Saturday, June 25, 2011
So, it's done. I ate only eggs for 3 whole days. Each day I also drank an average of 120 ounces of water.
In the end, I lost 3.8 pounds. I definitely think I might be doing an egg fast every month.
And if anyone is looking for a new way to eat eggs, make egg salad with melted butter. It's so yummy.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Really? Me? Making progress?
Holy moly, I think the sky has fallen!
In all seriousness, I honestly thought my days were over for seeing anything but the scale going up. But no, it's going down!! I always hoped I'd get "it" back and I would start seeing some positive changes, but I never really thought it would happen. It has though. I am feeling good about myself and my choices and the scale is cooperating. Now if I could just get my exercise cap on...
Anyway, the egg fast is going... eh. Eggs don't taste so great after the 2nd or so meal of just eggs. It's only 3 days though, I can do this! I've only got one meal left today and then tomorrow to go. If it causes the type of result I'm seeing, hell - I'm going to do a 3-day egg fast every month!! I know it's not only the eggs, I'm drinking double the water too. At the beginning of BLC18, I would only drink the 64oz to get the hp, but now I'm drinking about 120oz. And my bathroom is the most frequented room in the house too!
I even have my menu all planned out for the week after my fast!! Yay. There's some new recipes I can't wait to try and some old LC recipes that I really love and miss. I just need to get those recipes into SP, put them in my tracker and print out my grocery list and I'm good to go. It's amazing how easy SP makes that kind of thing.
Ok, done rambling now. Have a wonderful day!
Monday, June 20, 2011
When I weighed myself today, I had a 1 point something gain. I stood there asking myself "why did I gain when I've been doing so good?" And then, I started thinking and I realized if I am ever going to succeed in ANYthing. I need to stop being such an ignorant @ss. I need to be honest with people and especially myself. Eating all my meals according to plan means nothing if I snack in between. And I do. All.the.time. When I go to grab Hannah a snack, I take just one. Because you know... just one is okay. Right? Hah. No. And then comes lunch, I take a spoon of peanut butter while making her a sandwich, it's just peanut butter so it's all good. No worries. I'll eat better the rest of the day. Until the next snack. Until the next little temptation.
I can't for the life of me, figure out the key to this with me. Why the hell do I feel like I don't deserve to succeed just like anyone else? I could say it's all the crap from my childhood, or my 1st and really bad marriage, or losing my brother... but people go through tough times all the time and come out not weighing almost 300 freaking pounds. So, what's wrong with me? No one has EVER told me I deserve to suffer...except me. In my heart of hearts, I know it's not true. I know I deserve to be happy in my life and in my own skin, so why am I holding myself back all the time? Why can't I just let myself soar? I know I have greatness in me, I can feel it. So why? Why can't I just be me? The me that shines and conquers?
I guess if I look back just a few years, I really have come a long way. Back "then" I hated myself. I thought I sucked at everything including life. I don't know what made me finally see that I am actually a pretty good person who doesn't deserve to be pooped on in life like I have been in the past. Maybe overcoming this is the next step in my soul searching journey.
Anyway, I know I'm rambling. My words are flowing as the thoughts pop in my head, so I'm not even sure if any of this makes sense. I may have contradicted myself a few times as I "converse" with the inner me. But heck, who cares... maybe this will help me figure stuff out.
My plan? I'm going to take it one day at a time. That's really all I can do. I'm not waiting for a magic pill that give me motivation, I'm doing this. Now. Today. I'll take each day as it comes. What choice do I have really?
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