Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Could I asked to be touched by so many today and what a wonderful time to celebrate the day in the SPARKLIGHT. Spark embraces each and every one of us in so many ways and I truly believe it gives life to ever so many. Spark is addictive and what an addiction to have.
"We are, each of us, angels with only one wing, and we can only fly embracing each other." ~ Luciano Deciescenzo
Take this quote and copy and paste it into your memory bank - it is the community of people who will contribute to everyone and anyone reaching whatever goals they chose to achieve. It is my belief that we always need each other in life to accomplish and to survive. This year has been a year for me that has held much pain and severe life change - I struggle yes, like we have to do, but it is always the comfort and communion of people who will help us get through whatever life can put on our plates.
Embrace the touch of others and let them have their place in your lives and your journey's. But when it comes to your goals - make them your own. Define them for you, design them for you -- this community is to be here to rally for you as you walk the path that you have carely planned for YOURSELF. You must then stay away from trying to do or to be something other than yourself. It is hard for so many who get wrapped up trying to do things that are just not for them or trying to have goals that are someone else's. Always place your most importance on YOU, and you alone.
We are our owns "works in progress" and it has to be all about what do you want your body and your life to be about - RE-WRITE if you are not on the path that you really should or want to be on. Life is not just about ONE STORY - it is about many re-writes because our lives, our goals and our visions are constantly changing. This is what makes life worth living and it makes it fun to re-write it when your journey decides to change.
I am re-writing my journey once again and I know I will be re-writing forever. I am changing and so are my goals. I have met all that I have chosen to do, and I have met it all because I was COMMITTED TO DO SO. Now I am re-writing but I am also re-defining and re-designing what I am going to do next. Sometimes I don't know what is next, sometimes I have the controls and sometimes I do not, but I keep on going.
I have decided to restructure my body also in this new life transition that I am walking in. I have decided to go for a bit of a different look and am working that as a goal this year. I have competed, I have been ultra lean - where to go now? Now I am just ready to be WOMAN. I have decided I want alittle less leanness and less work on muscle growth. Now I look for balance. I went golfing today for the first time in 20+ years and my upper body muscle was actually a negative as my instructor put it. I laugh at that because even though I have a solid amount of muscle I would not have expected it to be problematic - well it is and I will work my way around that. It is all about re-designing and re-defining.
Everyone needs to know that it is okay to do these things - there is no right or wrong when it comes to what you want f or you - because it truly is all about you and your own personal goals, dreams and visions. Just remember the concept of Community in your travels - the people of spark are what make our travels so much more meaningful.
"Sometimes when we are generous in small, barely detectable ways it can change someone else's life forever." ~Margaret Cho
Thursday, June 09, 2011
I just got home from going out to dinner with my gf. We have tried to do this weekly and so far have been successful. I so enjoy our time together and she desperately needed some guidance tonight. I have a two fold investigation tonight - one is personal and one is in comment to a comment left on my blog yesterday.
My personal investigation involves a thought that came into my mind today and I am completely uncertain of where it came from. It dawned on me today that I had my daughter for 10 years and she died in January and I had Bern for 10 years and he died in January. Automatically I am feeling like there is a message here and I know at some point I will know it if I wait patiently. There is significance because both of these beloved people were not your average people. I was chosen for them and I know that there is something that will come at some point in time to define the significance of this thought.
I don't generally have things like that unless there is a message that I know I will know one day. I just wanted to share that with you because - if we listen, I mean really listen - there are messages throughout our lives that if we don't listen well enough - we will never receive. These messages are gifts and I have been the recipient many times before - I listen!!
I wanted also to speak to a comment left on my blog yesterday that I have spoken to before, but one that I sure shall speak on again. The comment was regarding "listening to your body" that I spoke about yesterday. Many people, and possibly all people, think in the moment instead of the long term. I am sure we all have been guilty of that before. There are consequences for not listening to our bodies, nor using common sense. It bears reminding for those who too quickly forget or just don't understand.
Fitness is important to each of us for the overall health and well being of our bodies - however when we go beyond, we take huge risks that may not be seen until much later in life and then there are consequences to bear. My cervical spine does not have an "injury" but it has consequences from my "fitness". After lifting overhead it has caused the degeneration of some of the discs in my neck and who knows if I will ever need to have surgery to correct - I pray not but it is quite possible.
