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As usual!

Monday, September 23, 2013

It has been a very long time since I posted... How ironic is it that the only time I get around to posting a blog is when I get ridiculously busy again? I guess that goes to show, I do better under pressure.

Anyway, I'm still struggling with health problems. I'm just now recovering from a nasty cold, among other things.


My weight loss has been doing really well. I'm now down to 180-181 lbs. I had to buy some new pants last week. I was glad my boyfriend went with me, because I would have picked out sizes that are too big. He told me to try a few pairs on which I was really skeptical about whether they would fit or not. I believe the equivalent size in america would be size 14. Anyway, he convinced me to take them to the fitting rooms and try them on. Surprise! They fit rather well actually. I honestly do not remember the last time I have worn a size 14. Seriously. I can't remember! Maybe when I was 10?

It's also been a while since I have had a nice pair of jeans that aren't loose on me. Such a nice feeling to have (normally) tight pants that look honestly good.

I've heard it's common for one to become very critical of one's self after having lost a lot of weight. I am having that problem...

All my loose skin is driving me crazy! I feel like it's something strange on my body that truly doesn't belong there. It just doesn't feel right! Problem is... Where's it gonna go? I can only hope it will tighten a bit more with time as my body gets used to being so much smaller. (I really have my fingers crossed!)

I had started a one-month challenge from a facebook page that I follow, but around 7 days in I lost track and motivation, since I became so sick. Since I messed it up so badly I want to try and just do my own exercises for now and jump on the next challenge from the page at the start of the next month.

My German classes started up last week. There was a ton of confusion and working out to get through, but this week I'm finally in the right class (though I have 2 weeks of homework to make-up!) I have classes Monday thru Friday, 5 hours a day (god help me!) I worked on a lot of the make-up homework over the weekend.

Anyway, I guess I should get back to my homework/review....

Until next time, though I'm not sure when I can post again!


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KARASU_888 9/24/2013 11:31AM

    Thanks everyone for the comments and support!

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KIMPY225 9/23/2013 3:08PM

    Great job on the weight loss. Keep up the great work! It is definitely a nice feeling to get some new clothes that fit!

I have a lot of skin too which I hate. I also hope it shrinks, but we will see. Time will tell - but keep pushing! emoticon

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STEVEN2GO2 9/23/2013 2:21PM

    Congratulations on the great work you have done. Good news to hear you needed to shop for clothes because of your drop in weight!


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1STARVINGARTIST 9/23/2013 12:00PM

    This happened to me too--but there was some shrinkage with exercise (at least for me) and the rest I just got used to after some time. I always reminded myself that I would rather have loose skin than the extra weight. It can be a really big adjustment to be a different size and such, but you really will adjust. Just give it some time. You are doing so great!! Just keep reminding yourself how good you are doing and be happy and proud of yourself. All of us here are so proud of you right now!! You are doing amazing things!! Congratulations!!!
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KNYAGENYA 9/23/2013 11:08AM

    Congrats on losing weight. I have the same problem with the loose skin. I did all of this work to lose weight but when I look in the mirror all I see is hanging skin.

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SHRINKING_SARA 9/23/2013 9:45AM

    I know the skin thing -- it drove me nuts and still does. I have some old blogs about my skin removal if you're interested.

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Wednesday, August 07, 2013

Sometimes life really just gets in the way.

Sometimes life gets really hard...

And sometimes, life decides to just take a giant poop in your front lawn!
(metaphorically speaking of course, since I have no front lawn...)

It's been a while since I last posted...

What have I been up to, you ask?

Well, German classes ended for me on the 18th of July. I have done nothing especially interesting since then. My days have become nearly unbearably boring. I wake up, have coffee and eat breakfast, study for the SAT, cook and eat lunch, study more if needed, goof around on the computer if I have time, review a bit of German, cook and eat dinner, go for a walk, go to bed. Good lord, I barely even notice I'm living in Germany any more. It's truthfully no different than living anywhere else. The only difference would be if we had a little extra money, just to drive the car a little bit and see a few places... I don't even want to go to restaurants, cafes, or coffee shops every day like most people here. I don't want to go shopping every day. I don't even want to go into expensive castles to see inside, and buy souvenirs. Just a little sight seeing now and then, even from the car! I really didn't mind at first, but after 7 months of it, I'm a little bit stir crazy. Have a terrible case of Cabin Fever, you know?

