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Confessions of a Success Story

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Confessions of a Success Story:

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ē Iíve lost 146 lbs (It took me about 2 years)
ē I dropped from a size 22/24 to a 4/6 most days
ē Iíve been featured as a Spark Success Story.
ē Iíve been on Spark since January 17, 2011

Anyone reading this that knows me knows that I am a fan of Sparkpeople. Do I criticize it? Yes, but only in meaningful ways to try to make the site better. Now, that I have disclaimered (yes, my own made up word) and given you detailsÖ on with the blog.

Today, I was perusing Sparkpeople like I do more days than not and I went to the recipe section. I click on a pineapple raspberry coffee cake wondering how the heck that was made healthy. Iím like everyone else; I want my cake and eat it too. However, unlike my former self I know that eating such a decadent dessert can lead to bad bad things (like 20 lbs). I get extremely happy when I can find a good for you skinnied down recipe. Thatís what I was hoping to find when I clicked the button. What I found was a cake with almost 600 calories. Onto the confessionsÖ

I CANíT SEE THAT

In January 2011, I asked my husband if we could not go to restaurants for a few months and if he minded going into sections of the grocery store that I deemed danger zones. I also made him hide all his food that was fattening from me. Fine, go ahead and tell me thatís not realistic. And my argument back to you is that no one who has self control gets to be 146 lbs over weight. January 17, 2011 was a day I decided to learn to live healthy. Just because you make that proclamation doesnít mean you know what to do, that it will be easy or that you need to put yourself in situations that you wonít succeed in. People have to learn self control. We have to learn discipline. We also have to figure out what triggers us to over eat and we have to figure out if food is worth it or not.

We didnít go out to eat for the first 3 months of my healthy lifestyle. That time gave me a safety net to build my confidence, learn to make good choices, and to have self control. I eventually got there but it didnít happen just by making the choice to live healthy and it didnít happen without knowing in some aspects of life you have to ask for help.

I DIDNíT EAT THAT

People seriously hate to hear this but for the 2 years that I was actively getting to my goal weight, I did not have a single slice of pizza, French fries, fast food, cookies, cakes, doughnuts or candy. I knew that any of those things could derail me and werenít really necessary in order to live healthy. Guess what? I didnít miss those things at all. Why? I didnít miss those things because I was creative and made healthy versions of most things. IF I wanted pizza, I would make eggplant pizza. If I wanted ice cream I made frozen bananas or frozen watermelon. If you donít believe me, well one of my desserts is kind of famous; it was in First Magazine for Women.

You donít have to have cake to be happy, I promise you. Actually the first cake I had was on my daughters 3rd birthday and it made me have cravings. I had been normal weight for over 6 months and cake made me crave. Thereís your sign.
REALLY?

Life is always going to throw you lemons. You have to learn to make lemonaid (hahaha itís a play on the spelling). I learned to have resources and to ask for help and part of my help was Sparkpeople and I assure you when I first started the recipe I found today would have made me delete my account. I am not advocating for anyone to not have an indulgence if you are able to, but you can find indulgences everywhere. However, Spark is my health zoneÖ So unless itís a healthy indulgence, I really wish we could get rid of the 600 calorie cakes. Yes, this site is for everyone, not just those losing weight, however, itís still a site based on health and if I ate that cake, Iíd probably have to start actively trying to lose weight. This journey is so hard ( so make it easy when you can), but itís so worth itÖ.







I promise you all that I have never said I regret not eating the cake.

  
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GRAMPIAN 10/19/2014 3:40PM

  Y emoticon ou've done very well!

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COOLMAMA11 10/13/2014 3:09PM

    Love this blog, I struggle so to lose weight and my nemises is sweets and fried food, I have been staying away from them and just joined a challenge to abstain for 100 days, started Sept 23 and going strong! Maybe one day I will be a success story, I hope so, my small goal now is to get to Onderland, I'm 18 lbs away!

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BECKYQUIGLEY 9/16/2014 9:11AM

    Chelle, what an amazing and inspiring story! emoticon

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WHITEANGEL4 9/15/2014 4:17PM

    Thank you for sharing. We all are basically making the same journey but each on their own trail. I did not give up all sweets, but limit them only to something that I truly want and the serving is a very limited size. I did give up a fast foods fro day one. No drive thrus and I gave up all sodas and replaced with water. It has been successful for me

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LORIVIOLA 8/25/2014 8:12AM

    Thank you for sharing!
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MAYBER 7/17/2014 11:43PM

    Thank you for sharing your story you are an inspiration
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JANETRIS 7/7/2014 8:22AM

    I was looking for a great way to start my Monday morning and this was it! Thanks Chelle and congrats on your success! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MRSRIGS1 7/3/2014 4:34PM

    Good for you and I agree with you 100%! Perhaps Spark will listen and make some changes. For a healthy living site, there should only be healthy recipes! emoticon

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C67241 6/18/2014 8:20PM

    When you gave 100%, your body gave back the results of all your hard work. Great blog and great job on getting your health back. emoticon emoticon

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NASFKAB 6/18/2014 4:07AM

  what an amazing blog you have NOT regretted not eating the cake way to go

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NASFKAB 6/18/2014 2:15AM

  what an amazing blog you have NOT regretted not eating the cake way to go

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MARYJEANSL 6/16/2014 6:21PM

  Congratulations on all your successes!

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TANYABEE32 6/16/2014 4:31AM

    this blog was exactly what I needed to read this morning! thanks for the inspiration!!

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C67241 6/15/2014 5:28PM

    You have done a fantastic job at losing all the weight. You are to be commended on your hard work that you worked for and in the end succeeded. Kudos to you emoticon

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MOMMY445 6/15/2014 1:55PM

    congrats on your successes! have a wonderful day!

