Thursday, May 19, 2011
Its springtime with alot of rain here in Michigan, I haven't been able to get out much to walk, but i have spent some time getting my flowers ready and my birdfeeders filled, i attached a golf umbrella with a zip tie to my shepards hook to protect the orioles and hummingbird feeders from the rain. i spend alot of time with a book looking out the window at my bird friends. my Oriole's have brought some of their family this year,and the red breasted grosbeaks,and hummingbirds,cardinals and chickadee's, woodpeckers and so on. but today i was blessed with the small glimpse of an Indigo Bunting. this lil blue bird is rare and just stops for about 5 minutes on its way to canada for the summer.
anyway i positioned myself in the window hoping he would return and i watched all the action at the feeders. the Oriole's getting the grape jam i put out 4 x's a day(they love that stuff). the chickadee's at the peanut butter stick, the cardinals at the birdola full of raisins ,apples,nuts,honey and seeds. a red headed woodpecker at the suet full of corn meal and fat, and the grosbeaks at the sunflower oil seeds.then flies in the hummingbird at the sugar feeder..and i think wow!! Is this what they mean when they say eat like a bird?..lol..
Thursday, February 10, 2011
I want to thank you for the kind words of encouragement and "you can do its"
I know what has to be done to get back on track i just am having a rough time . I even posted my fat picture inside my fridge,and i open the door look at my picture and say
"hello old friend" and grab something to eat anyway.
and here i am trying to be open and honest about my failures, confessing my sins(well not all my sins)...lol...
i just realized today what this is really about. you see i was married on valentines day on the beautiful island of maui( my favorite place in the world) under the banyan tree. and now i am divorced and i still love my ex, but he's an alcoholic that refuses to get help.I thought he would change, but it never happened, but i wait and i pray and i wait some more and its been 5 years since our divorce. i feel like my life is on hold , i am standing still ,waiting for this miracle to happen so i can move on with my life
so this eating i have been doing right now is simply stress,lonliness and old memories, it will be over as soon as valentines day is over and i can get back on program . i'm not looking for pity or sympathy i'm just telling my SP friends that i discovered what it is that has taken over my brain, my body and my heart . so now i can deal with it!! most of the time i'm upbeat and happy and my cup is always half full...so i will be back to normal soon..hugs
Tuesday, February 08, 2011
well i'm here and want to tell you the truth about the last 7 days, first my friend went in the hospital and her husband died in may and there was no one to stay with her so i volunteered.
hospital food was not good, i ate things i should not have. and then went without meals, then was famished and ate some more. then she came home and i babied her and got her the favorite fast food she likes she didn't want me to cook. ( and i ate with her).
and then here came superbowl thats what really pushed me over the edge. everyone brought something to eat to my house to watch the game. i snacked and then snacked some more, and i drank and then drank some more. then they left the leftovers to sit here in my fridge and call my name..so here it is tuesday night i have ate chips, drank pop, ate leftover wings, pizza and then about 3 cups of ice cream(my weakness). i am totally out of control. i don't know how to turn this around. i still do my cardio and 3 mile walks
i only missed 4 days when i was with my friend. haven't been on my scale to see the damage.and i have a big week end coming up, to visit my cousin whom i have been preaching to about sparkpeople and how wonderful it is and how it has helped me, and how i have bragged about my 20 pound weight loss. but here i sit knowing i have gained 5 pounds maybe even more. i know this because i am bloated and miserable andi'm wearing my fat jeans again
( so this thursday i will be eating my humble pie when i get to her house)..monday i tried to get back on track, but screwed up as soon as i came back from my 60 minute cardio workout. today i started out good, then Bammm..started eating everything i could get my hands on. I am like a woman possessed..how do i turn this around and get back on track????
I'm just here serving some Whine with my " humble pie!!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
all who enter here be aware that sending beautiful person message is a NO NO!! I have been warned or is it informed of the fact that its a chain letter and connot be sent on sparkpeople..so those who sent it my way i truly thank you..those whom i sent it to i'm sorry if i got you in trouble!! It didn't even occur to me that this was considered a chain letter. but i think your all beautiful..so there ya go!! no more chain messages......
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