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Stressful day!

Friday, October 07, 2011

Work has turned out to be EXTRA stressful today, then I have so much to do after work and a big drive ahead! I have saved my snack calories for later in the day, I know that long drive will make me hungry. Plus I have allotted for ONE medium iced coffee later for the drive up. I just want a little pep in my step. Maybe I can just have a diet coke we'll see, but the options there and I just may take it. If I do have one, what if it is super good and I want it every day twice a day again?! AH! I have made so much progress and saved so many calories/cash cutting it out. It's the power of moderation, I guess! Anyways, I am ready to take on the weekend with the new tools that I have learned, hopefully I can face some challenges and temptations head on!

  
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HISOWN1 10/7/2011 4:24PM

    I would stick with coffee instead of the diet soda too much sodium but then I LOVE ice coffee with just a little bit of cream

Hope your day goes better!! Wishing you a fabulous weekend!

Laura

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NYMERIA42 10/7/2011 3:08PM

    I have the same problem of worrying if I allow myself to have something I cut just once, then i might just want it all the time again. So I do my best to stay away from those things and opt for a healthier or lower calorie option. Chocolate and ice cream are the worst for me! If I absolutely have to have ice cream, I get that skinny cow brand that is by far alot better for you than regular ice cream and tastes good too.

Just keep yourself in check and do what you think you can handle! You got it!
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Sleep Challenge Day Three

Friday, October 07, 2011

What time did you wake up today? 7:40
What time are you lying down to go to sleep? last night, I got in at 11:30, laid down at 12
What, if any, was your bedtime routine? I went immidiately to bed, had a quick snack first- was starving from the game
What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? I had that snack at midnight (I know-bad) it was 1 slice bread, 2 slice tomato, mustard and buffalo deli chicken, then before that soup at 4
Did you exercise today?10 min video from workout challenge, plus work included walking for about an hour- stairs included
Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? no
Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? Yes, 2 cups black tea at 8AM and a bottle of diet coke at 8 to stay awake for the game
Did you take any medications (prescription and/or over-the-counter) today? no
Did you take any naps today? I never have time for naps
What types of stressors did you encounter today, and what types do you expect to encounter tomorrow? $$, making it to my second job on time, need to clean, need to plan, need to get organized kajldfkajdoiru ahhhhh!! =[
How hungry did you feel today? (1- Not hungry, 2- Normal hunger, 3- Strong hunger, 4- Extreme hunger) 2, but only when it was definitely time to eat
How awake did you feel today? (1- Exhausted, 2- Somewhat tired, 3- Fairly alert, 4- Wide awake) 3, sometimes 2
How irritable did you feel today? (1- Calm, 2- Slightly annoyed, 3- Moderately irritable, 4- Highly irritable) 1 sometimes 2

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1.How long did it take you to fall asleep last night? (This may be an estimate.) about 30 minutes
How many times did you wake up during the night? (Include times you woke up and how long you stayed awake.) once or twice.
In total, how many hours did you sleep last night? 6-7, somewhere there abouts not totally sure.

I am SO exhausted today I could hardly get out of bed!! I think it's cause even though I feel asleep and got ABOUT the same amount of sleep I usually get, I lost 30 minutes to an hour plus I didn't really get to unwind. Today, since I can't go apple picking I think I'll take a nap afterwork!!
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My journey to get to Spark

Thursday, October 06, 2011

I posted this to one of my team's forums that was discussing weight gain stories and I thought I would post it to my blog as a reminder of where I've come from.

I used to think that I have always struggled with weight issues but, looking back I have always struggled with IMAGE issues, not weight issues. Well, hindsight is always 20/20 anyways, isn't it? So for me, my weight story is kind of funny. I was pudgy as a kid but then grew to 5'7 freshmen year of high school and really leveled out at around 150 until college. I always hated the way I looked, would go on extreme diets and then sort of pig out. I never really focused on being HEALTHY but I was obsessed with thinking that I was fat. Then slowly but surely I gained weight in college and then the year after, and here I am today. I would say I gained about 5 pounds a year. The funniest part? Today I'm content, I have never been happier with myself or the way I look! Not because I like being bigger, but because one day I just had one hateful thought too many about myself and I really just had a big a-ha moment. Being that way, being so hateful, made me gain the weight that got me to a point of being overweight. I never was overweight, EVER! But I called myself fat everyday. And everyday, slowly but surely, I made poorer and poorer decisions that did physical harm to my body in the form of weight gain to make myself the way I THOUGHT I was. My self loathing manifested itself into being actualized. And now that I'm overweight, I've finally learned to love myself!!