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DAWNDMOORE40 6/15/2014 1:54PM

    emoticon You look incredible! I am glad you stuck with it and have not given up!
You are right, that we don't have to indulge ourselves with the unhealthy foods that are out there. However, I do believe that if we can do that now and then, that it will keep us from binging on the bad stuff. I am not perfect, but I exercise 7 days a week and try to eat healthy as much as possible. I have maintained my goal weight for 4 and half years and I am so glad to be a member of Spark People as I can see you are too! We all should be proud of one another because it's people like you that are an inspiration to all of us! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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2BDYNAMIC 6/15/2014 9:19AM

    WOW!!! You are absolutely amazing and beautiful! ................. So much work and you stayed with it til done!! .............. You look wonderful and emoticon on a most deserved POPULAR BLOG Feature!! emoticon

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NEWTINK 6/15/2014 7:04AM

    I agree with you so much ... I know the site is for everyone but when i go look at the recipes some days I am like why would you have that here. I try very hard to live the best I can and to cook one meal that everyone here will eat but it is so hard so when i am looking at the recipes I am like the rest can have that but it still doesnt help me . Thank you for this I am glad that somebody finally said it .

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PJB149 6/15/2014 3:33AM

    Congratulations on your outstanding success.

My WL journey is about learning to eat everything and not "giving up" food. For me, "If I cannot do it for life, I won't do it to lose." That means learning to incorporate all foods into my WL journey. Obviously, you must exercise control over high calorie foods, even when eating in moderation, but I am changing my mindset and learning to eat within new constraints so I can lose and keep this weight off.

You are obviously successful and I applaud you for finding what worked for you. emoticon


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BGOLIC 6/14/2014 10:11PM

    Job well done !

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JANNIEWANNIE 6/14/2014 7:45PM

    I am very proud of you. No cake is worth losing what you have gained. Thanks for sharing. J

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WALNUTT1961 6/14/2014 4:41PM

    So awesome! Thanks for sharing. I thought I was crazy not wanting to go out to eat or have my family hide their food! I'm glad others do the same thing.
Congrats to you!

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SWAN47 6/14/2014 3:54PM

    First- I agree that the 660 calorie cake isn't what I want to see under recipes. Fortunately I just skip it and move on to another that fits my criteria. You're story is an inspiration and shares things that can help us all be successful. Thank you for sharing. I'm so happy for you're success. You have been determined and let nothing stop you. I hope I can learn from you and this blog. I agree with Bobby you are strong. Proud of you and your accomplishments. Thanks again for sharing.
Blessings -

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GORDON66 6/14/2014 3:40PM

  You are a strong person. Good for you!

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BOPPY_ 6/14/2014 3:34PM

    Congratulations.

One teeny, weeny, nit to pick:

Anyone that has 146 pounds to lose, and figures out how to do it, including getting help from their SO is a darm strong individual with major skills including "self-control".

I salute you,

Lee

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LACHELY 6/14/2014 2:00PM

    Congratulation!!!! You motive me to get back on track thank u!!!!!!

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LADYGSC 6/14/2014 1:03PM

    Congratulations you look great!! I want to be where you are! Reading your blog I see all the mistakes I have made over the past three years. I have been eating in moderation and not limiting anything. It was working for me, but now it has not been working. I believe I need to make some drastic changes like you did. I really enjoyed reading your blog and hearing your story. Be blessed!!

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FALCON_MONICAB 6/14/2014 10:25AM

    I'm just beginning to learn which foods trigger my cravings. I'm the same way with cake, and I hate it when we have some non-healthy cake in the house. No matter how much I tell myself I'll have just a small piece, well, three small pieces later (if not more) I realize that those small pieces add up to more than I wanted. More damage control and more work to not lose it mentally, emotionally and physically. I commend you on your hard work and am truly inspired by you. Thank you for sharing!

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CEIL46 6/14/2014 7:52AM

    I'm so glad I happened upon your blog. It was very inspiring, and reminds me why I can't have peanut butter in the house. I haven't had any sweets for two months, and it really does help with the cravings.

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CICELY360 6/14/2014 2:10AM

  good blog

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RUNNINGYOGINIRE 6/13/2014 6:58PM

  emoticon and thank you for sharing your journey.

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HOLLYM48 6/13/2014 6:14PM

    2 years into this journey and I still don't order a lot of the foods you mentioned because I love them but I don't need them. Congrats on your awesome weight loss journey. It is not always easy, but it is ALWAYS worth it! Awesome job!

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IHEIDIBEFITT 6/13/2014 4:33PM

    So very true!!!

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    I emoticon U, you honey badger!

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ME_B4_INSANITY 6/13/2014 2:55PM

    I would have been like you, ooohhh cake. But knowledge is power, before I would have never known it was 600 calories, now I would see that and not even question that it was not a necessity. In the real world there will be 600 calorie cake, but we just click past it, because learning to be healthy meant learning there are so many better alternatives.

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KIN59VARA 6/13/2014 2:46PM

    I think we were on a team together at one time so finding this blog was like finding a friend again. Thanks for the story of your success. It gave me food for thought.

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REBECCA7436 6/13/2014 2:34PM

    This is great and I agree you don't miss the junk if you replace it with something good but healthy. Great inspiration
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LIZZIECA55 6/13/2014 1:36PM

    ...well said. You've done an amazing job; keep up the good work.

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PACKERMANN 6/13/2014 1:10PM

    good job!

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CHANGE52 6/13/2014 12:24PM

  good for your ability to inform family of your struggles and their ability to comply

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GRACED777 6/13/2014 11:44AM

    I love the photos as well. You're right-it takes time to learn what you need to know about healthy eating, about triggers and hedonic hunger (eating when it isn't because of hunger), about substitutions for high calorie foods, and retraining your taste buds. But it is well worth it, because if you do learn, it's hard not to get at least somewhat healthier. Learning and what you do with it is up to you. The more you know, the more choices you have.

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The Skinny Word

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

This recipe was on the front page of the Spark Recipes

recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-detai
l.asp?recipe=2736257


How can this be considered a skinny recipe?

I mean seriously, who can eat this and not gain weight?

Do people deserve a treat? Well, if you think you earn or deserve a treat thenÖ umm you might want to evaluate the importance you place on food.

If you want to incorporate a less than healthy choice into your plan, I will not call you out. But I thought Spark was trying to teach us how to make skinny substitutions and this my friends is not.

Did you know that a Cake pop would do less damage than this skinny treat?

www.starbucks.com/menu/food/petites/
salted-caramel-cake-pop



295/180 cal
8/10 fat
49/25 carbs
Oh the protein makes it healthy. Lol 4/2 grams of protein

A peanut butter cup is also a better bang for your buck.

https://www.hersheys.com/reeses/prod
ucts/reeses-peanut-butter-cups/milk-ch
ocolate.aspx


Dunkin Doughnut has less carbs and calories

www.dunkindonuts.com/content/dunkind
onuts/en/menu/food/bakery/donuts/donut
s.html?DRP_FLAVOR=Bavarian%20Kreme%20Donut


I donít suggest eating any of those items. My point is that none of these things are on a health site or consider themselves skinny, yet they are all skinnier than what is being featured on a health site.

