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I Hurt & Angered Someone -

Saturday, July 28, 2012

I blogged recently about a communication with another SP member that went completely in a different direction from what I intended or even dreamed was possible. She had done a huge amount of research on the Paleo diet and posted a wonderful blog about it. I asked if I could copy her email, print it, mark it up and use it as a foundation for my research on the same topic. I did not explain that I had looked into it before and had found so much conflicting info that I had set aside that avenue of research as I was so confused by what I read. I don't think that factoid would have helped. Unfortunately, I misunderstood her initial response which was a nicely worded suggestion that I should do my own research. Well, yes, that is true. To be honest, I was being lazy. I am a paralegal and do research all day long. By the time I get home, I am brain-dead and hoped to use her excellent research as a starting point. In law, attorneys and paralegals always use existing work from which to research or refine for the specific circumstance. That was my thinking and I did not realize how bad that would sound. My reply to her first answer made things worse.

To my dismay, I saw that she marked her page as private and I knew it was because of me. I feel sick about it. My lack of understanding about her boundaries, my blinders on so much that I did not understand that my request was offensive to her, to the point that she read it as a demand, and I kept the communication going. Ultimately, she felt I was demanding, that I had cornered her, did not respect her, that I wanted the info regardless of what she said and without consideration for her. That is not me at all.

As if I needed a reminder, but it is a good one. I need to be much more careful about email and other electronic communications. I really feel horrible about this.

I was amazed and impressed that she cared enough to email me this morning. She shared a lengthy blog about her take on the situation. I admire her courage and respect her integrity. I am humbled that she reached out to me to let me know how she felt. I now understand how badly, how clumsily I handled our first interaction. I do not say that she cared about me by sharing - that would be too egocentric of me. What she was doing, I think, was taking care of herself. Standing up for herself, clarifying thoughts on the situation. Another example for me. I am still not good at doing that for myself. At the same time, it was a "coachable moment" for me, as my VP would say. It's a lesson well taken.

We are not linked on SP and, regrettably, we probably never will be. I say regrettably sincerely. She opened her page again and I was able to read some of her other blogs and the comments about those blogs that she has received about what I did. What an eye-opener that was. I am not proud of me at all. She is a much better writer than I am and has a wonderful SP community around her. Had I not stubbed my toe so badly, we might have become SP friends and had a mutually supportive relationship. She is obviously a warm, compassionate and caring person with a zest for life that I always find a huge plus.

She showed me a lot and I now realize that I might have reacted just the same way she did had the situations been reversed. I am mortified! I wish I could undo what I did.

I really screwed up and the worst thing is I really hurt someone I don't even know and did it so thoroughly that there is likely no chance that fence can be mended.

  
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_RAMONA 7/29/2012 2:06AM

    "God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED - To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be." AUTHOR UNKNOWN

...here's to being better people together!
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_LINDA 7/29/2012 1:13AM

    So sorry you had this experience Mali. Its very rare to happen here on Sparks. But one thing. Sparks is an open forum. If you post a blog and your page is not set to private, anyone who wants to can read it and take what info they care to from it. So I think her reaction was way over the top. Like one of my Spark friends found out, when you google a topic, sometimes your blog will come up if you have written about it. I have found this out myself. As an experienced member of Sparks, she should know better. But the bottom line, is this site was meant to encourage and HELP people. Obviously, if you write something, you are hoping it will help your fellow members in some small way. Otherwise, why bother writing it?? No. I don't think you are totally at fault here.
I hope your Sunday is brighter and better..
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ISHIIGIRL 7/28/2012 9:48PM

    You can only control yourself. You can't control how she reacted or her subsequent actions. You have so much integrity I know you would never do anything to offend someone on purpose. It was big of her to reach out, but you are right. She was only taking care of herself. Now you need to take care of yourself. Choc it up to a lesson learned and move on. You have done everything in your power to make amends. Please give yourself more credit. You are a valuable spark friend and if you wanted to share or print out anything that I had posted I would be flattered. Sometimes people you meet are there for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. Take what you can from this and let it make you a better person. Your tops in my book! emoticon

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CARRAND 7/28/2012 6:52PM

    I'm not sure I understand what upset this person, but you've apologized and she's reached out to you, so I think things will be OK. Don't let it get you down.

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CATLADY52 7/28/2012 6:22PM

    Lessons learned are almost always harder on the student. The will be more times in the future so just remember how you feel now and approach the situation in a positive manner. emoticon

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FUNKYG1 7/28/2012 4:18PM

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We all make mistakes, do not dwell on this and beat yourself up. Your request seems to be a genuine need for more info. In future, maybe read some previous blogs so you know where that person is coming from. The thing is, it takes two to react which is something we tend to forget sometimes. Have a rosy day.

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BSOD Puts an End to My Weekend Work Plans!

