Sunday, October 02, 2011
I have become increasingly sporadic in blogging. That reflects on the sort of spectator position I have taken with my SP journey. Of course, that means I have not met any of my weightloss or conditioning goals.
Yes, I want the tonnage to be gone but, no, I don't want to exert the energy to make it happen. The lack of energy is partly due to an ongoing depression of a general nature.
Rather than continuing to wallow and waste time, I am going to "act as if until I am". I am going to act as if I care about my body. Today I am going to walk to the hardware store and pay my bill instead of driving.
One thing about SP that I don't like is that you can't save exercises (the emails with the how-to and pictures), but I am going to commit to learning one new exercise a day. That's very elementary, but it's a start.
Today's was in today's email: Seated Rows with Dumbbell
I'm also going to prep my food for the week.
My incentive for October: the new SparkPeople cookbook. If I am consistent about my food and this exercise plan, then I will get it. If not, I won't.
I intend to blog every day about the exercise portion. Please hold me accountable!
Sunday, September 04, 2011
My A-Z list
A. Age: Qualified for AARP membership- 'nuff said!
B. Bed size: Queen, not big enough for partner, tiny cat who thinks the bed is her throne and me!
C. Chore you dislike: Pick one - the word chore does imply something you have to do that maybe isn't on your list of things you want to do: for me, ALL of them!
D. Dogs: None, except my my heart. My dad had a Norwegian Elkhound that I loved. My stepmother has a Great Pyrenees that is just a big love!
E. Essential start to your day: a good cup of coffee. I really like African coffees -
Ethiopian Harrar, Tanzania Peaberry...
F. Favorite color: What? I have to choose? I love the whole rainbow!
G. Gold or silver: most of my jewelery has both.
H. Height: 4'10
I. Instruments you play(ed): Piano, organ, harpsichord, guitar, autoharp, recorder
J. Job title: Paralegal, Contract Analyst, Legal Services Support
K. Kids: None unless you count my two cats!
L. Live: San Francisco Bay Area, mid Peninsula
M. Mom's name: Holly, Stepmother #1 Suzanne, Stepmother #2 Sharon, Adopted Mom Dorothy
N. Nicknames: Partner calls me Little Bunny or Bunny
O. Overnight hospital stays: I was a preemie, so I stayed in the hospital over 3 months at birth, about a month when I was 14 with my first orthopedic surgery, probably a total of 10 days over the 5 surgeries on my shattered elbow. Possible bone spur surgery this year...
P. Pet peeves: Too many to enumerate!
Q. Quote from a movie: "What would you have me do? Give Out? Give Up? Give In?" - Eleanor of Aquitaine (Katharine Hepburn), Lion in Winter. Speaking to King Henry the 8th (Peter O'Toole)
R. Righty or Lefty: Righty
S. Siblings: no full now- my oldest brother died when I was 14. I was the middle second child of that marriage and became the only. Both parents remarried, so I have four half sisters from Mother's 2nd marriage and my brother and another sister from dad's second marriage. Unfortunately, I am in touch only with the two from Dad's side (the door is open to the other four, but they've not chosen to have me in their lives).
T. Time you wake up: Usually 5
U. Underwear: functional
V. Vegetables you don't like: Southern: black-eyed peas, okra, greens. My first experience with southern food was the college cafeteria in Arkansas - probably not the best intro!
W. What makes you run late: Nothing if I can help it - being tardy is a huge pet peeve of mine. My dad was in the Army and he didn't tolerate being late when I was growing up.
X. X-rays you've had: far too may to count. I am surprised I don't glow in the dark!
Y. Yummy food you make: BF makes most of our meals. When I cook, it's pretty basic but healthy and cheap food.
Z. Zoo animal favorites: Love the zoo! My favorites are big cats, koalas, meerkats
What's your A-Z List?
Sunday, July 24, 2011
I have not stepped on the scale for a while. I feel huge. I have been eating within range, more or less. But I have not been exercising. I went to the doctor Monday for the chronic heel pain and got some heel cups and gel insoles. The cups helped for a few days and the heel pain disappeared, but the high arch pain began. For the last two days, I have hardly been able to walk when I got up in the morning.
This week, I am covering for Yvonne at work. Her dad's funeral is Thursday and I said I would try to go, not realizing it will be quite a drive and would represent a big chunk out of the day. I am a nervous nellie when it comes to driving in unfamiliar areas. Why did I say I would try to go? It feels like something I should do. I also feel guilty for not visiting him at the VA hospital in Livermore, for not sending a get well card to him or a "thinking of you" card to her or her mom...the list is long.
I have been thinking of my SP journey, knowing I need to step it up literally and figuratively, but have not found the Spark to do so.
Then, tonight, I learn my dad's widow had a significant heart attack last week. Sharon's a sweetheart and we have a good relationship, if a bit distant. The distance is my fault. I get caught up in my day-to-day life and am not in touch with distant family and friends as I wish I were.
I'm still adjusting to the perimenopause situation on top of everything else!
Thanks for your prayers for Yvonne and her mom. Add to that request prayers for Sharon and the rest of my Indiana/Kentucky family...
Friday, July 22, 2011
Yesterday, Yvonne got me to cover her desk by saying she was working on a Quality Assurance project (QA take precedenceover everything). She said it would be for a couple of hours and she would call when she was ready to take over. The day was nearly done before she called to say a) she had not even started the QA project, b) she was "putting out fires" and c) she had attended the two hour training class I had skipped because I was covering her desk! Whatever the fires were, I have no idea because her desk, which involves customer money transactions is supposed to take precedence over everything except this QA emergency.
I was pretty steamed about this and felt very much taken for granted, especially since she did not follow protocol and go through my boss. He is on business travel this week, but in touch electronically.
It was this yesterday plus some car trouble on my mind when I got to work this morning. I was moving slowly because of the foot issues (the heel cups worked, but my foot now hurts in a different spot and I could hardly walk this morning.)
Yvonne's father died last night, according to the email from her boss. It was taken for granted by everyone that I would cover her desk. No word yet on whether that is for all of next week or only part. Don't misunderstand me. My heart is broken for Yvonne and her mom. I met her parents and liked them very much. It was hard to concentrate today because I was thinking of her.
Amazingly, I got everyone done on her desk and a couple of tasks on mine. My car started this evening! So maybe I don't have to replace the battery yet!
Victory - I did not eat mindlessly in response to stress and conflicting emotions. I feel badly for resenting Yvonne's actions yesterday in light of her loss. Dad died about 3 this morning, so it was well after whatever she was dealing with at work yesterday morning. I felt guilty for thinking the way I did, for not visiting her dad at the VA hospital last month and a million other things. But I did not bandaid those feelings with food!
I read that Greenpath is one of the federally approved debt management companies. I am considering doing something along those lines to help me handle the financial stress and burden. The possibility of a huge repair bill or car replacement looming may make it impossible...
Yvonne does not believe in God, per se, nor do I know her parents' religious leaning, if any. However, this is the first time she has ever dealt with death. She is an only child and her relationship with her dad was "complicated", so I know she could use prayers. Her mom is in the beginning stages of Parkinsons and Alzheimers, so she needs prayers, too.
And I probably need prayers for a better attitude!
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