My tip is to educate yourself, donít rely on Spark or anyone else. Know what you are putting in your body.

  
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SKINNYINMYHEAD 5/14/2014 10:47PM

    ah come on Chelle... it's the non-fat yogurt and egg whites that make it healthy (snicker)

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MASRITE 5/14/2014 7:21PM

    I sometimes wonder as to who thinks these are good for you treats, recipes, etc. I take one look at the calories and serving size and I'm like, no thank you, please! I'll stick to my own treats (or any you want to share!!).

Hope you're doing well. It was nice to get the notification that you posted a blog!!

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BARKLESSWAGMORE 5/14/2014 11:42AM

    Cheers to you Chelle! emoticon emoticon I think the most important point is education and if SPark is going to continue to provide recipes such as this, then it is our responsibility to try and point out the flaws and educate people. Bottom line as you said......know every ingredient of every gram you put in your body!

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MAMACHAMBS 5/13/2014 8:40PM

    I think the biggest issue here is members can post anything they want and Spark doesn't review the recipes to see if they qualify as healthy. However in this case, Spark FEATURED one of these recipes!! WHY??? It's not as if the recipe had rave reviews. In fact it had ZERO reviews. It's high carbs, high calories, low protein, and it contains processed ingredients. Tell me how any of that is healthy???

I have a similar issue with some of the blogs they feature. Blogs by people who's journey is far from stellar. People who gain and lose the same pounds repeatedly. People who may have lost large amounts but regained and repost those same pounds repeatedly.


The theory behind Spark is FABULOUS but of all the successful people I know, very few, including myself, have found their success by using the tools and recipes that are provided by Spark. And why is it that very few of those success stories are ever featured, when, in fact, most of them have true value and are truly inspirational?

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2LABS2LOVE 5/13/2014 8:07PM

    emoticon advice!

I believe what you saw...picture don't lie.

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RACH_LVSLIFE 5/13/2014 7:53PM

    Lol but it is gluten free. Must be healthy, right? Right? Grr

Everything about that recipe screams paid advertising. Hopefully people are smart enough to realize it's not actually something they should be eating.

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TINA8605 5/13/2014 7:27PM

  If I see a recipe that sounds good, I'll look at the recipe. The first thing I check out is the nutritional values. If its ok I'll read at the recipe. If I think it can be made healthier I might that is might give it a try. I try not to read recipes that I know its not the time to be eating these foods. If you don't have it....you won't be eating it.

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DOTTIEJANE1 5/13/2014 6:30PM

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ELSCO55 5/13/2014 4:43PM

    I agree

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EVER-HOPEFUL 5/13/2014 4:25PM

    some of the recipes are not that healthy and an awful lot are made with the help of tinned soups etc for the sauces but you have to remember that alot of the recipes come from people actually using this site and from people who also have kids.but amongst theese recipes you will also find alot of very healthy,nutritious and good recipes.it is up to you to decide which of the recipes could work for you or not though i agree that the powers that be should be more diligent in which recipes they highlight or not. emoticon

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RIDLEYRIDER 5/13/2014 3:27PM

  I've often found that the recipes could be made much healthier, if you're willing to try.

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MRSP90X 5/13/2014 3:02PM

    VERY emoticon Some of my friends make these and wonder and whine why they are NOT losing weight.

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JUSTCHELLE75 5/13/2014 2:48PM

    I go by serving size because of serving size is what an average person would eat and the suggested serving size is out of control

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LIFENPROGRESS 5/13/2014 2:46PM

    Four (4) of the cups count as one (1) serving. If you ate just one, that would be approx. 75 calories. If you could limit yourself to just one (maybe two), it would be so much better.

Not everyone can easily deny themselves a sweet treat.

That said, this is not a treat Ill make for myself.

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GRANMALINDA 5/13/2014 2:37PM

    Chelle, there have been many, way too many, not healthy recipes of this nature on the front page of Sparkrecipes as well is in the daily recipe email. I have commented on several as have others and yet they keep on coming. This is not a good direction for SP to be taking.

For so many on this journey, will power is hard fought and on precarious days, a picture such as this can tip some over the edge into old habits.

Thanks for sharing this, your voice is very valuable.

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Thank you Sparkpeople

Friday, October 04, 2013

I wonder if it gets any easier, ever? I bet many of you want to know the answer to that. I would love to tell everyone that it gets easier but alas it does not.

Does it ever just become natural? Some days exercising feels natural and normal and then other days itís a fight. I win some and I lose some of those fights.

The truth is that weight loss and living healthy is like life... itís hard. You are going to face roadblocks. You will stumble and you will fall. Itís how you get up and the choices you make that determine if this is a lifestyle or just a get slim quick plan.

The hardest part of my lifestyle has been to realize that I am never going to be perfect. I have days that appear to be perfect on paper but there are other days I could do moreÖ The true test is getting through those tough days and building on that. The other hard part is to realize I have no control over anyone but myself. I canít control the food brought into the office, my husband leaving me, him seeing our daughter, other people who eat junk and annoy me because they say that want to lose weight. I canít do anything about that. All I can do is react and own the choices I make.

Those are tough lessons and they have to be relearned all the time. However, once I got that I was empowered. You only have yourself to control. How much less stress is that to know you donít need to worry about anyone else. Yes, I know we have husbands, boyfriends, children and friends... But nothing you can do will change what they do. The only think you can worry about is the choice you will make in the moment. You are powerful because itís your choice and yours alone.

I was reading comments to the blog I posted in September and it is overwhelming the amount of support and encouragement that strangers post to me. If I have learned anything else itís that you never know what life will deal you but there will be people who learn from you and that you learn from. I only ever intended to use Spark to log calories and to log fitness, but I got so much more from this site than I can ever give back. I made friends and was given a voice to reach people and to have people reach me. I try to respond to everyone; but life happens and I lose track of time. So for anyone who has ever commented, sent me a goodie or an email, please know that every word written was read, appreciated and helped.

