Monday, October 22, 2012
This has been my first time back on Sparkpeople for a few months. I was having what I thought was a pretty good summer from a fitness perspective and was once again active and interacting with my Spark friends...........and THEN....
For those wondering what happened...i will briefly explain. I began having some pain in my lower back. The pain initially was not that bad, but progressively got worse. It began to move down my left leg and then I could notice my left leg was experiencing weakness. It worsen to the point that I found myself in the ER and then with an appointment with my Primary Care doc.......0nly to be referred to a neurosurgeon once the MRI was reviewed.
A herniated disk was the diagnosis.....the docs have been surprised that I was doing the things I was doing. They gave me two options...an epidural shot or surgery. My first thought was to at least TRY to epidural, but mind you, this came to me, the day before news broke of the epidural/meningitis outbreak. They said it is safe, but I was still unsure about that one. Add that to the fact that I have spoke with several of my friends that are docs and chiropractors and the surgery is basically inevitable........THUS..I will be having surgery in 3 weeks.
I understand completely that back injuries and recovery are very dependent on strength of your trunk(back AND stomach) muscles. I also want to be as light as possible for continued recovery. The wife and I laid out a plan starting today that will move throughout my recovery. This pain has been rough the last few months, so I am somewhat nervous, but look forward to some relief and getting back to the gym!
Stay Determined, Stay Committed, and Stay Consistent
Friday, June 01, 2012
Today is 6/1/2012. In a month and 2 days, I will have been married to my wife for 8 years! It does not seem like it has been 8 years. I guess thats a good thing...if it felt like it had been forever, then maybe we would have a problem...lol. My wife has always loved and accepted me for who I am, regardless of anything...especially size...she actually loves my size, but wants for me that which i want.
With all that said, I am making June MY MONTH! I apologize if you have anniversaries, or birthdays or whatever, but this one is mine...you can have the next one. I am going to work as hard as I can and eat as best I can, to see what I can accomplish by July 3, 2012. I am not setting any weight loss goals. I will only be content if I KNOW that I worked hard and did all I can do. NO EXCUSES!
So I will try to sign in daily like I used to and be more active and let you guys no how I am doing....and would LOVE your support!! Help me out as you always have and we will see what comes of it!!!
Stay Determined, Stay Committed, and Stay Consistent
Monday, September 27, 2010
How is everyone doing? I have not really been on Spark in a while and a lot of you have been sending prayers and well thoughts and wishes and I am very appreciative and wanting to let you know what has been going on.
On Thursday 9/16(the day after my daughter turned a year old..*SMH*), my wife's grandmother's name was called home to be with the Lord. The week prior to this unfortunate event and the week after were very trying and demanding on my family with lots of travel and emotion.
In the small amount of free time that I did have, i was trying to get caught up with my two jobs that I had fell behind in. On top of this, I was supposed to be leaving for a business conference in San Antonio on that following Monday(9/20).
After tons of discussion with family, friends, and of course ultimately my wife....I did decide to go to the conference on Weds. night and partake in it on Thurs. and Fri, before coming back on Sat. Travel complications kept me en route all day Saturday. The frustration led me to decide to take a flight to Nashville, TN instead of waiting until Sunday at noon for a flight. So I rented a car at 12:30am and arrived home Sunday morning at 5:30am.
Now its back to work....so yes....needless to say.......i am beyond tired, but I am still attacking the week head on and with all that said:
I AM BACK!!!! and MORE DETERMINED, MORE COMMITTED, and MORE CONSISTENT than EVER!!!!!!
This incident with her grandmother brought up a lot of hard memories of my father and it was tough to watch her go through it...its not over but we are strong in faith and making it through. With that said.....please continue to pray for my family and I.........
AND GET READY BECAUSE I'm COMING!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Four Years LaterÖ.
