats, or 2.5tbsp cr. of wheat) This gives me some protien in the morning bowl. I top with berries, a tsp of brown sugar or what ever I else I crave that given morning. I do keep the toppings to 50 calories or less... but it gives me the flexibility to have some fun.

I do like some of the other options. I also love nutella. My kids don't like PB&J, but rather PB&nutella. It makes lunch into a bit of a treat. They actually prefer it on a tortilla... also a great breakfast!

Gotta get that metabolism roaring in the morning!

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BLUEROCK 1/9/2010 7:18AM

    some great ideas there!

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SHAY72 1/9/2010 5:42AM

    thanks for the great breakfast ideas gotta try them

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BERGIE8771 1/9/2010 12:14AM

    I stopped eating breakfast and now I want to try it again. The recipes look great.


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SPIRITRUN 1/8/2010 9:27PM

    This is a blog to bookmark. If I ever find myself tired of my oatmeal concoction. I go to be looking forward to it. I LOVE breakfast!!!

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DOWNTOWN02 1/8/2010 5:54PM

    Breakfast is my superstar of the day as well! :)
I love a mini whole wheat bagel along with some fat free cream cheese! One egg white...and some applesauce! YUM!

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GRAMVICKI 1/8/2010 4:36PM

    Wow what wonderful suggestions. Thanks!!

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DIDMIS 1/8/2010 10:14AM

    I am in the minority. All of my life I have never liked breakfast. My mom had to make me eat it. Your ideas of a good breakfast do sound great though

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NEWPMA 1/8/2010 9:15AM

    Thanks for sharing you've given me some great ideas.

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CALLENIUS 1/8/2010 8:32AM

    This is awesome...thanks for all the yummy and nutritious ideas!!

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MASE72 1/8/2010 7:18AM

    thanks for sharing! emoticon

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KUANGIE 1/8/2010 12:09AM

    Wow- thanks for the chocolate chip oatmeal suggestion- with protein pwder to boot. My kids will love that one too!

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CHRISSYGAL11 1/8/2010 12:08AM

  You have some wonderful ideas for breakfast. The thing is you don't just have to eat "breakfast" foods for your morning meal, especially if you're not a natural breakfast eater. I often don't have time to put a lot of effort into it, but making a wrap with turkey bacon, lowfat deli ham or turkey, one slice of lowfat cheese, lots of lettuce and mustard keeps me going until the noon meal.

I've been craving pizza today, so tomorrow for breakfast I'm going to make a mini English muffin pizza. Tomato sauce, 1 string cheese divided between the two halves, a little deli ham, turkey bacon, mushrooms, onion and peppers. Delish!

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DONNA5281 1/7/2010 10:26PM

  Thanks for sharing these yummy recipes with us. I can't wait to make some of them.

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DEBRAJ61 1/7/2010 10:15PM

    Great recipes!! Thanks so much for this. I recently began having more filling breakfasts with more protein and found it does help. Love the breakfast taco recipe. That one I will do for sure. I am a huge taco fan!

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SM-ARTGIRL 1/7/2010 8:32PM

    I am proud of me! I eat brekky every day.

I eat fruit-free toasted muesli and home made yogurt plus whatever seasonal fruit is in my fruit bowl or has been stewed.
My partners mother gifted me this yogurt maker, "Easy Yo" a few years back and I swear it has changed my life! I make low fat Greek or organic low-fat.

I love your yogurt and nuts breakfast and the peanut butter breakfast will have to try also!

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NUBIANNALA 1/7/2010 7:53PM

    I try to have 3/4 cup cereal and by 11:00 AM I am starved!!!! I need to revamp this stuff. I read a blog today that said "Eat breakfrast like a king, eat lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar."

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HELLAVAHC 1/7/2010 5:54PM

    yummy! I LOVE breakfast!

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CHERYLE51 1/7/2010 5:25PM

    Some great ideas. I love breakfast anytime. Some great ideas that I will have to try.

