Well - for the first time since I started back to the gym - I have been stepping on the scale at least once a week. First time, I was kinda surprised that I was less than the last time - not a lot but every lb counts, right? Today - I had to go the doctor - I have developed this rash on my knees that is driving me crazy - no idea what it is or even what to do to treat it at this point. So I stepped on the scale again - 3 days after the last time - and I was at 240.6 -- I wanted to dance! HOLY COW~ Look me at my lowest weight in forever when I was on spark and working out 5 days a week was 235.4 -- so even with getting back to the gym 3 weeks ago and 2 zumba or workout classes for the last 3 weeks - I am losing .. okay let me say that again - I am actually losing weight. I know I am eating every 2 hours, and my portions are better and even with I don't count working out .. I am moving more deliberately than I have in over 2 years - and I feel my desire mounting for feeling better daily! My sister in law sent me a brita water bottle - and let me tell you -- I am back to drinking water all day -- not coke or whatever - feeling hydrated and moving .. holy cow - weight is coming off. I know the most important thing to me is having my knees hurt less and having more energy. I told one my favorite moms last night when I saw her I was going to for run -- she looked around and said .. I don't see a bear .. why you running! I just laughed (of course she is thin) -- and off I went .. now when I say running .. I mean jogging/walking..but still .. normally I would have used this time to chat and laugh and socialize since I haven't really seen this people since July. Have I told you lately that softball is almost a 11 month out of 12 commitment ? My daughter finished middle school softball on Saturday and was out here on Monday... just saying. So when life is crazy -- Like mine is everyday -- taking 30-45 minutes to run/walk at a 2:25 minute practice .. means what .. Well one, I'm sweating and I think people can smell me .. but who cares .. the answer is NOT ME!~ The coaches just kept watching me move around them .. and I have no idea what they were thinking .. but honestly .. in Decemeber when we are still playing and it is freezing .. I am going to look good in my 5 layers! LOL
I actually look in the mirror and think I can see changes. I do not know if that is really true - or if it is just that I feel better about me .. so I do look different. I spoke to a mom from our middle school team about working out and how and when .. she told me - I tell busy people like you all the time .. If you can do a class verse gym equipment - you will do better. A class is designed to work all muscle categories not just one. Plus - don't try to do too much - for someone who gets 2 nights a week without somewhere to be or do .. try to do 2 classes a week - if you can do more .. GREAT .. but the reason most people fail - is that they don't meet their personal expectations - not someone elses. It has really stuck with me .. mostly because I find it true - I have to like me .. the more I like me the more others will because I value me!
All you sparkers - Value YOU! It will work - it does work .. maybe not in the time you want or whatever .. but it will!
I am going to get back to thinking about me - from time to time! LOL .. Right now - I have my 13 year old in Middle School softball - at least 2 nights a week, my 4 year old is playing tee ball - and my husband and I coach (what you can call coach - we heard the cats as i call it) at least 1 night if not 2 and then that leaves me ONE night where I don't have to be somewhere. Makes it very hard to work out for me - but I spoke to one of the moms on the middle school team, she is a trainer at a gym that they own (which is not over close to my house) about what to do in order to get back to losing weight - don't get me wrong - with no working out at all - I still dropped a few lbs a month - but it is back to the at least 5 a month - I said it .. that is my goal!! Will I be satisfied with less - maybe .. as long as I feel better, have more energy and in general moving forward. She told me - that people with schedules like mine - people get overwhelmed. I work full-time and overtime every month - I am under enormous pressure at the office, I have 3 kids at home that all have something or somewhere to be - told me to look into doing 2 classes a week and for at least 3-4 other days - take the kids for a bike ride, or walk! Whatever is MOVING! Do to the trouble with my knees - she suggested 'BodyFlow' - which they offer at my gym - but only at 10:15 am .. so that doesn't work!! They don't even offer on the weekends. I know that as soon as middle school ball is over - we roll right into travel. I have informed my husband that intend to drive her to travel and I plan on running while she is practicing. I am going to get this body under 200#s one day! I know it will not be tomorrow or even this year - but as long as I can feel better and my kids follow suit - I am going to be happy! I have to be able to spend the day out running around and not suffer at the end of it!
I also have to go and get my feet fitted into the correct kind of shoes! I have been told that I have odd feet - in that my feet do not pronate plus I have entremely high arches. My foot doctor said that if I do that and still have numbest and pain in my feet than we can xray and look at bone structure. I am not sure I am at all interested in having foot surgery - but I do know that when you feet hurt - you hurt and it makes you do less!
