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A New Chapter Unfolds

Thursday, August 25, 2011

It has been such a long while since I thought about blogging. So many dynamics have changed in my life and now it is time to step on a new path and that new chapter unfolds.

I finished moving out of my home yesterday and today has been a melt down day as all the memories are left behind. It is bittersweet because the day I came home from the hospital when my husband died - the house no longer felt like a home and I felt nothing but aching loneliness there. However, everything that I had there will remain a vivid and loving memory of where our love grew and where life together was no more.

So now I begin anew - I write a new story as each day passes and find my place in the world - a world I have not experienced in a very long time. My son and I talked the other day about the fact that I have spent the last 30 years of my life caring for 2 very special and unique people and now it is time for me to see the world for the first time. It is a place I have not found complete comfort in but a place that lends much excitement. I feel like a young girl just going out into the world for the first time and yes it is exciting and I look forward to what my life will be like as I move forward.

To take this on a different direction - life priorities have been in my way and my fitness has been virtually non-existant, and yet it has been a wonderful respite from the fitness life I was living. I have spoken before about living with such intensity of fitness and with such restriction and I suffered greatly from that because it had gone on so long. The respite has been good for me and it helps me realign where I want my fitness goals now.

I am in love with the fact that I accomplished much and I will forever continue to accomplish much but with a different direction now. I now want to experience life and will always remain fit but it matters not to me to walk around in competition shape year round - been there, done that. I have hopes that the many who want and continue to want for things that just don't fit them can recognize that it is okay to not follow along with the majority - but to do what feels right in their lives at the time.

I have fulfillment in my heart with where my life has been and all that I have done for others and all that I have done for myself - I feel good about me and that is what my wish is for everyone as they endeavor on their own life journey's. Always think about what you want from the depths of your being and do what is right for you, not what is right for others. Be happy with who you are and what you have to give yourself and your life around you - I am so blessed to feel the way I do today and you have but to live out your dream. Aspire to be YOU and ONLY YOU.

LIFE holds all the pleasures and dreams that we wish to achieve - we only need to go make them come true - I am endeavoring to do that. Life is a dream and I wish to make it mine - it will be mine. Keep those thoughts in your heart and in your mind and everything you want will be yours if you reach out and take it.

  
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SLS-NY2IN 8/10/2012 10:00AM

    We have all missed your inspiring blogs but healing requires time. Excited for you that you are entering this new step in your life and you are ready for it. emoticon

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SMILES4383 12/26/2011 7:07PM

    Karen,

So sorry to hear of your tremendous loss.

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JAZZID 9/3/2011 8:56PM

    Hi Karen, it's been awhile... I am so sorry for your lost, but although bittersweet, I am glad that you are moving on and starting to take care of "you"; that is what your love ones would want for you as well... You have such a loving and giving spirit, not just towards family, but to others like me, with whom you took the time to help here on Sparkpeople, and for that I will always be grateful to you.

I know that you will be ok, and know that I will be right here rooting for you every step of the way.

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MINIUM 8/29/2011 7:52AM

    I'm so sorry for your loss and the fact that you have to move, leaving good memories behind. But you're right, it may be the right time for you to work on new goals.
Have a great day!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 8/26/2011 10:37AM

    I have no doubt that you will make a good life for yourself and I hope you will find time to keep in contact with us.

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CIRANDELLA 8/26/2011 8:58AM

    What an incredibly wise and wonderful woman you are... Much success in all the new pearls you uncover in life, and yes, it is true - there are decidedly seasons in all our lives which are subject to change. Sometimes, growth can't and won't take place 'til we go with the flow, and you are!

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BEACHGIRL76 8/26/2011 7:26AM

    Hi Karen! So happy to see you blogging and to hear how well you are doing! I must have missed the last few blogs of yours. I'll have to go back and catch up. I understand how leaving the house could be bitter sweeet. Scary and exciting at the same time. But when you think about it, it's just an object and all the good things that happened there will always be in your memories.

Things with me and my hubby have been really rocky lately and to be honest I don't know if we will stay together. I get awful feelings sometimes when I walk in this house and we may be seperating or we may work it out but I do know how you feel in a sense. Even though my husband is still here, he feels like a million miles away and almost like he isn't living here so it's a sad thing to walk into a house with no love there. I understand that. I know my situation isn't the same as yours but I do understand the lonely feeling.

I relayed on him to make me happy and he can't do that for me. Only I can. I'm just praying things get better for me and that slowly I search inside myself for what really matters in life, get closer to God, and find myself again. I don't think I ever want to give my full soul to anyone else other than myself and God...it's too painful.