Aside from having no life despite living in Germany, I have been battling a terrible health problem for around 7 or 8 weeks...

I've done some research, and it appears to be Systemic Candida Overgrowth, or some such. The body naturally has candida, but when the balance is upset (my balance seems to be very, very upset) then it can cause a lot of bad things for your body. Basically, I feel like I constantly have the flu, I want to sleep all the time, my body hurts in random unexplained places, I have skin rashes that simply won't go away, peely feet, my rosacea is acting up like crazy in my face and arms, my bladder and kidneys hurt, and despite having had my Gallbladder removed in 2011, the area hurts again.

I did go to the doctor, about 5 times in 3 weeks. She confirmed my suspicions. She is very focused on natural cures(as all doctors here in germany,) so she told me she wants to let it naturally heal, rather than giving me a dangerous pill like fluconazole. So for about 3 weeks I did a relatively loose candida diet - no pasta, only black bread, eggs, fresh meats, poultry, fish, and fresh veggies/fruits. Plus some herbal supplements and probiotics.

But, it wasn't helping a lot, so I figured it wouldn't make much difference if I ate normally again. Especially since last weekend we had my boyfriend's little son, PLUS since saturday we've had a house guest - my boyfriend's friend from Egypt. It's really hard to make so many different foods.


After 3 days of eating normally, I feel like total POO. (just thought I'd let you know, I feel like using a much stronger word here, but opted not to, since I try to be polite)
All the skin problems came back in double, my throat hurts, my stomach hurts, my feet burn. BLAH!

So, I did some more research on the net, and I realized from the start I really wasn't being strict enough to make the candida diet really work. For the first 2 or 3 weeks you're not supposed to even have fruits, since they provide the Candida with food(sugar)
Starting today I'm trying to go back to the candida diet, except following it more strict now, since I really want these health problems finally gone!

Since all of this weirdness has been going on in my life, I really kind overlooked my weight... It's sad, actually, since I finally dropped under 200 lbs a few weeks ago, but was feeling too bummed and lethargic to make a big deal out of it. I really should have made a bigger deal out of it, gave myself a treat, or SOMEthing. It's just really hard to have enthusiasm about it when so many things are so... stale.

So, now my current weight is 195 lbs. Which truthfully, if I look past the lethargy of everything else, is pretty darned amazing. As I stated in a previous blog, I haven't been under 200 lbs since I was 12 or 13 years old. It's a huge milestone in my journey, and yet I was too "blah" to even pat myself on the back.

I really have to turn my thoughts and attitude towards a more positive direction. It's not healthy for me to feel like that all the time. I need to take joy and pleasure in living life again - even if I am living in boring way, at least I am alive, usually have enough food on the table, have a place to live, and most importantly, I still have the ones I love. No matter how near or far they may be.


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MCJULIEO 8/8/2013 1:28AM

    Good deal! You know that we're rooting for you!

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KARASU_888 8/8/2013 1:08AM

    Thanks everyone for all your support!

about the second opinion, I went to another doctor before her and they didn't even want to see me, the front desk just gave me some cream for my rash and sent me on my way. I've tried to get appointments at other doctors but everyone's always full and doesn't want to take me on as a new patient.

If I don't feel better within a few weeks of doing the strict candida diet I will definitely make sure I see another doctor, even if I have to go to another city to see one. Thanks again for everyone's concern and support. After venting, I feel much more positive. I'll post an update in a few days about how I'm doing.


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MCJULIEO 8/7/2013 6:29PM

    Would it be possible to get a second diagnosis?

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CIRANDELLA 8/7/2013 12:46PM

    I'd seek a second opinion about that diagnosis.

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KIMPY225 8/7/2013 12:32PM

    Sorry to hear about the health problems! Hopefully it will be better for you soon! Great job at being under 200! Keep up the great work when you can!