Friday, July 27, 2012

I've been mentoring 3 students this summer. My boss, the managing counsel for the department took us out for lunch today. One student was sick, so he will take us all out again when she's back - really generous of him. After lunch, I had my one-on-one with him. I came back to my desk after that to find my computer making a noise I'd never heard before and I could not do anything. I lugged it over to IT and they quickly determined that my hard drive was dead = BSOD "Blue screen of death" (I actually had a black screen!)

Heartsick, I told my boss and tried to tell his boss, our General Counsel (GC) and supervising attorney for the document production about it. I told his exec admin and headed back to my desk. One of the techs was starting to install my "new" computer. I won't know until Monday if the files can be saved. While I was talking with him, my phone rang and it was my GC. I thought he would come *unglued*, but he did not. He told me this is a sign I should stay home this weekend and not come in to work. He asked me if I had the copies of the documents we produced (I do). He was very calm. I am in knots worrying about emails and other things on my hard drive....So no OT for me (there goes my vacation money).

  
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CARRAND 7/28/2012 6:47PM

    Too bad about the lost overtime. Maybe next weekend? Enjoy your time off.

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ERINMARIE424 7/28/2012 10:48AM

    That's a bummer. I know it will be hard to relax this weekend while you worry about the computer. Like they said, maybe it's a sign you need to take some time for you. Hope you can find something that gets your mind off the problem and have some fun!
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MISSY455 7/28/2012 1:54AM

    I hope you can relax this weekend, and find some way to pamper yourself.

My fingers are crossed that the IT guys can save your info. No amount of stressing over it this weekend is going to change the outcome, so deep breaths and let it go until Monday.


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_LINDA 7/28/2012 1:33AM

    Sorry about your computer (but glad it was not your personal computer, but a work one) With the amount of over time you are always putting in, you should make up for this in no time. Maybe it was a sign you needed time off to rest and recover. So don't look a gift horse in the mouth and try to relax and enjoy your weekend for a change. This should give you lots of time to find something fun to do. I never watch TV, but I am interested in watching the Olympics, always have been although I have never been into sports. Its nice to cheer your team from your country on. There are actually some athletes from Saskatchewan competing, so I want to try catch them in action.
Enjoy your weekend! that is an order!

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Immediate & Short Term Goals: Day 6

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Goals met:
Water
Kettlebells

Partial
short walk
within range in food (over on calcium and salt)

Not met
fun (unless you call work fun, which I often do!)

  
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NONIE_C 7/27/2012 7:23AM

    Way to keep going on those daily goals!!!
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MISSY455 7/27/2012 2:26AM

    emoticon Keep striving!

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ERINMARIE424 7/26/2012 9:22PM

    Good job on achieving your goals!
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_LINDA 7/26/2012 10:38AM

    Wow! I thought your work was so highly stressful and too much of it!! So glad you can find enjoyment in it. Not too many people are lucky to have a job they really enjoy! Well done with the water and kettelbells! That is fantastic!!
Hope you have a Totally Terrific Thursday!
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CARRAND 7/25/2012 10:10PM

    I'm glad work was fun for you. It sounds like you had a good day.

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Immediate & Short Term Goals: Day 5

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Slip slidin' away!
I will end the day over on calories and under in water and exercise.
But I did not binge, throw in the towel or trash the day.
I did walk, but I left my pedometer at work, so I am not sure what I did.

Tomorrow is another day and I am going to have a great one!
Goals for tomorrow:
10 glasses of water
kettlebells
walking
stay within ranges with food
do something fun

  
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CARRAND 7/25/2012 9:55PM

    I love your goals! I know you can achieve them.

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CATLADY52 7/25/2012 7:10PM

    Have you made maps of where you can walk? It doesn't take long to map out several routes, name them andViole! you can then plug in whichever route you decide on. I finally did that using the Fitness Tracker at SparkPeople. emoticon emoticon

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_LINDA 7/25/2012 1:57AM

    GREAT goals!! Go get 'em tiger!! I especially want to know what was fun ;)
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Immediate & Short Term Goals: Day 4

Monday, July 23, 2012

Yesterday was a pass. I did not feel well at all and did next to nothing.

Today,
I had 10 glasses of water
I walked for 27 minutes
I logged in all of my food
I did some stretching to try to relieve the stiffness

In other news: my VP told my boss that the current round of layoffs is over. I survived!
Thank you, God! Thanks, SP family, for your support and good wishes.

  
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NONIE_C 7/24/2012 9:14PM

    Great job!!! emoticon
I love meeting my daily goals!
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CATLADY52 7/24/2012 6:50PM

    emoticon You are worth it!

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CARRAND 7/24/2012 12:38PM

    WooHoo! You met your goals & your job survived!

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_LINDA 7/24/2012 9:56AM

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I love my stretching, it sure helps keep me going in between exercising and makes sure I have no soreness from it.
So glad you have kept your job, hope that takes some of your stress out for you. Have a good day!
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MISSY455 7/24/2012 2:01AM

    emoticon on meeting your goals today!

So glad the current round of layoffs is over for you. It has to be so stressful at your job with all of that going on.

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