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Yvonne & Her Mom Need Prayers

Friday, July 22, 2011

Yesterday, Yvonne got me to cover her desk by saying she was working on a Quality Assurance project (QA take precedenceover everything). She said it would be for a couple of hours and she would call when she was ready to take over. The day was nearly done before she called to say a) she had not even started the QA project, b) she was "putting out fires" and c) she had attended the two hour training class I had skipped because I was covering her desk! Whatever the fires were, I have no idea because her desk, which involves customer money transactions is supposed to take precedence over everything except this QA emergency.

I was pretty steamed about this and felt very much taken for granted, especially since she did not follow protocol and go through my boss. He is on business travel this week, but in touch electronically.

It was this yesterday plus some car trouble on my mind when I got to work this morning. I was moving slowly because of the foot issues (the heel cups worked, but my foot now hurts in a different spot and I could hardly walk this morning.)

Yvonne's father died last night, according to the email from her boss. It was taken for granted by everyone that I would cover her desk. No word yet on whether that is for all of next week or only part. Don't misunderstand me. My heart is broken for Yvonne and her mom. I met her parents and liked them very much. It was hard to concentrate today because I was thinking of her.

Amazingly, I got everyone done on her desk and a couple of tasks on mine. My car started this evening! So maybe I don't have to replace the battery yet!

Victory - I did not eat mindlessly in response to stress and conflicting emotions. I feel badly for resenting Yvonne's actions yesterday in light of her loss. Dad died about 3 this morning, so it was well after whatever she was dealing with at work yesterday morning. I felt guilty for thinking the way I did, for not visiting her dad at the VA hospital last month and a million other things. But I did not bandaid those feelings with food!
I read that Greenpath is one of the federally approved debt management companies. I am considering doing something along those lines to help me handle the financial stress and burden. The possibility of a huge repair bill or car replacement looming may make it impossible...

Yvonne does not believe in God, per se, nor do I know her parents' religious leaning, if any. However, this is the first time she has ever dealt with death. She is an only child and her relationship with her dad was "complicated", so I know she could use prayers. Her mom is in the beginning stages of Parkinsons and Alzheimers, so she needs prayers, too.

And I probably need prayers for a better attitude!

Thank you

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CARRAND 7/23/2011 8:42PM

    I'll pray for all of you.

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_LINDA 7/23/2011 12:54AM

    You have the right to feel as you did, Yvonne did take advantage of you and that is really unfair. The sorrow and sympathy you feel for her loss is a separate issue. So your 'attitude' is justified.
Getting financial help before things turn into a disaster sounds like a very smart move, take advantage of it..
Sending Yvonne and her Mom comforting thoughts..
I hope your weekend goes better for you..
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CHRYS13 7/22/2011 11:10PM

    In prayer for all of you! emoticon

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KAYE454 7/22/2011 11:10PM

  I will keep her in my prayers

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DEBBIEOLMOS57 7/22/2011 11:07PM

    i will pray for her and her family

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The Suspects are Identified (Tendonitis or Bone Spur)

Monday, July 18, 2011

I was wiped out this morning and took a vacation day (out of sick time). I slept all morning and spent most of the afternoon at Kaiser. The doctor on call needs to work on her listening skills. She asked me a question 3 times and I answered it the same way each time. While asking, she was typing almost as if she was catching up on some other work instead of updating my medical record.

Their scale showed me at 174.5 fully clothed with heavy shoes on, keys and cellphone in my pocket. Hmm.

My blood pressure was lower than it usually is and my temp, while higher than my norm is still lower than most people have.

The heel pain I've been dealing with for eons is either tendonitis or a bone spur. The doc leans towards tendonitis - in the heel, not the Achilles tendon. She gave me a scrip that I forgot to pick up and gel heel cups. If those don't work, then we go in for an x-ray to see if it is a bone spure.

From what I know about those, surgery is not a good option, though she mentioned that's what whey would do. Most people who get those removed have them return bigger and nastier than before. I know foot surgeries are no joke!

She also told me not to walk for more than an hour at a time. I did not say that I don't usually rack it up all at once!

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ACIMPEGGY 10/15/2011 9:28PM

    Ah, here it is!!

I have bone spurs behind my knees!

From what I understand, if it's one spur it might be worth having surgery. They recommended against that for me in my knees. Dr said 'spurs,' plural. Said chances are they wouldn't get them all.

I've tried the gel cups, but like thick foam better.

