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October 8, 2013 - Day 114 - A Life Worth Living

Tuesday, October 08, 2013

Top of the mornin' to ya sparkers. This girl ain't feeling so sparkly right now. Still fightin' this monster head cold. Ugh! But! I got hope I'm in the home stretch now. Hopefully it won't be long til I'm 100% again. And then I can honestly say, "I did my time" and "I had my turn". Cold cold go away and never come this way again!

Ok, truth time. . .

I am an addict!

I easily addict to anything and everything I love.

Sugar!

Fat!

Food!

Gambling!

Cigarettes!

And more!

It really doesn't matter what it is or how bad it might be for me. If it alters how I feel and I like the feeling, then I'm hooked. What's the saying? "Hook, line and sinker"? Yep, that pretty accurately sums it up!

So why "out" myself? Why not just sit here for the next 5, 10, 15, 20 years and keep pretending to be something I'm not? Because "hiding" is what keeps the addict sick. And I don't want to be sick anymore.

So I have no choice but to tell the truth.

I've been on SparkPeople for 114 days now. It started out innocently enough. I Google searched websites that might support my new "Atkins" lifestyle. And SparkPeople came in at the top of the list. So I clicked on the link and before I even knew what was happening, I was getting hooked.

For me, SparkPeople is like a powerful drug. Or is quickly becoming that way. I spend most all of my free time on SP blogging, reading other's blogs, reading e-mails, sending and receiving goodies, reading articles, watching videos, scoring points and on and on it goes. As I do this, life happens all around me - but! I'm not engaged. Because? Because, I'm knee deep in SP and I just can't pull myself away. I've even missed work because of SP! I know. . . not good, not good at all!

Actually, I haven't missed work "because" of SP. Rather, I have missed work because of my inability to "do" SP in moderation. This, I think, is what makes an addict different from a non-addict. The inability to enjoy life in moderation.

So I'm logging off. At least for now. I'll likely be back at some point, but for now I really "need" to pay attention to and participate in my non-cyberspace life.

I wish each and every one of you the best life has to offer. May you realize every goal you set for yourself whether it be weight-loss or some other dream. And last but not least, may you always, always swim down river.

Thank you for touching my life in a very real and personal manner.

Much love,
Karen



  
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WEARINGTHIN 2/11/2014 5:22AM

    I've often felt that the Spark is an artificial way of living life if you do it too much. Maybe you can get hooked on something that you've always wanted to do. I recently read and copied a list from Amazon of the 100 books to read for a well read life. I decided I was going to try and tackle it. (I've read 17 of them in the past.) I think this might significantly cut down on my Spark time. Good luck to you. Glenn

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CYBERCITYSHELL 10/11/2013 12:20AM

    Aww Karen, I just arrived to your blog now. I will sure miss you!!! Well from one addict to another I can understand the need to get unhooked for some time to breathe. Do you still smoke?? I used to but gave up three times. The first time was the hardest but that was one of my addictions.
I lived, breathed and stayed awake for my yahoo 360 site I was on a few years ago. Everything I did offline,my mind was always not far from 360. And when I was home I spent many hours blogging and being there. It had graphics and font styles for the blogs, I spent many hours per day and night there. So I do get it.
Don't forget we are still here if you miss the place. I am also on facebook, and I do prefer here more than facebook. Here is more real with sincerity I think-for me anyway. Although I do use facebook daily as well, not for long periods of time though.
I hope that you find yourself and get to spend a lot of time in the real world. I even wrote a poem about me and my buddy(the computer) back in my 360 days . So I was hooked there, I basically lived in two places. The real world and 360. That is when I got into my soul searching. So even though I spent so many hours there, I found my way back to the real world and I learnt alot about myself as well.
As great as the cyber world is the reality is that we all live in the real world. So, it is good you have decided to spend some time there. Your husband will be happy. Look after yourself, and remember spark people are still here.
Take care Karen, and whatever you do be happy emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon


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SUEPERWOMAN 10/9/2013 7:23PM

 
oh Karen. As much as I support you if you are online too much, I hope that you will consider staying in touch with me, even if it's just from time to time, privately.
I will email you my "real" email address. Hope you'll use it.

Love, Ginger

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MCFITZ2 10/9/2013 12:26AM

    Karen I also have had to pull back and focus on my life and the people that are not on the net. Of course when i use a cranky computer it decides for me at times. Success and happiness emoticon and catch you when your back.