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MELODYDG 1/7/2010 4:11PM

    Thanks so much! I love Yoplait Thick and Creamy yogurt too. Where do you buy the Joseph's Pitas? Unfortunately no Trader Joe's around here... though I've heard amazing things about that store!

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SEMUSPARK 1/7/2010 3:39PM

    great post! i'll be making some of these for sure-thanks for sharing!

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RED_RIDING_HOOD 1/7/2010 3:08PM

    wow in the beginning of the post when you state that you are a breakfast Queen you were not kidding.

Thankx for the recipes

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JAHAYDA 1/7/2010 2:57PM

    WOW!!! you do have it down. I have never been a breakfast person so coming up with ideas now that I am eating breakfast is a challenge and I know soon I will become bored with what I'm eating. I'm not a peanut butter person but I'm sure I can find a substitute. Thanks for the great ideas!

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VANILLABERRY 1/7/2010 2:20PM

    Um, noms.

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TAPGIRL72 1/7/2010 1:53PM

    Some of these ideas are fab!! I am drooling at my desk thinking about the smoothies!!!

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HERCULEA 1/7/2010 1:46PM

    These are some really wonderful breakfast ideas! Thanks so much.

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BEVER2U 1/7/2010 1:25PM

  Good stuff! Thanks

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LOSERKIM 1/7/2010 1:07PM

  Thanks for those YUMMY ideas! Makes starting the day easier!

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ENGLISHROSE84 1/7/2010 1:03PM

    Genius! Thank you! I'm due to start back to work on Monday and I was wondering how to handle the whole breakfast situation as I usually struggle to make time in the morning. There are so many yummy and healthy ways to start the day here that I'm sure I'll have more of an incentive to wake up a bit earlier to fill my tummy with fuel for the day!
Thanks again!

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FALLENPIXELS 1/7/2010 12:53PM

    Thanks, I am always stuck for breakfast ideas (I am one of those bowl of special k people)

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THERESAGARZA 1/7/2010 12:37PM

    Great ideas! thanx for sharing! these are quick and easy enough for me to grab and run out the door for work!

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BEINHAVE 1/7/2010 12:28PM

    Thanks for this - I love to eat breakfast and try very hard to eat it before I leave for work because it does give you a great boost for the day. These are great breakfast ideas!

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SWJADECO 1/7/2010 12:12PM

    Thank you for taking the time to write this blog! I always eat breakfast, but this morning I just had a small bowl of cereal... I am planning to use some of these ideas for future breakfasts!

Thanks again.


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ITSABOUTME2407 1/7/2010 12:09PM

    thanks !!!I agree theres lots of ideas ..wishing u a great day..trish emoticon

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USCHI0762 1/7/2010 12:08PM

    Awesome blog.. thank you for the ideas... I eat breakfast every morning as I get grouchy and a headache if I don't eat... however because I'm usually rushed.. it's always the same thing. Thanks for the ideas


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ANNE7X7 1/7/2010 12:07PM

    Thank you for the ideas! I love breakfast, but I find it hard to keep the calories low all the time! With these tips, I will enjoy breakfast once again!

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    Fabolous ideas to try.

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1BIGDREAM 1/7/2010 11:45AM

    Good stuff! It's kinda like a restaurant menu at a diner! But healthy and awesome!

I make breakfast burritos and sandwiches ahead of time, wrap them individually in a paper towel, and then freeze. Heat in the microwave for 1 1/2 or 2 minutes, and it is even faster than the drivethru!

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Size 16 Jeans! And Some Photos...

Monday, January 04, 2010

So today I decided to try on the Size 16s I found in the store about a month ago for $8. They zipped at the time, but they were skin tight and unwearable at the time. Today, they are a little snug, but not indecent!

One of the mini challenges for Boot Camp is to post before and after stats or photos. I never did an official "before" photo when I started Sparkpeople at 279 lbs, but I posted some photos of the 270-280s era on my photo page. I figure the new Year is a good time to do this, given my goal is to lose an additional 70 pounds this year.