My favorite thing I have ever said is you canít finish until you start. Every day is a start to something. Never quit on yourself because we all believe in you; you just have to give yourself the power to believe in yourself.




This is what happiness looks like

  
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TAMMYR1967 5/7/2014 2:46PM

    I really liked your blog entry. I find that quite often I am worried more about what other people are doing than myself. It is too easy to think that way. I have tried to focus more on what I am doing and thinking. It is easier said than done, but I know it can be done. I just need to focus on myself more and blogs like yours really put things in perspective for me. Thanks for that!

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DANSGIRL87 4/23/2014 9:11AM

    Very good blog! As a "yo-yo" weight loser, I've come to realize the truth of the fact that it isn't always easy. And I now believe that is why I've always gained back the weight. I didn't stick with it and come to terms with that reality that it won't always be easy. It's a constant effort. Your comments are encouraging and inspiring to me.

Thanks so much for sharing!

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HARRINGTON5 10/24/2013 3:23PM

    You certainly are an inspiration. I love the pictures. What a difference weight makes. What a beautiful child, no wonder you are smiling.

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TINAJ15 10/14/2013 10:24AM

    Your progress is inspirational! emoticon

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SANDYHAZY 10/8/2013 2:53PM

    Thank you for the reminder! I do ask myself if it will get easier. Some days are good, some not so good. But I keep plugging along, because I'm happier with myself when I know that I have put forth my best effort. "You got this" has become my mantra. Great blog. Your story is one of the first I read when I started SP two years ago. Thank you for being a great, encouraging, example for me!

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 10/5/2013 9:55AM

    see a path.. take it for life.. don't think off/on, think lifetime.. don't make excuses.. don't blame others... that's what I've learned from you.. oh! and how to persevere!

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MAMACHAMBS 10/5/2013 9:02AM

    Spoken like a true Sheriff! I am so thrilled to have you on our team. You are both s friend and an inspiration! Glad to see you taking charge again!

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SANDLADY48 10/4/2013 10:26PM

    We Spies are so proud of you!! You are such an inspiration. No excuses! emoticon

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DEE797 10/4/2013 7:41PM

    Terrific blog. Thanks for sharing what you have learned with us. Love the pic of you and P, she is adorable and you look fabulous. emoticon emoticon

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EVER-HOPEFUL 10/4/2013 7:05PM

    happiness looks lovely just like you and your daughter look lovely.keep on keeping on you can do this love emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ARUNNINGKAT 10/4/2013 4:45PM

    Love the photo of you and your daughter! It is priceless! Great blog...you remind me on a day when I really need it that I can't control others and I need to focus on what I can control. Have a awesome weekend!

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FITAT50 10/4/2013 4:37PM

    Well said Chelle! I'm sharing your blog with my Spies emoticon

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SHANTODD420 10/4/2013 4:36PM

    Wow you have come so far and you are right life is hard. I am working through this right now. Thanks for sharing your story.

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EG8383 10/4/2013 3:51PM

  Lovely blog. I'm in the process of balancing my life but what you say is what I've been saying to myself all week...I can't control or change anyone but myself. I make the choice of what to eat and how much to eat and when to be active. You're right you can't finish until you start and honestly...I feel like it will never finish this is a life style change so you will always find yourself making mistakes and learning on this journey. Congrats on all of your success! SP friends are the best supports on your best days and even more at your worst!

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MASRITE 10/4/2013 3:45PM

    You truly are an inspiration to others. You have come along way baby! yes, you've had many obstacles, but, you're overcoming them and encouraging other people as well. Keep it up!!

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MALAMI518 10/4/2013 3:45PM

    Great blog! As with all aspects of life, there will be hard days and there will be easier days. You control how you react and the choices you make. It looks like you've made terrific choices!

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The Loss of Joy (Pictures of my journey)

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

Thatís a terrible title isnít it? Thatís a terrible for sentence, as well. It is what it is and I am hoping that when I get this all out of my system that something positive will surface. This is how I blog or I write. I ramble and eventually have an epiphany and maybe a lesson learned. I havenít blogged a lot lately so some of you may not recognize my name or my face. Let me introduce you to me.

ďHi my name is Chelle, JustChelle, or sometimes even Michelle.Ē I joined Weight Watcherís and Sparkpeople on the very same day. That day was January 17, 2011. Thatís the day I have dubbed my healthiversary. Thatís the day I stopped dieting and I started to just live healthy. Itís such a simple concept that so many want to try to not do. We so often look for the get thin quick scheme and go for the temporary results that we neglect to realize that if we want to be the best person we can be physically and mentally that itís a 365 day 224 hour a day journey. I started my lifestyle change slowly by counting points, modifying the things I ate, reading articles on Spark and getting support from the Spark groups as well as my Weight Watcherís meetings. I also started walking slowly. The weight came off and I became stronger and was doing more.
labor day 2010

In May of 2011, my husband and I walked/ trotted my first 5k. It was a Weight Watcherís event. I was dreadfully slow, but I felt so empowered because I did it and I had so much support. June of 2011, I saw a lottery for the Houston Aramco Half Marathon. My friends who didnít really get how out of shape I had been encouraged me to go for it. I asked my husband if he would do it with me and help me, and he agreed. We made the cut.

September 2011, I had lost 60 lbs and was still overweight. I was obsessed with an infomercial for a workout called Insanity. I didnít think I could do it so I didnít order it. One weekend my husband went to check the mail and came back with a box for me. He had ordered Insanity for me. Iím not sure if he even realizes that he had more faith in me than I had in myself. We did the program together. I joined A Biggest Loser challenge at the same time. I met some great supporters there in a group called the Spies. I would personally like to thank, Darlene, Lynn, Mandi and Lisa for all their support they gave me as well as every Spy that I have met.

December of 2011, I lost 100 lbs. January 13, 2012 I completed my first half marathon. Shawn did it in just over 2 hours and I took 3 hours and nine minutes. I was down 112 lbs. I was happy. I mean I was truly happy. I felt better than I ever have in my entire life. I had everything I ever wanted. I had a husband and a beautiful baby girl and I was feeling strong mentally and physically.
April/May 2012 my life fell apart. My husband left and all I had was my daughter that I would have to take care of on my own. I was devastated. I didnít eat and fell to my lowest weight of this journey. I was down 142 lbs. Iíve stayed fairly consistent at that weight but I would like to lose more.