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MYSTERY4EVER 7/22/2011 10:49PM

    Was the doctor an orthopedist? Perhaps you can get a referral to see someone who can tell you definitively. Hope at least what she gave you eases the pain.

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WINTERGRRL 7/20/2011 11:07PM

    I'm sorry that your doctor doesn't listen to you... really frustrating. I have the same problem with mine. :( Hope a solution comes quickly for you.

(( hugs ))

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LIBBYFITZ 7/20/2011 7:40AM

    There is NOTHING worse than a Dr not listening! Very frustrating! Sorry you had to put up with such unprofessional behaviour! emoticon

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CARRAND 7/19/2011 10:46PM

    Good luck with the heel pain!

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MISSY455 7/19/2011 2:58AM

    I hope they figure this out for you soon. When I was having foot pain, the doctor originally thought bone spurs, but mine turned out to be Plantar Fascilitis. Anyway it is the tendons that run under the heel. Stretching exercises and a plastic bottle filled with water and frozen to run my foot back and forth on really helped. It took about 9 months or so too heal, but so much better than bone spurs and surgery. I am sending good vibes your way!

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_LINDA 7/19/2011 12:54AM

    Hope they figure out for sure what it is so proper treatment can begin. Small bits of fitness do add up as long as its not less then 10 minutes at a time. There is nothing really better than a pool workout. Deep water jogging is a great workout and would keep you off the foot entirely..
Hang in there, this should not have been going on this long without a proper diagnosis. Push for it. Either or doesn't cut it..

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MICHCLEARY 7/18/2011 11:11PM

    I would do some research and if you don't like where it's going, ask for a second opinion. I had a bone spur a long time ago and worked it out with some really tough massage therapy.

Sorry for your pain. One of the things they cut out in my shoulder surgery was a bone spur. :(~

Hang in there and maybe consider some pool workouts to get the weight off your foot.


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MELLYBEANS0919 7/18/2011 11:04PM

    That sounds really painful, so sorry. I hope you do not have to get foot surgery.Take care of yourself.

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Goal Met! I Get It!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

This morning, I optimistically set my status with the announcement that I planned to do 10,500 steps. When I left work this evening, I had 7,167 with an errand to do on the way home. I parked a good distance away from the pet food store, as I always do, and walked to the store. Hmmm. That was only about 800 steps from car to doorstop. I need more than that, I thought. As I paid for my purchase, I decided to walk the perimeter of the shopping center. I walked away from the store, down the side of the Costco store, all the way around the edge of the parking lot, past McDonalds and Krispy Kreme (I did not stop!).

I sure thought about it. I told myself, "I don't want to pay the consequences for giving in to having a doughnut right now. Part of the reason I need the exercise is that I am paying the consequences for past indulgences." The temptation passed when I thought about it like that.

Back at the car. Pedometer said I still was short about 1200 steps. I walked back to the pet store and back around Costco and then back to my car. I did it!

Wow! Do you know, one of the things I thought about was writing this blog. When it was something over 8,000 steps, I almost stopped. That's more than I usually do, I started to think. But - did I want to write another one of those "almost" blogs? I almost walked___but I was tired/my leg was sore/it was late/I was tired (fill in any excuse).

Not a huge deal in the grand scheme of things, but, I like the way this feels! I am smiling! I feel positive! I feel capable! My goal weight achievement is possible! All day long, as I walked, I felt thinner, I felt taller, I felt good. Even with the sore tendon! Victory!

How sweet!

I finally "get" one of the cornerstones of SparkPeople! And, yes, please remind me of this the next time I dare to post another "almost" blog!



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WONDEROONA 7/16/2011 10:01AM

    WAY TO GO!!!! You can do this. You are working hard and you deserve the rewards of a healthy lifestyle!!

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CARRAND 7/13/2011 10:10PM

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MALPAIT2 7/13/2011 10:51AM

    Great job!! You did it, what a great inspiration!

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_LINDA 7/13/2011 12:45AM

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Way to stick with it! It is hard to take another step when you feel tired, sore, etc., but in the end it will pay off! 10,000 steps is nothing to sneeze at, its GREAT!!
Spark on!!
Maybe choose a nicer place to walk next time, like a park, with soft earth trails, as its easier on the joints then walking on pavement! I know I can go a lot farther with a lot less pain on earth or grass trails then cement!!

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MYSTERY4EVER 7/12/2011 11:05PM

    Way to go! You got the Spark today! You are back on track. Keep up the good work.

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TRENTDREAMER 7/12/2011 10:10PM

    :D good job sticking with it.