A view from the front

From the side


I have to remind myself that even though I cringe when I see the photos, especially from the side and back, I look a lot better than I did before:

August 2007. One of those photos that makes me shudder.

December 2008.

So yeah, let's see what 2010 brings!

Time to get going. Gotta check on that car (fingers crossed, fingers crossed!), head downtown to do some work, and then try out the new gym! Have a wonderful day, everyone!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

GRACEISENUF 1/9/2010 9:31PM

    The new pic shows the success you've found sparking! You really look good in those size 16's!

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FITB4-40 1/9/2010 10:55AM

    I'd love to wear size 16 and some day I will! Keep up the excellent work! emoticon

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SPIRITRUN 1/8/2010 9:25PM

    Oh girl, look at our progress!!! You look fabulous and I so look forward to your progress reports 6 and 12 months from now. Keep your eye on the prize, my friend!

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FUTURESTRAWN 1/8/2010 3:33PM

    I got here from your awesome breakfast blog, but I just wanted to point something out to you: you don't have new before photos of your face! Your face has clearly changed a lot (wow!) and it will continue to do so. Why not record that, too? It has been my favorite part of losing weight, actually :)

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MELODYDG 1/7/2010 4:25PM

    Great job!!! You look great! I can't wait to make this post for myself! :) emoticon

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LOSERKIM 1/7/2010 1:09PM

  You are my new inspiration! I can not wait to get into 16 jeans again! I am currently sitting in 20's and they are feeling a little looser. Keep up the good work!

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JCARDINAL 1/7/2010 12:46PM

    Congrats on the 16's!! 2010 is the year for success. Good Luck!

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USCHI0762 1/7/2010 12:09PM

    Congrats! Way to go! emoticon

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ANNE7X7 1/7/2010 12:08PM

    What a difference! Amazing!! Keep it up! Soon, you'll be wearing 12s! :D

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KNITTINGFROG 1/7/2010 11:40AM

    It's a shame you won't get to wear them out....as they will soon be too BIG for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Congrats girl, you have come a long way already!


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THE_NEW_MELISSA 1/7/2010 10:25AM

    You look marvelous in your 16's!!!!! You are rocking it, you continue to inspire me :) I think you look great, can't wait to see where 2010 takes you!

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MANDAO97 1/6/2010 10:23PM

    Wow Kristina- that is a huge difference!! You can see it everywhere in your body and in your face. You are making a transformation thanks to all your hard work and sweat!

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TIME4AFITME 1/6/2010 8:45PM

    Great job on the jeans! You look awsome.

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GLOBALKEEWEE 1/6/2010 3:02PM

    Congratulations on the new jeans - great start to the new year!
Keep up the fantastic progress, you're quite an inspiration.

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ALEXTRIFYING 1/6/2010 1:17PM

    you look AMAZING. i am so impressed and proud of your progress!!! emoticon emoticon

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NICOLEBA47 1/6/2010 11:03AM

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Good for you!!! You should be quite proud of yourself !

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CHICAT63 1/6/2010 6:45AM

    emoticon emoticon you did it 60 pounds, totally amazing and size 16s woohoo !!!! You are to be proud of yourself, very proud keep it up the excellent work. Rock on Sista....

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THREADBENDER 1/5/2010 3:48PM

    You are looking great!! Happy New Year!!

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HUGMONKEYMOM 1/5/2010 11:36AM

    You are doing a phenomenal job! The progress is really really apparent. I know 2010 is gonna rock for you!

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EM4488 1/5/2010 10:20AM

    WOOHOO!!! CONGRATULATIONS! I *LOVE* when they finally zip, let alone when they finally FIT! YEahhhhahah! Keep On Sparkin'!

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  You look amazing! I can't believe the bottom pictures are you! Completely different. Thanks for the motivation!