Now, do I find that my "fitness" was beneficial to my health - sure it gave me a great external body, however, it left its permanent mark on my inner body. I do not find this to have been a worthwhile benefit of exercise. Do not mistake what I am saying --- what I say here is that there are consequences to those women (especially) who try to lift like a man. There are consequences -- when you are lifting overhead, think about that movement --- you are pushing heavy weight overhead on some of the smallest bone structure in the body. Our bodies were not meant to do that - we do it yes, but it was not meant to. So what do you think will happen over time?
People don't think about the long term- and neither did I. We get wrapped up in that "ultimate body" philosophy and we think we are invincible, and that includes me too. Well, reality check , we are not invincible and our bodies are not made of steel and cannot handle whatever we throw at it. My best response is that you must LISTEN TO YOUR BODY, you must really think about your goals for the long term and you must LISTEN when your body speaks to you. By no means should you be ignoring it.
I was and am very proud of my accomplishments at my age but the consequences of my actions are the very things that will pose issues for me along the aging continuum. In retrospect - it was not worth it. It all comes down to GOALS and it all comes down to what you are hoping to accomplish. What we don't want to forget to do is to think about the consequences of our actions. I learned the hard way but many won't have to if they listen. Even the most educated don't always see what may lie ahead and then we also have the "every body is uniquely different" - no one can predict the outcome in the long term.
We can't just pick on fitness - we must also pick on nutrition. What will be the long term consequences of most of the food market today? What kind of long term health effects will the kids of today see as they age - and I do believe they will see it earlier than mid-life. We already see that with Type II Diabetes - kids are getting adult onset diabetes. What will this tell us right now about the health of the generation ahead? We could go on and on about all the bad things in life and environment - what is most important is to look at what we can control and what we can change.
When we share we grow - we share to be a change in the world. Not everyone will listen but that is okay - what matters most is that some will listen and they in turn will grow. There is nothing more powerful than touching the lives of others - and if you only touch one person then there is more value in that one touch than you could ever wish for.
Wednesday, June 08, 2011
"If one dream should fall and break into a thousand peices, never be afraid to pick one of those peices up and begin again." ~ Flavia Weedn
My sister called me this morning and told me to come over for the day to enjoy the pool with her. I wasn't going to go because I had so much I wanted to get done today - but I chose to go and I am so glad I did. Something so small yes, but something that brought me so much peace. I can't remember the last time I felt peaceful inside or out. We had so much fun and spent most of the day in the pool exercising. It was great and we both got so much enjoyment from it. I promised her I would come over every week on one of my days off to do that all summer - maybe I will go twice.
These are the very things that we can do to bring quiet to our stressed or disturbed selves and I sure know it worked for me. I got some great color just in one day so now I feel better. I always feel better when I have a tan - it just plain makes you look healthier.
Each day I am picking up a peice of myself - examining it and trying to figure out what to do with it. As the quote above says -" do not be afraid". I don't necessarily fear them but I do wonder what I shall do with them. I know that it is up to me to put them back together again and so I continue onward with that.
I called my SIL last night and asked her if she would take a long weekend with me in the early fall to vacation at a beautiful lake nearby and she said she would love to. I was thrilled and it was a big step - but I know that I have to start doing some things to help me get moving with the rest of the world again. Just working out in the pool with my sister today was a step - in doing something, and a step toward getting back to my training - one thing at a time and I know that those peices will begin to be much more defined and easier to put back together.
All of the past 6 months have put a tremendous hurting on my "typical" dedication to fitness. It is good for others to know that it happens to the best of us - and it is okay. It always makes me feel so much better to work out, but I need to find the mental and physical energy to do so. Do you ever have moments like this - I will bet you do. Stressors can wreak havoc with our bodies and our bodies mechanism to protect us is to slow down and try to protect us from further stress. Up to now my body has been saying NO and I have listened. Course I wouldn't have a choice because I truly have had no energy for it.
There is a cost to this - I know that very well - but, guess what, too bad!!! I have deconditioned somewhat but not too badly - why - because I took such good care of my body to begin with. Don't ever forget that you can take time off from training and it won't be completely destructive. I draw the line when it comes to health and yes exercise is very good for your health. It can be destructive however if your body is not capable of doing it. I know it is okay and I am slowly working my way back into it.
I am re-defining me and I am re-defining my fitness. It has to be a complete package deal because I need to meet all of my needs, not just a few. My life is so very different now and now my fitness will change to accommodate that. Don't be afraid to do that - this is all about you, the individual, it matters not what others are doing - it matters what works for you and brings you pleasure.
So today the smallest of things brought me peace and joy, Today also brought some more definition to those fragmented peices of myself. I love learning and now I have the challenge of once again re-learning myself.
Don't be afraid to look that closely at yourself - it is a powerful experience and can give you much.
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