Wednesday, March 17, 2010
For the second day in a row, I am way below on food. Nothing sounded edible. I called the advice nurse and eventually got to do a phone consult with a doctor (my primary was not available). I told the doctor that I've had shingles 3 times and that I had 2 of the 3 primary symptoms (feeling lousy, burning itch, but not the blisters). He decided to err on the side of caution and gave me a couple of prescriptions. I've had Acyclovir before and it truly is a wonder drug. That will take care of the virus. The other is something I've never had, something that will deal with the nerve end pain. I'm so glad I went! But this is playing havoc with eating and exercise.
I got something over 7,000 steps today, but, if I remember right, I need to avoid light with Acyclovir and I know for sure I'm going to want to avoid any kind of friction (clothes rubbing). Without the blisters, I am not contagious, so I'll be watching that closely.
My 10% experiment is on hold until this is over!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Today should not count on the experiment. The only exercise I got today was hurrying from the bedroom to the facilities. I've eaten almost nothing today and only one 10 oz cup of hot tea (no caffeine in it). Later in the day, I got a headache and drank a diet soda thinking it was a caffeine headache, but it was not.
I'll probably drag into work tomorrow, but I am not looking forward to it, not for the work, but the 8 hours of still not feeling great. But I don't want to burn through my sick time this early in the year. Sigh.
On the positive side, I did not write the day off and start stuffing myself in a vain effort to feel better. I have logged in what little I did eat and, other than exercise, have gotten as many Sparkpoints as I could today. It's going to be an early night and I have the glorious opportunity of having a fresh start tomorrow! Happy St. Patrick's Day! I hope everyone has fun and celebrates in such a way that no one gets hurt...
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Increasing my upper calorie limit and some of the other metrics seems to have helped in one sense. I did not have that crashing sleepiness after eating which made me more productive at work - a real win.
I also did not feel hungry nor have bizarre cravings, despite the plethora of Girl Scout cookies at work!
Somehow, I got in 10,468 steps, even without my lunch time walk. I still felt very sluggish and my knee feels as if it's about 4 times too wide. I tried a new exercise (squats). WOW, are those hard! I am so out of shape! I do the hip flexors almost every day and can tell that they are helping to improve my balance.
However, the day ended badly. I blogged last week mentioning a coworker and friend who was feeling sorry for herself and how that made it hard to interact with her at work. She is also the person helping me do my graduation stuff. Today, she had a bee in her bonnet and wanted to get working on it after we'd talked earlier and agreed that I was going to write what I wanted. She started telling me what the etiquette rules are and what needs to be said. I had already said I wanted something more personal, more me. I was a bit perturbed and it showed. I was rather tart and instantly regretted it.
I have one more week of this quarter and two papers to write. I cannot get my head around graduation 13 weeks beforehand...That's no excuse and I feel terrible for snapping at her! Some of that may be due to my hypoglycemic dip. I never see those coming and, by the time I do, it takes a few days to fully recover...
I did not tell her about that - I was afraid she would think I was offering an excuse and I didn't want her to feel disrespected...My stomach hurts! In the past, that would have triggered the need to eat an entire sleeve of Ritz crackers and fully sugared root beer. But food is not the answer to an emotional stress...
Sunday, March 14, 2010
After looking forward to Sunday morning most of the week, I am a bit deflated. I felt thinner, I felt as if I were making significant progress. The feedback this morning was disappointing. Down half a pound (still better than last week's 2/10ths, but not what I was expecting.) The tape measure continues to give measures that mystify - down an inch here, up a quarter there, a very mixed bag. Net change - down half an inch.
So, fighting my old, preSparkPeople self, I am not going to give in to that voice in my head that is saying I'm not trying hard enough, I am failing, etc. I am, instead, going to ignore the disappointment and that voice ("shut up!") and try somthing different this week.
Over the past two weeks, I'd been getting a message to change some of my fitness goals because I am working out much more than I did when I started. The message said something about changing calories and I was initially hesitant to do that. Part of that is the still-tentative relationship I have with exercise. If I change the calories, that means a commitment to exercise. The supportive feedback on the message boards and from SparkFriends was not enough to assuage my inner feelings. This morning, I am stunned, hurt, disappointed and.......I just don't know what to think.
