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Lost Weight...but...

Thursday, March 28, 2013

I woke up this morning ....in deep thought.... there are many hurdles in life that can effect weight loss.... and I think one of the biggest hurdles is just that i take EVERYTHING im dealing with emotionally.....and i surpress it all..... and that has impacted my life in many ways.... ( lol) It's weird because I want the best for m friends and family but I can't solve everyones issues.... I'm at the point today where I'm just focused on me...and slowly trying to exhale alot that i have just surpressed.... Catering to ppl and there needs, wants ...its exhausting.. I stepped on the scale and the number should have been pleasing but it wasn't ...becausealthough I've had a significant loss .. I know alot of it is due to stress...... So I'm taking ME time for the month of April.. just taking time out to discover what physical activities excite me !!!! and keep up with what I've started...

Sparkers !! do you ever feel overwhelmed trying to be there for everyone and there needs that you just forget about you ??? What are things that you do to make sure you have "ME TIME"

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NO1JESS 3/30/2013 12:18PM

    You definitely need to make yourself a priority. Sounds like a great goal for April! And once you get used to having a little time to yourself, it will be easier to incorporate throughout the year. emoticon

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LILSHINE 3/29/2013 10:50AM

    Yes, and since my nest became empty it's easier for me to have me time, since I'm the only one there. I deal with everyone during my day. My evenings are mind. My gym time is mine. I've had folks ask me about going to the gym, but I'm selfish with it. I tell them I'm there from this time to that time approximately and it's a public gym they can come if they want. But because I won't volunteer to pick them up, wait for them or meet them so far no one has shown up. I found you have to be selfish sometimes to get "me time". Or else you run the risk of derailing your health, your peach of mind, you sanity. Place boundaries and rules that can't be broken unless it's an 911 event! You need 'me time' to survive

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SPARKLE1908 3/28/2013 8:59PM

    Schedule your "me time" until it becomes a habit for you....put it in your calendar and stick to it...no "rescheduling"...everyone will have to get used to it and they will...you have to do it for you!!! emoticon

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Upcoming Wedding...and my progress

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Feeling inspired lately... I guess just making better decisions for myself when it comes to food !!!! Im getting married in 8 months and yes i want to look good.... but more importantly I want to FEEL good. Life has been throwing alot of curve balls in my direction lately.....and for once im not solving those issues with food. I went wedding dress shopping on Saturday and i was able to view my body and figure out what I want to work on..... I'm proud today... took me a very long time to get here...and i have so much further to go...in due time ... These dresses didn't make the cut for me lol ...but they are visuals of my progress and will keep me motivated... I don't want to come back to this last picture....

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KAIKAI80 2/28/2013 9:05AM

    Thank you to everyone for the well wishes... I'm living this journey everyday and i appreciate the support !!!! xoxoxox emoticon emoticon

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KAJANA 2/28/2013 8:53AM

    You have come along way!!!. LOOK at your progress, you look great in those dresses. I know you will continue to push and motivate yourself to keep on going. STAY FOCUS!! You got this.

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LADYGSC 2/27/2013 10:55PM

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SHRINKING_SARA 2/27/2013 10:31PM

    Oooh fun! Wedding dress progress pics always make me smile!

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SPARKLE1908 2/27/2013 10:13PM

    You look beautiful in both...I know you will be beautiful in the "chosen" dress!!! Congratulations on your upcoming wedding!

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PRETTYPITHY 2/27/2013 7:02PM

    I love that first dress! Your progress is very obvious, congrats!

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HOLLYM48 2/27/2013 5:02PM

    Looking Great! Lovely pics and I love the top pic the best. You will be a beautiful bride.

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SPECIALGURL7 2/27/2013 3:52PM

    You look good. Congratulations on the upcoming nuptials.

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KATHRYN74 2/27/2013 2:58PM

    You go girl!
Congrads on the upcoming wedding.
When you find your dress you will know.... and feel like a princess.

16 years later I still get butterflies when thinking about my husband.

I wish you the same!

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MARILYNJB1 2/27/2013 2:48PM

    You're looking great( I thought you did before your weight lose too) The headway you're making is awesome, wish I could say the same for me. You'll be so beautiful as a bride, be happy. emoticon

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SISTERPRETTY 2/27/2013 2:42PM

    Congratulations on your upcoming wedding. You look great...but by all means keep shooting for your goal...you will accomplish it...and most of all...you will be the most beautiful bride on your special day. Good luck!