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SURFTREE 1/5/2010 9:26AM

    Awesome job !!!!!!! I started out wearing size 16 jeans, and was and am now down to size 10, I still need to lose about 35 more pounds... You can do it !!!!!! emoticon

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FLORIDASUN 1/5/2010 7:01AM

    Your pics are freakin' AMAZING! You are doing so fabulous! I know when you start eating RAW/CLEAN...the pounds will roll off even faster! Plus....you will have so MUCH more ENERGY...plus, plus...your complexion..which is gorgeous right now..will look even better! We ROCK! emoticon Thanks for the running push...I needed it! emoticon

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DAKOTASMOMMY_07 1/4/2010 10:34PM

    OMG!! I know just how you feel. Its amazing isn't it!?! emoticon
You are completely transformed.You are beautiful.
You will reach your goal.I know it.God Bless,Christina emoticon

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    Way to go, I am so proud of you and you look simply amazing!

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    WOW!!! Go you, Koukla! Bravo!

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FOXYRN1 1/4/2010 8:22PM

  I LOVE when I fit into a 16! There are choices at that size! Great job, I'll be glad to leave the 20's behind!!!

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ZIRCADIA 1/4/2010 7:14PM

    Congrats on fitting the new jeans!!!! :D WOOHOO!

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RAINTHIEF 1/4/2010 5:01PM

    WOOOOO!!!!! You are looking fabulous! A true inspiration!

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ANDREA963 1/4/2010 4:45PM

    You're going to own 2010, better start looking the sales racks over for the next size. :)

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NIKI778 1/4/2010 4:34PM

    You look great!!! Be proud of the progress that you have made and keep those other pics around as reminders of how far you have come and where you never will be again.

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JUST-AMY 1/4/2010 4:01PM

    Prog-grrrr-ess! Woo hoo! keep up the steam, Karvy!

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NIELSENSLADY 1/4/2010 3:54PM

    Go Girl! emoticon

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ONLY_AS_HIGH 1/4/2010 3:41PM

    I know you're focused on the jeans, and damn yes! They look great! Buuuuuut.......


I am really impressed. I doubt I would even recognize you if you walked into my office right now!

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DDHEART 1/4/2010 3:32PM

    You look fantastic and I know you are floating on air with those jeans fitting! That is my favorite way to monitor success as opposed to the scale which can be maddeningly stubborn. There is no mistaking the changes in your body when you can wear jeans that you couldn't before! Congrats on all your success..... emoticon

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  You look amazing!

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CHICAT63 1/4/2010 3:05PM

    Rock on Sista !!!! Woohoo, tooting your horn....

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KUANGIE 1/4/2010 2:52PM

    You've come a long way, baby! Great job!

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LOTUSBLOSSOM126 1/4/2010 2:49PM

    You are looking so amazing! You may be cringing now, but soon you'll be smiling with pride when it comes to documenting dropping another size! emoticon

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TRENTECJ 1/4/2010 2:43PM

    Great Job!

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AMNAGRLA 1/4/2010 2:29PM

    You should be proud of how far you've come!! I want to take a "before" picture to have in a couple of months...

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WEEZBUG82 1/4/2010 2:27PM

  WOW!! You look awesome- congrats on the programs and the hottie-pants! ;-P

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JESSICA0431 1/4/2010 2:16PM

    Great job!!! You just inspired someone!!! emoticon

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RIKKIELLE 1/4/2010 2:07PM

    WOOT WOOT! YOU'RE ONE SEXY LADY!! KEEP IT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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JWENZEL723 1/4/2010 2:05PM

    i can tell a huge difference between your before and current photos!!! great job!!!

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OFORTUNA 1/4/2010 1:44PM

    You look great! I'm glad you took the time to take "before" pictures.

I actually took specific "before" pics for my own records for the first time over the winter holidays. They're in my undies, and I'm too embarrassed to post them publicly, but I think it was a really important affirmation of intention.

Best wishes for your boot camp journey! emoticon

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JBMT08 1/4/2010 1:21PM

    That is awesome!!! you look great!! ROCK those size 16's until they fall off (b/c they are too big!!)!!!

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LMCGEEN 1/4/2010 1:15PM

    How awesome!

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