Monday, February 21, 2011
The title of this blog was my attitude for the day. I chose this attitude today.
Today was not a day off for me. The company where I work takes few days off during the year, but we get the week between Christmas and New Years without that week counting against vacation time. Speaking of vacation time, I learned that, now that I have 10 years at the company, I get four weeks vacation a year. Now, if only I could afford to go somewhere! LOL
I left home without my pedometer and cellphone this morning. I really felt incomplete without my motivational step counter. I had to guess on my stats for the day.
I posted the title as my huddle on some teams today. It may not have made sense to anyone but me, but it kept me thinking of ways to exercise throughout the day.
This evening, driving home, I tried to think of somewhere to get dinner. BF had worked on our leaky roof all day, I did not want to cook, so....He did not want much, so that limited my choices. I decided on Subways. I thought about driving and parking closer (it was cold, I had worked late and I just wanted to get home). But, as I waited for the light to change, I remembered my huddles and decided to drive straight and park on the far side of the shopping center. I walked from there to the other side of the center, got the sandwiches and walked back. By then, the sun had set and it was colder, but I was glad I lived my huddle statement!
Fitness also included four, yes, 4 minutes on the elliptical! This was at the mini gym we have at work. A young man I work with in our Finance department was weightlifting, a lady I've seen around but don't know was on the treadmill. I climbed up on the elliptical and started going. Instead of looking at the numbers (especially the time), I looked out the window and the time went faster. At about 3:30, I thought I might fall backwards off the elliptical but I dug in and kept going. A few seconds after 4 minutes, I stepped off. I might have been able to go longer, but I was not comfortable with almost feeling faint 30 seconds earlier.
As I walked back to my car, my legs did not feel as rubbery. I felt good, but not wobbly. What a great feeling!
Balance has two meanings for me. Physical balance is always elusive. That's why I do the hip flexors in the elevator. I think elliptical and kettlebell work helps with that. But it will be a long time before I get from whatever negative number is mine to zero. Today was going to be about nutritional balance and life balance. I was not successful in either realm, but I did get a lot of work done, just not much on my to do list. That is discouraging.
Even though...........it was a good day!
I did not post a blog the last two nights because I did not have much to say. Yes, I did lose weight this week "but" I discounted that because this is after a gain that wiped out a month's loss. Most of that loss was the cold, but I did not expect all of it to come back. I should be happy to have lost more than a pound this week, but I have been discounting the loss. Let's see. What would I say if one of my Sparkfriends wrote that in her blog? Exactly.
My balance seems better, my core seems stronger, though I have done so little and have so far to go. I revel in the novelty of the feeling! I am going to own that loss!
And keep moving forward!
Friday, February 18, 2011
There's not a lot to say tonight. I am within range on most food metrics, over in sodium and under in calcium and fat. It's rare that I am in balance. Not much exercise today. My joints ache with the damp rain.
Work is incredibly busy. I had the kind of day when I could not get things done on my to-do list and, the more work I did, the more I needed to do. I will be going in to work tomorrow (another rainy day) and we will do our shopping and other errands. I wonder if cutbacks at other companies have other people feeling this overwhelmed all the time. Or is it just me?
I know I have just started with my kettlebell workouts so it's probably just coincidence, but I felt more centered in my core today as I walked throughout the day, I felt as if my clothes were more roomy in different ways.
Tomorrow is weigh in and we shall see. I have no idea what to expect.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
This weekend, I learned that I had gained all the weight I lost last month and am back to my end of the year weight. I'm not happy about it, but I am also not berating myself (much) and I am not punishing me. I am less concerned about what the number on the scale is than the numbers on my pedometer (time, steps) and the number of exercises I do with my kettlebells. Still a beginner with those, but I am still loving using the kettlebell!
This weekend, I am going to some used book stores to see what I can find about kettlebells. BF used to use them a long time ago, but he had forgotten about them until I came home with my little 5 lb KB and waxed enthusiastic about it. Then I came home with the 10 lb KB and the DVD. He watched the DVD while I was at work and figured out some exercises I can do and coached me on them last night and tonight. Different ones, so I was using different muscles. I still can't do much, but I love the feeling. I am sore when I finish but I won't be tomorrow, unlike when I was using regular weights. He says because these are heavier weights, I am not tearing down the muscle as much every time and so I have a shorter recovery time. Later, we'll add more reps as I get stronger.
