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Emotional Roller Coaster

Sunday, March 07, 2010

Saturday, my favorite boss found me on Facebook. The last time I saw him was late summer 1986, but he had a huge impact on my life. I was floored to be reconnected with him!

In the midst of that euphoria, I found out that my "adopted mom" is in the hospital having suffered a light stroke. She's in Missouri and I'm in California. Her daughters are with her. I am praying for her recovery and that I don't have to buy something black and an airline ticket.

The scale surprised me this morning. Down 2/10ths. At this rate, my pledge of 30 pounds by the end of June is a real challenge! I am just a tad discouraged. But, what this tells me is that I cannot slack off on measuring (eyeballing won't do) and I'm going to have to exercise through the pain. The water has not been a problem, which is a bit of a surprise. Along with the micro weight loss, I lost inches in some places, gained girth in other spots, so it was a strange accounting. The net difference is just a hair under 2 inches lost.

I broke down and bought a new pedometer as an early birthday present. It seems too sensitive, so I don't trust the step count. The day was slightly overcast, but it was a great day for the Baylands walk. We walked a different path and I was unable to get a lot of speed up because of the terrain. What I did notice was that, if I were not losing weight and exercising, I would have fallen several times. My balance is improving. Trying to keep my balance on that trail gave me plenty of a work out! It's kind of hard to explain, but I felt all of the muscles working to keep me upright, my heart rate was up and it felt like a good workout...I look forward to looking back at this blog soon and laughing at thinking that this is a good workout. To do that, I need to move my exercise bar a long way down the road. Today's walk was over a mile.

Tomorrow at work, I'll have the stairs and hills and the campus at school tomorrow night. I should be able to get lots of walking in! I can't imagine that I am looking forward to that! ME! Thanks, SparkPeople! You're helping me change my life!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 3/7/2010 11:02PM

    One day you WILL be able to walk that trail with ease and know that you've come a long way! I am sorry to hear about your loved one being ill, I hope all is well.
You may have only had a micro weight loss, but is sounds like you are really doing well with obstacles and making the exercise a permanent part of your lifestyle! Congratulations! It might not always look huge on the scale, but the difference in our lives is enormous! emoticon

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    Walking is one of my major ways to relieve stress and anxiety - and I've been walking a lot lately!
Although you were not walking at a fast pace, an uneven path gives you a workout with it's ups and downs. I walked at least 1.5 miles inside almost every day this winter but have walked outside this week. My neighborhood is hilly - not great big, but enough to really make a difference. You use different muscles going up hill than you use going downhill. I do okay going up, coming down kills my thighs!
I don't aim for speed when I walk but just try to keep an even pace.
Keep up the good work.

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RE2BAH 3/7/2010 8:57PM

    Congratulations on finding such a neat trail and remember hills and stairs on campus fondly!

Keep working out, it will help keep the emotional roller coaster manageable. You can't do much but feel bad when you're a distance from your loved ones, plane tickets take a chunk out of anybody's budget, but being in college makes it usually more of a challenge.

My prayers are with you!

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Am I Blocking My Own Progress?

Saturday, March 06, 2010

Usually I post my blog midday or in the evening. It's morning and all I've had so far is the required first cup of coffee (a Rwandan bean). The past few weeks, I have walked more, I've used the stairs and, on occasion, flirted with free weights and exercises such as pushups and bridges. The only thing, besides walking, that I am doing consistently are the hip flexors.

But, I've missed a few days here and there or done less than I wanted or intended to do. I've become a bit discouraged by the results of my walks. It's taking longer to burn the same calories and longer to get my heart rate up. I feel like a slug!

I find myself mentally slipping into my old attitude about exercise, which may be why I have not committed to a program of strength training and have not started my running program either. It's not quite guilt, but something akin to that. The fact that I have started neither despite intention weighs on me. I feel anchored somehow and know I need to break free from whatever is holding me back.

Part of it is money, but that's an excuse. I don't have the money for running shoes and the shoes I have are completely inappropriate. I want, I want, I want - I hate wanting things this much! I want some exercise dvds (pilates, yoga, basic stuff), I want...I am just tired of that whine in my head!

Part of it is the unknown. Moving my body is not easy, not fun and those strength training exercises are boring. Will it get better over time? Do I have the patience to stick with it long enough to see a difference? What if I can't run? What if, as with walking, I hurt myself and can't do anything for a day or so? What if I fail AGAIN? Why am I letting this old litany hang over me now?

Everything I'm reading about women, age and obesity should be enough inspiration for me to get off the couch and out the door! Hence, my decision to blog this morning! Now, time for breakfast, shower and out the door for my wetlands walk!

Sparkle Saturday, Everyone!

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IXCHEL23 3/6/2010 1:37PM

    Have you tried looking at what your library carries? You can get from your library or through their inter-library loan system exercise dvds that are free. I've done it before and it's great if your library already has a good selection. You can search in the library's computer catalog by entering a name, etc and then request a hold on it if it's at another branch. My library will then send me an e-mail (they call you also) when it's at my branch ready to be picked up.

I think you have to experiment and try different exercise workouts to see which one you like the most. Also, so that you don't get bored with the same ones. Have you tried Leslie Sansone workouts, some have you hold dumbbells so you're getting ST in it too.

Also, when walking you can do intervals of faster walking with a lower speed alternating to get your heart rate up.

Remember, baby steps you will learn more and more about losing weight and what works for you, the most important thing is that you never give up!
Enjoy that walk and sparkle!