So, I am going to do what I call a 10% experiment this week. I raised my calories and most other nutritional metrics by 10%. We'll see if that makes a difference. I figure that's a more healthy attitude than some others I could have chosen. The other thing it does is make me commit to maintaining if not increasing the exercise. Slacking off on that is not an acceptable option.
I have my new pedometer that works! I have my free weights! I have a DVD for beginner Pilates mat work! I have a DVD for hula! (I just need to find room to do those...!)
Maybe this will also address the crashing fatique that immediately follows eating!
I welcome feedback/input/personal experiences from my SparkFriends on this topic! What have you done? What did you learn?
"Beware the Ides of March" you unwanted pounds because I am going to keep pressing on!
Saturday, March 13, 2010
I was laid off from job #2 at the end of October 2009 and, aside from the significant impact on cash flow, getting used to having weekends off has been slow in coming. I have worked 2 or 3 jobs for most of the 20+ years I've lived here. Recently, I have found myself looking forward to the weekends, even though nothing else has changed.
That may be attributed to the influence of SparkPeople! I find myself waking up early to get on the site and start my day right. I look forward to the opportunity of getting in good exercise time. Today was a gorgeous blue sky day and very cool, which made for great walking weather.
This morning, I logged on with my cup of coffee and my Maine Coon, Juneau, decided to be very cuddly! I spent a while with her which I loved! In the past, I have sometimes been so zoned in on what I needed to accomplish because time is of such a premium that I have not, as the saying goes, taken time to stop and smell the roses.
I didn't get everything done that I wanted to do, but, except for an odd period in the afternoon, it was a great day! I had my usual breakfast (Kashi cereal!) and then we headed out to do the errands. I meant to grab a piece of fruit and water to take with me, but forgot. I bought a bottle of water at the store (only 50 cents!) and we had Subway sandwiches for lunch. I had suddenly gotten very hungry and knew I would not last for the drive home and time to prepare something. This week, I've noticed that immediately after eating, I am exceedingly tired. Today was no exception. I came home and immediately headed for a nap.
When Bill came to wake me up, I lay there thinking that I did not want to move. I was so tired that I had the thought I could just die right there. Not sleepy, just so lacking in energy. I thought about going far over on my calories just to see if my energy level improved and, as I lay there, thought there was no way I could take a walk.
After a while, I did get up. One of the things I bought this morning was a new pedometer. Wanting to try it out made me get out the door and start walking. The pedometer works! 1.7 miles and over 5,000 steps! I love the charge that I get out of seeing those numbers! I marvel at that - I bought a pedometer years ago, could not figure out how to use it and gave up.
In a continuing quest to figure out what I should be doing, I read some of the posts on the nutrition fitness board. Coach somebody suggested I change something in my exercise and nutrition so that the site would recalculate the amount of calories I should be consuming. I made those adjustments and no recalculation occured. I think I will have to experiment. That has elements of being out of control (maybe just between my ears) and I am unaccountably uncomfortable with that. When I was on diets, there were all kinds of creative reasons and ways to game the system. This, however, is not a diet, so I am not interested in essentially cheating myself. But, the stronger element is the need to figure out why that fatigue happens, not just for myself but for my employer. I am a borderline hypoglycemic, so maybe I should make some adjustments along those lines. Interestingly, the walk revived me. Ahhhhhh!
During the walk, I encountered one patch of rough pavement that almost made me fall. I did not fall! My balance IS improving! Not only that, the lower back pain was very slight and only towards the end of the first half of the walk. I sat for about 30 seconds and we continued. It did not recur on the way home. We walked the longer way home and, as we walked, I reminded Bill that when we used to walk, I would reach for the nearest fence or light and hang on while my lower back protested. I am SO glad that is in the past!
I absolutely cannot wait to weigh in and pull out the tape measure tomorrow morning!
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