A nice surprise is that, coincidence or consequence, my crushing fatigue seems to have gone by the wayside! If I need to stick with the KBs in order to ditch the fatique permanently, that is ok with me! Yee haw! Me being excited to get home and grab my pink 5 lb KB BEFORE I even start Sparking is astonishing! Choosing to exercise, choosing to do that first and actually anticipating doing it is an amazing change.
The number on the scale is not unimportant, but I am starting to come to the thinking that I am going to put that on a back burner and focus on the lifestyle changes. Of course, I could change my mind tomorrow! But I am not locked in to what it says, nor whether I feel fatter or thinner than I did last week. Yes, I dearly want to be thin and tomorrow would be great, but I also know that more than that smaller size, I want the stronger muscles, the denser bone, the reduced pain, the stamina and the better quality of life.
I know I need to do more - more cardio, more strength training, more work on balance and more consistency in my food balance (too low in calcium and fiber today, too high in sodium). I am growing more confident in food choices. I used to eat the same thing often because I knew what they did in my tracker. Changing a meal would reall throw me. I am making progress in that arena.
I wonder if they make a Wii Fit thing for Kettlebells?!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Thanks to all of you who commented on yesterday's blog. The way it works is that the employee is the last to see the review. By the time I saw it, my boss and his boss (my VP) had already finalized it. I start the process by writing my self-assessment based on the goals we established last year, but those are not really part of the review. When I turn in my self assessment, I also provide a list of people I've worked with through the year and my boss may or may not solicit feedback from them (I never know what they say unless they voluntarily share it with me.)
We had a good conversation and I did not get upset or become unprofessional. I let boss know I was unhappy with it, using the analogy that I felt as if were a child coming home with a bad report card. The good conversation did not change the review and it will be there next year. This was, sadly, the best conversation we've had...We both need to work on communicating with each other. It is so weird. We are both good communicators, but there is something that puts a barrier up.
Then I had lunch with my VP who just happens to be both my former direct boss and my current boss' direct boss. We went to the Fish Market - I have not been there in at least a decade. I had a wonderful salmon with steamed veggies and brown rice.
As I thought, the conversation was about my job application for the paralegal position. What I did not expect was how quickly that conversation got started and where it went. He told me he wants a paralegal who is very experienced in IP and can hit the ground running. I don't have that. In the same conversation, we talked about my review in a rather indirect way. Then he admitted something that astounded me. He said his idea of moving me into government contracts has to go down as a great idea that did not pan out.
Don't get me wrong. I like and respect my boss a lot, but that's as far as it goes. The rest of my team seems to be better disciples than I am.
Then - the details still have to be worked out, but my VP is going to create a new position for me. This is not a promotion but is another lateral move. I will still support my current boss in government contracts part of the time, support the yet-to-be-hired paralegal and support one of the top attorneys. This attorney has been with the company a while and I have worked with him before. He is a great teacher, a really likeable guy and someone with whom I have a great rapport.
Yesterday evening, I stopped to look for a used DVD about kettlebells. The store had lots of DVDs but not one about kettlebells. I looked online and found there is a huge price range. Wal-Mart advertised some, so I stopped there on the way home this evening. I parked at one end of the the shopping center and walked to the other side to Wal-Mart. I hardly ever shop there and was surprised to see they had remodeled the store. It's a lot nicer inside. I did not mind walking throughout the store trying to find the fitness section. Fittingly, it was in one of the farthest corners from the entrance. Again, stacks of DVDs, some pulled off the hanging rods and stacked up behind small exercise equipment. No standalone DVDs for kettlebells, but I did see some interesting other ones. Eventually, I found a kettlebell packaged with a DVD. The one I bought the other day is a 5-lb and this is a 10. I bought it and walked back to my car. That was a workout!
I came home and went for a short walk with BF and filled him in on the events of the day. That short walk put me over 10K steps for the day. The day is ending with me at the low end of most nutrition metrics. Oddly, not hungry. And, after not sleeping well last night, I am ready to sleep now!
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