May/June 2013, I maintained my 142 lbs weight loss and was sent an email. I was asked if I would mind talking to a magazine. I was ecstatic and nervous. I did the first interview and was told that I was picked for the magazine. I was so proud. I never had been chosen for something like that before. I know itís vain and stupidÖ but I finally felt like the kid that got picked first in gym class. I agreed to come out of my closet and let them publish fat pictures of me with my weight, something I have never published on Spark or anywhere else. I was going to live out loud. I was finally going to celebrate me. I was going to tell people to not dietÖ Live healthy. Itís my motto.

I worked hard for the photo shoot, changed my schedule, took off from work, and bought clothes I would never wear all to have my moment. The photo shoot happened and, frankly everyone was so nice but I hated how I looked in the running clothes. I felt fat. I havenít really felt fat in a long time. I tried to work through it in my head. I was still proud that I had been chosen. I told all my spark friends about it, I told all my Weight Watcherís friends (Have I mentioned that My Weight Watcher ladies Rosie and Donna have been so much support that I can never thank them enough), I told my facebook friends (some of them didnít even know I was losing weight), I told my facebook followers (look me up justchellesknockingthefatoff) and I told my family. I was finally so proud of myself.
I went on a cruise last week. I got home Saturday and bought the First For Women magazine I was supposed to be in. I wasnít in it, just my recipe. I was humiliated, disappointed, frustrated and sad. I worked my butt off and I was left off. They told me they let me know and in their defense I did get an email August 28th. 5 days. My time and effort was only worth them giving me 5 days notice to deal with what this did. They stole my joy. They made me for the first time in 2 years feel not good enough. They made me feel like the fat girl all over again. They stole my pride. They stole my heart.

I truly donít think they get it. I donít think the editors know what this journey is and how hard it is even when you are done losing weight or just trying to lose that last 10 lbs. Iím not sure many people get what losing 142 lbs is and what you go through. I donít know that people who diet and lose and gain and lose and gain truly get what this feels like.

So here it is world. I am taking my power back. I am finding my joy. Michelle Miller Andrews was 287 lbs when she started this journey. The day I looked fat that I had my picture taken for First Magazine for Women that was not good enough to use I was wearing a size small in Under Armour and weight 139.8 lbs. My shirt was a size small. However, my body was not perfectÖ My skin is not tight. My stomach isnít flat; my teeth arenít perfect, my arms are flabby, but guess what, I earned my 37 inch hips that use to be 55 inches. Oh and I wore a push up bra that day because I went from a 42 DD to a 32 A cup and I didnít want to be flat chested.

Iíd like to thank my Shamrock Sheriffís especially Tammy for kicking me in the butt this morning when I was having my pity party. Oh and Maggie, I really am disappointed that I donít get to send you the magazine.

I wanted this so badly so I could show my little girl Peiton that if you truly work hard for something that one day someone will recognize you for your efforts. I am truly sorry that the magazine didnít have the space to fit my story in because I really think; if you read my blogs that I have done something special. I really hope that one day they get that you shouldnít mislead and toy with people like that and that 5 days is not common courtesy.


Beyond that, I hope that my time on Spark has been motivating and inspiring to a few because at the end of the day thatís more than I ever started out hoping for. I hope one day no one will ever again make me feel like I wasnít worth it because I know I am. I know you are worth the effort.
This me at my 2nd half marathon down to under 3 hours

I think by writing this, even with the tears streaming down my face that I found my joy again.



Peiton.. if you ever find this blog.. your self worth and accomplishments are not determined by anyone other than yourself. If I teach you nothing else, please know that.

  
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NASFKAB 6/21/2014 11:24AM

  awesome well done

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KIMDOU 5/7/2014 9:39AM

    Such a great read. You're amazing. To overcome the hard things and keep pushing to be the best you possible. Very inspirational.

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WARRIORGIRL121 4/13/2014 10:19PM

    Chelle, you are so inspirational! Don't let ANYONE take your joy like that again. You are beautiful. you have worked hard. You have won your health and your body. It doesn't matter what the magazine folks or anyone else think because they did not walk in your shoes or do the work that you did. You go girl! You are fantastic! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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-ICANDOIT- 3/6/2014 11:31AM

    I am not even sure how I ended up stumbling across this blog....but WOW!!!
What a great tribute to you- for all you were and all you have become!
No magazines were there when you were saying no to bad choices and yes to good ones, when you were wanting to give up and chose not to....
it has all been YOU....taking those steps every day-
and that is the biggest win of all!
Congratulations on earning a wonderful YOU! I am so inspired by you!!

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JCOOL77 3/3/2014 11:32AM

    LOVED this post and tried to find you on FB but that link is coming back dead? If you are still there I would love to read more!

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AHAVAH123 1/30/2014 5:58PM

    You are an absolutely amazing young woman.
Thanks for inspiring me!!
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WORK-IT-MAMA 1/7/2014 7:15PM

  Hi Chelle,

I just found your blog through a member post. I just want you to know that you are an encouragement to me. I am at my highest weight of all time and am trying to find motivation to focus on me and my health. Seeing your dramatic change within one year is so AWESOME! It gives me hope. I have gained and lost before but the road ahead at this point looks so steep and scary. Thank you for pouring your heart out and inspiring others. And, that magazine lost their chance at a GREAT story!

Thanks again!

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SLIMPAM23 11/3/2013 3:02PM

    I LOVE LOVE LOVE to look at your photos!! So happy for your success - and hoping to find my motivation again any day!!
Keep shining sister!!
Pam

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ZOE13O 10/19/2013 8:38PM

    You are emoticon ! and don't forget it!
You have had an amazing journey and should be so proud of what
you've accomplished. Someday when your daughter is old enough to
understand all you've been through - she's going to say I have the strongest
most amazing mom ever!!!!
Thanks for sharing your journey with all of us on Spark People!

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CRZYMOM04 10/7/2013 12:31PM

    You are so amazing reading your story and your strengh. Congrats on all your hard work.


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SIMPLELIFE101 10/5/2013 11:06PM

    So sorry you had to go through this. Hang tight to your friends, they must be proud of you. emoticon

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LIVINHEALTHY9 10/4/2013 10:37PM

    Thanks for sharing your story.
Sorry the magazine didn't follow through.
Don't let that take away your joy. You are a winner!