I look up to you for strength and it fills me with tears to know you have done the impossible by turning something so painful into a new dream. The world is yours and you can do anything you want with it...that is an awesome feeling! So very proud of you!! Love, Jennifer

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NEW-CAZ 8/26/2011 3:11AM

    Great to see you posting Karen
Wonderful that you are moving on to the next stage in your life and embracing the positives.
I have every faith in the strong Karen I know that she will prevail and adjust.
It's only natural that you had a melt down, you're leaving some strong memories but you're ready Karen. Spread your wings and fly
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SOCKITTOME 8/25/2011 11:31PM

    Glad to hear you're doing okay, despite an extremely rocky start to the year, and with such heavy losses to boot. You are true inspiration on how to keep going despite the pain of loss. Rock on, girl. You are blazing a healing path and I applaud you!

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MT-MOONCHASER 8/25/2011 10:51PM

    I'm so glad that you have such a wise son to discuss your new life direction with. He takes after his mother.

I'm sorry that you had a melt down today. You're memories will be with you, you just won't have the visual reminders to trigger those memories. You can always go past the house to use that as a trigger if need be. However, I'll bet you have enough pictures and other momentos to bring the good memories flooding back.

It's good that you have taken the time to think about your fitness goals and that you feel good about where you are.

I'm really glad that are emerging from this traumatic year with your feeling of self worth in good shape.

I know that you will keep up the good work, now that you have finished with this move. I hope that your transition to your new life with be mostly smooth.

Thank you for the goodie and note. I am really glad to see your blog tonight.

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SHARON10002 8/25/2011 10:36PM

    You are truly an amazing woman and I love you.
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SUSIEPH1 8/25/2011 10:35PM

    Great thoughts Karen ..
I totally believe in you and your strength of mind and character to contribute to and gain all you deserve in life ...
you have been a wonderful Wife, Care Giver, Daughter , Mother and Friend .

Now it is time for you to spread your wings and experience all that life holds for you ...
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HDHAWK 8/25/2011 9:39PM

    Wonderful Karen and a great reminder to always follow our own path and not what anyone else thinks we should do. You have great things ahead of you.

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TLOVESB 8/25/2011 9:07PM

    Great to hear from you Karen! I hope every thing is going well with the new job and new apartment - they both sound wonderful. You're ever in our prayers. emoticon

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Being Touched by the SPARKLIGHT

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Could I asked to be touched by so many today and what a wonderful time to celebrate the day in the SPARKLIGHT. Spark embraces each and every one of us in so many ways and I truly believe it gives life to ever so many. Spark is addictive and what an addiction to have.

"We are, each of us, angels with only one wing, and we can only fly embracing each other." ~ Luciano Deciescenzo

Take this quote and copy and paste it into your memory bank - it is the community of people who will contribute to everyone and anyone reaching whatever goals they chose to achieve. It is my belief that we always need each other in life to accomplish and to survive. This year has been a year for me that has held much pain and severe life change - I struggle yes, like we have to do, but it is always the comfort and communion of people who will help us get through whatever life can put on our plates.

Embrace the touch of others and let them have their place in your lives and your journey's. But when it comes to your goals - make them your own. Define them for you, design them for you -- this community is to be here to rally for you as you walk the path that you have carely planned for YOURSELF. You must then stay away from trying to do or to be something other than yourself. It is hard for so many who get wrapped up trying to do things that are just not for them or trying to have goals that are someone else's. Always place your most importance on YOU, and you alone.

We are our owns "works in progress" and it has to be all about what do you want your body and your life to be about - RE-WRITE if you are not on the path that you really should or want to be on. Life is not just about ONE STORY - it is about many re-writes because our lives, our goals and our visions are constantly changing. This is what makes life worth living and it makes it fun to re-write it when your journey decides to change.

I am re-writing my journey once again and I know I will be re-writing forever. I am changing and so are my goals. I have met all that I have chosen to do, and I have met it all because I was COMMITTED TO DO SO. Now I am re-writing but I am also re-defining and re-designing what I am going to do next. Sometimes I don't know what is next, sometimes I have the controls and sometimes I do not, but I keep on going.

I have decided to restructure my body also in this new life transition that I am walking in. I have decided to go for a bit of a different look and am working that as a goal this year. I have competed, I have been ultra lean - where to go now? Now I am just ready to be WOMAN. I have decided I want alittle less leanness and less work on muscle growth. Now I look for balance. I went golfing today for the first time in 20+ years and my upper body muscle was actually a negative as my instructor put it. I laugh at that because even though I have a solid amount of muscle I would not have expected it to be problematic - well it is and I will work my way around that. It is all about re-designing and re-defining.