Four years have elapsed but it feels like four days
The tears have relapsed and they flow in more ways
In no ways, never thought the pain would still remain
Forever to linger, but why must it feel the same
Eternally stained, etched in my heart, from which the love came
The beast of sorrow stands strong, Iím unable to tame
How long will it rain, using my loss for selfish gain
Release me from these chains, why am I contained
Itís an uphill battleÖ. I wonít surrender
The lessons that you taught Popz, created a contender
ďDo you rememberĒ, a phrase that makes my heart tender
As it precedes a subject with you as its member
My mind is flexible, yet the heart not so limber
Did I tell you, youíll have a grand in September
Anticipation builds just to tell her about my father
With the dreams of being half a man as you to my daughter
Never think that you will not be a part in her life
As your eyes are my eyes and you live through your wife
You know Juan is excited, so your morals will still reach her
It is said Ill make a great dad, thanks to my teacher
Now more than ever I want to be just like you
And when I think, Iím even starting to see just like you
In the mirror, Iím starting to be seen just like you
And when agitated they say that I get mean just like you
Iím glad you were there when I walked that stage
You were not a Clemson man, but you turned that page
I could see the pride in your eyes, seeing your boy as a man
Then you gave me 6 months to move as you took my hand
But I did not need them, a testimony to what you gave me
As around the same time I introduced you to a lady
You gave your son full blessings, as I said I Do
Then accepted Godís blessing, less than year after I said I Do
Leaving 10 months later was the plan that HE created
Never forsake it, though sometimes I wish HE delayed it
Yet I never question, nor do I ask for a reason
Continuing to pray and grow with every season
Since your passing, a large void was left to be filled
I only hope for approval, through the morals that you instilled
I know that you were worried; it was not in your plan
When the responsibility shifted, I raised my hand
So sit back in your glory, for the work put in
And Iím thankful for the position, you put me in
I give you my word Popz, your wife will never need
I pray for her wants, and ensure her every need
As I am typing this minute, she sent me a text
For no particular reason, just a cordial check
To see how I was doing, to ask about my week
As she knows on this day, I tend to be a little bleak
I provide peace of mind, and ensure that I am fine
Attempting to absorb her pains, and stand strong in mine
Itís all because of you, the values you have placed
Iím grateful for the memories, the years you have graced
I see you in my mirror, never taking you for granted
Elated by the love in the seed that you planted
Considered in every decision, by my side, my caddy
My daughter will know these morals came from granddaddy
Monday, April 27, 2009
First and foremost, let me say that I am beyond excited with the expectation of my baby. The excitement increased(and was combined with nervousness) when we found out that we were expecting a daughter. Its a beautiful thing. I cherish every moment that I can be there for my wife, and I await the arrival of my babygirl..............WELP!!! Now that I got that our of the way.....
This pregnancy is making it very difficult to eat properly. My wife and I have a great, fair and compromising relationship. We do things together, we are there for each other.......we cook for each other. When she was in school, I would cook as she was getting home late. Now that I am in school she has been doing the same...especially with my hectic work schedule. ......and then there was pregnancy...lol. For those of you that have had a child, Im sure you will be able to relate to this. First is the fatigue....which is completely understandable. Therefore she does not cook as much, which is fine, as I have told her that she doesnt have to cook.....the not cooking is not the problem. The problem is her tastebuds..lol. She has the wildest most random desires for what she wants to eat and when she wants to eat it. She comes home with bags of food for US that I cant eat. She wants US to go places that I shouldnt go....its absolutely amazing. And one of the funniest thing is that its either the pregnancy or marketing firms have up their game....but the wrong food commercial and we are leaving the house in 10 minutes...lol. I watched my ,(at one point sane) wife dip a french fry in ice cream......go figure. Another piece of humor in all of this is that her smell and taste buds have become enhanced....EVERYTHING taste GREAT(but thats a whole other blog)
Now my wife has always been there for me and has always been in my corner about weight loss.......listening....working out with me.....watching what I eat, etc......but now its a different BEAST. Because I am at work .......I still do GREAT during the week.....But on the weekends.......not so much...lol
So what have I learned from this:
1. That I do not mind it. The only thing I am concerned with at this time is making my wife happy and getting her what she wants and needs
2. That I have to be determined and willful enough to still order the things that I KNOW that I should be eating regardless of where she wants to go. This lifestyle change is not the responsibility of anyone else. It should be too important to ME to be pushed off my course. And in all actuality I think I have been doing good.........thus far.
With that said: PRAY FOR ME!!!!! I have 4 months to go and will power will only take me so far...LOL
NOTE: Please know that I realize that I can not begin to understand what all an expectant mother goes through and that this is written moreso as a test of my will and for comical effect.....I have the utmost respect for those expecting and think its the most beautiful thing on earth, so I hope no one is offended or thinks im insensitive.......
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