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MARLY53 10/8/2013 8:34PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon Karen I am sad to see you go, but I totally understand. Three years ago I had to do the same thing with Farmville on Facebook.I got so addicted that it literally took over my life, it was all I tought about. So one day I decided to call it quits, I delete all my Farmville Friends except for 2 and then I said goodbye. I actually walked away from it and never played it again. So if this is what you've got to do then I am all for it even though I am going to miss your wonderful blogs and your sunny positive attitude. I am going to expect you to write that book that you've always wanted to. If you do let me know okay. Good luck Karen, you will be missed. I will emoticon

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DGFOWLER 10/8/2013 3:33PM

    Karen I am so sorry to see you go. I hope we can keep in touch perhaps on Facebook. I look forward to all of your blogs because you are so down to earth and I need that to keep myself grounded. To say the least SP isn't going to be the same without you here. I will miss our friendship more than I can say... You take care of yourself you hear. emoticon

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AWESOMECHELZ 10/8/2013 3:06PM

    I am the same way!! In the 90s, there was a book called "Addictive Personality" which I found very interesting. Type A's are usually more this way plus we can replace ANYTHING for an addiction, like you said. I know my weaknesses and have to keep on my toes with cookies, shopping, over-committing myself, setting TONS of goals to do yesterday, multiple emails for all kinds of stuff, trying to read 10 books at once, helping safe the world, etc., etc. ANYTHING. emoticon And for SP, I set my alarm to get up when it goes off or I can spend HOURS here too. emoticon But all feels great, doesn't it? I hope your day was just wonderful today.
LOVE, CHELSEA emoticon

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KAZZIE531 10/8/2013 1:14PM

    Nooooooooooooooo Karen!!! I'm gonna miss my biggest emoticon . I DO understand about the SP addiction. I will miss reading your blogs every morning with my wake up emoticon I will miss your emoticon emoticon emoticon
I will miss your thought process for the day, your ideas, your sense of humor, your honesty, and loyalty to your friends....But most of all Karen...I will miss YOU!!!
Until you SPARK again....take care Karen, I wish you all the very best. Kaz emoticon emoticon


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CONNIEDETHOMAS 10/8/2013 12:45PM

    Karen...I hadn't noticed how close we are. You joined Sparkpeople
2 days before me. Our begining weight is very close. Our weight
loss is too. WOW

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BAMAJAM 10/8/2013 12:37PM

  Truth time--- I will miss you, Karen, and I'll miss your smiling picture-- that offers everyone an infectious "spark" of joy! Thanks for your blogs, and may life be happy and healthy for you! HUGS AND LOVE-- (and warm smiles) !!

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RHYMESWITHBABY 10/8/2013 11:52AM

    I understand the need to walk away. Sometimes it's the only way. Hope you can break the cycle and manage to come back here again. As others have said, don't forget to check in once in a while. (Like others, I find a timer useful when I am on the computer. And I also make it a point to stay away entirely when I know I am in a time crunch.)

Thanks for all your wonderful posts and great responses to my blogs! You know you will be missed.
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DETERMINEDDE 10/8/2013 11:47AM

    Karen, You made a difference to me. I hope you reach your goals and find the right path for you. Best wishes and hope to cross paths again soon! emoticon

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KAREN608 10/8/2013 10:31AM

    I limit my time with the computer, use a timer or alarm clock, so if you come back, you will know to get up and do other necessary things.

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NHES220 10/8/2013 10:25AM

    I understand, it can be addicting. Everything in moderation. Hope you check in from time to time and let us know how you are doing.


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COLLEENROSTE 10/8/2013 8:40AM

    Karen, you will be missed. You will find balance in life again-
check in with SP but set your timer - even addicts need some external forces to help regulate those things that they can't regulate from within. SP is a positive external regulator. If you totally walk away you will be an easy target for all those other addictions.

thank you for the way you have challenged me to think about things in the blogs you have posted. thank you for the time you have taken to read and comment on posts I have made.
Your friendship and love have touched my life in a real way. Never stop being YOU!
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DEEGIRL50 10/8/2013 8:20AM

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You have really touched my life in the short time that I have known you. I'm going to miss you! I hope you find a treatment for your addictive personality trait and come back to tell us all about it.
Smiles & Hugs, Dee

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MISSUSRIVERRAT 10/8/2013 7:53AM

    Karen, I know exactly what you mean! Best wishes and take care.

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October 4, 2013 - Day 113 - A Life Worth Living

Friday, October 04, 2013

Good morning Spark Family. How are each and every one of you on this beautiful fall Friday? Are we all happy, happy, happy that Friday found its way to us once again this week? I know I sure am! It hasn't been a particularly hard week at work, but the hubby and me have had the creepin' crud for over a week now and we are both just exhausted from all the coughing and whatnot. So bring on the weekend where I can lounge around in my jammies or stay in bed all day if that's what I need to do to feel better. Ah, I long for good health or at least mediocre health minus this monster of a cold that's moved in and taken me hostage!

So I got this burning question I'm just dying to ask. Ok, ok, not dying, dying - but . . . figuratively speaking. I know you know! emoticon So here it is. My burning question. . .

