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Food in time of stress!!

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

I had been tracking my food faithfully for the last three days since I started back using SP. I was even proud of myself Sunday after church, because we were given wonderful cookies! I chose a chocolate chip one, and it looks and smells so good! But, I brought it home and stuck it in my freezer!! This way it was out of sight, and I would have to thaw it before I can eat it. It is still in there!
Although, yesterday afternoon I wanted it so bad! I was a nervous wreck because we had policemen, and sheriff officers all over our small town! There was even a blackhawk Homeland Security helicopter circling our neighborhood! There had been a double murder in a town about 20 minutes from here, and someone thought the man who did it was in our town! I see a post on facebook that says there is a dangerous man in La Conner, and right after that I get a text from my youngest daughter that says she and her soccer team are locked in their locker room showers to be safe from the gunman!
I get even more upset because I like my kids with me at home when something like this is going on! So I stay in contact with my daughter through texting, I stay informed of the situation on Facebook and KOMO news 4! They end up finding the guy in the town where the murders took place! Thank the lord!
After an hour, we were finally allowed out of our homes, and I got to pick my daughter up! What a relief! I was still shaking my butt off at this point! lol
But, when I started tracking my food last night, even after all the turmoil, I had only gone over by a little bit! Usually I would have eaten the kitchen clean!! I was so happy, and then this morning I was down another pound!! Hoo Rah!
Today, though, I am being much better! Staying within the calorie goals, and already did my workout since yesterdays was put on lock-down...lol!

  
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FIDALGOCHIC 10/11/2011 1:02PM

    Small victories, one day at a time. Its hard when times are stressful! I was so excited the other day when I reconized that I wasnt hungry, just stressed. It was like a huge moment for me LOL.

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ZACHSMOM125 10/4/2011 11:24PM

  OMG!!!! I think I would have eaten the kitchen clean too. Thank God they found him and you and your children are safe!!!
emoticon on the awesome control. One day at a time!!

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Addictions!

Saturday, October 01, 2011

I started sneaking cigarette's when I was 10 years old...thought it was the "cool" thing to do! I quit cold turkey on Sept. 30th, 1986 when I was 22 years old. My husband who had never smoked, told me if I wanted to have a baby, I needed to stop smoking first! So I quit on his birthday, almost a year after we married. That was 25 years ago, yesterday! Yay me!
What I have noticed over the years is how much I hate cigarette smoke. I have a hard time breathing around it, and I can't stand the smell of myself when I get home, and I have to shower. I have very close friends who smoke, and I love them lots. They are gracious enough not to smoke around us that don't, though!
But do you realize that food is an addiction too? At least for me it is! I LOVE food! I LOVE pasta the most!
Yes, I know I need to lose weight, and I have tried several times over the years. So why can I stop smoking but NOT lose weight?!
I finally realized why! Because when I quit smoking I could put the pack of cigarettes down, and not buy or touch another one. BUT when I need to stop eating to lose weight, I still have to eat!!! I can't just cold turkey the food and never buy or eat it again! Seems really unfair to me!
On the bright side, I am not going to give up! I am going to keep going until I reach my goal! I know I can do this!

  
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FIDALGOCHIC 10/11/2011 12:59PM

    I was just saying that to my very thin friend the other day. She totally gets it and was saying that the voice that tells you to snack and eat never ends. Shes never had a weight problem but has to work hard to stay healthy and a nice weight. She said the pull to eat more or something bad is always there and while it makes me sad that I will always struggle I'm also happy to see that it is managable.

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KARLAR404 10/4/2011 11:43AM

    JUSTDOIT...thanks for your encouragement! I started back on SP on Saturday and I have lost 3 lbs. already! Mind you...I have a whole lot more to go though! But just seeing that it is working helps a lot! My daughter is also back on SP and trying to lose just a little bit, like you. So I am doing this for her as much as I am for me!
Your a great inspiration! Thank you!

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JUSTDOIT011 10/3/2011 9:20PM

    I know what you mean about the food--you can't just "quit" food...its like a drug that you don't want to overdose on, but you want to take just the right amount. Tricky for some people! But you can do it!! If you can quit smoking, that's already a huge success you have under your belt.