Everyone needs to know that it is okay to do these things - there is no right or wrong when it comes to what you want f or you - because it truly is all about you and your own personal goals, dreams and visions. Just remember the concept of Community in your travels - the people of spark are what make our travels so much more meaningful.

"Sometimes when we are generous in small, barely detectable ways it can change someone else's life forever." ~Margaret Cho

  
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MORTICIAADDAMS 7/1/2011 3:16PM

    You are excellent at making changes for your best interests. It will be interesting to see your journey.

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LUCYSRAIN 6/30/2011 12:59PM

    Thank you Karen!

This is a very special place, as you said we are setting goals and re-constructing our own paths....

This place "fans" the Spark we all own, and when that Spark becomes a Flame we are unstoppable!

BTW....I was just offered a job in the medical field!!

My life will never be the same, and isn't that what life is all about!

Chapter after chapter of an unfortold story....

We own our futures...

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SHARON10002 6/29/2011 11:36PM

    emoticonPhenomenal blog, Karen. Absolutely phenomenal . . . emoticon
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TRAINER_T 6/29/2011 4:50PM

    emoticonI feel your positive energy!
Hugs T.

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ALESHABEE 6/28/2011 8:11PM

    Beautiful blog...thanks for sharing!

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TUBLADY 6/28/2011 8:01PM

    I am with you all the way.
I am redesigning myself at 69 ,it's ever changing.
That's what life is all about.
I wish you the best.
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Can I put it all together

Saturday, June 25, 2011

"The highest reward for a person's toil is not what they get for it, but for what they become by it." ~ John Ruskin

I guess this quote fits me well right now as I try to figure out what my life is and how to pull it all together. It has been many years that I have had to organize my life around a work schedule and I am struggling with the time management of that in terms of everything at home. It is truly a hysterical statement for me to make, coming from Ms. Organized - well guess what, right now I am far from organized. I am trying to build some kind of a schedule to work out and it is so out of sync with what I have done before. It will take skill with my schedule but somehow I will figure it out.

I am super busy right now so it will be hit and miss trying to get on here with any kind of consistency. My new job is wonderful but there is so very much to learn and our entire operation is relocated to a new and bigger office complex the second weekend of July so there is much to do with that on top of everything else.

I start golf lessons this Tues and I am excited about that. It will be a nice thing to get me out and start doing some things with other people. Big and different step for me as I am not used to going out and doing things. Lots of new adjustments in my life but I know I need to do them and I am sure over time things will settle in place. After having lived such a structured life it is so hard to try to survive in what I deem to be chaos.

I wanted to just stop by and say thanks to all for your support and I feel badly that I just can't seem to get much computer time lately. It is a challenge every week but one I just know will find consistency over time. Sending lots of love and hugs and REMEMBER life can bring many, many challenges and diversions and even though my fitness life is upside down, it is very much on my mind - I NEVER lose sight of my goals - I may waver in my consistency but my mind never loses touch with my goals. It is very hard work to stay on top of it but it is all about HOW BADLY DO YOU WANT IT - where you have will, you will have progress no matter what diversions come your way.

  
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DEBBIEOLMOS57 6/28/2011 9:49AM

    great blog

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BEACHGIRL76 6/27/2011 2:18PM

    I'm so glad to hear you are doing better. Golfing should be fun! It's all about getting out there and enjoying life as best as you can. I'm sure when you get some free time and get organized you'll feel better since you are so used to structure. I like all the things you talked about when it comes to fitness. Yes we have to listen to our bodies. But don't always listen when it says it's tired every single day...you need to exercise to get energy. I noticed that the first few days wears you out but after that it gives you energy:) Take care and always look forward to reading your blogs!

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AKELAZ 6/26/2011 3:52AM

    You go Karen - tho as slowly and gently as you need. No point pushing it - that won't help. The golf sounds good - a diversion - a new skill - exercise - new friends. Perfect!!
The organisation of the rest of your life and Spark round the job will come with time. Both will be waiting for you when you are ready. We all understand that your life changes are huge and that you have a new jigsaw to do. Everyone knows that in your usual efficient fashion you will work it out.