What is love? In terms of your five senses, how would you describe love? I realize that love may be different depending on the relationship. I know that parents love their children differently than spouses love one another. But at the root of it all, don't you believe there's some common denominator or something that makes love, love regardless of who's involved?

Personally, I don't really know how to describe love. It's a feeling that I recognize when it's present in my life. But I can't seem to find the words to describe it well enough that another person might understand the feeling. Can you? Have you ever tried before? Think about it for a moment. If you had to describe love so that even the hardest of hearts could understand, what would you say?

I am fortunate in that I have felt the love of a mother and father. Selfless love that provided for me even in adulthood. I have felt the love of a brother. A sibling's love that understands what makes me tick probably better than anyone else in the world. I have felt the love of a husband. A man who would move heaven and earth if he believed that's what I needed. I have felt the love of other family and friends. A more distant love perhaps, but love all the same. Yes, I am fortunate that I have felt and experienced love first hand.

And yet. . .

I can't describe it.

This morning I did what I normally do. I climbed out of bed and ran. . . or at least moved very quickly. . . to the bathroom. I then made myself a beverage and sat down at my computer to log on to SparkPeople. It's routine at this point. I don't always have enough time to reach out to all my spark friends and blog and read articles and spin wheels and whatnot, but I try and get at least a little "spark" in my life each and every morning. So this morning was very much like the last 113 mornings.

Except. . .

it wasn't.

This morning was different.

This morning, I FELT love. Please don't get me wrong here. I have felt love - alot of love in fact - here on SP for many, many days. But this morning? This morning was different somehow. I received some e-mails and spark goodies and other messages that were about as heart-felt and real as anything I have ever experienced. So when I say that I FELT love - I mean literally. As if a spark friend were standing in my living room giving me a great big hug and pouring their heart out to me. The love I felt this morning didn't feel "cyberish". What do I mean by that? I guess what I mean is. . . when we love one another via the internet, we put our best foot forward. We can easily hide the not so perfect parts of ourselves and be genuinely. . . not genuine. Does that make sense? Maybe not. What I am trying to say, I suppose, is this morning, I felt love in a genuine, human, less than perfect, a little raw around the edges, authentic way. And it was magical! My heart did things it hasn't done in . . . well. . . . quite some time. It skipped a beat.

So thank you. You know who you are. You know what you did. I love you back and I will cherish you always.

And if you can tell me how to describe love?

Please do.


Happy Friday all. I wish each of you a day full of genuine happiness, wellness and above all. . . love.


Karen



  
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DEEGIRL50 10/6/2013 9:10AM

    I LOVE this LOVE blog (and the responses too)!! emoticon

Love is caring about another person and also yourself. Love is seeing the best in another person and letting them know what you see. Love is fun!!! Love is sharing your soul, feelings, time, heart, and dreams. Love is joyous. Love is forgiving. Love is the meaning to life. Love is wanting to hear what the other person has to say and really listening. Love is being able to tell the other person anything.

I've always told my son that you can love a person even if you don't see them. So yes, we can love our SP family. They are part of our journey and part of our hearts.
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AWESOMECHELZ 10/5/2013 5:23PM

    The bug you got is all over the place! emoticon I have friends in different states with the same thing. I sure hope you are on the mend and your husband too. emoticon

I read some years ago that the word love is a VERB which implies action. emoticon Don't you love that?! So LOVE is an action verb of sharing compassion, sacrifice, joy, tears, humor, fun, a listening ear, non-judgement, and hope with those around us. God bless you, my friend, and may you feel my love for you as my Spark friend. emoticon emoticon
LOVE, CHELSEA

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JUST_BRENDA 10/5/2013 9:12AM

    Wow, deep post. I'm glad you are feeling love.
Love confuses me. Sometimes, even when I don't feel it, I know it's there. Other times I wonder if it is there. I like it when I feel it. I do believe in unconditional love, and am lucky to have experienced it from two sources in my life. Unfortunately, they weren't my parents, as I wished. However, at least there was love... as long as I behaved! lol

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CYBERCITYSHELL 10/5/2013 3:54AM

    Love is a hard to describe kind of thing. It is there when we can't see it, we can't hear it,yet we can feel it and feel touched by it. emoticon emoticon
There are many different kinds of love and relationships that create them. I love my children more than anyone else on this earth. emoticon
I loved and love my mum although she hasn't been around for over thirty years. And I have a huge gap left from where she should be and have been.
I love my brother and my sister, and their children, and even their spouses.
Also my friends I love.
I love people in general, but in more an "I care for and about" other people.

I have fallen in love to a person I hadn't met on the internet. So I know that is possible. Although, it may have been different if we ever met, because when you are "in love" that involves many different aspects. Including things you can't tell without meeting a person or being around them for a period of time.

