Thursday, June 17, 2010
it's weird, this losing weight thing. i can't say it's been hard. i am not tempted by sweet treats and whatnot...and it's weird that for about the last two or three months people have been suddenly noticing i've lost weight. it's sort of embarrassing when people walk up to me and say OH MY GOD look at you.....or just not recognize me at all. i feel way healthier, but i really don't feel all that different. i mean, i am still the same me...though a happier version of me. i look back at my "biggest me" pictures and i can see that i don't still look quite like that, but i still don't feel thin by any stretch. i'm not sure what i'm trying to say...when will my head catch up with my body? when will i quit trying to try on x-large shirts? if i don't try things on i always buy the bigger size, assuming it will be just fine. i take a lot of things back.
so, i'm just wanting to see the me that everyone else sees.