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Sunday, June 26, 2011

I have not been very active in spark for awhile- but found some new motivation!

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NOELLIEMAE 6/26/2011 5:36PM

    SUPER!!!! I took better than a year off ;) welcome back! hope whatever threw some motivation your way keeps it up!

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coming back

Monday, July 14, 2008

I feel disgusting! I have not been tracking my food- and so I have been PIGGING out! YUCK! I got really sick this morning (I think it was from garlic fries and someone not wahing their hands! YUCK!) that I ate last night! The whole time I am throwing up I am thinking, you shouldn't be eating that stuff anyways so you deserve that and how crazy is that! ANYWAYS! I will admit it I am very dysfunctional in my thinking! I have decided I want to go back to eating "clean" food. No sugar, no whit flour and other than whole grain pitas- no processed foods! I went to the grocery store and prepared! I hate feeling this way. I saw my friends I have not seen in 30 pounds... I was embarrassed- they never would judge me... it is me judging myself! I need to be positive and believe that I can do this!

Here's to day 1..... again!


Ode to Salad Dressing

Monday, June 30, 2008

Okay so I love eating salads- I love making salads. I love veggies. (this is not sarcastic it is so true!) I don't even like drowning my salad in dressing either! Of course my love of veggies did not get me 80 pounds overweight.... well anyhoo....
I do get VERY bored with Salad dressings. I like to eat as clean as I can. A lot of salad dressing have crap in them... pure chemical crap (especially the lite ones) SO I found the BEST lite dressings... there is no added sugar or other crap! They are yogurt dressings from Bolthouse Farms. I think I am in love! They taste goooooood! YUMMMMY! They are in the produce section of my grocery store in the little refridgerator area.... here is the website: http://www.bolthouse.com/consumer_home.htm
Well I am still tracking EVERY morsel that goes into my mouth and so far so good! I did not excercise too much last week. This week I am back on it! I am actually going to go to the gym and take a new class tonight. I am going to go... I am not going to chicken out (I always hate taking new classes at the gym) but who cares if I am a fat blob in the class- I will go anyway! I need to leave early because I have a feeling it will be crowded! I WILL NOT LET MYSELF, TELL MYSELF THAT I AM TOO BUSY OR OVERWHELMED TO EXCERCISE!
There is so much to do this week for our big party for my grandparents- I am making all the center pieces and kind of managing the planning. I am happy to be doing this for my grandparents (their 60th anniversary!) but I am always afraid it will not be good enough! Hopefully everything will work out!
:) Kari

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LOBRENNAN 7/6/2008 11:20AM

    Chick-Fil-A's ranch dressing is the best ranch dressing on earth. And I miss it so. It's about 9449 calories per packet!

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I feel yucky! BUT LUCKY!

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Okay... so this sounds lame but I just want to say WAAA-WAAAA (yes that is me crying!)
I have counted calories before- but by the end of the day I am rounding off- rounding down, not counting at all (you get the picture right?)
Well today I entered EVERY single morsel that went into my chubby mouth!
WELL let me tell you people! ARGHHHHH!
Yes I snacked on freakin Fiber One bars all day (they are so yummy they make you forget that there are 9 grams of fiber in each little bar!) Okay I had more than a few! ohhh man! and I mean OOOOOO HOLY FIBER!
Well I went over my calories by over 700 calories! DAMN! I love this calorie counter - it tracks everything! I LOVE IT! I HATE IT! I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT!
I do not want to beat myself up for overeating- I could type out all of my negative self talk and anger... but instead I will end with how it could of been a lot worse (like polishing off a pint of my favorite B&J)

But no! I am going to end by telling myself that I am proud of my bravery to report on every piece of food I put into my mouth! YOU GO SELF!

Signed ~ Proud Kari

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LOBRENNAN 6/29/2008 9:32AM

    Hooray for accurate reporting! It's the only way we will learn!!

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Feeling Okay

Saturday, June 28, 2008

I am about to go shopping- something that I love but since gaining weight I hate it. I am co-hosting my grandparents 60th wedding anniversary party and I need something nice to wear. Nothing at LB fits me right- I hate the way "womens-sized" clothese fit.... I am pear shaped so the butt and waist band ratio is ALWAYS off. I do sew so I guess I should venture into tailoring my own clothes.... but who has time for that.....
I do have to say I do feel good- I have been livin' healthy for about 2 weeks- I do not want to feel defeated when I try on clothes....

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LOBRENNAN 6/28/2008 9:16PM

    I'm plus and pear and I've always had good shirt-luck at Kohl's! Every time I need to dress up I go in and get another vertical striped 3/4 sleeve button-up shirt. Doesn't need to be tucked in and the shinyish fabric is dressy enough that I don't feel like I stick out.

If you find another store that has good shirts, let me know! Of course, soon neither one of us will need plus shirts anymore :D

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JIBBIE49 6/28/2008 7:06PM

    You can do this. Just DON'T QUIT. emoticon

I always drew the line on my weight gain at not going over a size 16P because I refused to go into Lane Bryant, because I knew I'd get to "there is nothing in here that fits me!" So, I so can feel your pain!!!!!

I'm reading "I CAN MAKE YOU THIN" by PAUL MCKENNA and listening to his hypnosis CD every day. He has a TV show in England and there are clips about him on YouTube. Anything to win this battle! emoticon emoticon

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KARIKARATE 6/28/2008 5:57PM

    Okay... back from shopping... not so bad....

I at least found some pants (always the hardest thing to find!) Now the hunt is on for the perfect shirt!

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LOBRENNAN 6/28/2008 2:03PM

    Just remember that not fitting is the clothes' fault--not yours! Pear shaped and plus sized is a difficult place to be. I wish you the best of luck!

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