I have been in love a few times, and that again is a very different kind of love. I have even fallen out of love. So that I now wonder after my longest ever romantic relationship was five years and I fell out of love with him. Any other relationships we broke up way before falling out of love. So I actually wonder if I could be in love again and whether it would last. Although maybe after many many years with a person you love them in a different way, instead of being in love with them. I have yet to find that out.

When you love someone it is an emotional thing. You care about them, and value them as a person. You want what is best for them. You like spending time with them.

If you are in love with them, then it is a strong feeling of love. And you want to be with them as much as possible. If you break up with them, it hurts like hell. And that takes time to recover from. But I know that you can fall in love again. emoticon emoticon


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GRAYLADY13 10/4/2013 11:51PM

    Karen you give love here on SP and I have benefitted. Thanks. To me love is visible in natures beauty, in faces, and great words in print. Audible love is a laugh, a sob, a prayer, a spoken kindness or respect. The smell of love is where memories flourish from scents we associate from our happy past. The taste of love is in a deep kiss. The touch of love is soothing and caring sensation from the warmth of another's hand. These are how I'd describe the senses of love. I would also add the psychic sense, the intuition or knowing feeling or thought of another's true intent can show love or any number of emotions.

Great blog. You always bring me joy.

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WILDKAT781 10/4/2013 7:27PM

    Karen - I know the feeling of Love of Sparkpeople! I think that is why I am addicted to SP - the love I get from all of you is intoxicating! It is a different kind of love than I feel with my dear hubby James - and additionally it is different from what I feel for my Daddy...but it is a physical feeling in my chest and brain when I get encouragement from all my friends here. So I am probably not any good at describing it, but I do know it when I feel it!

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SUEPERWOMAN 10/4/2013 6:43PM

 

I have to admit, I do not believe in unconditional love. I think that we are all just people, broken each in our own way, and only God can offer unconditional love.
Love to me is the deepest feeling of connection there is. Love is the closest thing to Heaven that we have, on Earth. Love is really all we need.

LOVE!!! Ginger

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BAMAJAM 10/4/2013 5:38PM

  The greatest example of pure love is from our loving God in Heaven, our Creator. His ultimate gift for us, death of His Son by crucifixion-- for our redemption & salvation--- is LOVE.. ..So loving each other is about practicing the virtues of Jesus...


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DGFOWLER 10/4/2013 3:30PM

    Love is nothing more than a four letter word. It is the emotion behind the word that matters. For me it is the feeling I get of being all fluttery when I see my special man, or the feeling of being needed by my family. There are so many variations of the word itself that is often hard to describe and for each individual it will be different because we are different.

What a great question to ask us... ~ Donna

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CURTIOSITY 10/4/2013 1:30PM

    Hi Karen! I have a short bit written by a psychologist named Philippa perry that was helpful for me re getting down with describing love. I hope this helps you too. % )

"Unlike us, the ancients did not lump all the various emotions that we label "love" under the one word. They had several variations, including:

Philia which they saw as a deep but usually non-sexual intimacy between close friends and family members or as a deep bond forged by soldiers as they fought alongside each other in battle.

Ludus describes a more playful affection found in fooling around or flirting.

Pragma is the mature love that develops over a long period of time between long-term couples and involves actively practicing goodwill, commitment, compromise and understanding.

Agape is a more generalized love, it's not about exclusivity but about love for all of humanity.

Philautia is self love, which isn't as selfish as it sounds.

As Aristotle discovered and as any psychotherapist will tell you, in order to care for others you need to be able to care about yourself.

Last, and probably least even though it causes the most trouble, eros is about sexual passion and desire. Unless it morphs into philia and/or pragma, eros will burn itself out.

Love is all of the above. But is it possibly unrealistic to expect to experience all six types with only one person. This is why family and community are important."

Philippa Perry is a psychotherapist and author of Couch Fiction

Enjoy your weekend!!!

XXXXja

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MCFITZ2 10/4/2013 1:12PM

    As I grew up and experienced some not very loving people I erected high strong walls. Yes that is plural. Protection from hurt (my extra pounds are probably a physical one in part). As a person can be trusted they are allowed in one wall at a time. No not consciously but somewhere in the back where emotions rule . Love is letting something inside those defenses. Laying yourself open to being loved and trusting that you won't be deliberately hurt . It is feeling accepted, peace, protective of, protected by, accepting and accepted, warm, embraced, cared for, respected, and so much more.
Here's to healthy positive loving relationships.

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CONNIEDETHOMAS 10/4/2013 11:04AM

    Karen I am very blessed with this marriage.
I can honestly say that Bob loves me unconditionally.
You hear about it bur how often does one actually
see it I'm a spouse. I don't believe either of us had
it in our first marriage. Bob keeps mentioning that
he wished we would have found each other forty
years ago. There are times I feel much love from
my spark friends. You are one of those special
friends.
Connie

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RHYMESWITHBABY 10/4/2013 10:26AM

    I would have said love is beyond words, but I found some words. They are just not very comprehensible.