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NEW-CAZ 6/26/2011 3:18AM

    Karen you are doing so well and getting your life together.
I think Golf is an excellent idea!I hope you enjoy it and make many wonderful new friends.
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MORTICIAADDAMS 6/25/2011 11:17PM

    It sounds like you are adjusting really well. Good luck with the golf lessons.

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SHAKENBAKE 6/25/2011 9:23PM

    Sure you will get it together. Just take one day at a time. Glad to hear you are going to try and start golfing. I am doing the exact same thing. :) Love you and keeping you in my prayers. xoxo

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MT-MOONCHASER 6/25/2011 9:22PM

    It's good to hear from you and that you are doing well.

I'm glad to hear that you are going to take golf lessons.

I hope your move at work goes smoothly. At my job, we are getting a new computer system for our sales and accounts receivable. Just getting that new equipment and finding places for everything is disrupting. I really don't want to think what moving to a new building would be like...

I am adding you to my friends list so that I can check in to see how you're doing once in a while.

I hope you have a nice weekend. I'm off to help celebrate the 100th anniversary of one of the local ranches.

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SUSIEPH1 6/25/2011 9:18PM

    Love that everything is coming together for you .. and the Golf will be a great place to met like minded people .. Don't worry about us .. we will still be here ... just enjoy your new way of life and your new job ..
Would be interested to know what your job is ??
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HDHAWK 6/25/2011 8:30PM

    It will all come together in time Karen. Starting the golf will be a way to bring some fun and people time to your busy schedule. It's a positive step! emoticon

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Investigating the Meaning and the Why

Thursday, June 09, 2011

I just got home from going out to dinner with my gf. We have tried to do this weekly and so far have been successful. I so enjoy our time together and she desperately needed some guidance tonight. I have a two fold investigation tonight - one is personal and one is in comment to a comment left on my blog yesterday.

My personal investigation involves a thought that came into my mind today and I am completely uncertain of where it came from. It dawned on me today that I had my daughter for 10 years and she died in January and I had Bern for 10 years and he died in January. Automatically I am feeling like there is a message here and I know at some point I will know it if I wait patiently. There is significance because both of these beloved people were not your average people. I was chosen for them and I know that there is something that will come at some point in time to define the significance of this thought.

I don't generally have things like that unless there is a message that I know I will know one day. I just wanted to share that with you because - if we listen, I mean really listen - there are messages throughout our lives that if we don't listen well enough - we will never receive. These messages are gifts and I have been the recipient many times before - I listen!!

I wanted also to speak to a comment left on my blog yesterday that I have spoken to before, but one that I sure shall speak on again. The comment was regarding "listening to your body" that I spoke about yesterday. Many people, and possibly all people, think in the moment instead of the long term. I am sure we all have been guilty of that before. There are consequences for not listening to our bodies, nor using common sense. It bears reminding for those who too quickly forget or just don't understand.

Fitness is important to each of us for the overall health and well being of our bodies - however when we go beyond, we take huge risks that may not be seen until much later in life and then there are consequences to bear. My cervical spine does not have an "injury" but it has consequences from my "fitness". After lifting overhead it has caused the degeneration of some of the discs in my neck and who knows if I will ever need to have surgery to correct - I pray not but it is quite possible.

Now, do I find that my "fitness" was beneficial to my health - sure it gave me a great external body, however, it left its permanent mark on my inner body. I do not find this to have been a worthwhile benefit of exercise. Do not mistake what I am saying --- what I say here is that there are consequences to those women (especially) who try to lift like a man. There are consequences -- when you are lifting overhead, think about that movement --- you are pushing heavy weight overhead on some of the smallest bone structure in the body. Our bodies were not meant to do that - we do it yes, but it was not meant to. So what do you think will happen over time?

People don't think about the long term- and neither did I. We get wrapped up in that "ultimate body" philosophy and we think we are invincible, and that includes me too. Well, reality check , we are not invincible and our bodies are not made of steel and cannot handle whatever we throw at it. My best response is that you must LISTEN TO YOUR BODY, you must really think about your goals for the long term and you must LISTEN when your body speaks to you. By no means should you be ignoring it.

I was and am very proud of my accomplishments at my age but the consequences of my actions are the very things that will pose issues for me along the aging continuum. In retrospect - it was not worth it. It all comes down to GOALS and it all comes down to what you are hoping to accomplish. What we don't want to forget to do is to think about the consequences of our actions. I learned the hard way but many won't have to if they listen. Even the most educated don't always see what may lie ahead and then we also have the "every body is uniquely different" - no one can predict the outcome in the long term.