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FITMAY 10/4/2013 10:12PM

    YOU are emoticon

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EG8383 10/4/2013 4:01PM

  I'm speechless and all I can say is that this blog...you and your story of triumph has brought me to tears. AMAZINGGGG!!

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LOWCARBRENEE 10/4/2013 2:38PM

    You look great!

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OFFICECHIK 10/4/2013 10:17AM

    Chelle,
You may have lost your joy for a minute but you've given many people joy and hope just by writing this blog. What a testimony and so inspirational. Who needs those lousy magazines that never want to write truths anyway? Most magazine are filled with false pictures that have been edited and touched up. That's their selling method.

But that isn't what the majority of people want. We want real life stories and real life pictures that we can identify with and connect with. We want to know that they're are other people that have gone through similar experiences or their bodies have similarities.

That is what your story is. It's real life. Not picture perfect, beautiful, all rosy and sweet. You've fought hard and have been bruised and bloodied in the battle. But you immersed stronger and more beautiful and you are a success story. You give us hope. You inspire and thrill us with possibilities for ourselves.

Hold your head up high sweetie. You are an accomplishment. You are the victor. You were too good of a story for that magazine. They were not worthy of you. Dismiss them. They are not worth your anguish. And DO NOT give them the power to steal your joy.

You have a beautiful light within you. Let it shine!!!!
Tammy

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NJSHAR 10/3/2013 11:06PM

    What you wrote here is as good as anything posted in any magazine. It's your story, told your way. You went through a lot to get to where you are, and you deserve to be comfortable in your own skin, and feel great about yourself.

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JENIR1975 10/3/2013 10:16PM

  You are awesome and your story is truly motivating. Shame on the magazine but yay you for realizing all you have accomplished! You look great and I am sure your daughter is very proud of you and always will be!

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SUNNYBEACHGIRL 10/3/2013 9:26PM

    Just wow. You look great. At least your story was important enough to be considered. But Wow emoticon

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WILDFLOWERMA 10/3/2013 9:15PM

    I can understand how disappointed you feel about not being in the magazine. Another opportunity like that may come along. What have done is amazing! You have made it to where I need to go and your story is a huge inspiration. Please keep sharing your spark & light the path for the rest of us :)

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BEBOP4ME 10/1/2013 6:55PM

    Chelle,

You are a huge inspiration to the people that matter- real people who are working on getting fit. Real people who will never look like a super model, but can reclaim their health back - just like you did! Quite frankly your story and your pictures are more meaningful than someone in a magazine that probably got plastic surgery after losing weight so they could look like a super model. Be proud anyways and I bet your daughter will be too one day when she is old enough to understand. You are amazing! Now look at yourself in the mirror and repeat that until you start believing it again!

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CARM1401 10/1/2013 1:24PM

    You are AMAZING and STRONG emoticon

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NOMORETHEFATTY 10/1/2013 5:09AM

    It was very bad of them to do what they did but remember you lost all that weight without the help of that magazine so you sure as hell don't need them now. Reading the other comment you are a huge inspiration to other so put that smile back on your face & wallow in your own JOY, you've earn't it.
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TINAJANE76 9/30/2013 10:07PM

    Magazine article or not, you are a huge success, girl! I'm so sorry you had such a negative experience, but just look at how much you've got to celebrate. You inspire me and so many others here. So glad you were able to reclaim your joy!

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DECLARE74 9/26/2013 12:33AM

    Your story is very inspirational Chelle, I'm just starting out and don't expect this to happen over night or to be perfect all the time - it is after all a life time of bad habits I am reforming but your story shows me it is possible. I was tearing up reading it.

Peiton is truly bleesed to have a mum so strong, and so beautiful on the inside, and now your hard work have made your outer shell beautiful too

That magazine is typical media behaviour and why I don't invest my money or time in any papers or magazines :-( I'm saddened that their ridiculous bias towards what they perceive as the "right look" has hurt you and probably many others - it is time they woke up to the damage they cause

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LINZEE118 9/23/2013 11:53PM

    WOW! What a story & what an inspiration you are to me! I'm only half way through my journey of the weight loss part. I will not forget what you said. Never! Your self worth & accoplishments are not determined by anyone other than yourself! That was worth repeating! You rock girl! emoticon emoticon Linda

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SIRENSONGS 9/23/2013 7:57AM

    Your story is truly amazing and inspiring. I have been very close to giving up lately, but reading your story has given me that little extra push that I need to keep going today. Thank you so much for that, and I hope you continue to shine like this for the rest of your life! emoticon

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OAKASHANDTHORN 9/22/2013 3:31PM

    What a wonderful story!

You are so right: No one can take your self-value away from you.

You have traveled a fantastic road to success. Peiton will be so proud of you when she is older. You are setting an excellent example for her. She will be running with you in a few years!

Best wishes for your continued and much-deserved success and happiness! You are testimony to the strength of the human soul.



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RURAL3 9/22/2013 12:35PM

    You should be very proud of yourself and your accomplishment. Do not rely on a magazine for your value. Just goes to show you that those magazines are not all they are cracked up to be. emoticon

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KONA509 9/22/2013 11:10AM

    You are beautiful and an amazing person! No one can take your accomplishments away from you! Not everyone will appreciate the amazing things you have done--but that is their issue, not yours!

Thank you for being an an inspiration !

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DONNA!! 9/22/2013 10:33AM

    Hi Chelle! Let me start by saying I am a big magazine reader and won't buy First For Women again. They could and should have handled your situation differently. Most emoticon importantly you are amazing ... Inspiring ... Empowered and healthy! Don't let anyone steal you joy! You did it girl!

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RACHAELANN810 9/22/2013 2:38AM

    Chelle,

Thank you more than you will ever know. I have been at such a low point, I am climbing out of it but it has been a journey of re-defining myself. I am older than you but your story touched my heart has we have shared some of the same experiences.
You are an outstanding example to your child that no magazine article could ever amount to. It is what is tangible, what can be touched and talked to what she shares with you each and every day, these will be the best example.

Shine, you deserve it.
Love
Rachael

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SKIRNIR 9/10/2013 6:43AM

    You know, I think they made a mistake not including your story and yes, it was/is very rude of them to suddenly just not include your story. Sounds to me like you are moving on, probably better than I would/could. Congrats to you for the lost weight and for moving on with your life, when someone does you wrong.