Love is when you are inside your head and you are trying to find the end, the edge, where YOU end and OTHER begins, and you approach the object of your love and realize it is OTHER, and you wish it were YOU.

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October 1, 2013 - Day 112 - A Life Worth Living

Tuesday, October 01, 2013

Hello my favorite Sparkers! How are you all this evening? Excellent? Excellent!

Let me start by saying, "sorry" for any confusion my last blog might have caused. My garage sale was Friday and Saturday - not Saturday/Sunday. Yeah, just another "senior" moment for Karen! Ugh! And for those of you who concluded I would not be blogging anymore? My apologies for not being clear. I will be blogging - some - I just won't be doing the "gratitude" posts anymore.

So I was sitting at work today when this really cool thought occurred to me. Actually, it was more of a question than a mere thought. "How much good has never materialized in the world because of doubt?" If all people acted on their creative, intellectual, emotional ideas, how much better might the world be? Have you ever stopped to ponder that? Ask yourself this question. . . how many times in your own life have you had an awesome idea, and then failed to act on it because doubt set in and talked you out of it? How many times have you said to yourself, "oh, I couldn't possibly do that because I don't really know how" or "I can't so I'm not even going to try" or "well, that's a wonderful idea, but I don't have the time" or "I can't do that, I'm not talented enough" or "no, no, no people will think I'm silly or stupid" or "I'd rather not try because I might fail and not trying is better then failing" or "my friends and family will laugh at me, so I'm not going to do it" or "maybe later" or "if I talk about it or try, someone will steal my idea so I better keep it to myself" or. . . _____________(fill in the blank. . . I'm sure that voice in your head has probably whispered some doubts in your ear over the years that convinced you to not even try. Am I right?

Twice, that I can currently recall, I allowed doubt to stop me dead in my tracks. I truly believed my ideas were solid - that there was a need I could fill - but I didn't believe in my ability to get it done. So I didn't even try.

Several years ago, I graduated from a "School of Natural Healing". I was on fire - full of excitement - the day they handed me my diploma. I just knew I was going to walk out the door and change the world. Or at least my small part of it. My idea was to open a women's wellness center. A place where all women - all ages, all races, all sizes, all religions, all educational backgrounds, all socio-economic classes - ALL WOMEN - could come for body/mind/spirit healing. The center would offer nutritional classes, yoga, cardiovascular training, weight training, really - exercise of all kinds, guided meditation, spiritual guidance, counseling, day-care, a "health-bar" offering foods and beverages like: organic smoothies, granola, yogurt, fruits, salads, protein drinks, water, tea, etc., full body massage and bodywork including structural integration, pedicures, manicures, a salon, a skin expert qualified to give facials and provide training on how to keep skin all aglow, a community garden with plenty of opportunity for club members to get their hands dirty, and on and on. I never completed the center's design or offerings, but I knew that this center would be like one-stop-shopping in the field of women's health. When the idea first occurred to me, I was committed and believed nothing could stop me. Nothing!

And then. . .

Doubt set in. I didn't have the money. I wasn't a saleswoman - sales had never been my forte. I didn't have a business plan and didn't even know how to put one together. I didn't have a good location. I didn't know how to secure a start-up loan. And all of that? Quickly became. . . I don't know how; I can't! And I didn't.

But what if I had? How much healthier might I be right now? How much healthier might thousands of women in Kansas City be right now? How many lives might actually have been saved?

The second time that doubt stopped me was when I had a book idea. It was a story that "needed" to be told. . . for healing. . . for my mom. I no more thought the thought til doubt reared its ugly head and stopped me in my tracks. "You can't write.", "You're no writer.", "People will laugh at you!", "You're stupid and stupid people don't get their books published.", "You can't even spell or punctuate. . . what are you thinking?", "You don't have a creative bone in your body!", "You can't handle rejection - so whatever will you do when one publisher after another sends you a Dear Jane letter?" "That is the dumbest idea you have ever had - ever!" And on an on it went.

Doubt killed my dreams.

Twice that I can remember.

Today I stared doubt down. I no longer care what doubt says. Let it scream at me all day and all night and then get up tomorrow and start all over again. I don't care. Doubt never got me anywhere I wanted to be. Never! So what the hell good is it? Why would I ever listen to it? I'm sorry to say that I ever did. Doubt stole so many years of my life. Or should I say - I allowed doubt to steal?

