Monday, September 23, 2013
It has been a very long time since I posted... How ironic is it that the only time I get around to posting a blog is when I get ridiculously busy again? I guess that goes to show, I do better under pressure.
Anyway, I'm still struggling with health problems. I'm just now recovering from a nasty cold, among other things.
My weight loss has been doing really well. I'm now down to 180-181 lbs. I had to buy some new pants last week. I was glad my boyfriend went with me, because I would have picked out sizes that are too big. He told me to try a few pairs on which I was really skeptical about whether they would fit or not. I believe the equivalent size in america would be size 14. Anyway, he convinced me to take them to the fitting rooms and try them on. Surprise! They fit rather well actually. I honestly do not remember the last time I have worn a size 14. Seriously. I can't remember! Maybe when I was 10?
It's also been a while since I have had a nice pair of jeans that aren't loose on me. Such a nice feeling to have (normally) tight pants that look honestly good.
I've heard it's common for one to become very critical of one's self after having lost a lot of weight. I am having that problem...
All my loose skin is driving me crazy! I feel like it's something strange on my body that truly doesn't belong there. It just doesn't feel right! Problem is... Where's it gonna go? I can only hope it will tighten a bit more with time as my body gets used to being so much smaller. (I really have my fingers crossed!)
I had started a one-month challenge from a facebook page that I follow, but around 7 days in I lost track and motivation, since I became so sick. Since I messed it up so badly I want to try and just do my own exercises for now and jump on the next challenge from the page at the start of the next month.
My German classes started up last week. There was a ton of confusion and working out to get through, but this week I'm finally in the right class (though I have 2 weeks of homework to make-up!) I have classes Monday thru Friday, 5 hours a day (god help me!) I worked on a lot of the make-up homework over the weekend.
Anyway, I guess I should get back to my homework/review....
Until next time, though I'm not sure when I can post again!
Wednesday, August 07, 2013
Sometimes life really just gets in the way.
Sometimes life gets really hard...
And sometimes, life decides to just take a giant poop in your front lawn!
(metaphorically speaking of course, since I have no front lawn...)
It's been a while since I last posted...
What have I been up to, you ask?
Well, German classes ended for me on the 18th of July. I have done nothing especially interesting since then. My days have become nearly unbearably boring. I wake up, have coffee and eat breakfast, study for the SAT, cook and eat lunch, study more if needed, goof around on the computer if I have time, review a bit of German, cook and eat dinner, go for a walk, go to bed. Good lord, I barely even notice I'm living in Germany any more. It's truthfully no different than living anywhere else. The only difference would be if we had a little extra money, just to drive the car a little bit and see a few places... I don't even want to go to restaurants, cafes, or coffee shops every day like most people here. I don't want to go shopping every day. I don't even want to go into expensive castles to see inside, and buy souvenirs. Just a little sight seeing now and then, even from the car! I really didn't mind at first, but after 7 months of it, I'm a little bit stir crazy. Have a terrible case of Cabin Fever, you know?
Aside from having no life despite living in Germany, I have been battling a terrible health problem for around 7 or 8 weeks...
I've done some research, and it appears to be Systemic Candida Overgrowth, or some such. The body naturally has candida, but when the balance is upset (my balance seems to be very, very upset) then it can cause a lot of bad things for your body. Basically, I feel like I constantly have the flu, I want to sleep all the time, my body hurts in random unexplained places, I have skin rashes that simply won't go away, peely feet, my rosacea is acting up like crazy in my face and arms, my bladder and kidneys hurt, and despite having had my Gallbladder removed in 2011, the area hurts again.
I did go to the doctor, about 5 times in 3 weeks. She confirmed my suspicions. She is very focused on natural cures(as all doctors here in germany,) so she told me she wants to let it naturally heal, rather than giving me a dangerous pill like fluconazole. So for about 3 weeks I did a relatively loose candida diet - no pasta, only black bread, eggs, fresh meats, poultry, fish, and fresh veggies/fruits. Plus some herbal supplements and probiotics.
But, it wasn't helping a lot, so I figured it wouldn't make much difference if I ate normally again. Especially since last weekend we had my boyfriend's little son, PLUS since saturday we've had a house guest - my boyfriend's friend from Egypt. It's really hard to make so many different foods.
After 3 days of eating normally, I feel like total POO. (just thought I'd let you know, I feel like using a much stronger word here, but opted not to, since I try to be polite)
All the skin problems came back in double, my throat hurts, my stomach hurts, my feet burn. BLAH!
