Tuesday, October 04, 2011
I had been tracking my food faithfully for the last three days since I started back using SP. I was even proud of myself Sunday after church, because we were given wonderful cookies! I chose a chocolate chip one, and it looks and smells so good! But, I brought it home and stuck it in my freezer!! This way it was out of sight, and I would have to thaw it before I can eat it. It is still in there!
Although, yesterday afternoon I wanted it so bad! I was a nervous wreck because we had policemen, and sheriff officers all over our small town! There was even a blackhawk Homeland Security helicopter circling our neighborhood! There had been a double murder in a town about 20 minutes from here, and someone thought the man who did it was in our town! I see a post on facebook that says there is a dangerous man in La Conner, and right after that I get a text from my youngest daughter that says she and her soccer team are locked in their locker room showers to be safe from the gunman!
I get even more upset because I like my kids with me at home when something like this is going on! So I stay in contact with my daughter through texting, I stay informed of the situation on Facebook and KOMO news 4! They end up finding the guy in the town where the murders took place! Thank the lord!
After an hour, we were finally allowed out of our homes, and I got to pick my daughter up! What a relief! I was still shaking my butt off at this point! lol
But, when I started tracking my food last night, even after all the turmoil, I had only gone over by a little bit! Usually I would have eaten the kitchen clean!! I was so happy, and then this morning I was down another pound!! Hoo Rah!
Today, though, I am being much better! Staying within the calorie goals, and already did my workout since yesterdays was put on lock-down...lol!
Saturday, October 01, 2011
I started sneaking cigarette's when I was 10 years old...thought it was the "cool" thing to do! I quit cold turkey on Sept. 30th, 1986 when I was 22 years old. My husband who had never smoked, told me if I wanted to have a baby, I needed to stop smoking first! So I quit on his birthday, almost a year after we married. That was 25 years ago, yesterday! Yay me!
What I have noticed over the years is how much I hate cigarette smoke. I have a hard time breathing around it, and I can't stand the smell of myself when I get home, and I have to shower. I have very close friends who smoke, and I love them lots. They are gracious enough not to smoke around us that don't, though!
But do you realize that food is an addiction too? At least for me it is! I LOVE food! I LOVE pasta the most!
Yes, I know I need to lose weight, and I have tried several times over the years. So why can I stop smoking but NOT lose weight?!
I finally realized why! Because when I quit smoking I could put the pack of cigarettes down, and not buy or touch another one. BUT when I need to stop eating to lose weight, I still have to eat!!! I can't just cold turkey the food and never buy or eat it again! Seems really unfair to me!
On the bright side, I am not going to give up! I am going to keep going until I reach my goal! I know I can do this!
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Wow...I needed a break from the house and was invited to our local diner for lunch. I jumped at the opportunity to test my restraunt vs. diet knowledge.
I thought I was doing great! I ordered my iced tea, unsweetened of course (which gets you weird looks here in Texas, they really LOVE their sweet tea)!
Then I ordered the chef salad, figuring I would get a great serving of veggies. I did get veggies, but was underwhelmed when the lettuce was nothing but iceberg. (I am getting to where I love spring greens, weeds, so much more)! It did have a great portion of tomatoes, mushrooms and onions, and a few bell peppers (could have had more bell peppers). But they had no low cal dressings, so I chose my favorite down fall, Ranch! I only had three tbsp., but OMGoodness, it made my lunch a diet disaster!!! My "healthy" lunch ended up being 815 calories!! Makes me sick!!! I am so mad at myself, and now I am going to force myself to workout again today (I hate this when I have already showered)!
Also did you all know that when you go to a restraunt they don't care about your health! The turkey and ham are not low fat varieties, people! I could tell by the flavor! I feel violated....lol! They are the lion in sheeps clothing!!! Oh great, I also forgot to add the two crackers that I crumbled up on top, to my lunch calorie total! Just great!
Oh well, it was a learning experience and life goes on...lol!
So I am now boycotting restraunts as much as I can. I would prefer to get the healthy ingredients and make it myself! Although, I did enjoy my time out, away from the house. I will be so glad when my brother gets back on the road tonight! I love him, but it is time for him to get back to work!
Hope you all have a great day!
Saturday, May 02, 2009
Went to bed early last night so I could get some much needed extra sleep. Ended up with 9 1/2 wonderful hours!
Woke up and the first thing I did was log into my Sparkspeople so I could finish my tracking for yesterday, because I was busy taking pictures at a baseball game for the newspaper and didn't get time to finish it up.
Anyway, while I was tracking, my 13 yo daughter started asking me for pancakes. I told her to unload the dishwasher and I would fix them as soon as I was finished doing my tracking.
Well...I had to do a couple recipes to get my dinner tracked (which took me a little time to do). She started whinning at me about the pancakes, and then asked if she could just make them herself. She knows how to make lots of different things, so I said sure go ahead!
Big mistake! I smelled pancakes burning so I went to the kitchen, where she had my good griddle with about a 1/2 cup of oil, and a "METAL" spatuala, cooking (burning) pancakes. There was pancake mix (liquid form) all over the stove, floor and counter. There was pancake mix (dry form) in my basket full of measuring cups.
I yelled at her and made her feel bad, then my husband tried to plead her case, and I yelled at him. Even the dog ran to the door to escape!
The problem isn't the mess, or the cooking pancakes. It is just that no one can seem to wait for me to finish doing something that I am trying to do for myself.
Is this really me just being selfish, because that is how I am feeling?
I was to the point of just cancelling my sparkspeople because I feel like I don't ever have time to get on here uninterrupted. Someone always needs or wants something. When is it my turn to take care of me!
I ended up cleaning my kitchen from top to botton and sweeping and vacuuming my house. Then I realized that I was sweating profusely and had just done a 30 minute workout without even knowing I was doing it!
So here I am, back on and tracking.
Do you all think I am being selfish? Because I have a very hard time doing anything for myself. Please let me know what your opinions are, I will appreciate any and all. And critical opinions are constructive so please don't hesitate to let me have it! lol
Thank you all for listening!
Saturday, May 02, 2009
Aww...Saturday morning, no school, went to bed at 9:30 so I could get some extra sleep, 9 1/2 hours total (really needed it).
Got up, and first thing I did was log into my SparksPeople so I could get my tracking caught up for yesterday (I was busy shooting pictures for the newspaper last night). Anyway, I was part way into tracking when my youngest daughter (13) started whinning for pancakes! Please! After a few minutes she asked if she could make them, of course I said yes, so I could have my quiet time with my sparkspeople! She can cook lots of things so I figured pancakes would be no problem for her.....WRONG!!!
She tried, but when I smelled them burning I went in the kitchen and she had the wrong pan, for starters, so they were sticking horribly, and then she was using a metal spatula on my good coated grilled, with a ton of canola oil.
There was also pancake mix (liquid form) all over the stove, floor and counter. There was dry pancake mix in my basket of measuring cups. My kitchen was a disaster! I felt like throwing in the towel. Like, why do I try to do something for myself when it always seems to back fire on me. I wanted to jsut cancel my sparkspeople because I feel like I never have the time to do it and when I do someone always needs me to do something for them.
I cleaned the kitchen from top to bottom! I swept the livingroom and vacuumed, then realized that I was sweating profusely and that I had just done a 30 minute workout without even realizing I was doing it.
So now I feel better, I am on here pouring my heart out, feeling like I am very selfish and wondering how in the world people find time for themselves and still take care of their families needs? If anyone can tell me, please do!
I am going to get on the treadmill for 30 more minutes of cardio, then I will get back on and do something else for myself!
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