As many of you know, my mom was down last weekend to help with my garage sale. As I visited with her and watched her from the corner of my eye, I realized that I had to write that book. Her book. She lived a childhood full of terror and yet somehow she never allowed that terror to harden her or kill her spirit or turn her heart to stone. She loves better than anyone else I know. She's more helpful than anyone else I know. She's never known a stranger. And where life is concerned? She's all in. She always has been. And so I shall write. Published or not, I'm going to write for my beautiful mother.

How about you? What has doubt stolen from you? Are you willing to admit that doubt is not your friend? Are you willing to start living your life today? Living your dreams? Seeing them through to fruition? Regardless of what doubt says?

If we all say "yes" to our dreams, the whole world will be better. Somehow, I just know it will be.

Much love,
Karen


  
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CYBERCITYSHELL 10/5/2013 3:18AM

    Never doubt your ability Karen!! Believe in yourself and write your book.
Believe in your ability to conquer anything you want to.
And mums are special, they need to be treasured. Mums can't be replaced.
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GRAYLADY13 10/3/2013 1:07AM

    I'll read your book!

Lots of books are published on the net now. One can create a free website (easy to do) and sell PDF forms or cd disks of their book.

I read books and more on my iPhone or iPad everyday.

And that's only one idea. There are many ways to self publish. No rejection letters!

Write dear Karen, WRITE, best thing to do is set a time every day that you dedicate exclusively to writing. If nothing comes to you at first to write then write about your surroundings and feelings and stray thoughts. Let it pour out until your focus is throbbing with ideas for the book. Write away.

Don't worry about what comes first or end or middle. That will come later. Just write and write. It can be edited, will be edited so don't do alot of changing or editing while you write.

And big AND read what you wrote at a different time not during the time you dedicated to writing. You need thinking time, writing time and reading time.

If a thought comes to you record it. As more and more you will find the book writes itself.

Go for it!

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AWESOMECHELZ 10/2/2013 6:37PM

    The one thing I would like to do is write and get paid for it so I am taking a course at the local college for that. I hope it works for me. Write your mom's book. I know you can, my friend. emoticon emoticon

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DGFOWLER 10/2/2013 3:38PM

    Whew... glad you are staying.. thought I'd lost one of my favorite bloggers in the whole wide emoticon What a nice things to say about mom. My mom lives close by (a few blocks away) so I see her weekly if not more. Since dad is no longer here it seems mom is even more precious.

Hope you have a most terrific day ~ You shine emoticon Donna

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RHYMESWITHBABY 10/2/2013 7:37AM

    Well, do not doubt that you can write! That idea should never have entered your thoughts. I "get" that the other stuff is hard, but, Karen, you CAN write. And you do it well. Never doubt that.

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DEEGIRL50 10/2/2013 7:15AM

    What a loving tribute to your mother. Please write her story. You've already got all of us hooked.

At the end of his life, my dad said "I've had a he** of a ride." I want to be able to say the same thing when my time is over.

One dream that doubt (or weight) stopped me from doing... we were on vacation in Tennessee and there was an indoor skydiving place. It simulated a sky diving adventure. I was afraid I'd weigh too much to do it. I've always regretted it.

Seek adventure. Live Large (hopefully in a smaller body soon)!!
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MARLY53 10/2/2013 12:30AM

    emoticon Karen, write that book! You are a writer, don't ever doubt it again!

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CONNIEDETHOMAS 10/1/2013 11:01PM

    Doubt has stopped me many times.
You write that book...and I will be
buying it.
Connie in WV

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KAREN608 10/1/2013 11:01PM

    I was thinking, wow, the ladies in your big town would love a health center like that. One could start small and add the things one by one...

Write that book even if you epublish it... it will be such a great accomplishment.

Doubts or fear of failure stops a lot of people.
Of course I could tell you of the many cafes here in tiny town that opened up and had to close due to lack of money for the basic bills... they tried their dream, but it was expensive.
I think location sometimes is real important in cafe dreams.

My main dream is eating less, and moving more, to be lighter on my feet.

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MCFITZ2 10/1/2013 10:35PM

    Dear Karen You Are A Talented Writer!!!
If you recalled I suggested that you publish your blogs.
There are many ways to publish traditional (Harcourt Brace), e printing where you can have it published (you pay to have it done) and the new e-books that you can write and sale on line for downloading.
So write your book. Find author groups in your area or on line. One of my trainers is an aspiring author (mystery) and she has networked with many other authors.
There is the fence . Through your heart over and follow it.
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GRAMMY7070 10/1/2013 10:11PM

    Another great blog to get us thinking. Thanks

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September 29, 2013 - Day 111 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 30

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Happy Sunday to all my Spark Friends. And it IS a happy Sunday, right? Did you remember to be good to yourself today? If not. . . there's still time! It's never too late to be good to yourself and make it a happy day!