So, I did some more research on the net, and I realized from the start I really wasn't being strict enough to make the candida diet really work. For the first 2 or 3 weeks you're not supposed to even have fruits, since they provide the Candida with food(sugar)
Starting today I'm trying to go back to the candida diet, except following it more strict now, since I really want these health problems finally gone!
Since all of this weirdness has been going on in my life, I really kind overlooked my weight... It's sad, actually, since I finally dropped under 200 lbs a few weeks ago, but was feeling too bummed and lethargic to make a big deal out of it. I really should have made a bigger deal out of it, gave myself a treat, or SOMEthing. It's just really hard to have enthusiasm about it when so many things are so... stale.
So, now my current weight is 195 lbs. Which truthfully, if I look past the lethargy of everything else, is pretty darned amazing. As I stated in a previous blog, I haven't been under 200 lbs since I was 12 or 13 years old. It's a huge milestone in my journey, and yet I was too "blah" to even pat myself on the back.
I really have to turn my thoughts and attitude towards a more positive direction. It's not healthy for me to feel like that all the time. I need to take joy and pleasure in living life again - even if I am living in boring way, at least I am alive, usually have enough food on the table, have a place to live, and most importantly, I still have the ones I love. No matter how near or far they may be.
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
I found the idea on a friend's blog, so I thought I'd post it too! The idea is to post a list of the staples, or things you ALWAYS have in your kitchen.
So here's my list!
GF and non GF Pasta
Frozen veggies of some sort (usually green beans, peas, cauliflour, and broccoli)
Canned Kidney Beans
Frozen German Spinach
That's all I can think of!
What are YOUR Kitchen staples? Post a blog (if you want) and let me know in the comments!
Saturday, June 15, 2013
I thought this might be an interesting topic for a blog. I recently started cleansing my fresh produce that I buy with vinegar water as soon as I get them home. It kills bacteria, makes the food safer to eat, and keeps them from molding before you can eat them all.
I mix vinegar with water in a large container and let the fruit/veggies set in the water for about 5 minutes, then rinse them with clean water, dry them, and then put them away.
I usually have to change the water quite often, since it dirties up rather quickly.
Here's some pictures:
Look at these beautiful, clean fruits and veggies! So pretty :)
Here's a picture of the second round of vinegar water. So dirty, I can't believe I didn't cleans my produce in the past. ICK! I can't imagine all of that going in my body...
Sunday, June 09, 2013
Time in Germany: 17:00 (5 pm)
I really haven't had much time to post a blog the last few months, but I have been kinda active on sparkpeople. I have still been trying to lose weight, however through April and part of May I had a bit of a setback. I got very busy with studying and didn't take much time for my health. I started eating far too much at meal time, and snacked a lot. The only thing that kept me from gaining weight, I think, is how much I have to walk every day.
The last three weeks or so, I've been really dedicating myself to getting my food intake under control again, though I've had no weight loss progress for two of those weeks. I've even gained a pound since I started counting my calories, which doesn't make sense! I know for sure I'm not eating too much, and I'm pretty sure I'm not eating too little! My calories usually stay between 1300 and 1700 a day, which is logical since I walk an average of 6 miles per week. I seem to have hit a plateau, which frustrates me greatly. But I won't give up! I am so determined to see that scale drop another half kilogram (one pound) at least! And then after that I'll take it one pound at a time. It will be a great victory for me. I really hope to be under the 200 lbs mark sometime in the next few months. it would be so great! I haven't been under 200 since my early teen years, I think.
I have to also remind myself, that I have made great progress already. I have lost 70 lbs total, and I'm wearing clothes that I couldn't fit into even when I was 14. The other day, I cautiously tried on a shirt that I have been saving for 6 and a half years. I bought the shirt when I was 15, in an attempt to inspire myself to lose weight so I could fit it. I never could wear the shirt until now. I was so proud of myself when I tried it on and it fit! It's even slightly loose on me! I wore it the whole day, because I was so happy.
As for other things in my life, the German classes are getting crazy! I had a test on the 23rd of May, where we had to listen to dialogues and answer questions on a paper about them, then we had to do different reading exercises and answer more questions, and then we had to write a letter for a random given situation. The total possible points were 45, but I got 39.5
I guess that's not too bad, since I had only been studying German for 3 months. Anyway, I have another test coming on the 19th of July, and I have so study for that still. I'm a little more intimidated by this one, since there's a speech test as well. You have to talk to a tester and answer random questions they ask and describe a random picture they give you. So intimidating! I really should practice speaking more. It's a must!
Anyway, I think I'll end this here, 'cause I have lots of chores to finish this evening. We had my Man's little boy (from another relationship) over for the weekend. I swear the kid is like a tornado!
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