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JAKEANDNELLIE 7/12/2011 10:03PM

    emoticonI am so proud of you!
What an inspiring blog!

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Today Was a Better Day

Monday, July 11, 2011

If I have one more snack, depending on what it is, I will end the day within range in just about everything. Currently a smidge low in calories and fat with room to play in others...Hmmm.

I got in an hour's worth of walking today, though not all at once. My heel is sore, but not very, so I am happy about that!

Yesterday, I dropped a ton of $ at GNC getting some supplements that may help me deal with the sudden appearance of menopause. I know it's not supposed to be sudden, but, in my case, it really has been. Today was the first full day with some of those supplements and it was a much better day. Minimal flash. Concentration still a problem. But energy was better. I was less depressed and I felt more optimistic.

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LIBBYFITZ 7/12/2011 2:30PM

    Sorry to hear about the hot flashes. There are other things that can cause hot flashes. So make sure you get checked out . emoticon

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_LINDA 7/12/2011 12:09AM

    I certainly hope you do get some benefit out of them. Good for you keeping in calorie range and getting some exercise in! A higher dose of Vit C might help perk you up mentally, its supposed to help counter stress.. My Dr. recommended it during my final exams..
I hope you feel better soon..
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Don't Ask What's Next!

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Last week, I started overeating carbs in response to an emotional stress event. I knew what I was doing, but I also knew I could not face another handful of carrots! The stress is in relationship and money, so they are stressors that will not go away nor be solved easily.

On top of that, I had my first hot flash on July 4th. I have been having night sweats for a few weeks, but did not really believe that's what was happening until the flashes started. I have been diong a lot of reading and, surprise, my brain fog is also a symptom. The brain fog coupled with the energy drain is the scariest part of all this. I am terrified that the drop off could result in a loss of employment.

I cannot get in to see my doc until middle of August, so I think I will go to urgent care and wait and wait and wait. It will be worth it just to be seen. I will, of course, explain that I know it's not an emergency, but that I can't get in through normal channels. I will also see if I can get my tendon looked at. I did some reading on that and know it's possible that there are some tears. That might explain why the usual RICE is not working...

I am frustrated at the weight gain and the lack of weight loss. Knowing that there are reasons for it, including my bingeing and lack of real exercise, does not ease the feeling.

I bought some nutrition supplements after doing some reading. We'll see if that helps...

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CARRAND 7/11/2011 9:41PM

    I was lucky enough to have very few hot flashes and no night sweats at all. I hope things get better for you soon.

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WONDEROONA 7/11/2011 5:34PM

    Woman, you sound like me. You are getting down on yourself and you always yell (lovingly, of course) at me when I do that. So, it's my turn. Look at things from a different perspective. Look for the sunshine in the rain and you may find a rainbow. I hope things get better for you.

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MICHCLEARY 7/11/2011 9:30AM

    Sorry you are having some issues. I hope you get seen and get some good information. My best friend is going through the hot flashes thing. She keeps a fan in her office to help. She has been able to lose weight through that whole process but I know she has had a few carb binges as well.

Can you exercise in a pool and get the weight off you knee? That would allow some movement without the pressure. Maintaining your diet is key right now. I've been in recovery for 8 weeks now post shoulder surgery and have been able to maintain all but 3 lbs weight loss and I couldn't exercise much. All i could do was walk and most of that wasn't very fast.

Do what you can and don't beat yourself up over the rest. Sometimes we are at our best, and other times we are at a weak point but through it all we must continue on so that we can reach our goal.

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_LINDA 7/11/2011 2:19AM

    So sorry your nagging injury won't go away :(( It is time to seek professional help. I hope the supplements you have purchased do something for you, but don't hold your breath. Nothing beats having proper nutrition and eating the right foods. If you keep eating the same veggies and fruits over and over of course you are going to get good and sick of them. What you really need to do is branch out and try new things. You can be sure Spark Recipes has a recipe for just about every veggie out of there helping to make new things taste way better. I used to eat carrots by the train load too. But now I can eat diakon for a little spice in my life, but not rude like a radish, and jicama, green beans and yellow wax beans when in season. Parsnips are my new favorite root vegetable, oh so sweet and have such a nice smell when you are cutting them up to cook! My Mom can't get over the things I am eating now compared to my old standards broccoli, carrots and cauliflower and nothing else lol.
One thing you must cut out of your diet is all caffeine and sweets, as those are huge hot flash triggers. Lesson my Mom learned the hard way although she is unable to give up her coffee, but just has two cups a day in the morning.
I wish you luck getting medical help promptly,
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