Thank you for all the well wishes regarding my garage sale. Saturday was beautiful! Sun was shining, birds were singing, temperature was in the 70's and 80's, we had lots of customers and sold lots of treasures! Sunday. . .well. . . maybe it's best not to talk about Sunday as it tends to steal Saturday's joy. emoticon It rained. What can I say? Anyway, I'm grateful - oh so very grateful for Saturday!

Speaking of gratitude. . . today is the last day of my commitment. About a month ago, I committed to blogging (for 30 days) about that for which I was grateful. And here we are. 30 days later. Does this mean that I will not continue to be grateful? Heavens no! I shall be grateful daily! I might not blog about it, but you can bet I am and will remain grateful. . . all the days of my life. You too? Yes please!

Not only am I grateful for Saturday, I am grateful for all the good in my life. Actually, though it's difficult to admit it "in the moment", I am also grateful for the not-so-good in my life. Why? Well, because it takes both - good and bad - to propel me forward - onward - upward - along my path - my life's journey. When a not-so-good thing happens, I try - hard as it might be - to see and understand the necessity. Admittedly, I don't always succeed, but I try.

Today, I choose to focus on the good. What good am I grateful for? I am grateful for my health (physical and mental), I am grateful for my supportive and loving husband, I am grateful for my family and their good health, I am grateful for my employment, I am grateful that I always seem to have "just enough", I am grateful that I know the difference between "right" and "wrong", I am grateful for knowledge, I am grateful for God (a being or entity - a concept - that I don't fully understand, but am somehow certain exists) that loves me and guides me through any difficulty that comes my way, I am grateful for empathy that allows my heart to be kind and helpful whenever I see a need that I am in a position to fill, I am grateful for good and faithful friends, I am grateful for clean drinking water and foods that are nutrient dense, filling and fully supportive of my body/mind/ soul, I am grateful for the seasons as they remind me at least four times a year of the need for change, I am grateful for. . . oh so very much.

Did I forget anything? No, I didn't. I just saved the best for last! emoticon

I am grateful that I found SparkPeople, because it led me to each of you. Sappy as that might sound, I assure you that it is true. It is because of this place - and you, - it's oh-so-very-real, encouraging, supportive, loving and kind members - that I have gained awareness over these past 111 days of all the things I am truly grateful for. Without you? I quite likely would still be in a place of ignorant darkness, only ever seeing the bad.

Today, I am grateful for you. For it was you who showed me the way. The way to gratitude. Now that I have found it? Been shown the way? I never, ever want to go back to that place of living life without it.

May God - in whatever way you understand Him or Her or It or They - bless you richly all the days of your life.

With a heart full of love. . .and gratitude,
Karen

  
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DEEGIRL50 10/2/2013 7:22AM

    It is better to focus on the gratitude than the crapitude. Some days when things are really bugging me and I want to cry "Poor poor me" --- I need to remember your wonderful blogs and all the good things I do have!
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CYBERCITYSHELL 9/30/2013 11:48PM

    I am also very grateful to have found spark people and all the wonderful people on here. I am very grateful to have found you as a friend Karen emoticon emoticon
I am glad your garage sale went well. It is a great way to get rid of a few things and to get a bit of spending money in return.
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CONNIEDETHOMAS 9/30/2013 8:08PM

    I to an very grateful to have found Sparkpeople.
It has made such a good difference in my life.
You are such a wonderful friend. I sure hope you
write for a living. You are quite good at it.
Connie in WV emoticon

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WILDKAT781 9/30/2013 7:58PM

    wonderful post!!!!!

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KAREN608 9/30/2013 9:11AM

    Grateful for even the ordinary small things in life like my toothbrush!
Of course I hate cavities.

I lately can not bear to say anything bad about my hubby as I am just so glad he is with me and alive and laughing, after so many widows I see or divorced ladies that struggle so.

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JUST_BRENDA 9/30/2013 5:48AM

    I love your positive attitude

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MCFITZ2 9/29/2013 9:16PM

    Your blogs have shown some changes that you sare bringing about in yourself. It has been inspiring and exciting to follow your journey. You have poised some thought provoking questions, statements and experiences. You have been very open and I believe I have seen you gain in wisdom by dong so.
My your journey carry you to and through exactly what you need when you need it.
Well done my friend. emoticon

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MISSUSRIVERRAT 9/29/2013 9:02PM

    We all do have lots to be grateful for. Thanks for sharing your thoughts all these days!

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DGFOWLER 9/29/2013 8:09PM

    WooHoo.. you did it girl. Now on to another 30 day goal whatever that may be. I'll miss your blogs though if you don't write daily...gee.. where am I gonna get my inspiration? Two peas in a pod are much better than one. Hugs and all of that mushy stuff to you this evening. Donna

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RHYMESWITHBABY 9/29/2013 7:54PM

    Congratulations on achieving your goal! I have so enjoyed reading your posts. Please don't stop blogging now. I am grateful for you, too!
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SUPERGREENDIET 9/29/2013 7:46PM

  Lovely post~* Thank you for sharing your gratitude! #uplifting emoticon

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DETERMINEDLOSER 9/29/2013 5:53PM

    Karen,
I loved reading your blog. So uplifting! Thanks for sharing your gratitude with us and for reminding us that there are so many things to be grateful for. Oftentimes when things get tough we forget that is the time that we are building stepping stones and learning new things to help us on our journey. Have a great week!