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1STARVINGARTIST 8/7/2013 10:46AM

    Hi! emoticon

Sorry that you're so bored; life is like that sometimes. But routine can be your friend when you are trying to be healthful. Sorry to hear that you've been feeling so poorly. It's really cool that the German doctors take a natural approach though. I'm sure that you're going to do well with the candida diet.

Please don't overlook how well (amazing!) you have been doing with your weight loss. You should be celebrating! What you have done is so awesome--big hugs to you for your success!!

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PRINCHESSA 8/7/2013 8:58AM

    emoticon Getting and staying below 200!!! That is a huge deal, and you deserve that pat on the back!!! Focus on healing more than anything now :) The rest will come when you're feeling better again!

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Kitchen staples

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

I found the idea on a friend's blog, so I thought I'd post it too! The idea is to post a list of the staples, or things you ALWAYS have in your kitchen.

So here's my list!

Frozen Fish
Swiss Cheese
GF and non GF Pasta
Frozen veggies of some sort (usually green beans, peas, cauliflour, and broccoli)
Canned Kidney Beans
Frozen German Spinach

That's all I can think of!

What are YOUR Kitchen staples? Post a blog (if you want) and let me know in the comments!

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MCJULIEO 6/22/2013 12:15AM

    I think I have almost everything on your list regularly, plus canned tuna and herbal tea...

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EMPRESSAMQ 6/20/2013 8:19AM

    Good idea. I always make sure I have a supply of only gluten free items on hand regularly that are comfortable for me to eat and that I've researched, including eggs, whey, thin Swiss cheese, frozen & fresh produce, and some other things.

Thanks for posting the idea of actually making a list. I never do that.

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LINOVER 6/19/2013 9:29PM

    I always have on hand -
Freezer - boneless skinless chicken breasts
frozen veggies (various)
frozen fruits - blueberries, strawberries & mixed fruit
Refrigerator - milk
carrots, celery, tomatoes, cucumbers
Pantry - potatoes
tuna fish
kidney beans
various pastas

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NASFKAB 6/19/2013 1:25PM

  interesting mine would be veggies fruit milk fish cheese

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GK1963 6/19/2013 1:07PM

    I always have:

2-3 types of cheese
sliced ham
kidney beans
frozen chicken breasts (boneless, skinless)
pasta of various types
baby carrots
chicken broth

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Cleansing produce with Vinegar - Quite necessary

Saturday, June 15, 2013

I thought this might be an interesting topic for a blog. I recently started cleansing my fresh produce that I buy with vinegar water as soon as I get them home. It kills bacteria, makes the food safer to eat, and keeps them from molding before you can eat them all.

I mix vinegar with water in a large container and let the fruit/veggies set in the water for about 5 minutes, then rinse them with clean water, dry them, and then put them away.

I usually have to change the water quite often, since it dirties up rather quickly.

Here's some pictures:

Look at these beautiful, clean fruits and veggies! So pretty :)

Here's a picture of the second round of vinegar water. So dirty, I can't believe I didn't cleans my produce in the past. ICK! I can't imagine all of that going in my body...

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LINTPICKER 6/19/2013 7:29AM

    great idea!

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CLRWILLIAMS25 6/17/2013 11:37AM

    This is such a great tip. I just started doing this (about 3 grocery trips ago) and it has made such a difference! Food lasts much longer (especially strawberries) and the dirty water proves that it's cleaning the produce.

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BAMEIBOO 6/17/2013 11:28AM

    I use vinegar too!

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LEANNAW4 6/16/2013 12:30PM

    I'm going to try this. I'm curious about the ratio of vinegar to water. Does it matter? Thanks so much for sharing!

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MCJULIEO 6/15/2013 11:12PM

    I'll have to try it!

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LINOVER 6/15/2013 10:09PM

    Thanks for sharing! Vinegar is good for so many things!

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RENIESSPARKIN 6/15/2013 3:37PM

    Oh, you clever gal! I'm so impressed and this is so easy too. Thanks a lot, pal.