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2013- Giving the New Years Resoultions Up

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

I'm weighing in at 184 and I'm actually proud of myself... I would like to hit 180 on new years day so I'm going to be concentrating on that number and make it happen... If you look through my pics and look at 2012 compare to 2011 my face looks different and i feel better about myself... I recently got engaged and my wedding is set for 10/19/13 so i basically have around 8-9 months to work my ass off lol !!!!! so to speak ... my wedding goal weight is 165.... so spark buddies wish me ENDURANCE !!!!!!!!!!!! No more New Years Resolutions for me I'm just making up my mind to do the damn thing !!!!! I just want to continue as I am ...striving to be the best me possible

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X5X52000 12/23/2012 6:28PM

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IMREITE 12/22/2012 3:24AM

    sometimes it is not about making a resolution but instead a commitment to living a healthy lifestyle. that should make the weight come off and stay off.

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SPARKLE1908 12/19/2012 9:16PM

    Congratulations on your engagement!!! Good luck with your goals emoticon

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ANDREWMOM 12/19/2012 2:52PM

    I am with you!

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LILSHINE 12/19/2012 12:15PM

    Congratulations on your engagement and weight loss success. Go right ahead you can definitely meet your goals in that time and I'm sure you will. emoticon

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KAJANA 12/19/2012 11:51AM

    And Kai, You will find the endurance because you have 8-9 months to stay focus. You have come along way from 2011, but with the journey there is learning/experiencing what works and doesn't work for you. And watching you discover what your body needs-talking it out, falling off the wagon and coming back on.. and still pushing along. I have love watching you do this. And honey, soon very soon-with all the tears/sweat. On that special day and life after becoming MRS. you will continue to push. LOVE YOU. LETS WORK/ AND DO THIS, BABY!!!

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STEVIEBEE569 12/19/2012 11:45AM

    It looks like we have a similar goal! You can do it! So, stay focus and motivated!

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New Year .. New Me

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Life has been very different lately... Not just where weight loss is concerned but how I view myself...and my life... to be honest i've always been a people pleaser . Making sure that other peoples needs were taken care before my own. it's funny sometimes you know that others are using you but you sort of feel responsible because you have condoned the behavior in the past so your not sure how to break the cycle. Not only am i shedding weight within my body but also with friends, family and habits... I'm shedding the users... the non supportive and the selfish... I do things on my time that make me happy... I stood on the scale yesterday and I weighed in at 188.6... I wasn't thrilled but I changed that state of mind immediately because I have to remember that i started out at 214 pounds.. .. this is a lifestyle change and I'm taking it one pound at a time .... There is no final weight.. I just want to be healthy woman. There comes a point in life where you just WAKE the hell up ;-) lol and I'm glad my time is NOW !!! To anyone who reads this blog posting remember that this is our journey and if you feel your self cheating constantly.... in the end we are just cheating ourselves of the healthy lifestyle we deserve to live....... Loooooooooooove and Fitness ;-)

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LESALICIOUS26 1/11/2012 1:34PM

    Oh WOW!! Very powerful. WTG!! You and I both on the same page doing this one pound at a time. Enjoying life and getting all the people and habits out. Congrats and keep up the great work. Very motivated!! :) emoticon

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ANEWLIFE4ME25 1/11/2012 1:05PM

    Amen to all of that! I can completly relate with shedding not only wieght bad habits and people who are not worth all the worrying and pleasing! I have been realizing that there are so many people who love me for who I am and I do not have time to try to keep satisfying other just so they can continue being my friend.

Nope, not this girl! Not this year! Not ever!

I wish you the best of luck on your journey! Keep up the great work!

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Sleep Apnea, PCOS and diabetes knocking down my door

Friday, March 04, 2011

so spark i had to blog today because I've been carrying around alot of weight ... no pun intended...lol I've been really tired lately... and recently went to see a specialist.... the visit had me in tears... but tears of joy because i finally found someone who said ...that I wasn't going crazy...because of my pre-conditions he was not surpirsed that any weight loss I had was short lived...I have been surrounded by ppl who exercise and diet and there weight loss has been inspirational..and no matter how much I've tried .... i've failed...and that is exactly what I have been walking around feeling like..But after disecting all my pre-conditions i was elated to know that someone understood my feelings...understood why i felt like a failure....had i not been trying then i would have just summed my weight gain up to that !!!! but I have been trying so what is wrong with me ( these were my previous thoughts) Now I feel great because I have a plan .... lol my specialist has a plan... and I know it's not going to be easy but it's quite obvious that I need assistance and that is what is about to happen.... SO SPARK I'm excited about life...and greatful the ppl who will support me regardless of how they feel about my decisions where weight loss in concerning !!!!!!!! Whooooooooooooooooooooooo !!! i feel better


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