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SPY 2, Day 118: Syttende Mai!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Today is May 17 - Syttende Mai - Constitution Day in Norway. If Dad were alive, he would have worn his USA-Norway flags pin today.

I ate within range until evening. My tendonitis is better today but still very iffy, so I did not dare do a whole lot.

This morning was awful, work is overwhelming, but this evening, I am calm and centered.

  
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CMRAND54 5/18/2011 8:10PM

    Keep that calm and centered feeling! It's worth a lot.

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_LINDA 5/18/2011 2:38PM

    So glad you are able to stay calm in the evening in spite of a stressful work day..
Yes, you are right to be cautious with the tendonitis. You could, however, do some upper body strength training, using soup cans if you don't have dumbbells, just a thought..
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Saw a lot of the Norweigen flag when all those great skiers and speed skaters were winning all the medals at the Olympics!
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JAKEANDNELLIE 5/18/2011 12:18PM

    Like I always say ~ Stay focused on your goals, determined to reach them, and positive that you will!
I'm glad that you had a calmer evening after what seemed to be an overwhelming and stressing day. Be sure to take some "me time" in the midst of days like that - even if it's only closing your eyes and taking 10 deep breaths.
Stay positive!
Sheila

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LIBBYFITZ 5/18/2011 5:38AM

    emoticonGlad to see you are having a calm evening. Sleep well my friend. emoticon

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SY 2, Day 117: Balance

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

I had a flare-up of my tendonitis, but it is not quite as bad as before. I think it's time to retire the shoes I was wearing. Instead of Kettlebells, I pulled out my balance ball for my first-ever mini workout on that. I have been doing small balance exercises over the last year and I can tell that they are helping. I have a long, long, long way to go, but it's wonderful getting that instant feedback! I hope to get back to my KBs tomorrow! I love the fact that they really challenge me (yes, I know I am not even up to beginner level, but I will get there) and I love the fact that the muscle soreness is gone by the next day. That is a new feeling for me!

I ate within range in most respects and it feels good to be back on track.

I limped (walked would be too strong) for over 9K steps today.

It felt good to put "I'm making progress" on my huddles today!

  
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CMRAND54 5/17/2011 8:36PM

    Congratulations on making progress. It's a good feeling.

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WONDEROONA 5/17/2011 3:16PM

    You showed good thinking when you changed up your routine to accommodate your tendonitis. I hope you feel better soon. emoticon

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_LINDA 5/17/2011 1:19AM

    It felt good seeing you are back on track! So sorry about the tendonitis, its so frustrating when it keeps coming back. Being on a balance ball is a good workout! I actually feel more comfortable when I sit on that then I do sitting on a chair. I actually feel less pain in my hip and back. Its a bonus to get some passive exercise, but my leg muscles sure are feeling it. They really have to work when I am so tired my upper body doesn't suck it in like its supposed to and I almost fall off the ball lol.
Keep up the great work!!
Hugs,
Linda

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LIBBYFITZ 5/17/2011 12:52AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonHope the tendonitis gets better soon.

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EMMAINTERESTING 5/17/2011 12:43AM

    Whoo hoo on making progress! Sounds like you found that ideal method that challenges but doesn't hurt. Keep going! I love anything with "balance" in the title!

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SY 2, Day 116: Taking Charge Over Carbs and the Couch!

Sunday, May 15, 2011

One of my SparkFriends had a statement on her home page: No longer foodís b***ch. I winced at the implied word, but I thought I understood the sentiment. Now I know I do. For the past month, I have been inconsistent with exercise and have been eating without caring about the consequences. That changes today. I am taking charge and not going to fall prey to the siren call of the carbs or the seduction of the couch!

A few weeks ago, I bought the KettleWorx DVD set on eBay for less than 50% of the retail price. This morning I loaded up the intro DVD. I immediately got some new warm up exercises! The workouts are 20 minutes each, but it will be a while before I can do that much. I did about 5 minutes this morning and really feel it! It was a great combo of strength training and cardio. I feel great! I am a little sore, but I have that new-to-me exhilarating feeling that this is something I can do!

Itís supposed to be a six-week body makeover, but I have no illusions that I am going to get from point A to point Z in that short period of time. It may take 12, it may take 18, it may take 52. I donít care. I will, however, pull out the tape measure (Iíve already stepped on the scale) and track that just so I know my starting point. I will check again in six weeks just for fun! I am not going to rely on the scale or tape measure numbers to define success. Success will be measured by how my clothes feel, the increased strength, fluidity of movement and overall general sense of well-being.