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MWWENSIN 9/8/2013 1:45PM

    You came to the correct realization that what you think about yourself matters most. You have done a great job with your weight loss. You have done a great job revising your thinking - you were beautiful at any weight - it just took some weight loss and a change of your thinking to realize that. You have gained in your confidence by realizing how much you could do. Thanks for posting the blog!

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IFDEEVARUNS2 9/7/2013 9:22PM

    Shame on them! They couldn't see the winner staring them right in the face. You are a champion, Chelle!

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LCDM83 9/7/2013 8:16PM

    Chelle- You motivate us with what you've done and continue to do! Your joy is YOURS and don't let anyone take it from you.

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RUNNERJUDY 9/7/2013 10:21AM

    oh rats...how horribly disappointing. I'm so sorry emoticon

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GOING-STRONG 9/5/2013 10:33PM

    Loved your blog and you sent a powerful message. I noticed your name... you go by Chelle. My daughter is Rachelle and she is also called Chelle. My granddaughter is Peyton... isn't that a hoot! Best to you in the future... 147 pounds... you ROCK!

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CINDYWAGNER1 9/5/2013 8:57PM

    emoticon YOU ARE WORTH IT! YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION TO ME AND I KNOW TO OTHERS. THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS GREAT POST!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!

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STEVIEBEE569 9/5/2013 10:19AM

    Thanks for sharing your story. Very inspiring!

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SOLOMUA 9/4/2013 8:05PM

    Thank you for sharing your story...you've given hope to so many out there, including me! The magazine people don't know what they're doing, and don't realize what you've been through simply because they do not care or understand the processes you've been through - to them, you are just a story - but they are so wrong - and its their loss!

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IWANTTOBEFIT10 9/4/2013 6:09PM

    AMAZING!!!! :)

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ABBIE0224 9/4/2013 3:19PM

    wow this is so motivating, emotional and beautiful! You have made your daughter proud, you don't have to be in a magazine to see the impact you have had on her life and others. emoticon

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ABUFFKIN 9/4/2013 12:41PM

    You are a truly awesome and amazing person and I am so sorry that the stupid magazine caused you to forget it for even one milisecond. The fact that they didn't make room for your interview does not negate even one iota all of the hard work and blood, sweat and tears you shed for your victory. You are still an exceptional woman and your very inspiring story I am positive will make a huge difference in the lives of so many who are struggling through this journey (myself included). You are a beautiful person and you have a beautiful daughter. God bless you!!!
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MERANDARENEE 9/4/2013 12:14PM

    This is a wonderful blog!! Thank you for sharing it & for being so real & honest!! I hope you never let anyone steal your joy again! You are truly an inspiration!!!!
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5KGRANNY 9/4/2013 11:25AM

    Chelle Please don't let the magazine take away your well deserved joy!!! The media is in it for themselves and profit. They don't care what your feelings are and it's so wrong!!! Your journey has been an inspiration to all of us!! I feel blessed that I've had the opportunity to get to know you. You are a joy and a piece of sunshine!!! emoticon

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SHERRYWILSON 9/4/2013 10:30AM

    I'm proud of you and I hope your blogs send out to all the other people how great you are and that the magazine the loser here not you just because they can't see a great story apparently they need glasses new people or something don't let this magazine make you feel any less positive because they do this to hurt people to rear them down that's not nice but you are and your daughter knows the true you and I'm sure she appreciates you when she gets old enough to see the blog and she will know her self worth because you taught it to her I believe in you and sorry to hear about your husband you still keep going and going more positive days ahead with your daughter

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SHERRYWILSON 9/4/2013 10:24AM

   
I think you done a fantastic job and in proud of you and I'm sure your daughter is too and I feel the magazine company just wasted your time but glad you got to experience it because it shows how good people are good other that just try to make people feel like their self worth is made by what they think and show in magazines it's not
You made it what you wanted and congratulations on a well written blog the power and strength and determination and the humiliation from magazine the sad thing is magazine just out for them self they don't care about the person that should be changed but the experience of it made you feel proud but never be down or feelings ad ab

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FITAT50 9/4/2013 10:11AM

    You are a beautiful person inside and out, don't you forget it girlie! You have inspired hundreds of people here on Spark with your amazing accomplishments, it's the rest of the country's loss that you were denied the opportunity to inspire them also.

I think Linda had a great idea to post on First's FB page, I'll be heading there myself. Stay strong Chelle and remember your words to Pea "your self worth and accomplishments are not determined by anyone other than yourself" emoticon

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BASEBALLMOM21 9/4/2013 8:21AM

    Chelle wow!!! what a inspiration

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And I did a Photo Shoot (Pictures :) )

Tuesday, July 09, 2013

Iíve been on this long and winding road of a journey for a while now, to be exact 2 years and 6 months give or take a few days. I have had my ups and my downs, just like every normal person who decides to empower themselves and change their life.

Iíve been very fortunate to have gained much more than I lost and by all accounts I have lost a lot. I have quite literally lost a person. I have the picture to post to prove it.



142 lbs later, Iím a new person. I truly mean that. I have been very lucky to have achieved many feats that I never even thought about putting on a bucket list. There have been 5kís and mud races, 2 half marathons, new clothes, popular blogs and now an article with a photo shoot.



How cool does that sound? Really cool, right? It is really an honor to have been chosen as a person who could inspire another person to get off the couch and put the doughnut down and finally dare to dream of a life they are scared they never can have. You know what? You can have it, but you have to do the work, sweat the sweat and make the tough choices. In the end it will be worth it.

However, I donít want to mislead you and tell you that the road ends and life becomes this perfect Disney fairy tale with happily ever after, because frankly, it doesnít.

Iím writing this today not to be a Debbie Downer but to let you know that everything you go through is normal, itís how you deal with it that will make you or break you. I have lost the weight, I am a ďnormal sizeĒ, heck some even think I am a small size. I am a size 4/6. I am smaller than I even had a goal of becoming. That doesnít make everything perfect.

Me at the shoot (self picture :))

I was nervously excited for this photo shoot and the day was really nice. I had a fabulous team. They treated me like a star. I had my own stylist who poked and prodded and clipped into the perfect fit. I had a makeup artist and hair stylist that groomed me into a woman I hadnít seen in a while and all the while they told me how great I was. I mean everyone needs a day like that. The photographer was patient with me (I am so not a natural model) and directed me into pose after pose. They all looked at the screen and told me how awesome I looked and how great the pictures were.

