Thursday, December 24, 2009
This is a strange Christmas for me. Usually I am very involved in community outreach and volunteer activities. This year it has been busy with just looking after ourselves. Mostly looking after ME. I was reflecting on how much energy I have had to put into myself this year. Again, it has been strange. ME is not usually a priority. Perhaps the biggest difference this year has been standing up for my own needs. Whether it has been time to exercise or eating better, asking for help with my goals, or getting into a healthy place when it comes to managing our household situation... My mother in law is a very wise woman. I am the type of person who tires other people out just by telling them everything I am doing. That's OK. But I have always kept myself at a high level of stress to accomplish those things. There are times when it backfires and my old way of coping was FOOD and NOT looking after myself. She said "you can do everything, but you don't have to do it all at the same time". I remember thinking it was a very nice thing to say but it wasn't helping me get everything done that I needed to do. LOL!
Here it is Christmas and I had this feeling of guilt that I had not done all those normal Christmas things I usually do. Mmmm. In fact I have only done a fraction of what I usually do. And the result? A new, healthier, happier ME. I don't think I want to be involved in any type of a group that does not have a purpose. I like to be helpful and faccilitate people with their goals. That has been the focus of most of my energy as long as I can remember. That has not changed. I will do those things again. When I'm ready. But I don't feel a need to rush out and commit myself to anything right now.
I used to say, if I died tomorrow I would have no regrets. I have lived a very productive life. I have made a difference in countless people's lives. I have met almost every goal I have set for myself and then some. If our purpose on Earth is to serve and love others as God loves us, then I feel that, humbly, I have done a good job.
Today I have the sense that I'm not finished. That everything in my life has built up to one big event. And, that event has something to do with ME. This new person. It is an exciting feeling. Wondering what that could be. I'm not worried though because thanks to Spark People, I feel like I have everything I need.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
This week is certainly a test for flexibility. I am happy we are having people stay with us over the holidays but the numbers keep changing. I keep planning meals and realize someone has a food intolerence or others won't be there for the meal. This morning I realized I had missed my diabetes medicine yesterday. That just can't happen! I ate some strange combinations of food which turned out to over my calories. I did go on the treadmill before bed but I did not do any stretching after. So... I am doing some self talk this morning. What does it mean to be flexible? How am I going to cope with keeping myself healthy and within my goals? I don't want to be stressed! The key is communication. I must be flexible and breath. But I need some structure so that I can look after me, and not get upset at other's routines.
a) I need to have my meals at regular times and these are all grown people... so meals will be at certain times and perhaps I should state what those times are. Before 8:00 am for me for breakfast. Lunch around 1:00. Dinner at 6:00. There, that was easy. People can make their own food at whatever hours and clean up after themselves, but those are MY times. Plus, if people know when meals are then they can gather to help prepare them. I think that is a big part of holidays, meal preparation and the socializing around it.
b) I have lots of food in the house but I do have plans for some items.... so I can post a list on the fridge of suggestions for food. This morning I made up a bowl of chicken salad from leftovers that is free for all and there are some yogurts, fruit and lots of eggs in the downstairs fridge. If people are set on eating the items for Christmas morning then they can replace them. They can drive!
c) I can ask people to let me know when they will not be here for meals. They have cell phones. I know they are all wanting to see friends. I can also let them know what meals are flexible enough that they could invite people back for meals.
d) Christmas day I can still plan. Stockings are always opened on our bed. There will be a large number of "kids" this year so we will have to bring in some chairs the night before. I can set the timer for coffee and have rye toast and PB with hemp, on time because I always wake up early. Either I can bring it back to bed and read while awaiting the "kids" or get up and listen to the news. We will have Christmas breakfast between stockings and gifts and if I have already eaten it can be my "snack". I bought a cute set of covered bowls that stay on the dining table and have nuts and seeds in them so I can sprinkle a waffle with them for my MUFA. Some will be staying and having their own Christmas here but some of us will be going to my parent's. It would be really good to have a small salad or cup of soup planned at lunchtime that I can grab before we hit the road. In fact, there is a tin of Lentil soup in the cupboard I can guarentee will be there. - good plan. Dinner at my parent's is planned for 2:00 but it is always a toss of the dice. Again, I can view it as my snack and taste a bit of everything. I am bringing curried sweet potatoes which have lots of fiber, and I am also bringing vegan cauliflower soup to mix into the mashed potatoes because a couple of people are lactose intolerant and one is vegan. I am thrilled they are trusting me to tweak the main meal! I am also bringing some sliced avocado to eat with the turkey (MUFA). Dinner "time" I am sure will be dessert time. My sister is trying to make a wheat free nanaimo bar so I know I will want to try that. They have nuts in them and dark chocolate (MUFA) and I will take my Metformin then. I can have a bit of leftover turkey to nibble on later.
a) Is there any reason that I cannot get my minimum ten minutes in every morning? No! I can still do my strength exercises MWF. Is Christmas off limits? NO, LOL. I can ask for ten minutes while the breakfast is being made and people will hardly notice.
b) What a great opportunity to ask people if they want to walk or swim.
c) I want to move exercise equipment over the holiday. That by itself is exercise... but what if I set up some silly challenge to do an "Olympics" and each time add up points trying each piece of equipment? Hmmm. Would get everyone used to the new locations and maybe get them to try something new. I'll think about that. One of my daughters might even organize it.
d) Christmas day - If the weather is nice enough perhaps a walk on the ice. I will take my ice shoes and walking poles. It is not a tradition in my family to walk on Christmas day but it could become one. I have some ice grabbers that a fellow Spark person left here that I could take for the day in case someone else would like that extra stability too! The dogs would all love it. I think there will be 4 this year.
Flexibility. It is hard to be diabetic and flexible. I think what is important is I have a plan for ME. By not making the family's meals my meals, by making them snacks, I'm hoping I won't stress about timing or quantities. I'm pretty good at estimating 3-400 calories on a plate now. I'm confident I can do it. With all the MUFA's I find I'm not craving food or taking large amounts because I am always satisfied. I'm hoping having a plan I can relax and enjoy myself and everyone else.
Monday, December 21, 2009
It is amazing how habits change quickly. I made my decadent breakfast for my guests and joined them with my high fiber cereal, hemp and berries. I noticed the Mom opted to choose healthy foods and encouraged the kids to do the same. Yes, some treats, but added to the fiber rich choices. We talked about fiber and protein and not putting the strain on your liver...and all kinds of health issues and as I talked, all this information spewed out of me about healthy eating and healthy lifestyle. I owe so much of that to Spark People. It is automatic now..... and the Mom asked me to e-mail her more information about Spark People. Who knew that starting the day with a good breakfast could do so much good.
Happy gift giving everyone. Remember the best gifts are often the hardest to wrap.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Christmas is really here! All my children will be here soon. I am very excited. I hope to get my exercising in early. Drink my water all day. I am making a chili and salad for dinner which will be high fiber and chock full of veggies and flexible.
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