What happened was, after this aha moment last winter, I vowed to start working on being kind to myself before I tried any kind of program to loose what weight that I had gained. I knew that I couldn't work on my relationship with food before I worked on my relationship with myself. I started by writing a letter of forgiveness to myself. It was probably four pages long and it hurt to write because there laid before me was years of being unkind to the one person that matters, me. Then I started looking up self love writing exercises. I know it sounds sort of corny but it's just one of those things that you've got to let go of the critic in your head and just commit to doing! One day I even made a love scrap book to myself, haha. It was around Valentine's day, I was a single girl in the heart shaped chocolates isle at Walmart when I ran, in desperation, to the diet pill section. As I stood there, I was about to spend $100 dollars on diet pills- I stopped myself and walked away and that's when I walked by the valentines themed scrapbooks and decided to make one for myself, LOL! In it I wrote all the things that make me great. Of course it's burried in my room and I would never show it to a soul, but I know it's there and it was a really defiant move for me, rebelling against what my old self would have done. Then I started working out, but not worrying about focusing on the food just yet. And now I have gotten to a point where I love myself and I'm in pretty darn good shape! I workout regularly and even just recently ran my first trail race and did pretty good too! And so, I reactivated my spark account because I am now finally ready to start really treating myself well. I'm ready to work on my relationship with food. It's not about love or hate, it's JUST FOOD and I'm ready to respect it as the fuel for my body that it is. I know I can do it this time because it truly and FINALLY is coming from a loving place. Now i just want to be well, not skinny! Cause if I can feel this great in a dress at 175 then I don't need to be skinny- just healthy!!

That's my story! Good luck everyone and please be kind to yourselves!! emoticon

  
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KAIPOW88 10/7/2011 12:29AM

    Thanks for reading!! I'm glad ya liked it! =D

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LITTLESAPPHIRE 10/6/2011 1:31PM

    What a great story! Thanks for sharing :)

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Sleep Challenge Day Two

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

What time did you wake up today? 6:50, but couldn't get out of bed until 7:30
What time are you lying down to go to sleep? Just about 15 minutes ago, 1030
What, if any, was your bedtime routine? Shut off the TV and go into my room
What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? What I had for dinner, around 7PM, tossed salad with grilled chicken, half a pita, lite italian and a diet coke
Did you exercise today?10 min video from workout challenge, 30 minutes elliptical and 10 minutes of weighted hula hoop
Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? no
Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? Yes, 2 cups black tea at 8AM and a bottle of diet coke at 7
Did you take any medications (prescription and/or over-the-counter) today? no
Did you take any naps today? I never have time for naps
What types of stressors did you encounter today, and what types do you expect to encounter tomorrow? fight with my mom today, getting to the game on time tomorrow
How hungry did you feel today? (1- Not hungry, 2- Normal hunger, 3- Strong hunger, 4- Extreme hunger) 2
How awake did you feel today? (1- Exhausted, 2- Somewhat tired, 3- Fairly alert, 4- Wide awake) 3, sometimes 2
How irritable did you feel today? (1- Calm, 2- Slightly annoyed, 3- Moderately irritable, 4- Highly irritable) 1

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1.How long did it take you to fall asleep last night? (This may be an estimate.) about 30 minutes
How many times did you wake up during the night? (Include times you woke up and how long you stayed awake.) once just for a minute around 3:30
In total, how many hours did you sleep last night? 7-7.5

  
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REBECCAMA 10/6/2011 8:35AM

  Just want to wish you luck with this. I did this challenge a long time ago and I think I ended up dropping out. Hope you do better than I did!! :-)

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Sleep Challenge Day One

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

(For yesterday, will make one later today for day two)

What time did you wake up today? 6:50, but couldn't get out of bed until 7:30
What time are you lying down to go to sleep? It varies a lot but last night I laid down around 12
What, if any, was your bedtime routine? Shut off the TV and go into my room
What were the last food(s) you consumed tonight? What I had for dinner, around 7PM, 1 serv. maincotti, 2-3 cups tossed salad, 3-4 pieces of garlic bread, and 1/2 a thin slice of cheesecake
Did you exercise today?10 min video from workout challenge and 15 minutes of weighted hula hoop
Did you consume any alcoholic beverages today? no
Did you consume any caffeinated drinks or foods today? Yes, 2 cups black tea at 8AM and a bottle of diet coke at 5:30 PM to pep me up
Did you take any medications (prescription and/or over-the-counter) today? 2 ibuprofen
Did you take any naps today? I never have time for naps
What types of stressors did you encounter today, and what types do you expect to encounter tomorrow? Financial stressors, need to clean my room, car, house, do laundry it's all piling up
How hungry did you feel today? (1- Not hungry, 2- Normal hunger, 3- Strong hunger, 4- Extreme hunger) 2
How awake did you feel today? (1- Exhausted, 2- Somewhat tired, 3- Fairly alert, 4- Wide awake) 2
How irritable did you feel today? (1- Calm, 2- Slightly annoyed, 3- Moderately irritable, 4- Highly irritable) 2

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1.How long did it take you to fall asleep last night? (This may be an estimate.) about 30 minutes
How many times did you wake up during the night? (Include times you woke up and how long you stayed awake.) none
In total, how many hours did you sleep last night? 7-7.5

  


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