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KARLAR404 10/3/2011 12:42PM

    ONICAM....I so know what you mean. I love the taste of food, and the hardest time for me is at night! I get the munchies so bad! I could go all day without eating, but at night...oh my goodness watch out kitchen here I come!
I don't have any trouble with sodas, when I do have one it is diet and clear, like sprite or squirt. And that is only once in a while. And I don't really care too much for sweets, I know it sounds weird for someone who weighs 285lbs. but my downfall is pizza, lasagna, pasta of any kind, and anything creamy like alfredo sauce. So I know your pain! I can't even imagine drinking that much soda in a week, let alone a day! Girl, we gotta get you a different drink! lol
I have been drinking water like crazy the last couple of days, and I actually like it, I feel so much better, not so drained!
I hope you can get things under control emoticon

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ONICAM 10/1/2011 10:15PM

    I am a compulsive eater, food addict, emotional eater, will eat almost anything that I can since I have tons of allergies, and cannot tell when I am full. Besides food I am also with difficulties when it comes to sodas. I used to drink 60-100 oz of diet Mountain Dew or Pepsi Max a day. I have needed to be weened off of them and it worked for months and now I am starting up with sodas as well, but I am not quite as bad. Anytime that I am at school and tired the first 2 things are sodas and candies.

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Shame on you...Chef Salad!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Wow...I needed a break from the house and was invited to our local diner for lunch. I jumped at the opportunity to test my restraunt vs. diet knowledge.

I thought I was doing great! I ordered my iced tea, unsweetened of course (which gets you weird looks here in Texas, they really LOVE their sweet tea)!

Then I ordered the chef salad, figuring I would get a great serving of veggies. I did get veggies, but was underwhelmed when the lettuce was nothing but iceberg. (I am getting to where I love spring greens, weeds, so much more)! It did have a great portion of tomatoes, mushrooms and onions, and a few bell peppers (could have had more bell peppers). But they had no low cal dressings, so I chose my favorite down fall, Ranch! I only had three tbsp., but OMGoodness, it made my lunch a diet disaster!!! My "healthy" lunch ended up being 815 calories!! Makes me sick!!! I am so mad at myself, and now I am going to force myself to workout again today (I hate this when I have already showered)!

Also did you all know that when you go to a restraunt they don't care about your health! The turkey and ham are not low fat varieties, people! I could tell by the flavor! I feel violated....lol! They are the lion in sheeps clothing!!! Oh great, I also forgot to add the two crackers that I crumbled up on top, to my lunch calorie total! Just great!

Oh well, it was a learning experience and life goes on...lol!

So I am now boycotting restraunts as much as I can. I would prefer to get the healthy ingredients and make it myself! Although, I did enjoy my time out, away from the house. I will be so glad when my brother gets back on the road tonight! I love him, but it is time for him to get back to work!

Hope you all have a great day!


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KARLIEK 6/11/2009 9:47AM

    I love your blog. I have learned how to "eat clean", and pass it on to my daughters. My youngest daughter, Kasey, 22, went to McDonald's yesterday, and they started putting the nutrition info on the packages, she called me and said, "Mom you don't want to eat any McDonald's hamburgers!" (I know Kasey, I won't!!)
I stay away from processed foods and junk now. I'm AMAZED at how much better I feel!
We've also had to cut back on sodium for my husband because (its a long story) the dr. thought he had Menieres Disease, so we cut down sodium to 1500 mg. a day. (It turned out to be a tumor, that we're just learning more about) anyway, talk about an eye opener, trying to keep your sodium in a healthy range!! Even the average person should only eat 2400 a day!

Anyway- I found your blog from another sparkfriends page. ANd when I seen your name it got my attention!! KarlieK

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CODEMAULER 5/22/2009 7:05AM

    Keep in mind that restaurants work by supply and demand, just like most industries. They don't serve the healthiest stuff because their clientele isn't asking for it. :-(

Once I made the decision to eat healthier, I became like Sally (from "When Harry Met Sally") and made sure I asked questions about what the menu item *really* consisted of. Every once in a while I have a server that "gets it" and the difference on my plate is amazing! In fact, I have found new favorites when eating out just because I asked and the chef was willing!

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CLEOLEFT1 5/21/2009 11:10PM

    yep, the nutritious salads have, like 1000 calories in the salad dressing. I found the very worst, tho, are Bush's chicken and Taco Bell. The smallest of meals at either place usually racks up 1900 or more in calories

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TRINITYAGREGOR 5/21/2009 2:25PM

    I feel your pain! I feel like every time I eat out, you have NO idea just what lurks in your food! I have become the master at asking for EVERYTHING "dry" or "on the side". A good tip I got from a fellow sparker was to ask for a to-go box right from the beginning or have the waitress/waiter only bring you half the meal and box the other right up! That way there is no temptation to eat it all in one sitting emoticon

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How can I get time for myself without feeling selfish?

