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Before & Now Photos

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Last night I came across some pictures of me that I hadn't remembered being taken right before I started SP. What a shock! I knew at the time I was at my heaviest weight ever, but it's weird how we don't see ourselves how we are. I remember seeing those pictures at the time and thinking "How disgusting!" but I put it right out of my mind. I didn't want to think about how heavy I was getting, and I for sure didn't want to diet because every time I did I just gained more weight back.

A few days ago I had my husband take some pictures of me with my biggest pants on to show how much weight I've lost. That was a shock to me too. It's weird how you just get used to yourself whatever weight you are. I see the scale going down, but it didn't click in my head how much weight I've lost until I tried on those pants and saw those pictures of me so heavy.

Unfortunately, it is kind of messing with my head. I'm proud of myself for making it this far. I have never lost more than 20 lbs before gaining it all back and more. Now I'm scared. What's going to happen if my depression kicks in and I gain it all back? Will I be able to stop the gain? I sure hope so. I know the one thing that has helped me more than anything else ever has is tracking my food. I've been on WW several times and tracked food then too, but it was different. They use points so that you don't have to think about calories, but for me understanding the calories has made all the difference.

I think I just needed to put this in writing and think it all out. I'm not going to let this mess up my progress. That's why I call these my "Now" photos. Someday they are going to be my "before" pictures too.

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GOOGYGIRL1 2/1/2011 2:33PM

    Someone needs to go shopping for some new clothes! How exciting Connie and encouraging! Keep it up see how far you can really go this time and remember its helping all of us too!!!! Love ya emoticon

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LYNNIEDOLL 1/28/2011 9:05AM

    Oh, my heart, how precious you are to me. Thanks for sharing your thoughts, be assured they actually do help others. I know I have to get on the stick too.
You working out will continue to help your progress too and your depression. It'll chase it away.
See you soon!!!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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AMYETALK2 1/26/2011 7:30PM

    Mom this is amazing!!! I guess I just get used to you looking however you look too. I knew you looked good, but I didn't realize how much different it is! You look totally different!! I'm SO proud of you!! And this time it's for good!
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DRB13_1 1/26/2011 6:20AM

    You're making great progress and should be proud!
Imagine yourself in 6 months and live each day at a time - don't stress about tomorrow, just know you'll be that much closer to your goals! emoticon emoticon

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TERESAMARIE1959 1/25/2011 6:18PM

    You look great. Having gone through Depression, you probably can recognize the signs before you become depressed. When you recognize the signs, and they are different for everyone, you will be able to get help or make changes before you get to low. I have a tendancy that way and did have to take medications at one time. I now know when stress is leading me that direction and make changes that help me from sinking to low. You can do this too! Exercise really helps me from getting too low!

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DOODIE59 1/25/2011 5:39PM

    You look great! You do not have to be all the way to goal to look completely different. Congratulations on your effort. I don't know anything about depression, but I do know that walking and other exercise can lessen the impact.

Best wishes on your path to better health. emoticon emoticon

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DRPEGGY2 1/25/2011 3:51PM

    I think the fear is normal, but you can deal with it using scripture or affirmations. You are not likely to get depressed while eating more healthfully. I'll be thinking positive thoughts and prayers for you!

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Made it through all-inclusive in Cancun!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

My husband and I went to Cancun the first week of this month. The last time we went I had been "dieting" and gained 6 pounds while I was there, and couldn't get back to eating right when I got back. We stayed in an all-inclusive hotel, so I was sure I would gain again. But this time I was getting a lot of dental work done, so I was hoping that would help. It did. But it also helped that every day my husband and I would go to the lobby and get on the internet, check our emails, and I would log onto SP. I only spun the wheel and looked at some things that were going on, but just doing that kept me focused on not overeating. It was really hard not to be tracking, because it has become a habit, but we didn't really want to take the time out of our vacation. And the best thing was that when I got home I was able to take right up where I had left off. I did gain .5 lbs the day after we got home, but it was water weight, because this week I lost 5.1 lbs, averaging out for a good loss. You have no idea how proud I am of myself that I didn't "fall off the wagon" over that trip!

PS If anyone is interested in getting dental work done in Cancun, check out Dra. Marcela Ramirez on whatclinic.com. She's so good...

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AMYETALK2 11/16/2010 5:30PM

    Awesome job Mom!! You're catching up with me!

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Walking at MY Pace!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

My husband has started walking with me, which I love. But I've been pushing really hard to keep up with him. Also, because I've been mapping my miles I keep wanting to walk faster to see some progress. But then I couldn't understand why I haven't been wanting to walk. I would feel depressed every time I'd think about getting out there and my legs and feet have been hurting. This morning when I woke up I didn't want to walk, but then it dawned on me that I'm pushing myself too hard. So I decided I'd walk at my own pace, the pace that I feel like I can walk all day, I love that pace. I came home feeling so much better, got that sense of well-being that I usually get when walking. And when I came home and tracked my walking, I had only walked .1 mph slower, 3.3 rather than 3.4. My husband had to keep walking ahead for a while and walking back to me, but he didn't mind and it's better for him, I think, to walk his own pace. Do you think it's ok to walk that comfortable pace, or should I keep pushing myself to walk faster? For now, I think, for my mental state, I'll go with comfort, and just walk longer amounts of time.

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MOMOFSEHANONO 8/18/2010 12:50PM

  Walk your own pace. It all counts as exercise. Keep going.

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TERRILLWHITE78 8/18/2010 12:44PM

    Slow and steady wins the race!!!!

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