I walked off the set and looked at the girl on the screen and proceeded to find every fault there ever could be.

Me after the shoot

My face was round (which is ridiculous because my face is actually fairly thin)
My knees were fat.
My butt was huge.

Negative self talk proceeded. I couldnít see the success that I am, and I am a success. You see after losing that weight and working so hard, that is the one thing I wonít even allow myself to take away from me. Yesterday I couldnít find anything right with the photos. Today, I have remembered who I am and who I have become. Itís funny the makeup artist said you just changed the outsideÖ. But honestly, I changed the inside. I was never a bad person, but I wasnít the person I am now.

I am no longer scared to try. The girl that I used to be would never have allowed her start weight to be published let alone put a picture of her entire body up. This girl, no matter how scary it seems, is doing just that. The old Chelle would never think she could run, this Chelle knows that she can only get better. The old Chelle rarely finished what she started; this Chelle wonít stop until sheís done.

Donít worry about where you are going to end up and when you are going to get there; enjoy this moment that you are in. Enjoy the control, the determination that you have right this very second. Reflect on it and memorize the feeling. Now that youíve done that, when you think you need that pizza or you think you can go for the walk or do the workout, remember that feeling that you just had and do it anyway. Because you will never regret not eating the hamburger or dessert and you will probably never regret the walk. If I canít inspire you to do anything else, be inspired to believe.


  
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BINGOBUNNY14 6/12/2014 12:00PM

    I am amazed and you look fantastic...A true inspiration... emoticon

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LADYJ6942 7/24/2013 8:57PM

    Congrats!!!

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ARKPLE 7/23/2013 5:37PM

    I've lost 142 pounds as well. Congrats on your magazine debut and your photo shoot. You deserve every moment of the royal treatment you received. And, thanks for rallying for our friend Mandi. Best to you and all the Spies, ~~ Barbara

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TRACYZABELLE 7/15/2013 4:54AM

    as lovely as ever!

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LCDM83 7/13/2013 7:46AM

    emoticon emoticon You go girl! I'm glad you overcame that negative voice and enjoyed yourself.

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SLJ182 7/13/2013 12:33AM

    What a great job and an inspiration!! emoticon

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MAMACHAMBS 7/10/2013 9:02PM

    I am SO impressed with your journey! You have proven that it can be done. It just takes hard work and determination!

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MRSTABER 7/10/2013 1:14PM

    amazing blog!!

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GINGERHAWK 7/10/2013 9:42AM

    Awesome blog - you really have had such an amazing and inspiring journey. You rock!

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HERA22VA 7/10/2013 9:31AM

    Wow! Congrats on all your hard work and dedication! emoticon

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 7/10/2013 8:00AM

    A well deserved treat - a PHOTOSHOOT!! And you are an inpsiration... and people WILL better their lives as a result of your story.. What an honor... So proud of you.. sooo happy for you..

Annie

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G_TWINS 7/10/2013 7:14AM

    I believe in you, I believe in me. I believe everyone can do better and be better. You just have to get out there and put it into action.

Chelle, You are a wonderful example of this! Thank you for continuing to inspire.

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LRSILVER 7/10/2013 5:13AM

    Great pictures.

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MASRITE 7/9/2013 11:33PM

    This is an awesome blog. I am so excited for you. Can't wait until the article comes out and I can read it. Those are the articles that excite me the most!!

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KUJAYHAWKGIRL 7/9/2013 10:10PM

    You are a rockstar! Thank you for your honesty. And for being an amazing inspiration!

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LORI3679 7/9/2013 9:10PM

    You're awesome!

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CHUNKYMONKEY36 7/9/2013 8:35PM

    So proud of you girl, you inspire me endlessly!

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LUCYLU22 7/9/2013 7:25PM

    Congrats to you, Chelle! You are truly an amazing woman, so glad to have gotten to know you along your journey! I am glad that you had a wonderful time at the photo shoot, YOU so deserve that kind of day!!!!

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SANDLADY48 7/9/2013 6:58PM

    You are amazing, can't wait to see the magazine! So proud to know you.

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BEACHY_KEEN 7/9/2013 6:37PM

    Good for you!!!

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ZOE13O 7/9/2013 5:44PM

    Great job you look amazing and are an inspiration to all!
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DIANNEMT 7/9/2013 5:42PM

    Glad the shoot was great!!

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KEEPTRYING4ME 7/9/2013 5:11PM

    Thanks for sharing! You are very much an inspiration :D Woo Hoo!

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RUNNERJUDY 7/9/2013 4:59PM

    I was on television once and I LOVED the stylist doing my makeup & hair! Similarly, when the show aired, I could only be embarrassed by my faults. Your face is NOT fat & I'm sure your butt isn't either so let it go & enjoy your moment. You have worked so hard to get here!

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WRITINGBLUEHAWK 7/9/2013 4:51PM

    Amazing!!! Congratulations on a healthier YOU!!

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KIMI_SILVA 7/9/2013 4:21PM

    Congratulations on your amazing success! You really are an inspiration. Thank you for that.

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DOOBRIE 7/9/2013 3:59PM

    You and your daughter are very beautiful. How is the dog you took in?

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GABRIELLE42 7/9/2013 3:48PM

    You have done a great job. Congratulations on all your success. I look forward to seeing the magazine pictures.

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AGPLCANDLELADY 7/9/2013 3:46PM

    Great Job!
You look amazing!

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JERSEYGRL4EVR 7/9/2013 3:41PM

    Congratulations! You are an inspiration!
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JANETRIS 7/9/2013 2:42PM

    Such brutal honesty Chelle....thanks for that! You look beautiful, and I am so proud of you for your accomplishments and for having the guts to share your story. emoticon emoticon

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SONYALATRECE 7/9/2013 2:34PM

    You have done an amazing job of setting, reaching, and surpassing your goal.

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 7/9/2013 2:29PM

    Your beautiful...no matter what you think. I am so proud to have gotten to know you and call you my Spark's friend.
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MAGGIEVAN 7/9/2013 2:28PM

    Fantastic! I am so glad you enjoyed your shoot. You are an inspiration to all.

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