My husband has been hitting the gym about 5-7 days a week - but he goes as early as 4:30am - I can't do that. I have asked to go to the 2nd hand store and see about getting a treadmill or a stationary bike so that I can do something every day before I leave for work! I know that will make a huge difference in getting in some cardio every single day! I am very serious about getting some of this weight off - and it starts with me!
Hope everyone is having a great Tuesday! Nothing like the wonderful people on Spark - you feel at home - and you get the support from people who KNOW how you feel and what it is like to have this struggle! I know I come by it naturally - as both my parents are overweight - but they are also still very active! I am doing what I can .. and I plan on being proud of where I am today!
Well hard to believe another month is in the books. I have been terrible at logging in and tracking my exercise minutes - but I have been doing them!
Had my 6 week check up with my doctor about the phetermine and she was very happy. I had lost almost 11 lbs in 6 weeks. I had read stories of people dropping 20 lbs the first week - but that was not my experience. I have eaten a LOT less - but I have also been so busy that I have not moved like I normally do either. So success is losing it slowly and keeping it off this time. She was happy I have not had any issues with my blood pressure or with my heart on the medicine either so we are continuing on the plan we have. We will review again in 2 months so see how I am doing and if I am continueing to be successful.
On another note - I did a 5K on Saturday with my 10 year old. She does a program at school called Girls on the run. It is all about teaching running and self esteem skills to girls in grades 3-5. Kayla, my 10 year old, is not a sports person - we have tried a few different sports but it just really isn't her thing - and that is fine - but with kids in this age group you also have to find something they love to do - if not it is so easy to get heavy and not move. So, we tired this last year - and she loved it! Needless to say - I am extremely proud of her! This weekend was her ending race - we did the Boulder Dash - it is 5K from the hospital around the rock quarey. Needless to say - it is not all pavement and it is quite hilly. We started out together - but she is much faster than I so I watched her get further and further away from me. It was a timed race - but not for the kids - and since there were almost 2000 runners - it was almost inpossible to know what time you actually passed the start line for my time to start. I was extremely proud of myself. I jogged at least 1/2 the race and finished jogging. I did not feel like I was going to die and to be honest - I am sore - but not as bad as I thought it would be! Kayla did great and decided to run with someone from her school that didn't think she could finish - so she took her time and stayed with this little girl and pushed her to finish (once again - super proud). To have a child that was only concerned about helping a friend is also super special. She finished about 5 minutes in front of me according to my husband, but I could care less about time - I think this is such a great way for her and I to bond over running. I am by no means a runner - but I found out that it was almost easier to jog then it was to try to walk fast - isn't that odd? I mean my ankles hurt when I try to walk fast but not when I jog!
Looking forward to doing another race with her soon - but in the meantime, we are having a walking contest at work - I am on the "happy feet" team and we are suppose to log our steps in once a week. So I will continue to keep moving and helping out my team!
Hope you are all having a blessed month - keep on moving! WE can do this!
Well I must say - although this weekend was dark and very cold in GA .. I am so super excited.
My husband tells me on Saturday - when we arrived at the gym, Lets get on the treadmills and do a 5K .. and see who finishes first? I say .. okay .. get on the treadmill and start my warmup -- get to walking .. speed up the pace .. walk 1/4 mile and then tell myself - I am going to see just how far I can jog .. not super fast but jogging .. cranked the machine up to 3.3 which made me jog at a steady pace but I did not feel like I was killing myself and I could keep up .. to my surprise - I was able to jog the entire lap. So I am so freaking excited and I look over at my husband to say I actually jogged an entire lap - he is stretching not even on the treadmill anymore. I take out my headphones and I am like .. did you see that?? I jogged an entire 1/4 of a mile. He is like - well good for you! But I am having terrible shin splints .. I am going to get on the ellipical. So, I just went about my business .. I can't see him anymore (since he is behind me) and I push on .. for every lap I walked .. I jogged one .. then I jogged .5 mile with out stopping .. then I would only walk for the curve and jog the rest. I was freaking soaked and sooo excited! Now - my time was terrible .. but I could care less .. I actually jogged over 1/2 of the 3.1 miles. The victory I felt was amazing!! I always feel like my stamina isn't getting any better .. but I am evidently wrong. I am feeling like I will try to do a 5K at least twice a month in the gym till I actually do another one in real life! But I am setting new goals - I want to see if I can run-jog over 2.5 miles of it .. maybe even the whole thing!