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I Want to Be Juneau This Weekend

Friday, March 05, 2010

Juneau is my 3 year old Maine Coon cat. I sometimes joke that, if I believed in reincarnation, I would want to come back as her - loved, pampered, never wanting for warmth, play, shelter and great health. I also would not mind getting some of her sleep! If I stopped the blog right there, that would just about sum up my couch potato life. But I am a member of the SparkPeople community
and it cannot end there. Juneau is also very athletic. She loves to run up and down the hall chasing a mouse on a string or the laser light! She takes running leaps and floats to her landing. She's loving, she loves attention and is very snuggly. I need to emulate her athleticism, find that playful fun that Juneau has. And I need to reach out to family and friends, reconnect and reignite that spark of love. I tend to shut down and withdraw when life is not smooth and I have been hibernating in the Silicon Valley for far too long. Time for me to act as if until it is real! Happy Cat!

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    Cats have the best lives! Good inspiration!

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NONIE_C 3/6/2010 1:25AM

    I hear you!!!! I also need to spend more time taking care of myself in those ways: more sleep AND more activity. More time reaching out, instead of withdrawing when things are rough. Great goal, and great inspiration. Go after it!!! Get it!!!

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Pedometer, Running and Motivation

Thursday, March 04, 2010

I put on my gift pedometer first thing this morning and later discovered that it was not accurately counting my steps. It flipped off 4 times, and I retrieved it the first three. When I discovered it was gone, I retraced my steps (which were many) and never found it.....................I met with a couple of friends over lunch, missing my lunchtime walk in the process, so we could talk about running. The two friends did not know each other and, voila, it sounds as if all 3 of us may be doing a marathon next year! But I did not start running yet. I was so tired by the end of the day, I was dangerously tired on the way home from work. Note to self: don't do that again! I polished off the water early in the day and found myself considering munching in the afternoon for some energy to keep awake...I need to make some changes because this cannot continue. My motivation with respect to the pedometer is quite tempered. At the moment, and it's probably the fatique, I am tired of exercising, of thinking about losing weight, of measuring food and choosing wisely.

HOWEVER, that does not give me license to throw in the towel. I am going to ignore those feelings and keep plugging on. That's a new approach! Yawning...

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LINOVER 3/4/2010 9:48PM

    I had the same problem(losing it) with my first pedometer. The second one I attached a piece of elastic to the clip and pinned it to my slacks. I never lost another one. Several of my friends did the same.

Enjoy your rest and just start again tomorrow!

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PONDERTHIS 3/4/2010 9:34PM

    I can understand working hard at soemthing and feeling at the edge of your resources. The good thing is that the edge keeps expanding, so you can go farther and do more as time goes by. You are doing great! A rest is a good idea. You might just feel recharged afterward.

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GWENFITNESS1ST 3/4/2010 9:22PM

    Hey hang in there. You will make it. Maybe you needed a day of rest! After awhile some of it becomes so natural that you forgot when you started to do it. Keep up the good work!

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Pedometer Wealth

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

The company employee newsletter carried my want ad on Monday asking for a pedometer. A coworker said she had one on Monday. Tuesday, another coworker called me and asked if I still needed one and I told her that the other friend had not found hers. She came in today with THREE pedometers. Two are the older style ones, one of which is a WW pedometer. The third is another WW pedometer. I clipped one on this monring, not 100% sure I had it set right, but I wore it all day and had fun watching the numbers climb! Two other coworkers asked me today if I still needed a pedometer. One had one to give and the other offered to pick up a $30 one for me if I gave her the $. (She was unclear on the "don't have $" concept). Then I came home, pulled out the tape measure and got it properly set. I am all set to have a more accurate count tomorrow!

I had lunch with a friend at the cafe next door to work. I had a great salad with almost no hidden calories (sesame soy dressing). But, before we sat down, without thinking, I ate a sample piece of dark chocolate with coconut. I was amazed that it was so easy to step back into mindless eating that easily! But I guesstimated the calories, fat ,etc. and logged it all in. Prior to SparkPeople, I would have talked myself into some reason NOT to be honest on the food log.

I drank the water early in the day, but was off kilter in veggies and fruit. Tomorrow is a new day and it will be more on track. Today was not a bad day and I don't feel guilty for the mindless nibble, but I do take today as another example that I have not yet arrived. I cannot afford to skip vigilance with respect to what I put in my mouth! That does not mean I am undisciplined or bad or anything else negative, it means that I need the structure that SparkPeople provides while I learn how to manage this every day, every meal, every morsel.

The other thing I need to do is choose some short term goals to keep me moving forward. The 30 pound goal for the food bank is too far to keep me going full steam ahead. I also need to recalibrate my attitude about exercise. My March goal of a ten percent increase has been dampened by the frustration and apin and inability to execute...........

People are seeing me walk at work, seeing me use my food scale, seeing me use the stairs. I'm not doing this for the attention, but, if I inspire someone to change their life, I become even more blessed and inspired!

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JAKEANDNELLIE 3/3/2010 11:54PM

    You are making so much progress in so many areas! You should be very pleased with yourself and proud of how well you are doing.
Good luck getting your steps each day.

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PONDERTHIS 3/3/2010 11:02PM

    Wow, what great focus and determination. Good work. I'm glad for your abundance of pedometers. Will you use them simultaneously? :)

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DARK-WING 3/3/2010 10:53PM

    We are doing a walking challenge at work & I've been wearing my pedometer. Really does motivate me to move more.

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