A special shout out to my Spark Family (you know who you are). Your encouragement and your own stories have kept me from writing myself off. JAKEANDNELLIE has rediscovered her Spark, MICHCLEARYís blogs brim with optimism, CHAOTIC-KITTY seems to be doing some of the same things Iíve been doing, but she is still blazing the trail ahead. TEENIE BIKINI challenges me to think about my entire relationship with food, my body, exercise and how those scripts need to be rewritten. My childhood was decades ago and it is past time to break free of those learned bad attitudes. There are many others who have consistently checked in on me and kept me at least nominally plugged in even while I was dragging my heels and (not) moving with an ďI donít wannaĒ attitude.

I started with the abbreviated workout this morning. Now itís on to a carefully thought out first meal followed by some water. Then, on to the chores of the day and preparation for the week. The end of the day will see a day of measured and recorded wise food choices, full water and more exercise.

Thank you, Spark Friends!
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_LINDA 5/17/2011 1:23AM

    You have a healthy attitude about your expected progress. When you have physical limitations and set backs, you know you can't get it done as quickly as the normal people can. Your goals are for you only, tailor made and quite achievable!! Looking forward to watching your progress. The new Nutrition Tracker sure makes it a snap to track all your food and measurements quickly, I just love it!!

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MYRTLEBEACHWINS 5/16/2011 6:58PM

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TEENY_BIKINI 5/16/2011 4:29PM

    You go girl!

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WONDEROONA 5/15/2011 2:36PM

    You have been helping me, too. I did 3 miles with my Leslie Sansone's DVD today. I am so excited and pumped. I have made good food choices until I decided to celebrate with a whiskey sour. But, my wife and I made some killer egg salad that is low fat, high protein and tastes great so I can afford the few extra calories. I'm not real happy with myself for doing that, but I'm not beating myself up about it either. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 5/15/2011 1:51PM

  You are SO awesome! Love this blog. Love your attitude. You CAN AND WILL do it girl. :)

Congrats on getting off your couch and doing some warmups. Amazing. :) I got off my couch earlier this morning & did my hour on the "just dance 2" for the wii. :) Yay. We ROCK. :)

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CMRAND54 5/15/2011 1:36PM

    I know you can do it! Focus on one small step at a time. You've found an exercise you like so that's a good place to start. I try to focus on eating at least two fruits or veggies at every meal, getting enough fiber and avoiding bad fats. That, plus weight lifting and yoga seem to working for me.

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MAWRTIAN 5/15/2011 1:34PM

    Wow! Keep up the great work! I still struggle with staying motivate but spark friends help so much. Have a great week!!

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SPY 2; Day 110: Trophy, Wallflower and Floundering

Monday, May 09, 2011

At the beginning of the month, I got a first - a trophy from SP for trivia! Sometimes, I would see a question I'd never seen before or could not remember the answer for and would back out and return later to see a different question. I still managed to click the wrong answer a few times when I knew the right one...Karma, I suppose...LOL

I have not been consistently tracking my food or exercising. I have far less interest in my journey than I did before. This starts a negative spiral - I get angry at me, I hate my situation and the spiral continues.

There are many areas in my life that I need to change. Yes, I know. Start small etc. The pool is open where I live, I have a new suit, I should be swimming! I should also be using my Kettlebell, getting on the elliptical, etc.

Today, I ran into a coworker of mine who was talking to a retired former coworker. The retired person barely acknowledged me and was effusive in her praise to Linda for her weight loss. I felt completely invisible. It was awkward.

I felt invisible and unappreciated last week. I went to the charter party for the Toastmaster club I have been mentoring and was the only mentor who came. With the District Governor on hand, there was no acknowledgement of my time and energy on behalf of this club. If the other mentors had been there, there would have been. Most of the members are women and these two mentors are male, so they get tons of attention. No, I am not imagining it.

A couple of weeks ago, I represented the Legal Department at the Bring Your Child to Work Day event and felt completely unable to reach the children. Granted, legal is not as exciting as solar power, robots and electric vehicles, but....

I feel very flawed. I feel huge. I feel powerless. I am scared and feel paralyzed by fear.
To top it all off, a flare-up of tendonitis on the Achilles tendon that is so sensitive...

  
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CMRAND54 5/10/2011 8:53PM

    Try to get back to tracking your food and exercise, and aim for at least 10 minutes of exercise a day. You know how to do this.

I'm sorry you felt overlooked. You're such a sweet person, you deserve better. Try not to take it to heart.

