Wednesday, August 27, 2014
There is so much drama going on in my life right now. I have spent the last year at relative peace except for some money issues and now life is pressing in. I have dealt with the death of both of my parents, cancer, my husband's death and all the other things that make life stressful. My son is in the middle of a messy divorce. Now think of the meanest divorce you have heard of - that's it with two ultra emotional people. They live a block away so he is staying at my house half the time. He is forty. It is time to cut the umbilical cord.
I know he needs help, but I am no long strong enough or healthy enough to give it. If I do not take care of myself then I will be totally unable to take care of anyone else.
I know that this too will pass. Things will change. Time will dull the emotion. But right now it is a river of rage and guilt.
On the up side, my plateau has broken and I am losing weight. I am still on track. One day at a time.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
I courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the differencce