Saturday, March 20, 2010
Thank you, SparkFriends, for your birthday wishes! Most of my family has been silent today.
I had a list of things to do today and did not complete all of them. What I did do was go to SportsAuthority to see about the running shoe sale. I have very short, very wide feet. That severely limits my shoe choices and, as was the case today, means the shoes I can wear are not on sale. But I found a pair of running shoes and, as I was testing them, was reminded that I dare not move without a sports bra! I found one in my size, no small feat (does that count as double entendre?!) and a pair of shorts. I am NOT happy about the shorts, but they were on sale and fit. The shorts are not what I'm unhappy about, it's seeing my legs! Don't think pants of any type will work. I am far too short and I am not about to hem something so I can run in it...As I looked at myself in the fitting room mirror, I had to remind myself that, when I see runners, fit or not so fit, I think "You go, girl!". I'm not saying anyone will say that as this turtle gets moving, but it does remind me that people are more concerned about their own lives than how I look as I continue my journey towards health and being physically fit. At the last minute, my boyfriend decided to get a pair of running shoes so we could run together! I was surprised. He'd said his knees were too bad, but then added, "You won't be running for a while. It will be more like walking fast." Hmmm.
I'm still not in balance with food, but that will change tomorrow. I don't expect the weigh in tomorrow to be wonderful. With my being below in food for 3 consecutive days, not getting my exercise in and today's surprise appearance of TOM, I don't know what to expect...
No matter what, I am not going to beat myself up about it. I'll just start a new week and I will probably do it breaking in my running gear!
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Today was an excellent day! I am not 100% yet, but that does not matter. I didn't have a dedicated walk, but I did a lot of walking throughout the day and used the stairs at every opportunity. The fact that I got winded a little and my legs started to burn did not surprise me, but neither was I deterred.
The day is ending with me being within range for all nutrition except calcium. I have a hard time getting enough because the dairy fat scares me! I have dairy in my cereal and in my coffee, but not often elsewhere. Still striving for balance in nutrition. I was amazed how an apple threw me into "within range" when I was below before I added it to my tracker. Learning...
The medicine for shingles has to be a wonder drug, akin to sulfa drugs and the polio vaccine! I know I will be 100% on Monday.
I had lunch with a friend at KFC. She had a meal that she loves and, while it smelled good, my eyes looked at it and, internally, I was screaming "bad carbs! fat!" I had the grilled chicken caesar salad, skipped the croutons and had about half of the salad dressing packet. And a biscuit. It really sucked up a huge chunk of my nutritional allotment for the day! I think it was a good choice given where we were. Can you believe they don't have mustard? I asked about a grilled chicken sandwich, but it comes with mayo. Even in my unwise eating days, I did not like mayo!
I did a little with my free weights and was pleasantly surprised to discover that I could do 25 reps! I started with 10 and had gone to 15 before I got sick. I wasn't sure how this would go tonight and thought I would just try and see. Nice. Baby steps. I read about SparkFriends doing a LOT more than I am and I am envious, impressed and discouraged all at the same time.
I know there is a mental block in addition to the physical limitations for my exercise and I just need to find the key to break down that block! I heard a commercial yesterday from SportsAuthority saying all of their running shoes are on sale. There is one near my house. I am going to walk there (notice I didn't say "go there" which would imply driving) and see if they have something for short wide feet! I am not happy with the little bit that I've lost and I know I need to get more active. I hope my knees can handle running and I won't know until I try. My boyfriend doesn't think I can do it. He wrecked his knees through heavy weight lifting (why do guys think they must look as if their shirts will rip if they flex a muscle?) and running.
I made the mistake when I was a teen of allowing someone else's opinion influence my career decision and I have always wondered "what if?" I cannot allow his opinion to govern my fitness - my life is at stake. If I don't lose this tonnage, I face an unhealthy, unhappy and short future.
Trainer James has been booted off the SP site for violating the SP policies about offsite communications in a competitive manner. I did not fullly understand the email, but I am disappointed. I suspect there is more to the story. He has responded with a continued endorsement of SP. I am saddened because I sensed that he might be able to help me break down the mental barrier I have about exercise.
I have to write two papers this weekend but I also want to read The Spark. I set it aside and need to get back into it. It's right next to my computer, so I am reminded all the time! I want to start the 28 day thing and I would love to start that tomorrow.
Why tomorrow? Why the odd title for this blog? My personal new year starts tomorrow. Hard to believe!
I would be remiss if I didn't thank my SparkFriends for their compassion this week while I've been sick and unable to stay on plan in any way. I feel certain that my SP family's contact kept me from sliding into a journey-ending depression. I love you all and if we ever get to meet in person - hugs all around!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
As I was stepping out of the shower this morning, I remembered I sit on the same floor, only a few cubes away, from a young woman expecting twins. I called my boss in our Knoxville office and asked what he thought I should do. I don't have the shingle blisters, but I have the nerve pain and the sickness, and I am on the antiviral. Two doctors and a nurse in phone consults yesterday said I am not contagious, but my boss and I were not comfortable with risking Kelly and her babies' health. So I stayed home. I watched the two movies for school and slept a lot. I still have to write the two papers.
I'm chafing because I am afraid that I'll lose my tenuous hold on the exercise habit. I am once again way below in the nutrition, but I am feeling better. Tomorrow should be better.
Thank you, Spark Friends, for your well wishes and kind comments!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
For the second day in a row, I am way below on food. Nothing sounded edible. I called the advice nurse and eventually got to do a phone consult with a doctor (my primary was not available). I told the doctor that I've had shingles 3 times and that I had 2 of the 3 primary symptoms (feeling lousy, burning itch, but not the blisters). He decided to err on the side of caution and gave me a couple of prescriptions. I've had Acyclovir before and it truly is a wonder drug. That will take care of the virus. The other is something I've never had, something that will deal with the nerve end pain. I'm so glad I went! But this is playing havoc with eating and exercise.
I got something over 7,000 steps today, but, if I remember right, I need to avoid light with Acyclovir and I know for sure I'm going to want to avoid any kind of friction (clothes rubbing). Without the blisters, I am not contagious, so I'll be watching that closely.
My 10% experiment is on hold until this is over!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Today should not count on the experiment. The only exercise I got today was hurrying from the bedroom to the facilities. I've eaten almost nothing today and only one 10 oz cup of hot tea (no caffeine in it). Later in the day, I got a headache and drank a diet soda thinking it was a caffeine headache, but it was not.
I'll probably drag into work tomorrow, but I am not looking forward to it, not for the work, but the 8 hours of still not feeling great. But I don't want to burn through my sick time this early in the year. Sigh.
On the positive side, I did not write the day off and start stuffing myself in a vain effort to feel better. I have logged in what little I did eat and, other than exercise, have gotten as many Sparkpoints as I could today. It's going to be an early night and I have the glorious opportunity of having a fresh start tomorrow! Happy St. Patrick's Day! I hope everyone has fun and celebrates in such a way that no one gets hurt...
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