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SAHAR2013 9/29/2013 4:53PM

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GRAYLADY13 9/29/2013 4:41PM

    Kudos Karen, another goal met! emoticon
I am grateful for you too. Your loving spirit shines through and through!

Happy Sunday back at you! Thanks for all your support!
Love,
Gray

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AWESOMECHELZ 9/29/2013 4:32PM

    You could write a blog every few days and call it a new theme, a new theme every month. I can't write a blog daily because it takes a lot of energy so I commend you. But you don't have to write one daily either but just let's know how you are. Have a good week!! emoticon

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September 26, 2013 - Day 110 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 29

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Good morning sparkly folks! Happy Thursday. I just wanted to let you all know that I'm going to be MIA for a few days. Got the big garage sale happening Friday and Saturday. My mom is coming to town today to help me get everything priced and set up for tomorrow morning. Yeah for moms! I surely couldn't do this without her help. . . really wouldn't even want to cause garage sales for one are. . . well. . . frankly. . . BORING! And! With my memory deficits, I fear I might forget to show up if left to my own devices. How sad would that be, huh? A garage sale with no attendant? THAT might be more than my mentally challenged burglar could resist! And if there's one thing for certain. . . I don't want to tempt him!!!

Ok, enough randomness for one morning. Enjoy your day, enjoy your weekend and I'll see ya on the other side!

Much love,
Karen

  
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TEMIWUMI 9/28/2013 4:53PM

    Good luck on the garage sale!

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JUST_BRENDA 9/28/2013 2:35PM

    Enjoy your weekend. Good luck on the garage sale!

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DEEGIRL50 9/28/2013 7:20AM

    emoticon I wonder if a "self serve" garage sale would work. Put out a box for donations and see how much people would pay for our stuff. It might be an interesting (or costly) experiment. Fun to think outside the box though.

emoticon "There ain't no sunshine when she's gone and she's always gone too long." emoticon Singing the blues while missing you!

emoticon Chat with you soon. Enjoy the time with Mom!!

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MCFITZ2 9/27/2013 10:22AM

    Happy weekend Karen. Enjoy the sale.

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SUEPERWOMAN 9/27/2013 10:04AM

 

Take care, Karen, and come back as soon as you can. I need you!!

Love, Ginger

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WILDKAT781 9/27/2013 7:08AM

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UNSWEETMAMA 9/26/2013 11:24AM

    Good luck, I hope you get rid of a lot of stuff and make some money while you're at it.
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NHES220 9/26/2013 10:59AM

    Good luck with the garage sale, hope you get rid of lots of stuff and get lots of $$.


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KAREN608 9/26/2013 10:43AM

    Ooh love garage sales!
I had one due to my move, inside my old house, which made it rain or shine, and had my 'not responsible for accidents' sign up inside, ha ha.

It was all good, and sold $800 due to many many years of stuff. Only one day and it paid for the propane here for a year.

Glad your Mom can help, I had a friend on that day to help bag stuff, as it was hectic, so I survived a 12 hour one day only special house sale. I set up myself but had lots of room/time to do it. Makes a difference where you have it.

Hope you do well and meet lots of new people. It is like a social event.

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RHYMESWITHBABY 9/26/2013 10:35AM

    Wow! Hope all goes well! Enjoy your time with your mother! (Also, hurry back.)

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KAZZIE531 9/26/2013 10:09AM

    Good Luck Karen on the garage sale.....my last garage sale I racked in 1400 bucks. Jon and I combined our 30 years of stuff. I will miss reading your blogs, but I will know that you're spending quality time with MOM!!! Have fun!! emoticon emoticon Kaz

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AWESOMECHELZ 9/26/2013 8:06AM

    Make LOTS of money and have fun but most of all, enjoy your time with your mother. emoticon
LOVE, CHELSEA

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CYBERCITYSHELL 9/26/2013 8:03AM

    Good luck with your garage sale Karen. I hope it goes really well. Lock your front door while you are having it. That way no sneaky person can get in the house while you are doing the garage sale. Also be prepared incase you get any early customers. Have fun emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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MISSUSRIVERRAT 9/26/2013 6:50AM

    Have fun!

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DGFOWLER 9/26/2013 6:28AM

    You will me missed SP mistress emoticon Have a wonderful garage sale filled with lots of laughter, friendship and money . emoticon Donna

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