I have been taking the phentermine since Wednesday of last week .. that would be Febraury 27th .. when I was in the gym on Saturday - I did NOT get on the scale - I told myself if I was disappointed with the weight then I would not continue on my awesome path to listening to my body and only eating till I felt full .. eating something every other hour and the other goals I set for myself when I started taking it. I can honestly say - I eat about 1/2 of what I did when I never felt full ... I am eating slower .. and drinking a freaking ton of water .. to the point that I feel like I am going to float away! But feeling really good. So Sunday - when I went to the gym myself - before I hit the cardio deck - I decided to just get on the scale .. and it said since Monday - when I was at the doctor and she weighed me in at 262.8 -- at the gym on Sunday 256.6 -- holy cow it is actually working! So now I am super excited .. can I tell I have lost 6.2 lbs .. well no .. some of it may just be the cleasing of my system .. and that is okay with me too .. but the truth is .. When you feel better you work harder. I have been telling myself for weeks - that even if I can't get in all my workouts .. 30 minutes 3-4 times a week was doable and its okay if that is all I can do .. I have 3 kids at home .. travel softball, girls on the run, chorus, and dance and I am always running from place to place .. so if can I schedule it in .. than I am making myself a priorty.
Can you tell I am excited??????????????????????
So I am talking to my mother in law on the phone about my husband and how he is trying to make this weight loss thing a competition .. and for me it is about me .. and for him it should be about getting his A1C levels under control .. but everytime we go to the gym .. he is like .. well how many calories did you burn? Or I did this? Aren't I amazing? I want to be as supportive to him as I can be so I sluff it off and tell him it is awesome and he should be proud of himself. In the interium .. I want to get a stationary bike or something so I can do a short workout in the morning before I get in the shower .. she says .. I have a treadmill that I am not using .. tell Brandon to come and get it and you can have it!! Once again SUPER excited .. now I am work on my running at home. I tell my husband .. his response .. I don't know where I would put it .. my answer .. who cares! So the short of it ... is I don't know when I will get the treadmill to the house .. but I can guarentee .. I plan on using it for at least 10 minutes every morning before I get in the shower. I love it when a plan comes together!
So now - I am trying to tell myself mentally as long as I lose a lb .. progress is being made .. I sure hope to break out of the 250s before the end of the month .. actually I hope to break out of the 240s before the end of the month .. but I don't want to put too much pressure on myself either .. my knees really may stop hurting one day!
I have been heartbroken for almost 10 days .. on Saturday, one of my daughters U12 softball coachs died in a single car accident in Atlanta. We received word from our head coach and it was and still is just unreal. My husband and I were together on the way to pick up my daughter from her friends, when we had to tell her Coach Dane had passed away in a car accident. Lots of things about this are wrong in so many ways - but it really does make you reflect on yourself and your life. He leaves a wife, and a 12 year old daughter. I have 4 kids - what would happen if that was me .. could my husband or could I live on and not have to live hand to mouth. The answer is not what I would like to say - its No .. We would definetly have hard times - just like they are - because at our age - it is not something you worry about. Needless to say - we are changing that. Insurance policies are in process to take care of our kids and our spouses. We have to think of the unthinkable sometimes - and this was a real wake up call.
I have to get ahold of my weight - I don't want to get sick because of my weight - I don't want to be unable to get around of be dependent on people because of it either. So yesterday, when I had my follow-up with my new doctor - I talked to her about it. I have wanted to try phenetermine for a while -because I never feel full - so that is why I overeat. I need to retrain my brain. I asked my other doc - and she said because of my thyoid function she would not let me take it. My new doctor said that isn't a reason not too. Yes, I can lose weight with diet and exercise - but I really want to lose 100 lbs all together. So .. is it okay to use medication as a jump start ... to get to were my joints do not ache. I decided - I needed help. I have to get to where it is easier to move around - and were it is easier to be active .. YES I can and will continue to do my cardio and my strength training, I am not rellying on a pill to make me thin - I guess I want something to help me.
It has been a very tough few weeks - but getting my health back is what I need to do for my family as well as for myself. If anyone has had issues, or success with this medication .. I would love to hear!