Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Today is my older brother's birthday. It is his 41st birthday in heaven. He died saving another boy's life. In death, the world saw he was a hero, but he was and is my hero in life. I thought about eating out for dinner, but traffic was too much, so I just came home. I thought about buying some sweets for dessert and walked to the corner store, but did not like anything I saw there. If only I'd stopped there, this would be a celebratory blog. I smashed a banana with chocolate flavored almond butter and spread it on some cinnamon graham crackers. In the background was an emotional story on that show called "Freaky Eaters", I had never seen the show before, but was doing dishes when it came on and did not change the channel when a story similar to mine came on. I cannot blame it on the emotional triggers. I should have changed the channel.
A few days ago was my 2 year anniversary on SparkPeople. I meant to blog, thought about it a few days before, but did not remember the day of. Perhaps it's because I am not pleased with how this journey has gone over the past year. I am not anywhere near my goal weight, not anywhere near making the full lifestyle change I thought would be part of my life by now.
I honestly am not sure I can succeed. That scares me because I know my life and the quality of it is at stake.
This is not fishing for encouragement or compliments or whatever. It is where I am today. I do not even dare fully express my thoughts.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
The leader of one of my teams emailed me the following:
Some of you may not be aware of a new SP feature recently added before members were advised.
There now is a new share bar added to our blogs that allows other members who "like" them to share them on their Facebook wall. Is this something you want? Many of us discuss personal thoughts, feelings and weight loss information in our blogs on SP that we'd just as soon not share with the Facebook and Twitter world. This new feature is a default setting on our SparkPages, however, it can be turned off.
If you'd like to turn this new feature off,
Go to your SparkPage.
Click on Edit My SparkPage.
Uncheck the "Show share bar on my blog posts" option on the upper right of the page.
Save your changes.
While nothing that we share on the internet is really private (for that reason alone we should be cautious as to what we do say in our blogs) and many of you may not be concerned about this new default setting on SP, this was new info to me and I wanted to pass it on as I only learned about it from a member on another team.
I have a Facebbok account, but I do not share anything about SP on it. I am leery of Facebook's respect for privacy, so I am very careful about how I use it. I DO enjoy being in touch with distant family and friends, but do what I can to minimize chances for anyone attempting to do nefarious things with my information.
This is, of course, a personal decision. Other people may have a different comfort level.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Some of you may have seen that commercial about Special K "lose 6 pounds in 2 weeks". I got an email about it, so, just because I am a curious person, I clicked through to their website, entered my stats and got a message "Sorry, you need to see your doctor. We are unable to help you at this time." Wow!
I was about to say something like "isn't it great that I have already made progress on my journey via SparkPeople because otherwise I would have such a sense of failure." But I can't say that because, as I typed that paragraph, I realized I was eating MORE CARBS!
I am obviously not in a good mental/emotional state! Yikes! I'd laugh except I'd probably start crying!
Monday, January 09, 2012
Not eating on track, but I have been choosing to go up stairs more often. I lost track how many times I went up stairs. I cannot yet walk down the stairs without knee troubles, but being able to walk up stairs is progress.
I did laundry at the laundromat this evening and noticed that carrying the baskets was a lot easier.
Progress in baby steps is still to be celebrated!
Thursday, January 05, 2012
Today's WWAW meeting gave me some food for thought. Talking about old vs new thinking about food. I shared that I no longer view food as "good" or "bad",
that food is neutral. I have replaced those labels with "healthy" or "better" or "unwise". Subtle difference, but the terms are not so emotionally charged.
Still thinking about some of the other things we discussed. Exercise is still a hurdle for me.
Speaking of which, I can now walk up four flights of stairs without pain. I cannot do the same walking down the stairs. A small improvement, but I will take it!
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