Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Last night, when I got home and logged into my personal email account, I got a huge surprise. An HR rep for a local high tech company found my info on LinkedIn and asked me if she could send me a job description for an openinng in her company. She thought I might be a good fit. Flattered and curious, I said yes. Her reply was almost immediate including the description and the salary range.
I realize this is analogous to those "preapproved" credit card offers. I have been invited to apply. It does not mean I get it. But, still. It was a great surprise!
The floor of the salary range is more than $20K more than I make. Of course, I read the description. Parts of the job I am familiar with, some I have zero or limited experience with (and no interest in).
I looked at their website and was intrigued by their business - it dovetails with my interests and past experience.
I did not sleep much last night. I emailed my resume this morning. She replaied that she had forwarrded it to the hiring manager for review.
In the meantime, I contacted two paralegal mentors. One said "go for it". The other said "run away!" I used to work with both and I trust their judgment. Turns out the one who said "run away" used to work at this company! What she shared with me about the company, their culture and their personnel made me want to take a shower.
Next time I research a company, I will include their name + the word "litigation". Yikes.
I am staying put for now. I love my job. I like and respect the people I work with. I have a short commute. I could only wish for more money, but this does not appear to be the right open door.
Thursday, July 05, 2012
This afternoon, I had the follow-up to Sunday's trip to the ER - a stress test. I've never had one and did not know what to expect. i was afraid I would fall, fall or otherwise make a complete fool of myself. I actually went longer than they needed and the test was a huge success. No heart problems, no hypertension.
Still no answer for the event that brought me to the ER on Sunday.
In other news, on the heels of learning of Christie's mastectomies, I learned another friend lost her sister this morning. Carolyn needed a lung transplant that did not happen.
Carolyn's fiance, Gary, died earlier this year for the lack of a kidney transplant.
Monday, July 02, 2012
Yvonne sent me an email yesterday saying that she had received my card and that we need to talk. Progress towards reconciliation? Not sure.
Late last week, I learned that Christi is undergoing a double mastectomy tomorrow. She said she found a lump about the size of a pencil eraser and this is the result! I am thankful she found it early! She just started a new job a few months ago and now this. The surgery follows several radiation treatments. I appreciate your prayers on her behalf.
Me? Going backwards fast. I learned that the leg pain is sciatica and I know the knee is arthritis and weight. I spent 8 hours at the ER last night. I was having shortness of breath and pain. The closest I can describe it is the feeling you get when you eat peanut butter and it gets stuck as you try to swallow. Three EKGs, two shots of morphine and a mega dose of motrin and a CT scan later, they could find nothing wrong. No heart trouble, no heart damage, no blood clots and, oh by the way, the CT scan reveals I have gall stones!
I still feel like crap and worked only a few hours. I came home and went to sleep for a while. It helped, but not enough.
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
After weighing it for a few weeks, I sent Yvonne a card. We have had a couple of training sessions at work that have gone better than I anticipated and I had hopes that they would break the ice, but there is no sign of thaw.
I picked up a card with purple butterflies (blank inside) with a purple envelope and gold hummingbird seal. Were we still friends, I know she would love it! In the card, I said there is a lot I want to say, but that I wanted to say only the two most important things - that I am sorry and never intended to hurt her and that, had I dreamed I would lose her friendship, I never would have started the conversation.
She had emailed me before I even understood how upset she was to let me know that I could talk with her only about work matters. I have respected that for a month, but I felt as if I were in a no-win situation. If I did not reach out and let her know I value her, then it would for certain be the end of any possible healing. By reaching out, I risk further negative response. But, since I mailed a card to her house, she cannot bring our employer into it and, I hope, I have not given her grounds for suit. I did, at the end of the card, state that if she truly does not want to talk with me, I will respect that, but that I felt our relationship being what it was it was worth one attempt.
In other news, layoffs are continuing. I am ok tonight. We shall see.
I am gaining weight and my knee has been so sore that it has been hard to move. Bending me knee is excruciating.
I had an advanced eye test on Saturday and learned that, unlike most people with astigmatism, mine is vertical in my eye. Unfortunately, I also learned that the specialist will want to see me often. I don't like him, but he is covered by my insurance. I'll give him another shot and see if my first visit with him in February was a fluke.
BF is back in town and my eldest cat is pulling her hair out in tufts.
Stress.......Yup. That covers it.
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Things have been happening lately. I've have come home so tired that I have not had the mental energy to string words together to draft a blog. The training session with Yvonne went better than I thought it would. I thought it broke the ice and we could move forward, but, no. There is zero relationship between us and it hurts. Late this week, I thought to myself, she's just like my mother. Mother chose not to be in my life and it is her loss. Thinking about it like that gave me about half a day's peace. Then I heard her laughing and chatting with someone else after which she walked past me without anything. I just don't understand how it could be that easy to throw away a friendship.
This is impacting me in huge ways. I am not sleeping. I am not eating right. I have no energy and no interest in taking care of myself. Last night I ate a whole pint of ice cream! Holy cow! I can't remember the last time I did something like that.
The other work stuff has been nuts. The request for production is completed, at least the first part. I am mentoring a few students this summer and have not had the time to spend with them because of the production. My boss is also their boss and he knows the situation. These are young students who are acting as if they need more supervision than I can give.
The training schedule for the new system has slipped by three weeks. That means my vacation to see my brother has been truncated and I am very lucky that I get any time at all. At first, I was going to take a week off and visit my brother, nephew and stepmother in New Mexico. The schedule slippage killed that. Then I was told I could leave after work on Thursday and be back on Monday. That would have meant, with travel time, less than 48 hours to visit. Then my boss's boss got involved and I get to leave early on Wednesday afternoon, arrive in ABQ after midnight and have all Thursday, Friday and Saturday with my family! I fly back on Sunday, Aug 12. I can't wait and I am so grateful for this partial week!
My partner comes home this coming Friday. He's been out of town for 8 months. I wanted the day off, but have not heard if I get it or not. My boss was off Friday and will be off most of the next 2 weeks. His boss is off this coming week as is another attorney. A small part of me is jealous that they get to take the time off and I don't get as much as I wanted. My brother and nephew are traveling from Japan -it's not often I get to see them!
In the back of my mind, I anticipate the training schedule will slip and it will turn out that I could have had the entire week off....
Next Saturday, they're doing a CT scan on my eyes. I did not even know they did stuff like that. I can't help but wonder. I am not worried. I expect they'll find out my eyes are fine, just weird...
It is very, very hot here. Praying for rain!
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