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...and I did not overeat

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

today i woke up at 5 am with the decision to find my paternal family if possible. I am adopted and found my maternal side 15 yrs ago. It took me 15 yrs to decide to open the next can of worms. So today went quickly. There is now an organisation starting a search for me as we speak.
In order to prepare for this search to be done I had to go into " the boxes".. you know the ones that hold profound and often moving memories. In this box was the first letter my birth mother ever wrote to me. I was 30. Also journals and photos of the kids and so on. This whole day had my head spinning and my emotions in upheaval and all I wanted to do was EAT..no... OVEREAT.. but I didn't. I told my friend Paige how I was feeling and then chose to go work out to a zumba dvd instead. It worked.. The workout was a bit strained as I wasn't in the best place.. but it was still a good workout.. Im now going to eat a reasonable meal and go out to listen/dance to some live south african music Good for me!

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KADIJAH 2/23/2011 11:44AM

    thank you I appreciate that

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NEWYEARME 2/23/2011 11:35AM

    Good for you indeed!!!!

Hope you find your paternal family and it turns out to be a pleasant experience.

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wicked proud of me

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Last week I was sick.. so I struggled with whether to work out or save my energy for healing.. so I ended up limiting my workout..and allowing my healing and sure enough I still lost almost 2 lbs last week. The body knows eh. Important to listen to it. I also did my first monthly measurement check and wow.. a difference.. this is all going in the right direction and its ok to rest.. the world doesnt end..
I will note that the more I rested the more I wanted to graze so I was happy to get back to being physical when I was able to..On an emotional and self esteem level. I feel so much better in the last month it's CRAZY.. and I have increased all kinds of good activities in my life..not just spark stuff. I joined a painting class, joined a Nia and cardio funk class, and am working on opening a new business. This is one happy camper!
Thank you sparkpeople for being available to us in this way.

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KADIJAH 3/16/2010 4:56PM

    ohh thanks so much I just read your spark page.. wow Im wicked proud of you too!!!!! very inspiring

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SKINNYPOWELL1 3/16/2010 9:21AM

    emoticon Keep up the good work.

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when sick.. to work out or not to work out..?

Monday, March 08, 2010

Hi folks Im sure there is now straight answer for this.. sometimes its good to push and sonetimes to rest and chill. Im feeling sick today..not majorly but Im dragging around a bit. Muscles are sore etc.. So Im compromising.. Ive been doing stuff like laundry vaccuuming and so on but Im not going to work out..I think it would be self punishment. I have to believe its ok to rest when needed. I lost a pound this wek but I was aiming for 2.. oh well.. rest and regenerate and then get back at er.
Hope everyone is having an awesome day

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KADIJAH 3/8/2010 2:16PM

    thank you.. how sad that I feel I need permission to rest when sick..but I appreciate it and hope to be able to do this for myself in the future..I LOVE the idea of hitting it hard when Im next in that place to do so...In fact I'll be happy to do that

" Rest is just as important to health and fitness as working out."

Going to remember that

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DEEJACKSON 3/8/2010 1:57PM

    I think you are correct in not pushing. Rest is just as important to health and fitness as working out.

I wouldn't do anything more than a walk in the sunshine. Sounds like you are not down and out, you are still doing housekeeping, etc. That's probably enough. Take it easy!

Hit it hard, later.

Hope you feel better soon

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a growly grumpy day

Friday, March 05, 2010

I dont know what it is.. I slept long and hard last night.. Im sad today.. a bit lonely.. Probably too much time alone this week. Still sticking to my stuff..might even be overdoing it a bit.. I think right now Im using all this working out and food focus as a distraction from some stuff I have going on. yesterday I was really excited about going to tai chi...but I have a shoulder injury and tai chi was really challenging for my shoulder,, so it wasnt the good feeling I was seeking. This shoulder injury has kept me from working for over 2 months now.. It is slowly getting better.. slowly...Im a drummer.
sorry for putting out negative energy...but better to share then to try and SWALLOW it..

OK the truth.. I broke up with my boyfriend 3 weeks ago.. Im starting to miss him but Im not going back this time.. I havent been able to work in 2 months due to a shoulder injury. I just let go of another job today. I feel like my life is taking a drastic shift.. and right now there is alot of emptiness...waiting for the new to come.. Im focusing alot on exercise and good eating right now..but Im also having BIG dips in mood.. Im used to being a pretty happy person.. do you think it had anything to do with the way I self medicated with food... I also havent had any chocolae in a week...biggy for me..


Enjoying the ride!

Thursday, March 04, 2010

today ...so far so good..
Had a great but healthy breakfast and did 45 minutes of zumba.. I have on my goals list decreased my calorie intake even though I was having a hard time keeping in my limit with more calories... now if I go over...its still less than I was taking in before.. Oh the games I must play with myself..but its working so shhhh don't tell me, I might catch on..
Tonight I start tai chi again.. Im looking forward to the spiritual mental and physical of this activity and to socialise..Im not feeling so perfectionistic about this process as I have done in the past years. I am very happy about this.. I'm on the journey and its taking me somewhere whether I go fast or slow.. whether I do it "perfectly" or not.. I may as well enjoy the ride.

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PSMITH3841 3/4/2010 11:11AM

    Sounds like it's going to be a great day! Carry on! emoticon

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