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PRINCHESSA 6/15/2013 1:53PM

    Just saw this tip specifically for keeping strawberries fresh longer yesterday on FaceBook... I've been washing with FIT for years, but it's a hard to find rinse, and hey - vinegar is dirt cheap (pun intended there).

Thanks for sharing here, where I can hit this subscribe button to find it again ;)


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SWIMLOVER 6/15/2013 12:21PM

  Thank You for this informative blog!

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_LINDA 6/15/2013 9:44AM

    That is an awesome tip! I scrub the heck out of my produce with a brush and just plain water, but I like this idea too! I used to use Watkins veggie wash and was very disappointed when they discontinued it as it was so effective.
Looks so good alright!!

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PICKIE98 6/15/2013 8:13AM

    yes, vinegar is the greatest disinfectant,, we use it for cleaning along with baking soda, ammonia,bleach.
Vinegar will make your raspberries and strawberries last longer too.

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Starting week 49: It's been so long!

Sunday, June 09, 2013

Time in Germany: 17:00 (5 pm)

I really haven't had much time to post a blog the last few months, but I have been kinda active on sparkpeople. I have still been trying to lose weight, however through April and part of May I had a bit of a setback. I got very busy with studying and didn't take much time for my health. I started eating far too much at meal time, and snacked a lot. The only thing that kept me from gaining weight, I think, is how much I have to walk every day.

The last three weeks or so, I've been really dedicating myself to getting my food intake under control again, though I've had no weight loss progress for two of those weeks. I've even gained a pound since I started counting my calories, which doesn't make sense! I know for sure I'm not eating too much, and I'm pretty sure I'm not eating too little! My calories usually stay between 1300 and 1700 a day, which is logical since I walk an average of 6 miles per week. I seem to have hit a plateau, which frustrates me greatly. But I won't give up! I am so determined to see that scale drop another half kilogram (one pound) at least! And then after that I'll take it one pound at a time. It will be a great victory for me. I really hope to be under the 200 lbs mark sometime in the next few months. it would be so great! I haven't been under 200 since my early teen years, I think.

I have to also remind myself, that I have made great progress already. I have lost 70 lbs total, and I'm wearing clothes that I couldn't fit into even when I was 14. The other day, I cautiously tried on a shirt that I have been saving for 6 and a half years. I bought the shirt when I was 15, in an attempt to inspire myself to lose weight so I could fit it. I never could wear the shirt until now. I was so proud of myself when I tried it on and it fit! It's even slightly loose on me! I wore it the whole day, because I was so happy.

As for other things in my life, the German classes are getting crazy! I had a test on the 23rd of May, where we had to listen to dialogues and answer questions on a paper about them, then we had to do different reading exercises and answer more questions, and then we had to write a letter for a random given situation. The total possible points were 45, but I got 39.5
I guess that's not too bad, since I had only been studying German for 3 months. Anyway, I have another test coming on the 19th of July, and I have so study for that still. I'm a little more intimidated by this one, since there's a speech test as well. You have to talk to a tester and answer random questions they ask and describe a random picture they give you. So intimidating! I really should practice speaking more. It's a must!

Anyway, I think I'll end this here, 'cause I have lots of chores to finish this evening. We had my Man's little boy (from another relationship) over for the weekend. I swear the kid is like a tornado!


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BEAUTY_WITHIN 6/10/2013 12:08AM

    Congrats on the NSV & good luck on your next test!

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MCJULIEO 6/9/2013 5:12PM

    Sounds like you are doing great! Just think how far you've come!

One day, one hour, one minute at a time... You can do it!

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LAWANDMUSIC 6/9/2013 2:57PM

    Congratulations on your progress, especially being able to wear that lovely shirt you bought all that long time ago. Whew! You must have smiled the entire day!!

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XKRYSX 6/9/2013 1:16PM

    You've come so far already! I know you can do it. You're so close now. Just don't give up yet. You'll get through this plateau.

I bet you're amazing at German now lol! I really wish I was bilingual too. I will keep studying too! You'll pass the test Miss. Smarty Pants :P Don't worry! Hehe.

Good luck on all of your goals. I know you'll reach 'em. And good luck with chores tonight lol.

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