Saturday, May 02, 2009

Went to bed early last night so I could get some much needed extra sleep. Ended up with 9 1/2 wonderful hours!
Woke up and the first thing I did was log into my Sparkspeople so I could finish my tracking for yesterday, because I was busy taking pictures at a baseball game for the newspaper and didn't get time to finish it up.
Anyway, while I was tracking, my 13 yo daughter started asking me for pancakes. I told her to unload the dishwasher and I would fix them as soon as I was finished doing my tracking.
Well...I had to do a couple recipes to get my dinner tracked (which took me a little time to do). She started whinning at me about the pancakes, and then asked if she could just make them herself. She knows how to make lots of different things, so I said sure go ahead!
Big mistake! I smelled pancakes burning so I went to the kitchen, where she had my good griddle with about a 1/2 cup of oil, and a "METAL" spatuala, cooking (burning) pancakes. There was pancake mix (liquid form) all over the stove, floor and counter. There was pancake mix (dry form) in my basket full of measuring cups.
I yelled at her and made her feel bad, then my husband tried to plead her case, and I yelled at him. Even the dog ran to the door to escape!
The problem isn't the mess, or the cooking pancakes. It is just that no one can seem to wait for me to finish doing something that I am trying to do for myself.
Is this really me just being selfish, because that is how I am feeling?
I was to the point of just cancelling my sparkspeople because I feel like I don't ever have time to get on here uninterrupted. Someone always needs or wants something. When is it my turn to take care of me!
I ended up cleaning my kitchen from top to botton and sweeping and vacuuming my house. Then I realized that I was sweating profusely and had just done a 30 minute workout without even knowing I was doing it!
So here I am, back on and tracking.
Do you all think I am being selfish? Because I have a very hard time doing anything for myself. Please let me know what your opinions are, I will appreciate any and all. And critical opinions are constructive so please don't hesitate to let me have it! lol
Thank you all for listening!

  
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CLEOLEFT1 5/18/2009 11:10PM

    Chicky Poo...you are NOT being selfish!!! You are trying to do this for yourself AND for your family and I, for one, am VERY glad you didn't drop out! It sounds like your kids try to be helpful and that is such a wonderful thing, even if it doesn't work out as being alot of help. (like when my son weed-eated my husbands Pomegranate tree just before he ran away) My kids on the other hand, do everything they can to make it seem they are helpless boys. They have shared the chores of laundry and dishes for a couple of years now and STILL don't know how to fold a shirt or put the dishes away in an organized fashion! PS...noticed u r friends with my sister, bonnie2blu

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How can I get some time for myself without feeling selfish?

Saturday, May 02, 2009

Aww...Saturday morning, no school, went to bed at 9:30 so I could get some extra sleep, 9 1/2 hours total (really needed it).
Got up, and first thing I did was log into my SparksPeople so I could get my tracking caught up for yesterday (I was busy shooting pictures for the newspaper last night). Anyway, I was part way into tracking when my youngest daughter (13) started whinning for pancakes! Please! After a few minutes she asked if she could make them, of course I said yes, so I could have my quiet time with my sparkspeople! She can cook lots of things so I figured pancakes would be no problem for her.....WRONG!!!
She tried, but when I smelled them burning I went in the kitchen and she had the wrong pan, for starters, so they were sticking horribly, and then she was using a metal spatula on my good coated grilled, with a ton of canola oil.
There was also pancake mix (liquid form) all over the stove, floor and counter. There was dry pancake mix in my basket of measuring cups. My kitchen was a disaster! I felt like throwing in the towel. Like, why do I try to do something for myself when it always seems to back fire on me. I wanted to jsut cancel my sparkspeople because I feel like I never have the time to do it and when I do someone always needs me to do something for them.
I cleaned the kitchen from top to bottom! I swept the livingroom and vacuumed, then realized that I was sweating profusely and that I had just done a 30 minute workout without even realizing I was doing it.
So now I feel better, I am on here pouring my heart out, feeling like I am very selfish and wondering how in the world people find time for themselves and still take care of their families needs? If anyone can tell me, please do!
I am going to get on the treadmill for 30 more minutes of cardio, then I will get back on and do something else for myself! emoticon

  
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CITYZOZO 5/4/2009 1:08PM

    Until you find a way to carve out time for yourself, this probably won't work. I know that better than anyone. I ALWAYS take care of everyone else but myself. When I started being selfish in a healthy way the way started coming off and guess what? the people who always depended on me, thought what happened to my time? they weren't thinking of my needs.. honestly you just have to say no sometimes and then people will fill in the blanks.. this morning i had to ask for my time and guess what i feel fabulous and am getting on track.. you have to.. let me know what you think, i know there was a little honesty here but only because it is so hard to take care of ourselves like we should to be healthy.. zozo

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LLTS01 5/2/2009 3:00PM

    So you got a good workout. Excellent!

The other lesson is to take 15 minutes to teach your daughter to make pancakes so that you have some free time next Saturday. It's always our inclination to take over when someone else does not do things as well as we do and then we wonder why we are always exhausted.



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