We can't just pick on fitness - we must also pick on nutrition. What will be the long term consequences of most of the food market today? What kind of long term health effects will the kids of today see as they age - and I do believe they will see it earlier than mid-life. We already see that with Type II Diabetes - kids are getting adult onset diabetes. What will this tell us right now about the health of the generation ahead? We could go on and on about all the bad things in life and environment - what is most important is to look at what we can control and what we can change.

When we share we grow - we share to be a change in the world. Not everyone will listen but that is okay - what matters most is that some will listen and they in turn will grow. There is nothing more powerful than touching the lives of others - and if you only touch one person then there is more value in that one touch than you could ever wish for.

  
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MEADSBAY 6/28/2011 12:44PM

    First, may I say how very sorry I am for the losses you have had to endure. I cannot imagine going through that and admire your positive attitude.
Next, we never know how our bodies will respond to something- as you said-every body is unique in many ways.
I had built myself up to 4-5 mile/one hour powerwalks with few or no problems but within a few months of adding some slow jogging in there (which felt marvelous, I might add) I was suffering from hip pain that woke me up every morning at 5 -bursitis- and it has taken me over a year to lick it (I hope!).
I still am tempted to run because of what I read about it here on SP and elsewhere.
I love your wise words about thinking about the short AND long term- good advice in all areas of our lives!
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MORTICIAADDAMS 6/24/2011 3:23PM

    For many years I worked too hard as a nurse and did not concentrate on my long term health but I have been focused on it now for a few years.

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SOCKITTOME 6/12/2011 9:11AM

    Thank you, Karen, for another powerful, insightful, and wonderful blog. Very good point about listening to our bodies in the short-term AND the long-term.

Also very glad you're staying in touch here again. It was an interesting coincidence about your daughter and your husband. If there is a message, I hope you learn it someday soon.

Hugs as you continue your journey...

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DANEDA 6/10/2011 10:17AM

    Oh, my. I needed this. Badly.
Thank you.

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CHALLENGER15 6/10/2011 5:48AM

    I always enjoy reading your blogs; you inspire me to be better.

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NEW-CAZ 6/10/2011 2:57AM

    A wonderful blog Karen and I will certainly be listening to my body.
I am so glad to see you sharing your fitness experiences with us again.
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SUSIEPH1 6/10/2011 12:06AM

    Awesome and ohh so true ...Thank you for defining the way we should exercise.. Love and Hugs,
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MT-MOONCHASER 6/9/2011 11:24PM

    Another powerful message.

Unfortunately, most of us don't have enough knowledge about the bone structure and musculature of our bodies to be able to think through to the consequences of what we ask of it.

And, it is not just the average person --- the other day I read in a blog that one Sparker's personal trainer was having her do exercises that she should not have been doing because of her age and developing osteoarthritis. In a perfect world that trainer should have known better, or at least inquired about her age and any bone/musculature problems she was having and adjusted the training to suit.

Since this world is not perfect, I guess that we will have to stumble on, trying to figure out what is best for us and listening to our bodies as well as we can.

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HDHAWK 6/9/2011 11:07PM

    You have touched many lives along the way Karen. It's good to be reading your blogs again. It's tough to admit we're getting older and aren't able to do all the things we used to. Not as easily anyway!

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The smallest things can bring so much

Wednesday, June 08, 2011

"If one dream should fall and break into a thousand peices, never be afraid to pick one of those peices up and begin again." ~ Flavia Weedn

My sister called me this morning and told me to come over for the day to enjoy the pool with her. I wasn't going to go because I had so much I wanted to get done today - but I chose to go and I am so glad I did. Something so small yes, but something that brought me so much peace. I can't remember the last time I felt peaceful inside or out. We had so much fun and spent most of the day in the pool exercising. It was great and we both got so much enjoyment from it. I promised her I would come over every week on one of my days off to do that all summer - maybe I will go twice.

These are the very things that we can do to bring quiet to our stressed or disturbed selves and I sure know it worked for me. I got some great color just in one day so now I feel better. I always feel better when I have a tan - it just plain makes you look healthier.

Each day I am picking up a peice of myself - examining it and trying to figure out what to do with it. As the quote above says -" do not be afraid". I don't necessarily fear them but I do wonder what I shall do with them. I know that it is up to me to put them back together again and so I continue onward with that.

I called my SIL last night and asked her if she would take a long weekend with me in the early fall to vacation at a beautiful lake nearby and she said she would love to. I was thrilled and it was a big step - but I know that I have to start doing some things to help me get moving with the rest of the world again. Just working out in the pool with my sister today was a step - in doing something, and a step toward getting back to my training - one thing at a time and I know that those peices will begin to be much more defined and easier to put back together.