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CHAOTIC-KITTY 5/10/2011 11:51AM

  Oh, I know how that 'wallflower' feeling is. :( I totally agree with _LINDA on this one girlie... You need to concentrate on what is best for you... focus. Take it day by day. And, I too agree .. that YOU CAN DO THIS. And you will succeed. You are a fighter... and you are such a wonderful inspirational woman. You CAN do it. :)

Hope you are having a better day today..

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LIBBYFITZ 5/10/2011 12:22AM

    I agree with Linda. You are the important one and when you accept that you are others will think so too. emoticon

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ULEWIJ 5/9/2011 11:40PM

    I'm so sorry you've been having a rough time. As I don't know much about your personal life, what I do know is this...You are a very active member of our spark family here, and that means you are aware and making mindful choices about your health and the importance it plays in your life. You post and reach out to others, and you offer support. So if nothing else...know you are connecting to all of us out here, that your input/feedback/participation is valued!

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_LINDA 5/9/2011 11:33PM

    I am so sorry you are having this horrible time Mali :( I so understand this feeling of being ignored and in the back ground. I have always been the wallflower that no one had any interest in. You do understand the lack of attention in that toastmasters, of course, the women will fawn over the men, yuck. It has nothing to do with your skill or abilities.
What you must focus on is you. And nothing but. Not on what the other people are doing and thinking. You are what is important here. You have to remind yourself this journey is all about and ONLY about you. You think far too much of other people and their opinions. Opinions are like A$$holes, everyone has one.
Lets get back to what is important here, making you healthy.
Go back to basics. Find 10 minutes every day of a fitness activity. It doesn't matter what, just do it. First thing in the morning before you have time to think and back slide about it. You can do it. Its not that long of a time and will be over before you know it.
You can do this Mali, for your own sake!
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SP 2; Day 101: Mixed Feelings

Monday, May 02, 2011

This morning, Pope John Paul II was beatified. This evening, President Obama announced that Osama bin Laden was killed by US forces. And today is Law Day, a day that attorneys and others observe. This year, the focus was around the legacy of President John Adams.

I am not Catholic, I am not even particularly religious, though I am spiritual. The last few times I have been in a church were for funerals. But I admired this Pope very much!

The night that the "shock and awe" campaign began was within 24 hours of my birthday and it was the last birthday I celebrated with my dad. He was dozing on the couch in an aftermath of a chemo treatment. I did not know then that he would be dead in less than a year. I watched the campaign unfolding on TV hardly able to breathe, just willing peace.

Tonight, as I watch the crowds celebrating in Times Square and Lafayette Park, my heart is choked with tears. Tears for the thousands of lives lost in the nearly ten years since 09/11/2001, for those who lost loved ones on that dark day, tears of gratitude that no US service personnel were killed in today's action in Pakistan. I cannot celebrate at any man's death, but...Were it not for this man, I would not need to some day pay a visit to a particular site at Arlington Cemetary. Rest in Peace, Frankie Toner IV! My heart hurts for your family anew.

I should have gone to bed hours ago, but I'm not sure I can sleep!

  
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RJFERRARO315 5/5/2011 11:34PM

    So true. I didn't celebrate either, but I'm glad that maybe the US can focus on something more positive.

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CMRAND54 5/2/2011 1:14PM

    I think the world is better off without bin Laden. I don't grieve for him, but for all the innocents he helped to kill. I'm thinking G W Bush could have killed him years ago if he hadn't taken the side trip into Iraq, but we'll never know.

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_LINDA 5/2/2011 12:09PM

    They have been chasing this man for so many years with so many failures and false alarms, I wonder if they can be truly sure they have killed this 'ghost'. Its no cause for celebration, true, there is still too much of this evil in the name of religion going on. How anyone can kill innocents in the name of a supposedly merciful God, I have no idea how they can justify it in their own minds. Almost every day brave soldiers trying to hold back the tide give up their lives. Its a sadness and madness that I wonder if it will ever come to an end?? There will be no celebrating here. Another mad prophet will quickly take his place, there seems to be an endless supply of them.
So sorry your birthday is marked by such a tragic event..
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PERKINSSISTERS 5/2/2011 3:07AM

  My 12 year old daughter informed me tonight of Osama bin Laden's death. And like you, I cannot celebrate a person's death. I do not feel any safer now that he's dead and maybe somewhat more less safe because of the after math. My heart goes out to the many people and their families, friends that lost their lives and or loved ones on 9/11. I pray for peace.

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