All of the past 6 months have put a tremendous hurting on my "typical" dedication to fitness. It is good for others to know that it happens to the best of us - and it is okay. It always makes me feel so much better to work out, but I need to find the mental and physical energy to do so. Do you ever have moments like this - I will bet you do. Stressors can wreak havoc with our bodies and our bodies mechanism to protect us is to slow down and try to protect us from further stress. Up to now my body has been saying NO and I have listened. Course I wouldn't have a choice because I truly have had no energy for it.

There is a cost to this - I know that very well - but, guess what, too bad!!! I have deconditioned somewhat but not too badly - why - because I took such good care of my body to begin with. Don't ever forget that you can take time off from training and it won't be completely destructive. I draw the line when it comes to health and yes exercise is very good for your health. It can be destructive however if your body is not capable of doing it. I know it is okay and I am slowly working my way back into it.

I am re-defining me and I am re-defining my fitness. It has to be a complete package deal because I need to meet all of my needs, not just a few. My life is so very different now and now my fitness will change to accommodate that. Don't be afraid to do that - this is all about you, the individual, it matters not what others are doing - it matters what works for you and brings you pleasure.

So today the smallest of things brought me peace and joy, Today also brought some more definition to those fragmented peices of myself. I love learning and now I have the challenge of once again re-learning myself.

Don't be afraid to look that closely at yourself - it is a powerful experience and can give you much.

  
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HELENAWF 6/9/2011 11:47PM

    Great blog! YOu will redefine yourself and your life will begin to have new meaning. Hugs, Wendy

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HDHAWK 6/9/2011 3:14PM

    Yes, go every week! The water, time with your sis, and the sun will all make you feel better.

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JRAUTIO 6/9/2011 11:03AM

    Thanks so much for sharing your journey with us, Karen. It has given me encouragement with some difficult issues that I've been struggling with, and I know others feel the same way. You are a true inspiration. -- Julie

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DONNA47FMFL 6/9/2011 9:00AM

    I love this blog! You really have a great way of looking at this whole journey and putting it into perspective. I can't believe everything you have been through and how strong you have come through all of it! It's great that you took some time for yourself and that it gave you peace. I've been following you on & off for the last few months. I'm so sorry for all of your losses - I just don't know the right words to express my sympathy to you. I wanted you to know that you have inspired me in so many ways since I stubbled upon your page. I hope you continue to find peace and happiness as you reshape your life. Good luck!! I know you will be fine. You are emoticon!

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MICHFIT4LIFE 6/9/2011 7:00AM

    I am so happy that you took time for yourself to enjoy and relax a day away with your sister. I'm glad it brought you peace, and a little joy. You deserve it Karen. God Bless.

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NEW-CAZ 6/9/2011 3:12AM

    Karen you are one amazing lady, day by day an inch at a time you are healing yourself.
Having gone through so much it is lovely to hear you enjoying yourself and looking after you the best way you can by keeping fit and healthy.

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AKELAZ 6/9/2011 2:44AM

    A thoughful - and thought provoking - blog, Karen. You know how to listen to yourself and to your body and it's bearing fruit which you are sharing with us. What a great person you are!
I'm so happy that you are finding ways to move on - not away but onwards - it's certainly what Bernie would have wished for you and expected of you. I admire you so much for your gentle positive attitude.
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SUSIEPH1 6/9/2011 1:04AM

    Well Said Karen !!
Iam so glad you are starting to find peace within yourself and also spending time with your family.
You are so right and I applaud the way you are addressing your exercise requirements ... I can see you are starting to get your live back in order and that is wonderful ... Love and Hugs Susie emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MT-MOONCHASER 6/8/2011 9:15PM

    What a powerful message -- it's too bad that there are so many in Sparks that don't seem to be hearing it. It seems like there are too many "all or nothing" attitudes that I see in blogs. That, and being discouraged that this isn't an instant fix. I read of so many people who get injured pushing themselves too hard and then rushing back into exercise before they are healed. It's too bad that more of them don't have your attitude about knowing what your own body can do and then doing it.

It's great that you had a peaceful day today, hopefully those days will come more often.

Have a peaceful day tomorrow.

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DETERMINDCHICKY 6/8/2011 9:08PM

    I love this blog and how you are sharing with us your healing process.

Being creative is another great way to heal.

Perhaps you could decorate and paint your home barbell to say
"This one is for you babe."

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